I saw that twinkle. I know my boy and he had that twinkle. My boys in love. He's in love and he don't know it yet. I hope he realizes before it's too late. ------------------- Raised in a homophobic trailer park, when your gay and where no one cares about you, you depend on yourself and friends to get through. When we were rescued or kidnaped-whatever you may call it-we put in our full trust. Can we deal or do we run? Not My Best Work... [Contains Sexual Content] {Complete} [Edited, can always be improved tho]

"Leo pinned me against the wall with his hips; his hands gently gripping my wrists, keeping my arms above my head against the cool brick behind me. His beautiful, hazy blue eyes -that had turned straight quicksilver, again- were filled with such an intense, carnal desire I couldn't even look into them, so I looked over his shoulder. I saw a small group of kids from the group standing out by their cars who would easily be able to see what we were doing...or at least what Leo was doing to me. At that moment, my mind started wandering to all the things that I could be doing to him right now...but I stopped that train of thought, immediately, as it started heading to all the wrong places... All the dirty places... All of those places involving a very hard part of my body... I glanced back at Leo; his gaze was still as intense as it was before (unfortunately). He smirked at me and said confidently, "You can't ignore me forever, Ethan. You're eventually gonna fall for my charms..." Ethan Carter was focused on 2 things. 1. School (obviously) and 2. Getting over ex (it's proving to be, harder than he thought), but now he has to add dying to that list, and suddenly having feelings for a boy (which has happened once before, but Ethan tries to forget it). Leo Malone makes Ethan feel things he's never felt for another guy. Leo's sweet, patient, and understanding, the only problem is, he's a guy. Ethan tries to ignore the fact that his heart flutters every time he sees Leo, or that he can't ever stop thinking about him; but if having cancer has taught him one thing, it's that, "You have to live in the present, as you may not have a future."

After an unexpected hookup with his best friend, Holden finds himself quickly catching feelings and falling in love. He knows he's playing a dangerous game, considering that his best friend is somewhat homophobic, but he can't help but think about hooking up with him again. He quickly realizes that he has to make a decision, try to repair the friendship, or cut ties forever. *This story is horribly cringy, but good in my opinion. Always looking for feedback and corrections!* *This story will also contain a LOT of smut :p*

"I hate you - so much Tripp." More confusion because, once more, wasn't this a good thing? "Why did you have to say that? What if," A little quieter, just above a whisper. "What if we mess up our friendship?" "But what if we don't?" "You don't know that," I bumped his nose with my finger. "And neither do you. So, why don't we give it a shot?" He bit down on his bottom lip, hesitation and worry filling his gaze. __ This is literally a story that follows the plot of two best friends realizing their feelings for each other, yes, I know, very cliche, but I enjoyed writing it. There will be mature LGBT content, so if you don't want to read those chapters or this story, skip it. Highest Rankings (that I'm aware of): LGBT : #3 , College Romance: #2 , Gay: #19 / GayPride: #2, Gay boyxboy #1

5 years ago, I lost my best friend. All because he confessed his feelings for me and I over thought things. I was left on my own only to realize too late that the feelings were mutual. Now, I vow to love the next guy wholeheartedly, with no reservations, no regrets. I only live once. Let's not make things complicated. When I love, I love period. - Mew Bennett I have never been in love. Sure I've been with girls but I never felt the need to take care of anyone. To be responsible with another person's feelings is just so big a burden, I'd rather not experience it. I'm all for self-preservation, to be secured in who I am without having to worry about hurting someone else. Let's not make things complicated. I don't intend to fall in love period. -Gulf McQueen

[OLD] [NOT MEANT TO ROMANTICIZE DEPRESSION OR MENTAL ILLNESS. SIMPLY A TROPE.] Tom isn't your average teen. But then again, what makes a teen average? His family is broken, his mental health is slowly declining, and he's faced questioning his sexuality. Often left to sit in his bed on his phone most of the day, his reasons to live were slowly declining. Tom thought it was better this way. It was better to not disturb anyone, to wear the same clothes over and over, and to stay boring. All, of course, until Tom met him. Updates every Friday. Maybe more days if I'm not busy or I'm motivated to do so. ⚠️ TW ⚠️ -boyxboy (shouldn't be a warning smh) -suicidal thoughts -self harm (cutting, etc) -no smut, probably fluff though -throwing up I didn't take the photo in the cover. I only added the text. This story does have a happy ending, because I also realized how much of an impact reading angst stories without one has on me. I also just want it to end well, and you probably do as well. Good luck reading, and thank you in advance.

A NOT SO INNOCENT 'NERD' Sebastian Fernández called as 'Nerd' in their school despite not really a 'Nerd',yeah he's smart but he doesn't want to be called like that especially when he doesn't even wore some 'nerdy' clothes and glasses because of his twin said so that he'll be freaking good to wear simple but gorgeous shirt or some shits like that, anyways... Sebastian the 'Nerd' has a secret though, he's GAY,yeah fucking gay for one and only Kylle Winston who's also his crush for a long time now. But what will happen next if he was DRUGGED and RAPE by his very own best friend named Mark Anthony Desmond. For normal people,they would report it immediately or never forgive someone but in the case of Sebastian,He never did. It's crazy,right? But destiny seems to play with him,he kept meeting new people and got hooked up on them,like Arkie Lewis Augustine who has been stalking him and eventually 'Forced' him to be his boyfriend. What do you think will happen to Sebastian?Will he let himself get manipulated or move away from the toxic people? _________________________________ "Life is short,you have to date whoever you meet" ________________________________ This book might contains some; •Error(yeah since English is not my first language so forgive me and correct me if I'm wrong) •SMUT(yeah I know what you're thinking,but don't report me, I'm begging hehe) •Strong Languages(I mean,some curses like 'fuck','shit',or something like that) •Drugs and Smoke •Cringe(hehe,yeah) •LGBTQ •GAY(BL)

Why does life come with so many different possible answers to the same question? Which answer is the correct one and how do you know for sure? Finding your true self, amid all the decisions you're forced to make in growing up, is quite a battle, isn't it? I was doing okay. Really I was. Then I literally bumped into him and that was it. That was when everything changed. My life took a new turn and became an exciting adventure. I found myself swept along in a sea of change that I either had to swim along with, or sink and drown. It was a no brainer to swim but fully embracing the changes to the way I thought and felt was quite a journey. This is my story.

I fell in love with the utmost beauty of you,the deepest truth of you...yet I was never noticed. ____________________________________________________________________________________ Jai easily accepted he loves his best friend, slowly falling deeper into the feelings. Feeling swoons and what not. First crush hits different,right? Especially when your crush is your bff and you got to know he has a crush too,who is not you and little did you always knew it was never gonna be you. Either you have to erase the feelings or keep hurting for the rest of your life. But life wants you miserable,and now you are worse than that. Would Jai ever get over or will fall in the void deeper and alone. This is how it feels to love your best friend. TW: includes smut, smoking and very poorly written ( &so many grammatical mistakes so feel free to correct and teach me ). Plus, English isn't my first language so this is going to be a disaster, I can not even speak my first language properly so yeah, this sure will be one :). COMPLETED‼️‼️

"Are you okay? Can you still stand up?" I asked him "Go away!" He replied I remember the day I met him he was wearing a black shirt and black pants. He looks helpless and wasted until I get to know him more after the incident "I just wanna be the one who can He call and I wanna be the one who can be with him always" He explained I didn't know that he and I would be friends, I didn't know that I could be the one who would listen to his complaints and dramas, but I didn't know that....he likes someone else "I can be the one you can call and... I can be the one that you can be with always" I replied while looking at him We both didn't talk and stayed silent. I guess being in love makes you stupid and I can prove that as I am the stupid one

{MxMxMxM} "I'm everything I can't be, and I hate it. But I can't do anything about the situation I'm in, so I'll have to deal with it. " .... Tycho Black was struggling with a few things in his life with no one to save him but himself. He didn't really care though, considering it was easy to block out unwanted things. Whether it was thoughts, physical or emotional pain, or anything else- at the end of the day none of it mattered to him. He didn't care that he could possibly feel some sick attraction to men, even though he had never felt attraction before. He didn't care about going home and being met with nothing but fear. And he certainly didn't care about Alexei Abbots or the other older and mysterious men Alexei was associated with. Alexei in particular, though, was just a little weasel that wouldn't leave his mind. He thought he could block him out like every other person, like every other male that made him think in such a bad way. But somehow, for the first time, he couldn't force himself to forget the expression on the boy's face when his fist collided roughly with his jaw. ~ Alexei Abbots was happy. Really, really happy. He was open, free, and accepted by the two best women he had ever met who completely turned his life around. Not only was he welcomed with open arms by his two mothers, but he was also met with the arms of two men he had a mutual fondness for: Riley Worthright and Xavier Mendoza. He was on top of the world, and his not-so-gentle past wouldn't change that. Neither would Tycho Black, the aggressive bully on campus who seemed to get off on being a homophobic a-hole.

| • | • | What's life without drama | • | • | How could you know love without experiencing heartache. | • | Your pride can be your biggest downfall | • | Everything isn't always picture-perfect, In fact most things comes with a hefty Sacrifice. In the wise words of my great-Grandmother • "Live for yourself son, and not for others". • I must say it took me a while to break that phrase down. Having to learn the true meaning of what L O V E really is (isn't always so lovely) , H A T E , hmm (Hate is a strong word), ever heard that phrase before? I believe we've all have. Understanding the meaning of a true lover, a bestfriend, a counselor. Growth, bounding, a journey. I welcome you into my life, brace yourself this ride won't be smooth ! But it was damn sure worth it. *Stands tall, adjust mic. Clears throat. "Hello everyone, I'm Jordan X Johnson and this is my Truth" * Real life events, My Truth *

I'm falling... Falling, helplessly and inevitably; completely at the mercy of the forces dragging me down. Having to trust in an entity's blind intentions and praying to God that they won't let me hit the ground. It's an incredible and horrifying feeling. A feeling that I live for. And I have realized that having something to live for makes you all the more scared of dying. (Constant uploads, and even more editing to older uploads)

Kristof has a girlfriend... And she's perfect. She's smart, pretty,... but she's not, well, HIM. But it's ok. Because HE is straight af. So there is no way they could ever be... Nick is single. Not because he's lacking offers... oh no... because he wants to be. He'd rather be single than be with someone that's not HIM. But it's ok. Because HE is straight af. So there is no way they could ever be... ***** Don't be fooled by the number of chapters - this is a short and sweet read ;) Written April-June 2020.

" what's wrong," he asked, fucking tears, now I have to answer him " nothing I'm fine," I said he scoffed " I didn't ask are you okay but obviously your not fine," he said I roll my eyes at him why can't he leave me alone " I'm not in the mood to talk Alex," I said drinking "you're never in the mood to talk to me," he said inhaling the smoke of his cigarette Alexander and Elliot they are alike but at the same time different one is deadly when you get close other one crazy when look deep into his soul Everyone are scared of Alexander and tries to stay away from him still girls and boys throw themselves at him but he has his eyes on Elliot Elliot is hurt but still smiles and laughs with his friend everyone in school fear him every girl wants him he hates gays but when Alexander stares at him he feels something and that scares him because he never thought he would these things towards a man So what happens when Elliot is not just attracted to Alexander but something more and Alexander notices that it's not lust he has for Elliot will Alexander and Elliot both heal each other and maybe love? What will happen in Elliot's life when Alexander enters? I know its sounds a cliché Highschool story but I promise it's not , I love BoyxBoy books to read and I thought I should write one, this book has a mature scene and little violent. For those who don't like bxb books it's okay you can read my other books and those who like bxb books read it it's going to be awesome Start: 4/12/2019 End:12/3/2020

When the best day of your life turns into your worst nightmare, you stand in decent company. Deklyn Jackson begins his journey to adulthood saying difficult goodbyes and extraordinary hellos. Friends new and old help navigate the murky waters of a changing tide. "You want me to stop?" He asked. "Yes." I breathed out too slowly. "Okay" he shrugged without moving. "Okay?" I asked breathlessly. "I won't do anything you don't want me to do." He promised. "No" I whimpered. "No?" He questioned. "No, I don't want you to stop." I clarified. Time stood still as his eyes grew wider. The captivating blue freezing me in their trance. ^^^^All my writings are completely my own. Please do not copy or share my content without expressed written consent. Any and all coincidences to any other story are purely unintended. Please do not use any portion of my writings in a manner as to claim it as your own.^^^^ If you are reading this story on any other platform aside from Wattpad you are very likely to be at risk for Malware. If you want to read this story in its original, safe form please go to https://my.w.tt/Qrr4QBdZ88. Thank you. ANY MUSIC, PICS OR GRAPHICS DO NOT BELONG TO ME. I DO NOT OWN THE RIGHTS IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM.

What if you committed suicide one day. After just one horrible day that set you off. You know, the bullies and the mean classmates who want to help but don't. And your crush refuses to help you one night. What if another woke up months later with no memory? You don't know who you are, nothing seems familiar. All you know is that something draws you to a boy who died months ago right before school ended. A lot of people care that he is dead, they feel responsible. Another boy catches your attention and you can't help but feel something for him. What if he's the answer to your problem but he won't talk about the dead boy? What if he does? Can you win over his trust and figure things out or will meeting him awaken something in you, you may or may not have known? or seen coming...

__ "I can't love you." "...I don't understand." "And you never will. This is your what if." "I don't want you to be my what if, though." "And I didn't want him to be mine, yet here we are.' __ Tristan Evans, notorious man whore and slut of the century has lost the man he cared most about. He is severely depressed and can't go a day without his mind being plagued with what if's. So when the new boy in town reminds him of the fiancé he lost, it takes all the self control he has to be able to control himself and not suffocate his newest love interest. However, can you love someone enough to make a relationship work when you're only with them for someone else || completed 23/11/16||

Two straight guys. The first, twenty-one years old, committed and loyal to his girlfriend for two years. Sociable, kind, and good-hearted. The second, twenty-three years old. He has dated so many girls he can't even remember their names. He has no real friends. In fact, he's disliked by everyone, given his cold and aggressive demeanor. He's perceived exactly as he presents himself. A dark-haired guy with tattoos and attitude problems. "I know what I did was wrong. It was wrong of me to kiss you... You're free to hate me. You can decide never to see me again. But before you go, please eat..." their eyes locked, until he sighed and looked down. "And if that's what you want... I won't bother you again" he said with his head lowered, when he felt the other's hand caressing his face. He shook his head negatively as he stroked his cheek with his thumb. "I don't want that..." 🖤New Chapter : Every Tuesday🖤 ~ Warning : contains mature content (violence, strong language, sexual content intended for 18 audiences only) ~