Book One from The Ruined Series "I'm a fuck up" "Babygirl, that makes two of us" Jennifer has lived a hard life since she was 4 years old. Growing up with an abusive mom who's an alcoholic, and a dad who's a junkie have proven to her that she doesn't need anyone, including them. She gets the freedom that most teenagers dream of, going out to parties every night, drinking her sorrows away, no curfews. Until she meets Daxon. Daxon, who has an addiction with drugs is the only person who can understand her. Growing up a child addict has made Dax an impossible person to approach. As they get closer, they want the best for each other. A story about two troubled teenagers who want to fix each other yet, they can't even fix themselves. *Slowburner: This book has a lot of ups and downs with the tragic love they share* #14 drugs # 17 addiction # 9 drug addiction # 2 sober # 622 romance # 425 sadness # 161 struggle # 127 2021 #592 toxic # 2 ash stymest

Have you ever met someone who alters the course of your life? For good or for bad, they've come in, given and taken, and then- BOOM! Your life was never the same. There's always a change, an altering of reality. When you meet those people, the reality that you've known your whole life is suddenly gone and a new one has taken its place. When those moments happen, there's no going back. You can try to return to the way things were but nothing, and I mean nothing, can take you back to exactly how it was. That's what happened to us. I think that's why we're still trying so desperately to get back to some sort of normalcy. Four years later and we're still on the ground, crawling, in search of the happiness that was lost that June. Summers will never be the same. Midnight walks through my neighborhood will never be the same. Field parties with bonfires and loud music will never be the same. I still don't know why you left and what lead you to the decision you made. What I do know is that we're here. We're alive and we're pushing forward to the future. A future that you're not a part of. But in some ways, I'm glad you're not a part of it. I just wish it wasn't like this. *** TRIGGER WARNING*** SA, abuse, suicide, substance abuse, and mental illness. This is a complete story that is much like life; fast, full of surprises, and not always how we want it to be. This has been a project of mine for over three years. It was self-published on Amazon, but after some issues in publication, I decided to just upload it on here. I hope you fall in love with these characters like I have. The friends in this story are trying to make names for themselves, figure out who they are, who they can trust, how to love, and how to separate themselves from a restrictive community. As in any coming of age story, they will experience growing pains... but will they survive them before its too late? PLEASE READ THE TRIGGER WARNINGS.

tw's: descriptions of r*pe, eating disorders, panic attacks ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I had to flee. To escape. I couldn't take the pain of people telling me to be okay. That I was a survivor. But what about me being a victim? All because a few people refused to hear me when I said no. Now I carry around pain, fear, a disgusting feeling that is also there. Behind me. In the shadows. But maybe he'll be the light. ------------------------- This is a hockey player x gymnast college romance. A sunshine x grumpy, little forced proximity, he hangs the stars for her romance book where he would do anything to make her feel safe again

"Can we stop feeling guilty, Amelia? Guilty for all the things that weren't our fault." "We can Leo. Maybe someday." "That day isn't far off Amelia. I'll make sure of it." ___________________________________ There is a lot to think about when you find out your best friend has been raped and murdered. There is even more to think about when you're the last person she saw the night she died. But that's not what caused me to black out in the middle of a rocking party scene, surrounded by all the people I had known all my life. It was when I saw who had killed her. Hilarious, charming, the guy with the perfect quiff, and star quarter-back of the football team. He was loved by everyone. He was the guy you couldn't stay away from. Levi Harrison. My brother. ____________________________ #1 for General Fiction in The Grace Awards 2019 #1 College Romance 11/19 #3 Bullyingawareness 04/20 #2 Assault 06/20 • Started: August 2018 Ended: - January 2020 (Unedited) • WARNING: this book contains a mature theme, not suitable for all audiences. There are recurring themes of assault, mild depression, and violence. On the other hand: it'll put a big fat smile on your face! •Any media used belongs to it's rightful owners. No images or videos used belong to me.•

"If you love me, you won't leave me." Jessie has believed those words from her boyfriend, Josh, since senior year of high school. She loves him and doesn't want to leave him. Not even when he shouts at her and hits her. Jessie's best friend, Kolleen, can't stand seeing her in that situation. With a bit of convincing - and the worst beating she'd ever received - Jessie agrees to move into an apartment with Kolleen. But not long after, Jessie is scared the worst of her nightmares will soon become a reality. Josh goes missing, and suddenly Jessie would swear she's being followed. One night changes everything, and one person soon changes Jessie's outlook. A responding officer from that fateful night begins to seek her out, at first claiming it's part of his job. As she spends time with her new friend outside of his job, she starts realizing that her feelings are evolving. After being abused for over a year, Jessie is terrified she's falling in love. What's even more terrifying is that he might be, too. She isn't ready for love. Not yet. She makes up her mind that if he is falling, and if he does love her, he'll wait for her to be ready, and if she loves him, she won't let herself hurt him. Can the words that used to cage her in really be the key to her freedom? --- Featured On: @NA: Take a seat and let it be | Mature Content and 18 reading list @NA: You deserve the world | Mental Health reading list Ambys Top Picks New Adult 2023

"I need you to be the put together one because I'm so fucked up. You've saved me." He whispers. "Carter, we saved each other." I mutter looking at him through my eyelashes. I lean into him, our lips not even an inch apart. "Sophia we shouldn't..." He looks hesitant. "Please, I need you." I almost started crying. "Please." I mutter one more time, my eyes begging for him. My body needing him. Sophia Carrington. She just moved from New York to California in search of a new life. When her life took a dark turn she's forced to leave everything behind. She just wants to finish her final year of high school, numb to the world, while learning to cope with the trauma she's endured. Carter Marquez. Newly single after being dumped by his girlfriend of two years. After losing his dad in a car accident he's fallen apart. The list of people he trusts is short, he hates letting people in. He's constantly trying to make up for his mistakes of the past, trying to find a new purpose in life. When the two of them collided, they instantly took a mutual disliking to each other. Misunderstandings and a dash of alcohol set a flame between them. Sophia hates the snarky remarks and stupid nicknames that leave his mouth. Carter thinks Sophia is just another trust fund brat. Soon their rivalry begins to dissolve and they learn that sharing the pain of their past can form connections they never thought to be possible. WARNING: This story contains mature topics such as sexual assault and drug addiction. Read with caution. Copyright © by lulustoriesss 2021

Nicky Nichols lands herself a four-year prison sentence for drug addiction and a year-and-a-half later, Lorna Morello lands herself in the same prison with a three year sentence. When things get rough for these two young women, will they lean on each other for support? Nicky/Lorna. *Disclaimer*: I do not own the show or characters. All I own is the writing and story. NOTE: THIS IS MY FANFICTION STORY THAT IS CROSS-POSTED ON BOTH FANFICTION.NET (COFFEEWRITINGADDICTION) AND ARCHIVE OF OR OWN (WRITINGCOFFEEADDICTION). I FOUND THAT SOMEONE (JACKGHASTLY) ON HERE DECIDED TO COPY MY STORY AND POST IT ON HERE, CLAIMING IT AS THEIR OWN. I AM THE OWNER OF THIS STORY, THAT PERSON STOLE IT. I AM VERY UPSET AND ANGRY OVER THIS - HENCE THE ALL CAPS - AS I TAKE MY TIME TO WRITE EACH AND EVERY CHAPTER TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY AND THEN SOMEONE HAS THE NERVE TO STEAL MY STORY, MY HARD WORK...I AM ABSOLUTELY HORRIFIED AT SEEING THIS. Warning: This story is extremely dark and filled with mature themes. Do not read unless you are older than 16. Contains graphic depictions of violence, rape/non-con, strong language, suicidal thoughts, mentioned drug abuse/use, and more.

Abigail "Abby" Lee Emerson's life hasn't unfolded as she had hoped. Her childhood was filled with joy in a home where her parents were deeply in love. However, everything changed dramatically when her father, Lee, discovered that Bella, Abby's younger sister, was not his biological child. The situation worsened when he caught his wife cheating with another man. Nina, the mother of the two girls, now finds herself divorced and on drugs, jumping from man to man, and still living under the same roof as her ex-husband and children, although she's never around. She was sleeping around with other men without her husband knowing for years. Lee, Abigail's father, has become indifferent to his ex-wife Nina's actions. To him, she now holds no significance, which leads to his nightly bouts of excessive drinking. In his eyes, Nina has destroyed his life, and he has become apathetic towards everyone, including his daughter. His anger is often directed at Bella and Abby, especially when she tries to shield her younger sister. Abigail, known as Abby, works daily to provide for her family. Her family is Bella. Abby wants nothing to do with her mother when she's around or her father because of his actions. Abby works days and nights to make enough money for bills and food. Sometimes, it's not enough, but it doesn't matter to her as long as Bella is fed. On the day her world crumbles, Abby encounters Jace, a daunting figure who instills fear in her yet inexplicably captures her heart as he saves her from the turmoil of her home. Thank you for choosing my story! If you enjoyed it, please follow, comment, vote, add to your reading list, and share it with your friends. Check out my other stories! I appreciate you! :) *WARNING* Book contains language, self-harm, abuse, sexual assault, etc. *The Escape 2 is in the works following the life of Abby's sister Bella!*

[Can't be read as a stand alone] A sequel to Mate? Mate. You should probably read that book first or this book won't make any sense. Jasmine Thomas is a 19 year old with the best life she could ask for. She had her wonderful mate and her beautiful family alongside every step she takes in life and Jazzy couldn't be more grateful. There's just one problem: she's dead. Blake Hunter, Jazzy's mate, all was well in his life. He had his mate, his family, and friends by his side and he loved things just the way they were. Blake's world, however, came tumbling down when his mate's evil, alternate ego took over Jazzy's life and caused her death. Imagine a person you've known and loved for so long walking around but knowing that it isn't them. Imagine seeing a face you know and love walking around, destroying everything yet you know that this person is absolutely not the person you love. For the person you love would never dare harm anything of the Goddess' creation. "Sometimes when it all gets too much and I'm so close to losing it I hear her voice in my head. I will not stop until Jazzy is back in my arms and that is an oath I make to the moon." "Blake Hunter you are the strongest man I know. You are the strongest, bravest, most determined man I know and you can't let this stop you from being that man." "Promise me to never give in to your thoughts. There will be times where it will feel like it is too much but remember I'm always with you." "I promise you Jasmine Thomas." Join Blake in his journey of restoring his beloved mate from her own self. And Jazzy in her journey back to Blake. Will he be able to get her back? Or will everything he does be in vain? Will she be able to reach Blake in time? Or will it be too late? Will they be able to get their happy ever after? Or will Blake live in pain, alone for the rest of his life? Read to find out. WerePotterhead

Book One Madelyn Campbell and Loren Kensington found solace in each other's company four years ago, within their individual struggles and loneliness. United in their pain, they've become dependant on each another, relying on their bond and deal to survive their teenage years. Madelyn battles anxiety and insomnia while Loren fights against alcoholism, and together they form a fragile but resilient whole. Bound by a deal to keep their pain separate, they confront the world as best friends, even as Loren's feelings for Madelyn deepen with each passing day and Madelyn grapples with new agony. "Brokenly Together" is an exploration of friendship, love, and the enduring resilience found in broken people bound together. All broken from the world, but a whole when together. !!DISCLAIMER!!: Contains graphic depictions of violence (including: sexual assault, domestic violence), graphic sex scenes, strong language, alcoholism, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts. This story may upset some readers, so read with caution. And if you or anybody you know struggles with mental health and suicidal thoughts, please seek help! Madelyn and Lo's story isn't meant to be all rosy and happy. They both have huge struggles they're dealing with and might not deal with them in the healthiest of ways. This is in no way an example on how to handle addiction or anxiety, but a story on how they found each other through all of it. I hope that despite its deep topics, flaws and heavy feeling, you guys can fall in love with the characters the way I did :)