The world was full of trouble. Full of confusion and a catastrophic dilemma. One couldn't imagine at what destructive measure it would disintegrate into. While so many things were done to make the world a better place. At some point, it would later be revealed that the biggest problem was not a lack of educational facilities or a lack of health facilities. Believe it or not, Africa, also wasn't the world's biggest problem. The problem with the world today is sin. Sin brought about problems that would perpetuate into many more generations to come! It's almost unbelievable that someone would leave greener pastures to settle in a beat-down environment like Earth. One would wonder what this being could ever want. If life existed beyond the surfaces of our universe, why stay? If there was the possibility of walking with a glory that outshined the brightness of the sun, why hesitate? God cannot love us anymore than He loves our neighbor. His love tank is so vast that it accommodates everyone. Had He only sent Jesus Christ to the rich or the poor in African households, His love would then be conditioned to those that qualified. What makes His love so unique and strange is that He loves the broken and the sinners. He loves those of us that are unlikeable and unattractive. He persuaded His only son to die gruesomely to have all of mankind at His bosom. In the movies, opening doors and buying a bouquet of flowers is symbolic of love. In families, love is expressed in many different kind of forms. Even animals have ways in which they show affection. While all of that might stand out. It cannot be compared to the love of God. God can feel love, and He is love!

What happens when you are being controlled because of your father's sin? Read on. "Hello angel." She was forced to go on her knees. She cried out in pain. "I did what you told me, Antonio," Diane said, stifling a cry. Antonio faced Diane with a wicked smirk on his face. "Oh! Did you?" "I left him like you said I should, you have to leave him out of this and let my mum go," Diane screamed. "I can promise to leave him out of this but about your mum," he paused. "It's too late dear." "What do you mean?" Diane asked. "Your mum is dead pretty angel, you came too late," Antonio replied. Diane lost her mind for a second. "How dare you? After all I did?" She screamed. "You'll pay for this." Antonio burst into a wicked laugh. "What will you do angel?"

Hail Mary, Jesus, and Joseph. Compulsive disorders bestowed upon me from the dark pits of hell I suffered, crawled and gnashed, and have been given no freedom. Where were they when I needed them called upon? I was abandoned from the beginning since my conception was initiated by the people I call parents, and yet I was innocent and was found guilty by them and was treated as such until my own hands pulled me free and to nowhere I look I see, and yet I am blind, but I see. I am deaf, but I hear. The pages and names were drilled into my skull, and I was told to call on you, but where were you when your son was used as a sacrifice, spilling my blood on this earth's soil once again? We were taught to call you our father, but I was found guilty of something I never did I spilled my blood and cried for forgiveness as if I was the one on the cross, my body battered and bruised. And yet here I am calling on you once again as you're still trying to take something from me, something I hold dear to me this is mine, the only light in my life, and I will never submit to you, but I will call onto you for a peace treaty and I know you can hear me isn't that right God?. Amen.

Part 2 of "Doubts" It was that same feeling I felt deep inside me the day my grandparents left me. My stomach began to cringe. My throat was in knots. My breathing had gotten hard. My instincts were telling me something just wasn't right. I felt useless and alone... I had always knew pain my whole life but this was next level. That feeling of holding back and regret filled my veins with agony. I was lost in my thoughts. My heart felt colder and colder with every minute that passed by. Who am I ? Who am I really ? What is my purpose in this life that I lived? That I once knew ..... why did this bad luck fall upon my life? What did I do to deserve this ? I'm cursed. I have to be. I cried so much in that hospital bed that no tears seemed to want to fall anymore. I had no tears left in me to shed. When Akeem left this room, I knew it would be the last time that I would see him. My better half. My Ace. My love. My husband. My life. Gone. Forever. It wasn't confirmed but I knew it. I just knew it. Life fucked me hard. So why not throw it back.

[BWWM] I was only twelve years old when the world turned cold. The day my mom died in that car accident, I felt like someone had dumped a bucket of ice water over my heart. My dad, who had always been my hero, suddenly became a stranger, filled with rage and blame. He couldn't see that I was hurting, too; he only saw me as a reminder of his loss. The accusations cut deep. He said it was my fault for being there, for not doing something to save her. For being the reason she was in the car in the first place. In the years that followed, things only got worse. The abuse started gradually-a harsh word here, a shove there-but it escalated, leaving scars that I carried long after the physical pain faded. I was drowning in my own despair, struggling to keep my head above water while my father's anger raged like a storm around me. I only had a break from his anger when I started living with Aunt Dina-my mom's older sister. Well, that was because she found me nearly dead on my bed after I took a dozen pills. I was tired of living. I had hit rock bottom. The harsh whispers that followed me around and the stares at school. I pretended not to notice, like it didn't bother me. But it did. I was alone. Then came Athalia, a ray of sunshine cutting through my darkness. With her, I felt something I hadn't felt in years-happiness. She became my light through the darkness and my lifeline. ••••••••••• ● Warnings ⚠️ ~ Mention of suicide ~ Anxiety attacks ~ Rape attempt ~ Mention of self-harm ~ Depression

"I want you," his hands grip over my shoulders. His eyes gentle and longing, pulling at the strings of my heart. "Human or God, won't make me let go of you" I felt stuck. I am stuck but this was the wrong move, altogether. How could I go home now when he wants to keep me here with him? When he wants me "You don't understa--" "No! it's you who don't understand. I'll destroy a hundred worlds for you to stay by my side. don't you dare, doubt that" I never have - - Einith Roskel is looking for her her Mother. On the night of her Father's death anniversary, she woke up with a wrecked house and her Mother gone. She searches for her mother but it ended with her traveling to another dimension. Aestia is the land of the Gods, the land where the God's exist and they could care less for the selfish humans. Due to Einith's strange appearance, she is suddenly chosen as a sacrifice to the God's in order to appease the God of Moon and Symphony. Knowing her death, she didn't expect to wake up face to face with the cold God and trapped with a love triangle with the God of Pain and Pleasure. How on aestia would she get back to her own world?

The leaving. It was hard, tragic , painful, yet it had to be done, I needed to save my life. I didn't want to start again, this would be the story of finding myself, pulling myself back together, reuniting the happy go lucky youngster I had once been. The shock of leaving took more of a toll on me than I thought it would. I had asked two people to help me move out of the house I had shared with my partner for 8 years, we had been together 23 years in total. The move was done in total secrecy, my partner could never know in advance, it was a very scary time. I had moved various things out of the house and secured a rent on a property nearby. The house I picked was near the School the children went to, and my oldest lad was going to be near his best friend. My Mother told me of the property it was advertised on the web, we both went and had a look, even that was scary, I didn't want to be seen by anyone and became paranoid that I would be caught out. For many months I lived on a new kind of fear, the fear of someone finding out that I planned to leave my abusive partner, though of course no one knew my seemingly happy, funny, generous partner was abusive. Finding the house was one thing, getting the various companies to connect the house and exchanging the information of my current address so they could varify that I was, who I said I was almost drove me mad. The day came to leave, My Mother and a very dear Friend came round as early as possible, we packed as much as we could. This included taking the boys clothes, bedding, toys, stuff from the garden, my stuff. We had 3 cars the packing seem to take all day. By the end we had to get going to be able to unpack, leaving me time to pick up the boys from School and settle them in their new home. I couldn't do it at first,I started to cry then scream, to leave the world I had put so much of my life into, and now in a split second would be leaving was breaking my heart.

I was a stupid... thinking he loves me... never he did and never he will do it... i thought his friendship, his care, his talks as love... i was stupid... thank god i found it before i would say it... i am leaving him once and for all as i dont want to be a burden or interference in his life... i am leaving him once and for all... it is paining but i know i can move on... i will not love anyone but i will make sure i am forgetting him... i have to be strong and i have do it.... But the biggest question is can i ?? #69 on 02.08.2017 #57 on 03.08.2017 This is going for serious edition... so the chapters are now taken down... will be updated after editing every Saturday.

He won't let me go because he needs me? Why does he need me? I'm not special. I'm the quiet reader that stays by herself in school. Nobody needs me but my father. After I saved him from the beast all I can think about is getting out. That is until I found out three things: his secret, his curse, and that I need him too. Hopefully my secret won't make him regret needing me. ** I don't own this fairytale, I'm just doing a twist with it **

We all have someone who is hidden in the bottom of our hearts. When we think of him, we will always feel a little pain inside, but still we can't forget about him. I can't forget about him because he is the one who makes me know what love is, and this is our love story. *COMPLETE/IN NEED OF MAJOR EDITING/SLOWLY EDITING* UPDATE: Rewritten New SLH is up on my account if you're interested! ©Nessa129 2014