Hey hey. It should be a surprise to no one by now, but I've basically quit. I may write one final goodbye oneshot someday, or perhaps leave a comment or two if I ever find myself back on the platform. But I'm done.
I stopped watching the show long ago. And though I can't deny that I still love Jaya, that I've met so many nice people and that this show is the reason I started writing my original works, the bad has outweighed the good in the long run. It's not the easiest thing to admit, but during my time in the fandom/following the show I've had to go through so much harsh anxiety and constant stress. That came in many forms, from the show itself to me just being in a darker time in my life and relying all my comfort on this one thing or some bad experiences I've had with certain people in the fandom (which I'd rather not get into). It's hard to let go of something like this after so many years and accept that it maybe caused you more harm than good.
Nevertheless, thank you so so much to every friend, reader, and fellow writer I've chatted with over the years. I'm still incredibly grateful for everything. I still admire you, your Jaya and non-Jaya writing, and your company throughout these years.
I hope that if I ever find success in my original works, I'll be able to let go of some of the harmful experiences and look back on everything with a more bittersweet gaze. For now, I don't know what to think. I doubt I'm returning. I hoped it would end more positively, but it doesn't always go that way.
If anyone ever wants to message me or keep in touch my PMs will still be open and I'll probably check them every once in a while just in case.
Thank you for understanding.
