IMPORTANT: This is a discontinued version. My writing style has changed and it was no longer very comfortable for me to write in this style. I have a new version that I am working on, same name and characters. Please read that one. I can't stop you from reading this one, but just know the other will be better written. ~~~~~ "You don't get it. No one knows the truth about my past." "Then fucking tell me, damn it. I want to help you." "I... I can't" ~~~~~~ Its been ten years. Ten years since I saw my dad. Ten years since my mother died. Ten years since I moved to the states. Things are different. But now, I'm back. Only this time, it more dangerous. What if my past catches up to me? ~~~~~~ Warnings: Cursing Self Harm Mentions of Abusive Relationship *More may come as the book is updated* ~~~~~ Hope you enjoy, I'm sorry if there is an emotional rollercoaster brought to you by this. ~~~~~ HIGHEST RANKINGS: #2 in #explosionboy

Izuku Midoriya had enough from life, everyone was telling him how useless he was. His mother stopped looking at him. His best friend bullies him. He had no one who cares about him or so he thought. "Thank you for saving me, you are a great hero, I won't do this again. I promise! Can you unbind the scarf now?" He chose his words carefully and gave the sleep-deprived hero the brightest fake smile he could offer. "I am really fine! You can now go and continue your hero work." "You don't look fine!" .... This is a suicidal Deku story combined with Dadzawa. A/N: Be warned mention of suicidal thought and attempts as well as cutting. I do not make any waning beforehand in the story so consider yourself warned. This is a mha fanstory and I have no idea where this is gonna go ... hope you enjoy! Please also feel free to correct my bad writing. I was inspired by an Ao3 story I read, I wish I could remember the title of it, but I don't I am sorry. Rights on the pictures go to the artist. I do not own mha, rights to the owner. Highest Ranking: 07.03.21 1 in Suicid 07.03.21 5 in Suicidalizuku 26.03.21 1 in depressedizuku 26.03.21 1 in abusedizuku 26.03.21 3 in suicidaldeku 26.03.21 2 in dadzu 30.03.21 2 in izukumidoriya

(Cover by AnimeFreaks123) The day Izuku was born was the day that the league of villains base became a place full of happiness, at least for them. When Izuku was born Inko didn't want him, nor did his father. They both were work obsesed and didin't give Izuku what every parent should give their child... love They got tired of him and threw him out in the middle of the street. People would cast him a glance and move right past him. That was the day tomura got lectured by Kurogiri for spilling milk all over the counter because of a fight between him and Dabi. Tomura was walking down the street to go buy cleaning supplies when he came across Izuku. He took him to the bar and from that day on Izuku Shigaraki finally had a family that cares for him like if he was an actual person and not just a doll. Or Izuku gets raised by villains and becomes a phsychotic and sarcastic, not to mention babe attracting piece of shit. Includes: *yaoi *cursing *self indulgent writing *slightly slow updates *horrible jokes *ooc Uraraka (but she has a secret behind that, just bear with her for a bit) *ooc Izuku Characters and other things don't belong to me, they belong to the wonderful Kohei Horikoshi, i only own the plot.

*NO IMAGE IN THE BOOK IS ORIGINALLY MINE AND ALL CREDIT GOES TO THE CREATOR * our fav protagonist (or just mine ) izuku Midoriya.... Abused ? check ✔️ love ? nop . check ✔️ Parents? Loving ? Nop . check ✔️ quirkless? check ✔️ experimented ? ✔️ HEART OF HERO ? check ✅ izuku Midoriya had a stange relationship with his parents. He loved them but was never shown affection or love . they did not loved him or hate him . until he received his quirk or never got any in first the place . Abused by his father . sell offed to villains . experimented by the villians . will he be able escape from the hell ? Will he continue to be a true hero ? or will his will to save people die ? what if he became a vigilante? will he find a parent's love again ? will katsuki be able to see izuku again ? ..... follow izuku from hell to heaven or above . CAUTION ⚠️ panick attacks gore blood swearing deaths protective zawa if any of these would trigger you avoid reading and ENJOY 😅... ( I don't own any character in this story but the story plot is mine )

[ DISCLAIMER : This story is currently being rewritten so I'd recommend going to my account and finding the new one. It has the same name and cover. You can also find the rewrite on ArchiveOfOurOwn. ] When Izuku was younger, he was claimed to be quirkless. Having a quirkless child was not what Inko Midoriya wanted so she left her young son to her best friend, Mitsuki Bakugou and her husband, Masaru Bakugou. Izuku's father, Hisashi Midoriya heard what Inko had done and came to Izuku's aid in Japan. He had been in America for years as he had lots of work to do but he still visited any chance he got. Once Hisashi came and got Izuku, he brought him back to America with him. Izuku was very reluctant do so as his best friend, Katsuki Bakugou was staying in Japan. Katsuki and Izuku stayed in touch as the years went by, Katsuki coming to America to visit anytime he could. During this time, Izuku came to start his music career with 'Kacchan' by his side. WARNING: LGBTQ | BAKUDEKU | CELEBRITY DEKU AU | SEXUAL COMMENTARY | SWEARING | (Romantic/Platonic) SHIPS A/N : NONE OF THE ART IS MINE | THIS IS NOT AN ORIGINAL IDEA | EDITING IS MADE FREQUENTLY ALL CHAPTERS BEFORE CHAPTER TEN ARE POORLY WRITTEN! THEY MAY NOT LINE UP WITH CURRENT CHAPTERS! HIGHEST RANKINGS: #4 bnha 02/23/23 #1 singerdeku 03/04/23 #1 bakugouxmidoriya 03/28/23

✨completed as of 12/12/21✨ ⭐️97k words⭐️ 🌞 finished editing as of 1/2/22🌞 🧀you can see my writing get better throughout this book lol🧀 When Izuku come face to face with death can his quirk finally finally reveals itself? What happens when things take a sharp left turn? Is this the quirk he's longed for, or is he victim to another mans quirk? Ah yes your prays have been heard, There is dadzawa in this. And something like todobakudeku someone suggested it so I thought I'd give it a shot. Warnings as I won't be putting them above chapter: Death /Main character death Injuries &Gore Physical Abuse & Mental manipulation Experimentation / medical processes Mental health issues Creepy old men/ non con medical procedures ^^Descriptive detail of all above^^ Cover art by @oksopi12 on Twitter! Story overview on chapter ⓪ Started: 25 January Finished: 12 December

//discontinued// hiraeth /hiraɪ̯θ/ (noun) a Welsh word for a homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was; the nostalgia, the yearning, the grief for the lost places in your past __________________________ Katsuki Bakugou repeatedly broke the heart of the only person that wanted to love him with all the rough edges and broken pieces that came with him. Bakugou kept pushing and pushing him away, despite the fact that Izuku Midoriya the one that he was destined to be with. But he's too late to realize that now, isn't he? Midoriya had completely lost all hope. __________________________ //highest ranks: number 1 in #bakudeku 071218 number 1 in #katsudeku and #omegaverse 080218 number 3 in #angstywithhappyending 081618 number 1 in #quirk 082018 number 1 in #bkdk 092518 number 1 in #deku 092518 number 2 in #slowburn 100318 number 1 in #hero 100818 number 1 in #myheroacademia 111318 number 1 in #kacchan 111318 number 1 in #izuku 112118// __________________________ i do not own any of the characters in this book unless stated! all rights go to horikoshi! warning: this is an angsty slow burn story. it contains mentions of suicide, violence, and other mature topics. there will be a happy ending but after many chapters of heart wrenching reality. if you prefer happy and fluffy stories, this may not be a story for you. this is also my first story so please bear with my mistakes. you also don't need to watch mha to understand the plot! the history behind the two characters//plot//setting is explained throughout the story! cover: @WritingsByJake

Izuku Midoriya is a 16 year old boy, he has planned his own death, yes that is right, he is planned how he is going to kill himself and he decided to try multiple times, he is so determined to die, and no-one in the class notices. A depressed and suicidal child who acts happy around others, his mother died recently due to suicide saying she didn't want to be near his useless self, and nobody, not even his childhood friend knows about his situation. His friends leave him out in almost every activity, this makes him overwhelmed with emotions and makes him fall into deep depression thinking they don't care about him and only pity him when he is upset, but when they try and stop him from killing himself, what will he think and do? ⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️ --------------------- Self harm Suicide related conversations Suicidal thoughts Suicidal actions Character death Eating Disorder Attempted suicide Swearing Blood Hints of a seizure Mentions of a seizure Kidnapping ----------------- (This story has mean inko in, when she was alive) ----------------------------- If any of this bothers you or makes you uncomfortable either skip the scenes or don't read this book. -------------------------------- What happens when the happiest greenette in 1-A tries to kill himself over and over again? Will his classmates be able to put a stop to his self hatred or will they have to painfully go to his funeral? Read to find out! ____________________ Ships! ---------- (If you are unhappy with them then I don't think you should read his story) ---------- Bakudeku Minatsu Shinkami Momojiro Seroroki Erasermic

Quirkless doesn't mean useless but because of how quirkless kids are being treated they often end up dead.. Izuku Midoriya is a kid that was born quirkless. Once his parents found out about this, they immediatelly abandoned him and threw him out on the streets. Now rouaming the steets and barely surviving he still finds a way to help people but not any avarage people, no he saved All for One and the other 4 LOV members. Follow Izuku as he struggles to survive while at the same time wanting nothing more than to end his own misary and becomes weaker and weaker with each passing moment. At the same time he will gain a family like no other. What will happen if the heroes find their villain lair. Will Izuku find a way to get back or will they change him for the better. A/N: This is a mha fanstory and I have no idea where this is gonna go ... hope you enjoy! Please also feel free to correct my bad writing. Rights on the pictures go to the artist. I do not own mha, rights to the owner.

Izuku used to be a happy kid, with loving parents. But, that all came crashing down when his mom died... His father abused him over every little thing, though the worst was when he spoke or made sounds of any sort. His voice was just like his mothers, and his father couldn't handle the person he blames for his beloved's death having the same angelic voice. Because of this, Izuku's father took matters into his own hands to silence him forever. Read to find what his future holds, if there is one... ~This is my first story, please don't send me hate, but I'm 100% welcome to suggestions and having my grammar corrected😁 ⚠️TW, abuse, torture, rape, SA, orphanages, adoption, slight gore, boy boy (for people who see that as an issue), you've been warned, don't read if any of this affects you!⚠️ ~Started July 14, 2023~