"I think you have internalized homophobia." Philip looked at her, his mouth slightly curved. "Jokes on you." -- Philip is a seventeen year-old teenager who just wants to try to live. Severely affected by a fatal accident that he deems himself to be responsible for, living only gets harder for him. His world, very small--school, home. But it grows in size when Fletcher Handerson, the school's star basketball player is determined to get to know him, because he is trapped by Philip's silent stares which scream more day-by-day. Things change. After all, it is high-school. ~~ Warning ⚠️: Mentions of suicide, self harm and mental disorders.

Lafayette was the school's only out kid. Then Eden came along. Fay was all confidence, known for his flawless acting and effeminate clothing. He didn't bow down to anyone, and he was incredibly skilled at becoming friends with anyone he wanted to. Eden was all pretend confidence. On the inside, he was a calloused heart decorated by life-threateningly deep scars. But he never says a word. Not until Fay becomes a large part in his life, trying to teach him what it means to heal. •O•O• Trigger Warning: abuse, disordered eating, mental illnesses, rape, and self-harm. Rated mature for the above. Started: 5 . 3 . 20 Finished: 8 . 4 . 20

Caden's one and only friend Ethan would go to the ends of earth and back for him. Ethan may come off strong but Caden and him have been close for years and neither of them would ever want to change that. When feelings start to surface, Caden must figure out where his heart lies without damaging or potentially sacrificing their friendship. What happens when another very important boy comes into the picture? Will Ethan remain his typical possessive self? Or will he do what must be done to keep Caden happy? Caden finds his whole world shifted upside down in a flurry of emotions and drama. To add to that, is the love of his life hiding a potentially dangerous secret from him? DISCLAIMER: STORY HAS GRAPHIC LANGUAGE, SEXUAL CONTENT, AND VIOLENCE. Also trigger warning: rape and depression. This story is rated mature, please don't report my fans comments as offensive because of language when the entire story features strong language as well 😂

Completed. BoyxBoy. Being an artist has its perks, but that's not all Ari is skilled at. Caring, but an asshole, Ari agrees to paint a canvas for a little girl who has Leukemia. Meanwhile, a new neighbor moves into the town house on the end - the house that Ari envies because it's not sandwiched between people. After meeting his new neighbor, Ari realizes they have a lot more in common than he thinks. On their wild journey together battling what loved ones think of their relationship, the mess they've unintentionally created comes full circle and they find out what true love really is. *Cover artwork belongs to the artist.

{Complete, 14 Chapters & an Epilogue} How does it feel loving a person who has a serious mental problem? Due to a traumatic past, Lyle lost all his memories and developed a Post-traumatic Stress Disorder. He suffered from panic attacks, anxieties, recurring nightmares and a habit of harming himself . Kieran knew Lyle couldn't remember anything. He also knew that there was only a tiny chance of being able to gain the young man's love again. He wasn't giving up though. ...even if it means being in a relationship where his patience, understanding and acceptance were constantly being tested, Kieran was determined to stay. WARNING: THIS BOOK IS NOT FOR THE SENSITIVE AND FAINT-HEARTED ONES. So many triggers inside. Please skip the book if you think you can't handle it.

Since River has been old enough to ask, his father has brain-washed into believing that he's unworthy of any sort of love. Especially from his long-awaited, fated mate. He has no future, just an awaited rejection and a continued life of abuse. All that gets him through his bruised life is when he allows his mind to wander to his other half. Even with thought of rejection, River holds nothing more dear than the dream of one day meeting his mate. Little does River know that one day he is going to be sold off into slavery with only that single thread of hope to hold him together. #17 in Werewolf #36 in Romance #13 in LGBT #8 in boyxboy Contemporary Reads Awards- 8/10/16 Brigades Awards- 11/10/16

(finished) Part 2: Don't you hate it when you thought you were done with your conflicting feelings, suddenly you have them coming back to you when you least expect it?, when you develop feelings for someone you think you have no chances with, when people think that those feelings aren't accepted by society, when you can't get your crush to notice you, then you feel like the world just crumbles around you when things just don't work out the way how you wanted it to be? I... I like him... But there's just so much shit going on that I don't know if I can bring myself to be with him... ...So I'm writing down all of this in my journal to pour all my thoughts out... Because I just need to express these feelings out somehow... -Jackson #2 - closeted #76 - homo

Chicago had never greeted the Valentines with open arms. Instead it greeted them with a slap in the face and reality served on a silver platter. Living with such a large family and such a small income was harder than anyone could have imagined especially when your best form of income comes from your mom being a hooker. Alexander is a middle child in the large family. At the prime age of fourteen he's starting to become confused about many things in his life such as where he fits in, what he wants to do when he's older and his sexuality. Nolan is in the same boat. Though he is not part of the Valentine family he got the privilege of living down the street from them. He had a slightly smaller family with only a slightly better income. But the only things Nolan feels he needs is astronomy, books and his best friend Alexander who is always getting them into trouble. TRIGGER WARNINGS : suicidal thoughts/mentions, abuse, underage drinking, some sexual content, cussing. If there's any questions about the triggers feel free to message me to ask started: November 1st, 2018 completed: November 30th, 2018

18-year-old Gabriel Knight knows who he is. Quarterback of the high school football team, senior, good-looking ladykiller, and just downright popular. He's everything you wouldn't want your little girl to bring home from school. Everyone thinks Gabriel is perfection. He has the looks, the girls, the money, the fame, the talents, he has everything. But there is one thing Gabriel has that no one knows: a secret. 17-year-old Liam Jenkins is your go-to guy when you need help with any subject in school. He's a nerd, basically. Designated to become valedictorian if he maintains his 4.0 GPA. He's everything Mommy and Daddy would want for their little princess, too bad Liam prefers princes. Liam, is gay. Has been, and always will be. He has always known that, and he doesn't hide it when people ask him. Although it sometimes gets him into trouble, it didn't stop him from becoming the most lovable guy around. So what happens when these two get together? Only one way to find out. Open your copy of "Closeted" today, and experience an adventure that's filled with love, hate, betrayal, and trust. When will you come out?

[BoyxBoy - Completed] (Sequel to "The Rent Boy") Mitch has spent his life hiding everything he knew he was, after years of being told it was wrong. But after a little provocation from Tyler, he's finally had enough. With so much emotion building up inside of him, his calm demeanour begins to slip. Now that Ash was gone, keeping everyone from ripping each other apart had become his responsibility––not that he was doing a great job of it. Between Tyler destroying himself and Tony struggling to keep things together, Mitch had no idea what to do. And Alex? Well, the least he could say was that he tried.

After graduating high school, Dorian Lowry decides to spend the summer of 2016 with his father and his father's family down in Virginia. While there's some tension when Dorian first arrives, he soon fits right in with his same-aged half-brother Tavian and Tavian's friends. His summer seems to be off to a great start until he meets Noah Montgomery, the cute and down-to-earth best friend of Tavian's girlfriend. The instant attraction he feels to Noah poses many problems because Dorian is closeted and has no plans to come out anytime soon. With all eyes on him, he must somehow strike a balance between what he desires and what is expected of him. He soon learns just how unpredictable and uncompromising one summer can be. © 2017 All Rights Reserved

A boy that gets beat by his brothers for being gay. He is terrified and he is scared. Everything was good until he came out. The they changed. Then you add a lie they have been hiding for years. Will Max be able to make it through this. Will it be too much. Warning: This will contain strong language, abuse, sexual assault, boyxboy. It will also speak about self-harm and be a "brotherxbrother." I will but a TW before a sensitive part. You can skip that part and move down to where it ends.

Michael and Liam are madly in love. Or so they think. How madly in love could you be when you've only just started talking? Liam has always been a helpful person. In fact, his self proclaimed job use to be helping people get with each other. But he was always the one to be left unhappy in the end. As Liam breaks away and starts to go into new and dangerous territory, will he be able to save his heart? Or will he give away the key to his heart too easily? Michael has a over sensitive body. And sometimes that makes it hard to separate feelings correctly. And with every string of boys, he only covers his dark pass even more. He thought everything was perfect, until Liam. Why is he trying to figure Michael out? And why is his touch so good? Lust drives them. Fighting makes them understand. Running makes them worry. And crying brings them closer. What were they thinking, to get involved with a silly thing called: L O V E. (A/N: This actually a little bit of a side story off of my other two books "I HATE YOU" and it's sequel "Hey, I STILL HATE YOU" and you are welcome to read that before this but it isn't necessary! Enjoy.)

It all started in my Junior year of high school. That year was when everything changed, when everything that I've known about myself was no longer true. I was just a normal 17 year old boy. One boy, changed that all. He gave me love. He showed me hard time and times that we almost didn't make through. Some things brought us closer together, and some things pushed us apart. But I know, no matter what, I he will always have my heart. (This is book 1 of the levels series.)

Leaving a troubled past behind, Dylan starts his first day at a new high school. He's soon wrapped up in his new life, meeting new friends and especially someone to take his mind off the things that happened. However, the past has a way of catching up, and how does he think he can get someone else out of their misery if he can't even help himself? Dylan knows he should know better than to fall for someone new, but Zach isn't just anyone. He's the guy with a face of stone and eyes as cold as a winter's night - a guy without a heart - or so it would seem... They won't like each other at all, they will hate - hate each other senseless. But perhaps that senselessness is what will get them out of their troubles once and for all.

Ethan Hales always knew that he liked boys, but he soon discovered that he couldn't do anything about it. So he accepted that his life was destined to be lonely and miserable. He pushed himself deeper and deeper into himself, until he couldn't find any more joy within him. He never imagined that someone could change his outlook on life. Until he found a boy in the middle of the football field. His violet eyes, black hair and beautiful smile were enough to make his heart turn. Kaden Prince. Apparently perfect, but something seems to haunt him. Kaden can make Ethan find himself, but will Kaden be found as well?

*DISCLAIMER: I WROTE THIS DURING A TIME WHEN MY WRITING WAS NOT VERY GOOD. IF THINGS SEEM AS IF THEY ARE NOT THOUGHT OUT PROPERLY THAT IS WHY Colin wants nothing more than for his boyfriend to say I love you. But after years of verbal abuse he comes to terms: He doesn't love him. In an attempt to get his ex out of his hair, Colin attends a party. This results in Colin holding the child of his best friend's twenty one year old brother.

Eighteen. It's that time in your life that's nothing if not subjunctive: the mood you use when something might or might not have happened. It's a time that's full of change. Leaving school. Going to University. Leaving home. Saying goodbye to past people. Welcoming new people. Everything becomes different all at once. Parts are hard. Parts are easy. All of it: unavoidable. *** Approaching the end of his final year of education, Andy Williams feels lost. Life feels directionless and he craves something that he's not sure even exists. Going through the motions of life with no passion left to give feels numbing until he meets a friend that shows him there's light at the end of the tunnel.

[BXB] Archie Holland and Brooks Dawson decide to take a third and final shot at love. ☆☆☆ Brooks Dawson is falling apart. His mom's behavior is spiraling out of control, his best friend keeps getting him into trouble, and he's still in love with his ex-boyfriend, Archie. But when a party goes awry, Brooks finds himself in an unexpected reunion with Archie while hiding from the cops. Maybe it's the late-night adrenaline (or their lack of better judgement) but they decide to give loving each other one more chance. And if the third time really is the charm, maybe this will finally be the time that they get it right. Maybe. [ February. 2022. - September 2022. ] #2 in emotional abuse. #3 in mental illness. #13 in abandonment. #28 in trauma #33 in youth. #36 in growing up. #42 in exes. #57 in mommy issues.

Bobby is straight. I'm gay. This should be simple. Why, then, is it so complicated? ***** Caleb hated the fact that he was falling for his best friend. Aside from the stress of unrequited love and the issue of Bobby's "ex", the mere notion of his best friend was enough to rip his heart a new one. He was lucky that Bobby was far enough to avoid accidentally-or purposely-breaking Caleb's heart. Until he moves back to L.A. And, oh, the twists and turns the story provides.