{ON HOLD} •Even the devil was an angel once• A little girl who barely got attention from her parents,who grew up in a toxic environment... At teenage the hunger of attention,trauma,led her to develop serious agression issue,began self harming believing it was her fault to be born,also nearly had a sexual assault,the school life, family issues.......id she wanted that life? Was it her fault to be born? Was it her fault to suffer the reality? Was it her fault to be born ugly or have acne? Was it her fault to be a girl? "MY EVERYDAY PRAYER WAS TO BE DEAD,AND STILL PRAY THAT NOW" (A REAL LIFE STORY OF SOMEONE I KNOW PERSONALLY)

This is the story of an abused teenage girl, Maddie. Her need to die has become overwhelming and she is trying to find a way to help herself before she does something she may regret. The story is told from her point of view as she recalls all that has happened to her. Maybe telling her story will help her, maybe not. This isn't just any other sob story. This is more realistic. You may even find yourself comparing your life to Maddie's while reading this story. Disclosure: I wrote this as a 13-year-old and the writing is definitely not up to my current standards, but I feel as though changing what I have already written would take away from the emotion I put into this story at 13 years old. If you'd like an updated and more well-written version, please read my other story entitled "Remembering". TW/CW: domestic violence, child abuse, sexual assault, depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation

C̺͆O̺͆M̺͆P̺͆L̺͆E̺͆T̺͆E̺͆D̺͆ Started ~ February 13, 2021 Ended ~ April 3, 2021 ~ Re-write ~ May 28, 2021 End ~ August 18, 2021 *************** Disclaimer! This book might not make since at some points. This book does go a bit fast. There is NO HAPPY ENDING. *************** "Wait honey stop!" The lady yelled, but I wasn't gonna stop. I headed for the front door and before I could push it open I felt arms wrap around my waist "Stop" I kept thrashing in his arms "Come on stop, your gonna hurt yourself more" I didn't listen I just kept trying "Keep her arm as still as you can!" Someone yelled and I felt hands grab my right arm and then something prick my skin "Just stop!" Slowly I collapsed in their arms and my eyes shut. Not how this was meant to happen

COMPLETED BOOK 2- Sequel to Deal With It (#2 in ambitious #19 in tearjerker #3 in French) Amber Amity just couldn't seem to catch a break. She lost her father to lung cancer, her boyfriend of 3 years moved away without a warning, and now she's been fucked over by something she never saw coming. Amber was an ambitious 23-year-old woman who radiated poise and confidence. She refused to settle for mediocrity, instead, she wanted to be the best; she wanted nothing less than perfection. She was on track to becoming Fashionsitique's, a renowned fashion magazine's, Editor-In-Chief. She wanted to take the world by storm and reinvent fashion, and she could only do that from the position she was dead-set on getting. But will a series of unfortunate events allow her to do that? Will all these hardships be worth perfection? Amber didn't know. She was so close to giving up- all she wanted was for the universe to give her a break. She didn't know how to enjoy life anymore, but maybe she can learn to see the bigger picture. It would take her some time to understand that life and all its hardships will be worth the trouble. Always. ••• Sneak peek: I lifted my head and glanced at him, "This is all your fucking fault, Isaac." Isaac didn't hide his bafflement, "My fault?" He repeated. "How-" I cut him off with a shake of my head, "I should have never let you convince me to go out," I breathed out, feeling my eyes prick with unshed tears. I felt anger slowly bubble through me making me stare up at him, "This is all your fault."

Have you ever met someone so innocent you couldn't imagine them breaking the law or going against the rules well that was me Farah Clarke, that girl that read books for fun and kept away from the popular people but now I'm the one you tell your child not to be like... could say pain changes a person.

Alexis is a 17 year old girl that hasn't spoken in years, ever since her mother was killed when she was 8. Everyone thinks that it was a simple break and enter and she was killed by the robber but Alexis knows the truth but is too scared to speak up. Her friend Damian that has been by her side even before the murder knows that it was more than that but doesn't know what and knows she can speak but she chooses not to because she is hiding something thats going on in her life. ***WARNING- THIS BOOK WILL CONTAIN TRIGGERING CONTENT INCLUDING SELF HARM, DEPRESSION, VERBAL/SEXUAL ABUSE, ETC. PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.***

Step into the deeply emotional and gripping narrative of Olivia Benson , a strong and resilient captain who has spent her life protecting others, now forced to face the darkest night of her own life. After a brutal assault by a man from her past, Olivia is left shattered, trying to navigate the aftermath of her trauma while holding onto the pieces of her identity. Determined to stay strong, she buries the trauma deep, struggling alone in silence. But Amanda Rollins is the first to notice, offering support when Olivia can barely admit she needs it. Then Elliot Stabler, re-entering her life at a crucial moment, refuses to let her retreat into herself. Together, they remind her of the courage she has always shown others. But facing her own trauma is a new battle, filled with doubts and fears that threaten to consume her. As Olivia wrestles with feelings of shame and self-blame, she must confront the question: can she forgive herself enough to seek justice? And will she ever feel whole again, returning to the work that once defined her? I'll update as soon as I can! 🤞😇 Read with caution! TW: story contains violence and sexual assault.

16-year-old Olivia Reed has always been close with her brother and her dad. She's never been close with her sister and her mom. It seems like nothing will ever happen to her life. But she's wrong. Everything happens for a reason right? What will be Olivia's reason for her life to turn out this way?

"I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for being so emotional all the time. I'm sorry for hurting myself the way i do. I'm sorry for pushing everyone away. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for making you hate me. I'm sorry for being here. I'm sorry for existing. I'm sorry for being the way i am. I'm sorry for being me." Amelia Cunningham. Epitome of Social Outcast. No friends. Just her trusty diary and occasional panic attacks. She is the perfect student, perfect daughter. She smiles like the sun shines down just for her, but nobody knows how broken she really is. Nobody sees the cracks and cuts beneath the beautiful facade she puts up. Nobody but Nikolai. And he might just be able to save her from herself. Because he believes that he's been given a second chance to save someone like her for a reason. And he would make sure he saves her no matter what.

***COMPLETED*** Sky's home life was a little piece of hell on earth. She often had to fight past the pain, but she always found a way to become stronger. When Jake came into her life, he changed everything. She knew from the start that theirs would not be a fairytale romance. They came from two different worlds but could Jake find a way to make her part of his? ******** The thought of him going to the other room and leaving me, literally made my body ache, didn't he know how much I needed him? I wasn't going down without a fight. Slipping my t-shirt off of my shoulder, I gave him my best pouty face and pleaded with him, "You wouldn't leave me all alone in this big, cold bed would you?" He shot me a look that I can only describe as a warning, "Fight fair Sky, I am only human!"