MIR-hospital, London. Mr Lester is interested in "adopting" a patient. When he first meets the depressed and distraught Daniel Howell, he does not know how much hard work he is going to be. !! CONTAINS SELF-HARM, SUICIDIAL BEHAVIOR, DEPRESSION & TALKING ABOUT RAPE !!

"Phil... I'm depressed" "Oh my god, me too! I get so down in the dumps sometimes it's ju-" "No. Phil. I have depression" "Oh." ~ triggers: -self harm (cutting) -depression depressing thoughts -suicidal thoughts suicide -gay slurs other derogatory words -abuse -alcohol addiction -rape -murder ~ #144 in Fanfiction ~ completed - 25/9/16

Dan Howell has received his fair share of bullying in his time. He had left four schools in the last two years due to bullying. He starts at a new school where his life will change, for the better.... or the worse. Dan meets Phil Lester, the only person who has ever spoken to him and become friends with. What will happen when Dan thinks he has a crush on his beat friend? WARNING! : This story does contain Self Harm, Suicidal Thoughts, Homophobic behavior, and Mild smut

In the perspective of Phil Lester (1-10) In the perspective of Dan Howell (11-20) ✹ You wouldn't think someone with such deep and sweet brown eyes would turn out to be so violent to love. I didn't believe it when he first smiled at me, but my perception of him changed the moment he started removing my belt. ✹ EXTREME MATURE CONTENT ✹ MATURE AUDIENCES ONLY ✹ If you are triggered by or sensitive to any of the following things, read with caution... -self harm -suicide attempts -domestic violence -rape -alcoholism -masochism (sexual desire with submission to cruelty or violence)

COMPLETE *** In this world, you're marked with black. That's if you have a soulmate, at least. Everyone is destined to cross paths with the one who is meant for them, at least once in their lives. When you and your soulmate meet, you will touch, if only briefly, and the exact area of skin you touch with the other turns from black to white, with streaks of blue, purple, yellow, all marbled in with each other. Daniel Howell is well known in town. People cross the street if they're approaching him and newcomers to the neighborhood are warned about his presence. Exactly like the Lester's were. But Phil Lester has other ideas, he saw the pain within the boy, how bad can he really be? (A story about abuse, self-destruction, but ultimately, love. Please read safe.)

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?

I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he first met him, but now Phil's heart is crushed. He has some suspicions of Dan's girlfriend, but Dan just brushes it off, ignoring Phil completely. Unfortunately, Phil's bad feelings may be true... Sexual content, self harm, language, and domestic abuse warning. Also, I'm American, so if I get anything wrong, please tell me. ••• Update: This is very old (not really that old) writing! It's cringy as hell, and I apologize in advance. I have fixed a few errors, so if it seems slightly different than it was before, that's why.

Dan Howell was anything but normal. He was a neko. Living in a world where Nekos are treated like servants for those who are "normal", has forced Dan to hide all of his life. He was homeschooled until his 11th year, he had finally convinced his parents to let him go to a public school. Thats when he met Phil Lester. A handsome boy a year older than him. Who happened to be a supporter of equal rights for Nekos. Phil was perfect. He finally had a boyfriend and friends. But was this all too good to be true..

*TRIGGER WARNING* Dan Howell has been bullied for as long as he can remember. Phil Lester is the bully. Phil doesn't want to be a bully anymore but will Dan forgive him. Also this story is very cringe, I'm sorry haha and yes I'm aware it moves kinda fast but I want it like that This story is very bad, sorry 😂

Daniel Howell and Phil Lester have gone through a lot together. ***TRIGGER WARNING- SELF HARM / SUICIDE ATTEMPTS / DEPRESSION / HOMOSEXUALITY /SAD/ANGST***