⚠️ ⚠️WARNING WARNING WARNING⚠️⚠️ Adult content Language *DO NOT READ IF YOU EASILY GET OFFENDED* *DO NOT REPORT* Stubborn, Love, Insecure, Feelings . . . Fuck That, Nvm just stay Nonchalant it's the best thing going anyways.

when a shy girl's true colors come out after getting involved with a troublesome boy

if you could define life by color, life before Him was kinda pale. the days were pretty and pink, but there was no warmth to give it vibrancy or nothing. every day was basically the same and exhaustingly boring. His arrival brought not only new colors and vibrancy, but meaning to the ones i'd already known. i loved it, the months where things were good between us felt like he showed me a new way of life that was totally different from everything. he left, snatching the color back from me. i don't know how i'll find anything like that ever again, so i suppose i'll try suppressing the memories. even if it means i fade to gray.

**MATURE CONTENT** Abuse.

-Let's get this straight. From a dead end job to a useless crazy ex boyfriend- my happiness is with my best friend yet the fear of our relationship ending completely scares me and id rather fake it and be in fear than find out and never be happy. It sucks, seeing him everyday and knowing what i feel for him and how deep those feelings go is painful...- But when he comes around everything changes for the best and for the worst. As a whole they are deeply loved and equally as hated by others but the love from one another is undeniable, if only she wasnt so selfish with her choices and words- -Lying, cheating, sneaking, crying- many acts and emotions come from within when there's someone you love unaware of that love.. Possibly growing to love someone else right before your eyes..Its gut wrenching, i know because ive fucked up. Its worse when you're aware of the harm you cause yourself and others but dont care how the outcome turns out to be. Why would it matter how it effects you if youre used to pain and people leaving? it wouldnt. All because you take comfort in your own mind and mental illness, once you realize you have freewill it may become a bad thing if youre careless.- - Gabriella White.

I always believed that my group of friends were resilient enough to withstand anything. But then that day happened and I watched it helplessly crumble. I wasn't aware it had to crumble to build itself back up again. It was a painful process But I learned so much, I overcame so much. Here is our story. -/ Imagine the most awful thing you're mind can conjure up, in the darkest crevices of your conscience. Well for me, that was made a reality. My entire world was collapsing. I thought I knew myself, I thought I knew others, I knew nothing.

I'll be honest, this isn't a story it's more or less a really long journal entry about my toxic relationship. I'm not really writing this to get views or anything of that sort -kinda more just to get closure and maybe help out others who are in a similar situation. With that being said if you choose to read this be warned there are triggers regarding drugs, alcohol, suicide, gaslighting, miscarriage, manipulation and so much more. Please read at your own risk.

NOT EDITED PREPARE FOR SPELLING AND GRAMMAR MISTAKES; TRIGGER WARNING: I suck at putting them in the book so if you need one for any reason this is it. Be careful love:) ~~~~~~ Once you become addicted to something it never goes away. And that's what we are addicted. When addicted you'll do anything to get your next fix and for us that involved fighting, murder, and risking our lives just to see the other breathing. and even when your "sober" you'll always be addicted, that will always be your one true craving. That's exactly what happened too. We would set fire to the world around us and never let a flame touch the other because if we did... ... we'd destroy ourselves in the process. Simply I was marked by him And he was marked by me. ~~~~~ THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING MY BOOK A CHANCE. PLEASE VOTE AND COMMENT. I HOPE YOU ENJOY BABE:

Read the very first chapter do not skip...

This story contains some mature scenes.