While tortured and held captive as a prisoner of war, she became my reason to keep breathing. The force that fueled my will to fight. To survive. When I woke after the rescue to discover the life I thought I was coming home to was but a figment of my imagination, hallucinations brought about by pain, desperation, and isolation... it nearly broke me. Fifteen years since I first lost her, at last, we have a second chance. Holding her in my arms, finally feeling the warmth of her skin as she melts under my touch, is like a dream. She and her two little girls are now as essential to my existence as the air I breathe. However, just as things start falling into place, the universe steps in, threatening to take it all away. I used to think that choosing her cost me everything I'd ever loved, but now I see that in choosing her and her children, I have the chance to reclaim all that I lost. They are my salvation. My true path to redemption. Which is why I'll leave no stone unturned, why I will scorch this world to the ground if that's what it takes to save them. And when I do, I will fight to convince her once and for all they are meant to be mine, just as I was destined to be theirs.

Beck is top of her class when it comes to Maths and Science and her future seems bright. However, she struggles with social anxiety and relationships. Beck is autistic and spends most of her life locked away in her own mind as she reads her collection of books to escape her abusive alcoholic father. But once her eyes meet a grey eyed boy from across the room her world won't be the same. (18 violence, adult themes, bullying, harassment and other issues) Being Autistic myself I have put a lot of me in this book. I've exaggerated certain aspects for entertainment values but other than that this is how awkward I feel most of the time. I don't see many books by women who write about their experiences in a creative way to spread awareness in a fun and compassionate way. This is mine I guess. I hope you enjoy this short story.

Book I of 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓢𝓱𝓪𝓭𝓸𝔀 𝓢𝓮𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 After feeling invisible for so long she finally was seen by the one boy that was supposed to be off limits. Little did she know falling for him would be the best and maybe worst thing she could have done in the long run. ***{Sneak Peak ONE}*** "Aurora, I don't want you back in my house if you are willing to act this way. You are no longer my child, I don't know who you are or what you have done with my daughter but you aren't her." My eyes start to water, great so I am apparently disowned, an ungrateful peace of shit and i'm not good enough for anyone. ***{Sneak Peak TWO}*** I look over at the door to see Juliano opening it. He walks over to me and says, "So we might have a slight problem." I look at him in confusion as he continues speaking, "Do you remember Lucian Kingston?" I nod. Of course I remember that creep. "Well he had something to do with your car accident." *** 𝓐𝓾𝓻𝓸𝓻𝓪 𝓑𝓵𝓪𝓴𝓮, 17, the girl that's always in her brothers shadow. The sweet, loving, smart girl who only gets the bare minimum and acts like she is completely fine. The beautiful brunette that falls for the Wide receiver on the football team thats also her brothers best friend. 𝓙𝓾𝓵𝓲𝓪𝓷𝓸 𝓒𝓸𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓸, 19, the boy that basically had it all but a relationship, party's all the time with Ashton Blake, plays football, an overprotective pain in the ass, ends up falling for the one girl that he shouldn't have. When will Aurora finally be able to shine? Why is Aurora in her brothers shadow? What will happen in the end? Read to find out!! |trigger warning| mentions of Self harm, Suicide, Self doubt, gore, and anxiety. STARTED: April 30, 2023 FINISHED: May 31, 2023 PUBLISHED: July 19, 2023 WRITER GOALS! 1k reads: 07/05/23 5k reads: 12/17/23 10k reads: 6/29/24 20k reads:

Being alone? Check. Being afraid? Check. Being abused? Check times 3. Honestly, my life wasn't this bad before, not until I ended in foster care... SIKE! My life was always bad. From the moment I was born, I lived with an abusive father who blamed me for my mother's death, and even I couldn't disagree with him. Here are a few questions I am constantly asked: 'Do I do well in school?' No, are you kidding me? The only subject I'm good at is Visual Arts. 'Do I have a kind and caring family?' No, I don't think I do. 'Do I have anyone who cares about me?' No, I'm a loner and socially awkward. 'Do I have privileges?' No, if you haven't understood the message yet, I live in an abusive household. Now, you might ask if there are any questions the answer is yes. I'll give you some. 'Do I want to die?' Yes, I sometimes do. 'Do I feel alone in this world?' Yes, always. 'Do I get a beating every day?' Yes. *** This is Amara Williams, a 13 year-old with average grades and no friends. What happens when her only guardian, her dad, is dead? What happens when she finds out that she has five older brothers who are not only strict and demanding, but also protective assholes? More importantly, what happens when she finds out that she was taught lies from the moment she was born? Follow Amara as she digs deeper into her family history, uncovering the secrets and discovering the lies. ___ ⚠️ Trigger Warning ⚠️ There will be mentions of abuse, r@pe, self harm, death, and many other dark themes. I have given a warning now, and I will give a TW in each chapter when reading for safety reasons. However, I want all of my readers to know what to expect so that they can decided for themselves if they want to read. Read at your own discretion! ____ Highest Rankings: #1 in Rules: Oct. 18. 2020 #1 in Truth: Jan. 16. 2021 #1 in Alcohol: Jun. 18. 2021

I had been second best all my life. But this time, when it comes to her, I'm not willing to accept defeat. I'll do whatever it takes to get her to choose me. *** Having a best friend that was wildly popular, and one of the best hockey players in the United American Hockey League, was both a curse and a blessing. On the plus side, I got to play hockey with my best friend, and there was never a shortage of beautiful girls. At least there wasn't until Nash decided to man up and tell his childhood friend that he'd always loved her. The bad part was that I usually ended up being second best. In my late teens and early twenties I hadn't cared that I wasn't picked in the first round of the draft, or that sponsors chose Nash ahead of me, or even if I ended up with a girl who didn't really want me for me. I made a nice living playing hockey. I had a few good friends and a nice place to live in the middle of Manhattan. Despite not being the best, I'd made most of my dreams come true and it was a far stretch from the lonely kid I'd been growing up in the rural Midwest. I was happy. I was content. Until her.... It's not like I didn't want what Nash had. I did. I do. Who doesn't want a happily ever after? It's just that I've never taken the risk and allowed a woman to see past my defenses before, to see the real me, with my baggage and all my insecurities... until now. As scary as that is in itself, what makes it complicated is that my new roommate, Jackson - who I offered my spare bedroom to a while back when he needed a place to stay - and Bryce - one of my friends and teammates- also seem to have an interest in her... the woman who has me questioning all my decisions. The thing is... I'm pretty sure I'm not willing to be a second choice this time around...

tw's: descriptions of r*pe, eating disorders, panic attacks ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I had to flee. To escape. I couldn't take the pain of people telling me to be okay. That I was a survivor. But what about me being a victim? All because a few people refused to hear me when I said no. Now I carry around pain, fear, a disgusting feeling that is also there. Behind me. In the shadows. But maybe he'll be the light. ------------------------- This is a hockey player x gymnast college romance. A sunshine x grumpy, little forced proximity, he hangs the stars for her romance book where he would do anything to make her feel safe again

My life's amazing, I have great friends, I have loving parents, and I'm in my senior year of high school. I really couldn't have asked for a better life. That's where Chase has come in, my crush since 5th grade. His captain of the football team and the schools local badboy heartthrob. All the girls in my year want him, but he smashes and dashes them, only dating for them for a few months. It begins like every perfect relationship, but there is something hidden inside of Chase, something very, very dark. I'm Raven and I wouldn't tell.

How bad could it be to enlist your female best friend into helping you lie to your Christian family about your new relationship with your male best friend and about your newfound sexuality? Not that bad, right? Right??? --------- Nova Queen and Arizona "Ari" Matthews weren't always close in high school, but after an intense and serious conversation in the library one day, the two become the best of friends until they go their separate ways their freshman year of college. Now in their mid 20s and freshly out of grad school, they are reunited in the park of their hometown where Ari asks a huge favor of Nova that she later wishes she had refused. But in the end, will she really wish she had refused? *FA spans a timeline from 2010-2020 to help the reader see how the relationships were built between characters in a partial series of flashbacks. It also helps the reader to really see into the minds of Arizona and Nova as they age, and the effect different life events have on them. It's a bit of a slower build and the plot is mostly seen a little later in the book, but I promise it's worth it. 🙂 *I do not own any of the rights to the music nor the pictures. *Rated M for language, sexual content, destructive behaviors, suicide, and dialogue that may be triggering for some readers. *These characters may do or say things that you don't agree or may get upset with, please remember YOU ARE NOT THESE PEOPLE, and their lives are a work of fiction and my imagination. Thank you and please enjoy the story if you choose to continue. 1st Place Undiscovered Awards in LGBTQ! ✨ A #AestheteCertified book ✨ A Fairytale Awards best ship name Honorable Mention ✨ A Fairytale Awards Honorable Mention ✨ A Lollipop Awards Honorable Mention in LGBTQ ✨

"Are you the sun? Because you're beauty is blinding." I say to her. She laughs. I can't even explain how my much I love her breathtaking taking laugh. The way her eyes squint at the corners. Her nose scrunches up just a little bit. A light pink blush spreads across her face. She is perfect. I think it goes without question. I love her. Avyanna: a friendly, pretty,and smart girl. She will do anything to achieve her dreams. While continuously fighting the demons of her past. Grey: A handsome, smart, and athletic boy. Still mourning the loss of his late brother, he is moved to a new city. Starting over again. Avyanna and Grey have both suffered from a terrible past. They both struggle with opening and expressing their emotions to others. When their teacher pairs them together for an assignment, they become acquaintances. Will this lead to something bigger? And most importantly will they find solace in one another?

Book 1 of the "Used to Be" Series Scarlett Fisher: the school's resident mean girl. Beautiful, smart (but doesn't let people know), charismatic, confident (or at least that's what everyone thinks.) The truth is, she's scared, Scared that one day people will see past her smile and charm, and see the person she really is on the inside. Scared that someone will remember who she used to be. ~•~ Now I know I seem like a bitch, and your probably thinking I'm your stereotypical mean girl, but I wasn't always like this, back when high school first started. I had a best friend who I thought I would be friends with forever. I was shy and timid, and I was foolish enough to believe what people told me. Back then everyone knew me as Arora. After the incident I decided to stop going by my first name, I had also learned that being mean, and not taking anything form anyone was the only way to get people to treat you with respect. ~•~ Arora Fisher: the girl most people didn't notice until they needed help with homework, the girl who was voted most likely to disappear and no one would notice. The girl who her believed in the good in others, who wanted to just give people a chance, no matter how many red flags. The girl who was lost to tragedy. ~•~ "We'll be broken together." He try's to smile, but he can't manage it and I nod, knowing how much pain he feels. "We'll be broken together." I whisper, after that we sit there, in an empty silence, neither of us wanting to be the first one to speak again, because it feels off, like the sound of our own voices might somehow break our hearts more.

"Your mom and I have to go. We have to go now. Can you be alone?" "Yes. Why do you have to go?" Rick's eyes are red from crying. "She has the right to know." My mom says, but she still won't look at me. Have the right to know what? ________________________ Today is the first day of Shantinys last year of high school. She will take you with her for this last year. You will be with her at school during class and during lunch breaks. You will be with her at family dinners and parties. You will read about flashbacks and dreams. Follow her for one year, and you'll see how much she and the people around her have grown. Her parents, siblings, friends, and family. Follow her for one year, and you'll see how some people take a longer time to grow, maybe even take a few steps backward. Recognize yourself in the characters and know that you are not alone. __________________________ (⚠️Check the trigger warning list⚠️) ⚠️🤍This is a link. You can find help lines if you are struggling and you wanna talk to someone. You type in your country and what you need help🤍 ⚠️🤍 https://findahelpline.com/ 🤍

A bullied girl meets the popular new student. ***** "Still saying that you're perfectly okay?" Max whispers. I'm surprised to hear that his voice is shaking. "I'm going to find who did this to you." ***** One time, I was the most popular girl in school. All the students in Royal Heights, the school of the richest, knew me as the pretty Luna Klein, daughter of a famous superstar and a well-known billionaire. But the next thing I know, I'm an outcast. Just because of a complicated thing called love, everything turns 180 degrees. Now, I'm the girl that everyone hates. I've lost all my friends. I've lost my best friend. And I've lost the guy that I adore. All I can do now is to ignore the bullies and to survive each day quietly, hoping that I don't attract too much attention like before. Everyone in my school starts to call me loony Luna. Or lunatic, their favorite nickname. Then he suddenly arrives. Max Cooper, the new student who just got here from Australia. Insanely good-looking and smart, topped with his impressive family background, Max easily becomes everybody's favorite, especially the girls'. Disastrously, of all the other things he can pick, Max sets his eyes on the most forbidden and despised thing in Royal Heights. Me. Even though the whole school hates that idea. But pushing Max away is like trying to tame a wild lion that has just been released from its cage. Max is unstoppable. My mother once said that if a guy is really into you, he will pursue you no matter what. I think I know now how it feels. I just don't know how to handle my heart. Because every time his piercing eyes land on me, I feel like my heart is going to burst out of my chest. © 2021 Anya Jayvyn. All Rights Reserved.

I am no stranger to unrequited love; the yearning for someone to love you back as badly as you love them Unrequited love is passionate, unapologetic and can't be tamed. It's also very tiring, and from time to time hurts Like Hell. If loving someone who could never love you back was a skill, I'd have mastered it Which is why I've made myself this promise that If ever I was in the position to find myself falling in love again, the candidate I've fallen for needs to love me back, needs to want me back And if not..... There's no compromise, I won't break my promise, I won't fall in love if I'm not sure if he could love me back. So if there's a slight possibility that I do fall.....No scratch that He needs to fall in love with me. Amber Lincoln a 22 year old student who has never been in a relationship till present day, aims to change that, soon. Plus minus the fact that she is still working through the trauma of the death of her twin sister, father and the attempted suicide of her mother, an insane sex drive for someone who has never had sex because of standards for men created by the men portrayed in movies and books. And a boy who might possibly never want her, whom she might be infatuated with despite promising herself that she wouldnt fall for someone who didnt undoubtedly want her, so she'll spend her time convincing herself that shes not interested in him At least until she convinces him that she is the ultimate love of his life This definitely feels like Amber's year

... I didn't know what to do... so I did nothing. There I was, sprawled onto the ground. Just looking at the sky. Wishing... praying... pleading that it would lift me up and take me far away. The bitter air stung my skin like wasps, but still I laid there my legs bare and my body now trembling, did I care though? Would it be so bad for everything to just stop? ___________________________________________ At a young age Zara had entire life was stripped away from her, but she didn't give up she built a new one... only to have that one torn apart as well. It seems everywhere she goes there's trouble lurking around the corner. There's no escape, and no entrance, it only is. Not only is her mate not what she wanted but yet again a curve ball is thrown into the mix leaving Zara's life in jeopardy. What will happen to Zara will she over come this new problem? Will her life ever be normal? Will her mate change? Or better yet does she want him to? A/N: This is my first story I haven't plotted it I'm just writing and seeing where it gets me. May contain swearing and some possible heated scenes, you have been warned!!!

Being in an abusive relationship is hard, but leaving is even harder. I never thought my sweet, charming boyfriend I met freshman year of college would've ended up this way, but he did, and I don't know how to get out of it. But on my twenty-first birthday when his older brother and I are left alone, we make a mistake. A big mistake. It should've just been a one-time thing, but some things are just too hard to stay away from. Maybe, just maybe, Lucas Weston can be my dirty little secret. And I can be his. (#2 in hefallsfirst) - 5/16/23 (#2 in marinebiology) - 5/16/23 (#2 in brothersgirlfriend) - 5/15/23 (#3 in animallovers) - 5/15/23 (#11 in secretaffair) - 5/16/23 (#10 in veterinarian) - 5/16/23 (#147 in collegeromance) - 5/15/23 (#135 in hockey) - 5/16/23 (#751 in abusiveboyfriend) - 5/15/23 (#40 in boyfriendsbrother) - 5/15/23 (#685 in sportsromance) - 5/15/23 (#131 in beach) - 5/16/23 (#67 in secret) - 5/16/23 (#172 in girlxboy) (#878 in college) (#74 in texas) (#487 in truelove) (

In which I fall in love with my brother's best friend. ***** "Don't pretend like you don't feel anything." His voice is low, sending shivers down my spine. "What do you mean?" "You know damn well what I mean." "I don't know what you're talking about." I pretend to ignore him, flipping some pages in my book. "Come on. I have all these assignments waiting. Aren't you supposed to teach me tonight?" "It depends on what you want me to teach." He smirks, his voice sounding even more dangerous. ***** I thought that my brother was the most popular guy in school, but as soon as I step into my university life, I realize how wrong I was. Meet Vaughn Cooper, his best friend. The guy is the epitome of every girl's dream. Godlike handsome. The quarterback. He's got the looks, and he's got the brain. Come on, he's got the scholarship to one of the most prestigious universities in the country, while I have just barely passed the entrance examination after long years of struggle during high school. How could a guy who worked that hard and deserves nothing more but adoration be labeled as a bad boy? Yeah, the answer is simple. The moment we lock eyes, I realize something as I stare into those piercing, amber eyes. He's not every girl's dream. He's every girl's nightmare. In my case, MY nightmare. Calm down, heart. Our story hasn't even started. © 2020 Anya Jayvyn. All Rights Reserved. (Content warning: This book has descriptive sexual content, explicit language, and triggering themes)

𝐈𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐚𝐡 - One could say that I'm a failure - that I'm nothing but a nuisance, or that I'm a criminal that deserved to be behind bars - And honestly, I couldn't give two shits about what the next person could think of me. I'm what they call a survivor. Risking, and doing things that no 18 year old kid should be doing. So yea, I could care less about what people could think of me. So why was it that when this 𝐠𝗼𝐫𝐠𝐞𝗼𝐮𝐬, 𝐬𝗺𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝗺𝗼𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐝, 𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐳𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬𝐬 looks at me, do I want to hide my harsh cold world. To keep her at bay from who I 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 am. But I wanted her - 𝐛𝐚𝐝𝐥𝐲, but nothing good would come from ever loving me. 𝐈𝗺𝐚𝐧𝐢 - He was quiet, laid-back and a 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 asshole. Yet, I just can't seem to get him out of my mind. He has that certain . . . . aura about him. One that I'm awfully familiar with. I needed to save him before it was too late - before I 𝐥𝗼𝐬𝐭 him too. His eyes always seemed to draw me in. It's like he was calling to me - as if he 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 me, as if he 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐞𝐝 me. I wanted him - badly. I wanted him so that I could hold him. To be the one to help him stitch all his 𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐬 and just maybe . . . He could help me fix mine too.

When Rebeccas mom passed away from cancer, she finds herself 4 months later moving to a new town with her dad. As she deals with starting a new school and bumping into the very attractive Lexie Foster, how will their new "friendship" play out? However, this isn't all Rebecca has to deal with. Due to her mother's death, her father has started drinking a little bit more than usual. How will Rebecca cope with his mood swings and what will happen when things start to get a lot worst behind closed doors? Will she trust in her new found love interest or hide it from everyone? =================== Started: June 2020 Finished: January 2021 =================== Best Rankings: #1 in newgirl on 12/03/21 #1 in suffering on 29/01/21 #1 in rebecca on 10/02/21 #2 in gxg on 31/11/20 #2 in moodswings on 18/04/21 #2 in gayromance on 29/04/21 #3 in gay on 07/02/21 #6 in newschool on 28/04/21 #7 in abuse on 29/11/21 #15 in lesbianromance on 14/05/21 #17 in girlxgirl on 09/02/21 #24 in trust on 14/02/21 #24 in nightmares on 28/04/21 #25 in wlw on 12/09/21 #28 in couple on 04/03/21 #34 in gay fiction on 09/04/21 #38 in teen romance on 26/04/22 #58 in lesbian on 15/05/21 #59 in lgbt on 18/02/21 Book Cover made by: @1-800-get-yeeted

...We were so caught up in the shared moment of care free joy to notice the midnight grey Toyota pickup truck speeding directly towards us. Meters before impact dad finally caught on to what was about to happen, despite it being day the approaching vehicle's headlights blinded us as our cars breaks slammed on, the sound of the tires melting away as the rubber tires scraped against the pavement filled the air and the scent of burning rubber overwhelmed my nostrils, despite our efforts the brakes didn't slow us down, we were to late. There was nothing we could do as we collided head on..." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Attempt two at writing a book lmao, summaries without spoilers are not my strong point but here you go: After a tragic child hood accident Astra is left utterly alone, forcing her to make a massive move across the states to live in Tennessee with her grandmother. A few years pass and Astra finds it difficult to deal with the trauma she experienced as a young child, but surrounded by friends and throwing herself into education she starts to heal, until she meets Jason. In the beginning Jason was a kind, caring guy who seemed genuinely interested in getting to know Astra, but not everyone is who they seem to be. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TW LIST!!!! (there's alot) swearing, lots PTSD/past trauma Character death Violence/ injury detailing Stalking Kidnapping Depression, anxiety Panic attacks Alcohol and drug usage Over thinking Self harm/sabotage Survivors guilt Potential homophobia Eating disorders If there's anything you think needs to be posted as a TW then let me know, also please don't read if there is anything that triggers you. Some of these topics are personal, don't be afraid to reach out if you need to talk or ask anything :) Also this is my first solo writing project so any feedback positive/negative is appreciated, writing tips for anything too, hope you enjoy. - jammy :) 24/09/24 - ?

"Are you French? Because Eiffel for you." I say to her. She laughs. I can't even explain how my much I love her breathtaking taking laugh. The way her eyes squirt at the corners. Her nose scrunches up just a little bit. A light pink blush spreads across her face. She is perfect. I think it goes without question. I love her. Avyanna: a friendly, pretty,and smart girl. She will do anything to achieve her dreams. While continuously fighting the demons of her past. Grey: A handsome, smart, and athletic boy. Still mourning the loss of his late brother, he is moved to a new city. Starting over again. Avyanna and Grey have both suffered from a terrible past. They both struggle with opening and expressing their emotions to others. When their journalism teacher pairs them together for a writing assignment about one another, they become acquaintances. Will this lead to something bigger? And most importantly will they find solace in one another?