"Joan"...."Here, and I prefer John." John is a he NOT a she, how many more times would he have to say that? When Alex and John, two internet friends, met nothing could go wrong, right? Tw; self harm, rape, abuse, transphobia, homophobia, suicide, death throughout.

Doctor A.Hamilton, works at an insane asylum, he works with a lot of wonderful patients, some of them find him dreamy, others...well...aren't so nice, like Mr John Laurens, Alexander hasn't worked with him yet because he is consider as "dangerous" one day as Johns doctor, Dr. Hopkins, got stabbed by John, it was Alex's turn to take his place and work with John, what happens next? will John try to kill him to... or would it be different? read to find out..

John Laurens is a shy 15 year old, in the closet. His only wish of this school year, is to be more confident about himself. Make friends. Maybe even get a boyfriend. Alexander Hamilton, an 18 year old senior, popular, and has a girlfriend named Eliza. Little did anyone know, girls aren't his only preference. (I know that Laurens is the one that's 3 years older, but John sounds cute as a shy kid. I also know this is probably crappy, and ive changed some details, such as Lafayette being three years older than Laurens instead of three years younger, and ive made relations between characters that aren't real. But i love Hamilton and i ship Lams). Cover made by me. Art in the cover photo isn't mine. Credit to the artist. This is all pretty badly written so be warned. There's also a part two but it's on hiatus.

19-year-old John Laurens has been in college for four days before his roommate shows up. When John introduces himself, the boy doesn't say a word. So when Laurens asks for his name, he raises a hand and signs "Alexander Hamilton." This surprises Laurens just a bit, because this boy didn't look like the kind to remain silent. He's seen those people before, and the boy in front of him looks like he has a lot to say. But what's keeping him from speaking his mind?

*Updates EVERY Wednesday and Saturday* Meet John Laurens whose life was fine. Or at least, he thought it was. Then he met Alexander Hamilton, the man who works nonstop and doesn't know how to take a break. This is the story of their love. Okay so, yes it's a modern Lams fanfiction but I promise it won't be like the others

TW : depression, suicidal thoughts Alexander had, according to him, no more reason to live. He was tired, and his head kept telling him that he had no one, that if he disappeared, no one would care. And that was true. Alexander was alone, terribly alone. He was waiting for someone. More than anyone on this Earth, he needed a person by his side, because that was the only thing that would have allowed him to stay alive. Alexander couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't find any meaning in his life, and to continue fighting had become useless. And he had no one. Yeah, he just needed someone. And it was there, just as everything was falling apart around him, that he met him. John. The boy he was waiting for. The person he needed. --------------------------------------------------------- Okay, this story is not amazing, but I hope you'll enjoy it!

*this is currently being edited* I am horrible at descriptions so I'm just going to put an insert from it for now: Alexander Hamilton had never experienced snow. Never. Growing up in the Caribbean he'd never had the chance. Never until he'd moves to New York. Sure, he dreamed about seeing snow. But he never imagined that it was so cold. Yeah, it was pretty and all, but it was way too cold. The first year was the worst, but each year made Alexander dislike snow more and more. John was happy, though. Growing up in New York, John was used to the snow. Alexander on the other hand, he wasn't used to snow at all, as he grew up in the Caribbean. "Hey, Lex," John said, walking into his and Alexander's apartment. Alex looked up from his huddle of blankets on their couch. "No," he muttered. "What was that?" John asked, cheerfully. "No," Alex muttered again. "What?" "No. I'm not going outside." Alexander glared at John. "At least not until Spring."

When John Laurens dies in battle, and Alexander Hamilton is devastated. John had been promised he could see Phillip after the war was over, but that will never happen, at least alive. What will happen when John watches over Alexander and his family as a ghost? And what happens when John figures out Alex's eldest son can see him? ------- Guys, this'll probably suck. This is my first story and I have no idea how it'll go. I don't own the characters, art, or anything that's not the plot ---- Started March 7, 2021 Finished March 25, 2021 10,418 words

"Don't you ever forget about me, okay Laurens." "Got it, Hamilton." -- Lams highschool AU aHAHA thanks

Yeet. Jamilams is my ot3 fight me mkay??? anyways.. _______ Alexander moved to America, after his brother died, after the hurricane, after his mother died, and after his dad left him abandoned. He didn't know what to do until he raised enough money to go to America and start a new life. But with all bad things, good things arise. He meets his dorm mates Thomas and John, and boy oh boy, is he in for a surprise? Entered in the Wattys2019! So all new readers go and vote and comment your opinion on my story, and don't forget to share if you're not a lazy potato like me. :D