Issac (redacted)

I felt like a hopeless romantic, like I could never actually be with them, why would they ever love me? I'm.. annoying.. and loud, and I shut everyone out once they're too close.. I find problems where there aren't any problems just for the sole fact that I can't accept that someone actually loves me.. because why would they? They just want to fuck me in the end, right? to use me and throw me away... Right?... I was just protecting myself.. but I was so alone and I don't even know what to do.. I was a hopeless romantic that wanted nothing more than to be loved, but I didn't deserve to be loved.. I hated myself that much, and I don't think I can pull myself out of the spiral of thoughts because if I did then I would be even lonelier.. I'm such a fuck up... to get so attached so quickly, I would get attached to a fucking brick wall if it just gave me a headpat and told me I did good... I was desperate for praise, for love, that I looked towards everyone.. I grabbed so many partners to fill that void in my chest but I knew it wouldn't work.. even if I was desperate, I deep down knew I didn't deserve it... but I couldn't lose them because then I'm hurt and alone again... so I just make up stupid fucking things to make it seem like they're creepy or something... I read to far into things and I don't even listen to them when they try to explain, I just say they're lying or manipulative... so that they hate me when they leave... so it hurts less.. so I can tell myself it's not me it's them, but I knew it was me deep down... I just didn't know why I did this constantly... why I was alone so often... Why I was so fucking broken... I felt like I had to cry but no tears came.. why didn't the tears come?... God damnit why can't I just be normal and love myself for once?! Why can't I just accept when someone loves me...
          
          
          
          New story looking great guys 
          
          
          
          
          
          This totally isn't a vent 

New chapter of "Damnit..." Finally published. Finally got the motivation to write

I haven't updated a few of my stories in a long while, do you guys have any you'd like to see specifically? 
          
          ALSO please read my Issac Winchester story I worked hard on it

Ty for following me! <3 Idk how you found me but have a wonderful and a great day! ( I hope-)

Todoroki was wrong all along. Deku is not all Might secret love child. IT WAS MIRIO ALL ALONG!!!

Alright bitches give me ideas of what to write. Either for a new story, for chapters of existing story's, or just whatever else. ✨️

Is it 3 am? Yes. Am I going to bed soon? Maybe. Will I continue to think about the fact that Chishiya from Alice in Borderland (The live action version from Netflix cuz I haven't seen the anime or read the Manga yet) is the best boy and anyone who says otherwise is wrong? Of course.

Be my uncle please i think mine just doxxed me :) 

Can u be my uncle mines don't like me

Hope you have a nice day (virtual hug)