@qxuxii I swear, 2019 was *chef's kiss* I loved it so so so much. I hate how sad and boring life has gotten now, the same old routine of waking up just to be on a computer or laptop for half the day to "learn." ugh, I'm real lonely at home too cuz I don't have many people to talk to other than my family cuz no one rlly texts me anymore; and I don't even go out, as in out to stores or public places very often either. I'll just go for my ortho or stay in the car if we decide to 'eat out' and get some food at the drive thru, or maybe go to Sam's or Costco and places to run errands if I get lucky. sighhh, it's so tiring to be so isolated sometimes, like yeah, I love being alone, but I feel being lonely for too long can get exhausting and overwhelming :/ I hate how I'm used to not meeting the sun or the artificial lights of other buildings for days :((
also, this whole new mandate of if you're fully vaccinated, you're not obligated to wear masks in public any longer? OH HELL NAH FAM, YOU ARE STILL WEARING ONE, I'M NOT GOING OUTSIDE THE FEW TIMES I DO IF YOU DON'T COVER YOUR FACE ಠಗಠ
ugh, anyways, ik I shouldn't be so paranoid of that, but instead of being happy life is slowly twirling towards to being how it should be, I'm getting scared cuz I hate change and think it's twirling itself a little too fast of a speed; like sis, clam down, you can pick up your mileage later