"I know I probably shouldn't feel this way. I shouldn't be disappointed or angry that he no longer loves me the way he used to. I know it's my fault, after all I was the one to make the choice. But if I could go back and choose again, I want him to know that he would always be my pick. I was foolish. I was young. I let fame get to my head. Why must you Remind Me of the past that I want to forget so desperately. I should've chose him. I should've held him closer. I should've told him that I loved him. But, is it possible that through it all, I can chose again?" *Mentions of abuse-- both verbal and sexually. Depression and self hatred a subject to be aware of. No form of self harm or eating disorder. Possible character death both major and minor. Any other warnings will be placed before the chapter begins. Hope you enjoy.* - HIGHEST RANKING: #9th in troyesivan ~ note: this fic is like my baby it's been through so much shit and i know it's not the best writing you'll ever read but i wrote it in a very dark time in my life and my mood- it reflects a lot off of the plot and the descriptors used. please be kind and know that im growing and so is my writing ability everyday. ilysm. enjoy ~

What if you fall in love with one of your best friends and don't even accept that you're gay? This is what happens to Connor Franta. He always knew that he was different but when he started to develop feelings for one of his best friends, Troye Sivan, he tried to deny it. He tried to push those feelings away, he didn't want to be gay at least that's what he always said to himself. But what if his feelings become so strong that he can't just ignore them any longer. Will he ever be able to accept those feelings or will he always keep ignoring them? Will he talk about it or just keep bottling everything up that's going on in his life? What if all those feelings just get too much to handle? Will he break or finally accept them?

Troye and Tyler love each other. It's no secret. But how could something that so many people want to be real, actually be there. They have struggled with fans in the past, but now it's to a whole new level. Now that things are getting serious, how can they keep it hidden. But with love like this, sometimes they struggle. how will Troye and Tyler stay together without the internet exploding? And, how will life stay normal. SERIES ONE: TROYLER

-SMUT WARNING- -SELFHARM WARNING- Troye like Tyler and Tyler like Troye! Will they be together? or will age and distance ruin for them?

It's a story/ fanfic that includes Tyler Oakley, Connor Franta and many other youtubers. It's about a young adult who has had a bad childhood and she has moved to America for a new start. She makes a few good friends along the way. She goes through pain, tears and heartbreak, just to get a little bit of happiness. She has fun adventures with her new life of being a YouTuber and it gives her a lot of positivity. But will her life change for the better of for the worse? Read to join her adventures of emotions and experiences and to find out what her outcome is! Hope you enjoy reading!

Please be kind, I was like 12 when I wrote this crap. A Conler fanfiction Connor Franta lives in Los Angeles and basically lives on youtube, tumblr, and Instagram. From here he has grown to meet many youtube friends. Over the years he meets someone he grows to have a huge crush on and soon fall in love with. The famous one and only Tyler Oakley. They go out and instantly fall in love with eachother. But, Tyler makes a decision that leaves Connor crushed and stunned. How will he cope? What did Tyler do? Read to find out!!

Would you know that you and another person are meant to be if he lived in the same room as you? In most cases, all it would take is for that person to tell you and let you know "I like you." For Troye Sivan, the most obvious things seem to take some time to figure out. From being a wallflower and staying out of the spotlight his freshman year of high school; Troye is forced out of his old discrete ways after properly meeting Tyler Oakley. Being opened to the more social crowd of his peers at JMA, his private boarding school. Troye also becomes closer to people he had never thought he would ever speak to before this year. Will they serve as a distraction from the ones who truly matter? Who truly matters and who will lead the way to something better? (Description curiosity or TheZenTroyler) **THIS STORY IS IN NO WAY RELATED TO MY SOULMATES SERIES** Though it says 2017 this story was really written back in 2014-2015. Keep that in mind when reading. Thank you for all the love and support.

Tyler and Troye meet by chance in a cafe and it's love at first sight. Everything is looking up with cute nicknames and a relationship like the fairy tales. But when Tyler misinterprets Troye preparing a surprise for him, things get a bit complicated. Car crashes, comas, and fights happen. Can they go against all odds and stay together?

Completed ~ Ever since Tyler moved to Australia from America, he and his neighbour Troye became best friends. At the age of 10 they make a promise to never leave each other and stay best friends forever. Not all promises last though. As soon as he turns 18, Troye leaves his home to America to live his dreams of becoming a singer and actor. With 2 ep's that sold millions and his own movie franchise, you could say he is doing great. His full length album comes out December 4th yet he still wants to write a few more songs, there is a problem though, he has no idea what to sing about. That's why he is flying back to Australia. To get inspiration and stories, seems easy. Tyler Oakley, with his 21st birthday approaching he is ready more than ever to leave this town. His mother travels a lot due to her job so he stays with his father, his homophobic father who beats him up the second that Jackie leaves the house. What happens when Troye and Tyler meet once again? Will they forget about the past and pretend it never happened? Or will they fix their broken friendship whilst at the same time building a new relationship? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm aware that the first maybe 10 or so chapters aren't the best... but don't give up! They actually get good if I do say so myself. So yeah, this is my first story!!! Yay!! I am terrible at descriptions so just read and see if you kinda like it. Includes: abuse, homophobia, smut, mature content.

Every love story has a beginning, a middle, and an end. Some end in roses and doves flying with a romantic sunset, but others end with broken glass and tear stained pillows. Our story begins with two best friends. Tyler Oakley was hopelessly in love with the Australian mystery that was Troye Sivan. Unfortunately the feelings weren't returned. When a series of unfortunate events brings these two together everything seems magical. But things aren't always what they seem. With jealousy and betrayal threatening to destroy everything they've worked so hard to build will Tyler and Troye push through the pain and give their relationship a chance or will the outside pressures be too much for them to handle? There's a fine line between love and loss, and you often don't realize how much someone means to you until its too late. There's no telling how their story will end, but there's always one thought lingering in the back of their minds. If only you knew.