|| MATURE THEMES || "And you say "Did you even notice, that I, began, to bleed?" And it all goes out of focus, and I hear you start to scream. Help me. Help me. Why won't you help me?" - flatsound - "Well I was at a friend's, and that's the only answer your going to get, so quit asking!" I snap, and he just sits there in disbelief. I not only hated when people asked questions they already know the answer to, because it seems like they're trying to be smug about it, or have some egotistical strong belief that they know everything. "Help me, help you. I don't fully understand where you're coming from, but I'd like to get your perspective on things. We're going to be around each other for awhile so just open up a bit. I know your irritated because you don't want help, but nothings wrong with at least trying to explain what's happening." I was a bit taken back with his response, it was like my heart yearned to pour out all my secrets, and the deepest darkest thoughts that I keep hidden was threatening to spill out from my mouth. "We've known each other for what? Three days? And you think we have some unbreakable bond?" My body screamed to stop, but it was like first instinct. To push the people who love me, away, and people who want to get to know me better, away. Though I don't exactly enjoy this part of myself, but I know in my heart, that if I get involved with him, it'd only break my heart. ✙✙✙✙ STARTED : September 26, 2023 FINISHED : October 1, 2023 ✰✰✰✰ #6 johnnieguilbert 09/30/23 #174 depressing 09/30/23 #42 sad romance 09/30/23 #62 readatyourownrisk 09/30/23 #25 youtuberxreader 09/30/23 #5 probation 09/30/23 #4 housearrest 09/30/23

PLEASE READ DESC!! This is a fanfiction between jake Webber and Johnnie guilbert. it will be told in ALL Johnnie's POV Johnnie is going through a hard time. he hates every part of himself, no one will ever love him, at least. that's what he thinks... ... TRIGGER WARNING!!! THIS STORY WILL CONTAIN THE FALLOWING! -self harm -cursing -talk of suicide -online bullying -intense makeouts -eating disorders I'll try an refrain from making this cringy as much as I possibly can💀 Note to Jake Webber and Johnnie Guilbert. If you are seeing this and you happen to do a video on "reading famfics" may I ask, please don't read this one, for it contains many sensitive topics (especially early on in the book), which may be uncomfortable for some people.-moo (please don't leave hate comments this is not being made with ill intent twords anyone, it's purely for entertainment reasons. if either of them state at anytime they are uncomfortable with fanfics this will be taken down.) BOTH PEOPLE ARE CURRENTLY FINE WITH THIS FANFIC!!

Book 2 of 4 Every cigarette I smoke I dedicate to you. This is because you both kill me inside. You know my lips well and every time we touch, it sets fire to my soul. Both lasting briefly. Both killing me inside out. But both leaves me wanting more. "I suffer alone because I don't wanna burden anyone, I don't want them to treat me differently because I have a few wires crossed in my brain differently than theirs. I don't want to explain to them the shit that I been through... I've seen things that I can't unseen... I've done things I can't undo. I just want the pain to stop... I don't want to wake up one day and finally have the courage to kill myself because after I can't unkill myself. Nothing terrifies me more than myself and I have to live with myself for as long as I'm alive." ⚠️Contains strong language and heavy issues as portrayed on 13 reasons why! Do not read if you get triggered by issues such as depression, anxiety, sexual abuse, domestic abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, drug addiction, self harm, teen pregnancy or suicide.⚠️ Started: 30/10/20 Finished: 04/01/21 Status: Concluded Season: 2 BOOK 1, 2, 3 and 4 OUT NOW!

Sal x Travis story blah blah blah. I'm tired of writing descriptions 😭. No ghosts, Goblins, Demons, cults, human bologna, WHATEVER. anyways have fun reading 😍 Warnings: Cursing Abuse Suicide mentions Self Harm I can't think of anything else. #1 on salvis on 5/22/24

COMPLETE ⚠️ This is a fictional story. ⚠️ All characters are fictional, their opinions and actions are in no way real, or related to the real world. ⚠️ This story contains mature themes. ⚠️ Mature themes such as violence, harassment, self-harm, suicide-attempts, sex, alcohol- and drug-abuse. ⚠️ Read with caution! ⚠️ I will not post warnings on the chapters containing mature themes. This is your only warning. 🔪 "You're so damn gorgeous, Ives," he says, and leans up to meet my lips again. He's the one that's gorgeous, and I feel myself completely loose myself once again. His lips are dominating my own, as his hands travel down my back, and he tugs on my shirt, to release it from my skirt. His hands then caresses my bare skin for a few minutes, before he sits up. He brings me with him, and I'm now straddling his lap. His eyes are filled with lust, and I'm so damn scared, for completely different reasons than earlier tonight. His skillful fingers finds the buttons of my shirt, and he opens them slowly, while I lean back down towards him, to make our lips connect again. I might come to my senses if he doesn't keep kissing me. He tugs the shirt off of me, and his hands run across my bare stomach. He stops, suddenly, and I feel a sharp sting under my left boob. "What happened? Are you..." He trails off, as he looks down at my body, and I stiffen. Holy shit, I forgot all about that. "Ives... What is this?" he asks, and he pulls his hands away from me. 🌹 Ives has just moved away from her overprotective brother and their alcoholic dad to go to college. She is trying her best to put her past behind her, but it keeps coming back to haunt her. In this book we get to know Ives and her new friends as she struggles with her newfound freedom. (This is the first book in the Life series.)

"If you love me, you won't leave me." Jessie has believed those words from her boyfriend, Josh, since senior year of high school. She loves him and doesn't want to leave him. Not even when he shouts at her and hits her. Jessie's best friend, Kolleen, can't stand seeing her in that situation. With a bit of convincing - and the worst beating she'd ever received - Jessie agrees to move into an apartment with Kolleen. But not long after, Jessie is scared the worst of her nightmares will soon become a reality. Josh goes missing, and suddenly Jessie would swear she's being followed. One night changes everything, and one person soon changes Jessie's outlook. A responding officer from that fateful night begins to seek her out, at first claiming it's part of his job. As she spends time with her new friend outside of his job, she starts realizing that her feelings are evolving. After being abused for over a year, Jessie is terrified she's falling in love. What's even more terrifying is that he might be, too. She isn't ready for love. Not yet. She makes up her mind that if he is falling, and if he does love her, he'll wait for her to be ready, and if she loves him, she won't let herself hurt him. Can the words that used to cage her in really be the key to her freedom? --- Featured On: @NA: Take a seat and let it be | Mature Content and 18 reading list @NA: You deserve the world | Mental Health reading list Ambys Top Picks New Adult 2023

The past carries an unjust history. Immoral actions mark the present. The future holds untold consequences. Bad things happen to good people, and good people do bad things. | | || ||| ||||| |||||||| ||||||||||||| You, of all people, should understand the obsession. Whether it's the endless hours lost to a screen, the compulsion to scroll through forums, the need for that next high, the haunting grip of past trauma, the fixation on someone unattainable, the pursuit of a fleeting feeling, or even the inexplicable attachment to something as simple as frogs-obsession has woven itself into every corner of your life. •__ •_ •• •_• •_• • •••• / ••_ • •_• I have done terrible things because I let obsession take over me. It wasn't always that way. It started as a lie; it became true one day. I told myself I was in control and could stop anytime, but I only lied to myself. I was powerless. I never wanted to hurt anyone; I hurt him and myself. Now, I'm left with the wreckage of my choices. I wonder if there's any way to get things back to how they were before. Xgbs bqf zpv patfttfc xisg? To us, they are just another random person: the letters carved on the table, the artist of old graffiti, the person who also walked into the restroom, the reason the trash is full, or the garbage thrower on the side of the streets. But to them, they're the main fucking character in their own story, and each mark, item, digital trace, and photo they have makes a fragment of their existence. We may never know their face or name, but the traces they left remind us that everyone's lives intersect, creating a vast web of connections; unnoticed or not, they are never truly invisible. Dy32Al43Dy44|Dy11Al99Dy33|Dy44Dy87Dy22|Dy01Dy87|Dy87Al11Dy01Dy33Dy01Dy01Dy33Al21|Dy32Dy55Al01Al43|Dy21Al99Dy11Dy21Dy65Dy55Al77Dy43|Dy21Dy87Al21Dy33Dy01/

background info: the bau, and the team, had always been understanding of your mental health, letting you take days or weeks off when you weren't feeling too great. this time things got really bad and you tried to end your life. you had been off work for a month and hadn't seen anyone since. the team come by to check if you're ok and are satisfied with you telling them through the door. but that isn't enough for emily anymore. trigger warning: this will include talk of mental illness, self harm (nothing too graphic), mention of a suicide attempt (in the past) and other themes related to this. please do not read if you think this will trigger you, keep yourself safe<3

(i might not put apostrophes bc thats a lot of work) (lowercase is on purpose) bianca's pov it started back in high school. i saw him sitting on the roof. i couldnt keep my eyes off of him while he wrote in a notebook, or started at the sky, or just layed there smoking something funny. he didnt notice me. nobody ever does. gustav's pov it started back in high school. i would sit on the roof alone, writing song lyrics, smoking kush, or just staring at the stars. i could have sworn i felt someone watching me, but the feeling passed.

|| MATURE THEMES: SUICIDE || 10 days is, 240 hours, Or 14400 minutes, Or 864000 seconds. That's how much time they had together before her last breath. ✶ ✶ ✶ I hadn't told a single soul about how I felt, including Johnnie. He would tell me his issues, and I'd help him in every way that I could. I didn't let anybody know, and I don't hold that against anyone that was in my life. I kept my problems hidden for a number of reasons, I felt hopeless, alone, and mostly afraid. I didn't want people to see how I was really doing, I wanted to keep up with the persona of that 'enthusiastic girl on YouTube' I don't blame him, and I don't blame my subscribers for not noticing. I hid it well, maybe even too well with the amount of dread I was in. I loved Johnnie, and I'll always love him, he helped me without even realizing it. All this pain, all this anger, flushed away by his presence. He was the love of my life. So I made a plan, 10 days, 10 possibilities, 10 possible outcomes. I would give myself 10 days to live my life to the fullest, so on that horrific last day -the 10th day- I could determine my suicide. I would look for hope within that ten days, and if I found something to stay for, I would get help. If things got worse, then that was going to be my last day. ✪ ✪ ✪ STARTED: October 17, 2023 FINISHED: October 22. 2033 ★ ★ ★