(NOT COMPLETED)(EDITING) ,, Kiss me until your pain is mine ,, he whispered ,, I fear you might drown if I try. ,, ,, I would drown in oceans for you, if it means you'd get the last breath ,, ,, I thought you hated me. ,, ,, I never did. ,, Cover by my bestie @marauders-lupin Fictional Characters created by me in their collages BUT I FOUND ALL THE PICTURES ON THE INTERNET, THESE ARE NOT MY PHOTOS!!! (This book could be more of a deep romance than drugs and mafia, we'll see. It includes mentall illness and tw's. People say I can write very deep, so if you don't like deep stuff then you shouldn't read this book) *also check out my first book "When you're broken"* ENJOYYYY BABESSS

"Why would you do that for me? We barely know each other?" I say barely above a whisper. "Because I think you're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen." He with complete honesty lacing his voice. His beautiful brown eyes bore into mine as if it were only the two of us left in the world. ••• When 20 year old Luna and her best friend Lily move into a new apartment to go to college, Luna ends up befriending a boy who would change their lives forever. Luna is starting over in a new city, hoping she can put her traumatic past behind her. Learning how to trust people and let them in isn't easy, but will a certain certified bad boy break down her walls? Jax is a 25 year old who is currently preparing to take over the canadian mafia from his father. He's a very closed off and cold person. He doesn't like it when people touch him and try to break down his walls, but what happens when he see's a girl and can't help but to want to feel her touch. Will these two be able to save each other? or will they build up their walls so high that neither of them will be able to break each others down. Rivals and secrets are brought to the surface, people fall in and out of love, their loyalty gets tested and tensions rise. Will this group of strangers turned friends be able to beat the odds, or should they give up before they even start. this book contains • mature language • violence • SA • SH • smut

As you escape from your dark past, you find yourself hiding in N.Y.C and that's when you meet him. The most fear man in all United States. Will you be able to survive in his world or will it break you. ~~~~ "I can explain, this is not what it seems, Blake I beg you just please let me explain this is just a big misunderstanding!! I understand I lied about my name, but I've never betrayed you Blake, or the team I swear !" Alyssa said. Blake was furious, his heart was beating fast. He trusted this woman and she betrayed him or at least that's what it sounds, but at the same time he couldn't bear to see her this distraught and knowing he had to pull the trigger and end her life. He loved this woman, even if he didn't wanted to admit it. David looked at Blake and whispered ... "Blake, tell your men to get in the car, get Alyssa into the forest where no one can see you pull the trigger far away from her tell her to never come back and let her live." Blake pause for a second, thinking of what his best friend said. Analyzing his next move, and with a blink of an eye Blake pointed his gun foward and David surprised yelled .... "Blake don't!!" **Gunshots were heard WARNING!! This book will contain SMUT ! It might also contain SA, addiction, mental and physical abuse, miscarriages and other stuffs YOU'VE BEEN WARNED !!

May could've never imagined that she'd fall so deep just from her sister dying. Going from an average 13 year old girl to a drug addicted. She even got her best friend involved, now there both drowning in misery. Livi who was childhood friends with Scarlett the most popular girl in school, she is bullied for the way she dressed and slowly but surely, it became physically putting her in a depression. Only her best friend could help her cope with the stress. Grace who's often beaten by her brother because he blames her for their mothers death. Her dad is an alcoholic who can't support for his family like a dad should. She goes to party's and hangs out with her friend Justin and Katie , who are always there for her. Grace gets her violent personality from her brothers influence, as she often gets into fights. Scarlett is being abused by her parents, and has been depressed practically her whole life. She's know as the smartest and most prettiest girl in school. Everyone knows and loves her. But in reality she has been depressed and miserable her whole life. Her Best friend Livi is the only person she can trust. Amir was a sweet kind girl, until she gets influenced by teenagers to start smoking and soon drinking and taking other substances as she slowly ruins her life If you into angst, trust, you may like this! First book 😭😭 TRUST THE PROCESS Story about 5 middle school girls getting into things they shouldn't to fill the void inside them. Sad ending 🥱 !! 16 This story includes: Suicidal thoughts Attempted suicide Self harm Eating disorder Bullying Abuse Swearing Alcohol Smoking Drug use Sex related sences Depression

[COMPLETED] _____________________________________________ "You're worth more than a fucking deal, Amara." _____________________________________________ It all started with a secret deal. A deal that should have meant nothing yet meant everything. Xavier Hernandez, the Italian mafia Don. The title was given to him at a young age being only 16 and now he's carrying the weight of leading a mafia at the age of 20. He's a man who is feared by many and is known for being merciless, ruthless, strong and powerful. He would shoot you between the eyes if you dared to look at him the wrong way. His cold hearted soul has never met the warm touch of another, has never experienced the warm feeling known as love. Amara Sánchez, the Spanish mafia princess. A woman who is sarcastic yet stubborn at times. She is the youngest out of her family being the age of 18 and has a lot of responsibility in her hands as her father is the Spanish mafia Don. She is known to be kind hearted, considerate and a goddess . Her warm heart has yet to touch ones cold heart that seeks the feeling of love. Both complete opposites. What happens when opposites attract? Will it end up in heartbreak or will it lead to a new found love? What happens when the past reveals itself? What happens when the truth is revealed? What will happen when promises are broken? _____________________________________________ //tw please read book with caution// •contains sexual content• started: 14/08/21 finished: 12/12/21 #1 trauma: 29/11/21 #2 arranged marriage: 14/12/21 #3 Italian: 3/12/21 #2 badboy: 11/12/21 #3 enemiestolovers: 14/12/21 #53 violence: 18/9/24

⚠️ Warning!!⚠️ ⚠️ Contains mature content such as smut, violence, language and drug use⚠️ Completed ^^^^^^^^^^^^^* " Bad things happen to everyone and good things do happen to some but when it comes to people like me only the worst things happen and the good things never last" " You could be a exception, you do have a good heart" " After the things I've done.. I'm no exception. Neither of us are" °°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°° Ranked #1 for Jocks 18 recommended for explicit content. Criminals are everywhere, mobsters are in charge and no one is who they seem to be. After all the most beautiful places are always the most dangerous... ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Kaleb Amato quarterback and one of the kings of Ridgewood high. Arrogant, brilliant and destined for a great future. A good guy? He is not. Mia Langley a foul mouthed beauty with a temper and a psyche in shambles. Sweet and innocent? So far from it that's it's laughable. She returns home after two years at a hellish boot camp but has forgotten DyverCity number one rule- Don't be fooled by it's alluring beauty of the city. DyverCity is a venus flytrap and if you get stuck here.. you'll die here. Currently editing-

BOOK 1 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆: 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄, 𝐃𝐑𝐔𝐆𝐒, 𝐀𝐋𝐂𝐎𝐇𝐎𝐋, 𝐖𝐄𝐀𝐏𝐎𝐍𝐒 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒, 𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 ♚ "𝘕𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬 𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴, 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘸 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘭 𝘪𝘯 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘭ish 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴." ♚ "Enough!" I yelled but before I could breathe in I was pinned to the wall. I gasped. Staring into his dark blue eyes made every bone of my body weak. He smirked, knowing exactly what he did. "You got too comfortable with me, doll but I didn't show you what Ace can really do." He mumbled. He broke the eye contact we were having and leaned closer to my neck. My heart beat was racing his and each breath he took sent electricity all over my body. I bit my tongue, scared of what my brain could make me say. "And I don't think you want to know," he whispered so close to my ear sending shivers down my spine. I took a deep breath, trying to collect my thoughts. He moved back to stare into my eyes, wanting to see his effect on me but I didn't give it to him. I smirked, pushed my chin down and looked up at him. "You're all talk, Ace," I whispered, not even blinking. I saw the gulp that rose in his throat, growing my smirk. "Even when I am under your grip, you're still under my control." ♚ ♚ TROPES ♚ Dark Romance Mafia Romance Forced proximity Enemies to lovers Love triangle Living together ♚ 14.08.23: 2 Dangerous 12.03.24: 2 lovetriangle 26.11.24: 1 action-romance ♚

C̺͆O̺͆M̺͆P̺͆L̺͆E̺͆T̺͆E̺͆D̺͆ Started ~ February 13, 2021 Ended ~ April 3, 2021 ~ Re-write ~ May 28, 2021 End ~ August 18, 2021 *************** Disclaimer! This book might not make since at some points. This book does go a bit fast. There is NO HAPPY ENDING. *************** "Wait honey stop!" The lady yelled, but I wasn't gonna stop. I headed for the front door and before I could push it open I felt arms wrap around my waist "Stop" I kept thrashing in his arms "Come on stop, your gonna hurt yourself more" I didn't listen I just kept trying "Keep her arm as still as you can!" Someone yelled and I felt hands grab my right arm and then something prick my skin "Just stop!" Slowly I collapsed in their arms and my eyes shut. Not how this was meant to happen

Tropes: Childhood friends to lovers, Soulmates, Twin Flames, she falls first but he falls harder (or is that the case . . .), you complete me, Tragic past, Dark Fairytale 𝙎𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮 𝘼𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙘 https://pin.it/57WqdWXHE (copy and paste🩷) 𝙎𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙮𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 I found - Amber Run Panic Room - Au/Ra I'm a Mess - Bebe Rexha Lose my Mind - Dean Lewis Monster - Eminem Ft. Rihanna Demons - Imagine Dragons Experience - Ludovico Einaudi Map - Maroon 5 Fire on Fire - Sam Smith Where's my Love - SYML How to Save a Life - The Fray Dusk till Dawn - Zayn ft Sia 𝑲𝒂𝒚𝒂 𝑯𝒂𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒐 She is your typical sunshine. All bright smiles and big personalities - or at least that is what she shows to everyone else besides herself. The only person who see's her dark thoughts, numbed feelings, and painful days was him. But after her father was found to be the traitor of the Yakuza organization in the States, she is immediately labelled as the traitors daughter. An enemy, a scum. With a mother battling wit health issues, a younger sister to provide for, she begs for mercy. 𝑹𝒚𝒐𝒔𝒖𝒌𝒆 𝑺𝒂𝒌𝒖𝒓𝒂𝒛𝒖𝒌𝒊 The person the world sees is cold, manipulative, apathetic man who was the next leader of the Yakuza Organization of the states. He was seen as emotionless, even those close to him. Naturally, everyone expected him to get rid of the traitor's family. Except he didn't. He has emotions, but hides them. But there was one person who knew him better than he did and couldn't apply his logic to . . . Her. So what happens when a girl who feels too much and a boy who pretends to feels very little fall for each other and find that they complete each other when their situations pulls them apart?

Something tragic has happened. A 17 year old Valeri has to move to her dad's place. She spent all her life thinking he was dead. Her now dead mother told her that. Not knowing she has a twin brother she flies over the country and meets him there. She comes back into lives of people she once knew and loved. Not just her family. But someone else. A boy who took care of her when she was struggling. Her best friend. Valeri is dealing with addictions and when something at her new home happens, she sinks even lower. It might not end well for her. But she has friends now. Her kind brother, two funny friends and someone else she once knew... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Heyy! This is my first book. 1. I want to make it clear that English is not my first language and there might be writing mistakes. 2. ⚠️BEFORE YOU START READING CHECK TWs BELOW⚠️ 3. I myself struggle with an addiction and I think writing this book will help me process everything. That's another reason why I'm doing it. 4. You're welcome to comment but leave if you're here to write hate comments. I don't care what you think. 5. If you're here just for smut this is not a book for you. There might be some scenes but not many. This story is about struggling, dealing and fighting with addictions. 6. I'll post a new chapter every few days. I have a lot of schoolwork but I'll try my best. ⚠️TRIGGER WARNINGS: panic and anxiety attacks, self harm, sexual assault and rape, eating disorder, drinking and smoking, weed, pills, drug addiction, overdose, suicide attempt, depression, ptsd, swearing, mature content TROPES: -childhood best friend -friends to lovers -brother's best friend -who did this to you? -one bed trope I'LL PROBABLY ADD SOME MORE I hope you'll enjoy it!