A lament from the writer:
Do people still use this site, are y'all still active? I know I show up like once a year at this point, haha. I still get messages about Hurt So Good and Cut to the Feeling and sometimes even Desecration. I am so glad people are still enjoying those stories--Hurt So Good was written at such a drastically different time in my life, so it's really wild to go back and read it now. I was a completely different person.
As for Cut to the Feeling and Desecration, these too were written in such incredibly different moments of my life. I really want to finish them, they deserve to not be deserted, but it is quite hard to put myself back in those shoes. I hope I can find the right mindset to revisit those one.
As for now, I am still writing. I've been writing a Kylo fic for a few weeks now with a new burst of energy. I just feel so bad to keep introducing new stories with the potential for them to also be abandoned. Life is just so all over the place nowadays that I find it really hard to make myself write. After my divorce, everything changed. When I was trapped in my unhappy marriage, I went to my job and escaped to my fantasy land of writing right after to give myself an ounce of happiness, even it was a created world. But it was my escape, and I needed to be there to keep my sanity. Nowadays, living single and supporting myself in a foreign country with a challenging job at a prestigious high school, it's hard to find time for that escape even if I need it. I don't need it the same way I did when I was married, but I still long for it.
I want to release the newest fic I have been working on, but I don't want to disappoint anyone. I miss the community I had here. Y'all kept a smile on my face in dark, dark times. And I wish for those smile in my new period of melancholia. There are many good days, but there are many really hard days. Lots of heartbreak and disappointment.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings, and I hope you are all well <3
