"How long did it take for all of you to realize I disappeared..?" Mariella asked carefully her voice shaking. "I..Mar-" "How..Long." "Two days.." Hendrix answered hesitantly. The guilt was eating him alive. Mariella chuckled breathily and then she began to laugh but her laugh was not out of pain, but anger. "𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘶𝘺𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘢 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘫𝘰𝘬𝘦." ______________________________________________________ The death of her mother had brought not only sadness and grief, but pain and suffering for eight long years. Neglected and hurt by all the people who she thought would protect and love her forever, she ran away due to being so close to death. The only thing that had kept her company were the whispers and hallucinations along with a few of her other brothers who tried their best to protect her. Three years later they are back for her, with the feeling of guilt and regret eating away at their souls. Will she ever forgive them? Will she ever be happy? Will she ever be healed? So many lies and secrets are hidden.. 𝘞𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩?

IM CURRENTLY RE WRITING THIS STORY: If you would like to read this version please read at your own risk and my new version will be up very soon, thank you! Alexandra Forest watched her parents get murdered at the age of 7. Now years have passed, she dropped out of school, going house to house in the foster system, and always looking for a new 'high' to escape her reality. That is until she's caught shop lifting, she's forced into a home and forced to go to school only to be stopped by a certain group of boys. Sebastian Peters father left for another woman, soon after his father abandonment to his family, Sebastian's older sister, Danielle, overdosed. Leaving him to take care of his mentally ill mother. School thinks he's some bad boy with no secrets and a perfect life. Wrong. He has secret and he's not a bad boy, (maybe a bit rebellious at times) and he certainly doesn't have a perfect life. And maybe, just maybe if Alex lets him into her dark world he can light it up. ****** I really hope you guys like this new story and remember to vote and comment. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED TO ME @PerfectlyUnperfect27

The average human being spends every second of his day fighting against the force of nature to see another day. But I'm different. I'm not afraid of outside forces to take my life away - only myself. Approximately 10 years ago, something happened to me. Something really bad. But I'm not allowed to talk about it. As a way to release my frustration, I give hell to my body and everyone I come in contact with - especially my parents. No one knows about what happened except the ones who did it...and Him. But he didn't stay. Now, he's back and he's not talking either. I want to stop hurting, I need to stop. Make me stop.

Coming of age is hard enough without meeting the right guy at the wrong time. Yet, that's exactly what happens for the reader when she finally starts to settle into her new town. Then she meets a party crasher at a bonfire with a few more scars than her own emotional ones. ___________________________________ Warnings: UNDERAGE, age gap (reader is 16, Dean is almost 21), underage kiss with Dean, underage drinking, physical abuse by a parent (John), John is an asshole in this one, mentions of death, alcoholism, minor violence, injuries/blood/scars, angst, arguing, gaslighting, pining/jealousy, mature themes, language, slow burn, hurt/comfort, non-linear timeline, long distance relationship, infertility, couples' therapy, adoption, background pairings (Sam/Ruby & Sam/Jess - not at the same time, Benny/Cas, Bobby/Jody), kissing/cuddling, fluff A/N: Inspired by: If I Fix You by Abigail Johnson and Wild Hearts by Keith Urban. Also written for bingos on Tumblr. There is no posting schedule, expect extremely slow updates. I have writer's block and it's making even editing hard.

This is for all of you who feel like the world hates you. Who takes a blade to their skin. Who looks them self in the mirror and criticizes themselves. Who is hurt on the outside. Who is broken on the inside. Who feel the need to stay strong and cry by themselves in the dark emptiness. Who feel like they have no one when they are surrounded by millions. Who are hit. Who are tortured. Who are hurt. Who weep. Who need a hug from someone once in a while to unload the hurt. The pain they carry within them coiled in the disaster and wretched awakening of their tears is more than we can measure. No one but them knows the feeling and the burden they carry. I hope you read this, and feel like this has helped you. Even if one in a million love you, sometimes that one persons love can cover the other nine thousand nine hundred and ninety nine people's hate. Just know that there are people who will love you. Who will hug you. Who will let you cry on their white shirt and ruin it with your mascara or stain it with your tears. ➖➖➖➖➖➖ Gwen Holland has lead the life of abuse. Of depression. Of hurt. Bearing with her the wight of the sky. Bruises lining her stomach. Broken bones every month. Bags under her eyes from lost sleep. Patches of blue and black bruises laced like silk on her body. She has kept it all a secret with full sleeve shirts, jeans and tights. But all this is at stake when her heart finds the person to whom she can fully unload her burden on. Who can help her. But to Gwen, Allen Walker is the last person who would even understand. ➖➖➖➖➖➖ *DISCLAIMER* This story contains graphic violence, self harm and suicidal chapters. There are detailed abuse and lines that may seem inappropriate to some people. So if you feel discomfort then feel free to read something else. ➖➖➖➖➖➖

Book 1/2 * * * * * * * "He fucking abused me!" Meet Jamie Da La Cruz. He is on the football team and gets bullied for an incident in 6th grade. His hides from his past and has a thick layer of sarcasm to hide his true feelings. Does he learn to accept? What breaks him, or should I say who? "No, it wasn't rape it was almost rape." Now meet Ethan De Paz. The quarterback of the football team, and two parents. People think he has the perfect life, but does he? Or does he have a dark secret that he hides from the world? Will he tell someone what happened that day or forever stay silent. "They don't care." Meet Jared Anderson. A conceded bully who is secretly hiding, and battling his inner demons. Only person he told was an old friend. Why? Maybe bacause nobody cared to ask. But why would they, he is just a bully. Will he ask for help or keep it to himself? Or Will somebody care enough to ask him themselves? "I'm not perfect, I have problems to." Lastly meet Vincent Blake. A nobody who is always caring a camera. What is his problems? And who does he confide in? When they all connect at football summer camp, will they be the death of each other or the only thing keeping then alive. What, is any, relationships form? What conflict raise? And most Importantly, what do they recover from and will they....recover? "We're all fucked up some way somehow." ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ This book is a bxb and a bxg! But mostly focused on the male to male relationship. If you do not support. Do not read. Any hate to anyone's ethnic and or sexual orientation will not be tolerated. This book is made by two people; me @rainbowthisbitch , and @freakingweirdo14 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤️❤️ P.S: There will be many references in this book, so if you find them, point them out ;)

Carson Walker, 18 year old high school senior that lost his father at the age of 2 during the 9/11 attacks in New York since he was one of the many officers that had gone to help rescue the victims of the fallen towers. One moment the toddler was being dropped off at daycare by his beloved father and and next he was being sent to live with his mother and her abusive boyfriend three months later. His father's wife, Alexa Walker, has tried to get him back but the courts have ignored her pleas and awarded his custody to his mother. Now he lives in fear at the hands of his mother and her boyfriend. Dolan Pearson, 18 year old, senior that has it all. The perfect family with supportive parents and siblings. He recently moves to a new state after his father gets transferred and begins school at Glenwood High in New York where he's soon swarmed by girls and guys asking him to join the school sports' team. Since he played soccer at his former school, he joins the soccer team where he quickly becomes the new captain. One day his way to history class he stumbles upon a scene that made his blood boil. He watched as his teammates beat up a boy who whimpered and cowered under their kicks. He stops the abuse and threatens his teammates with getting them kicked out of the team for what they did before helping the injured boy to the nurse's office. Days later Dolan learns who the boy was when he sees him sitting in the back of the class and was paired up with him for a school project. Will Dolan help the broken boy or will Carson let the pain win?

Meet Alexandria Frost, 17 years old, Beautiful,but hides under over-sized hoodies and long jeans and With perfect grades, She definitely earned the title as a 'Nerd'. Until she one day, comes home to a drunk father and an unexpected vistor. --"What's going on?",Said Alexandria. "Oh look,Stace. My darling daughter is back.You're fucking late!!",Said Alex's father, referring to his dressed up whore. Smacking Alex across the face, "You should have died with that Bitch of your mother. You're just another fucking burden to me. Where the fuck were you? " Kicking her to the ground. Over and over again. Blood oozing out from her nose.'-- Meet Jace Kingsley, 20 years old, youngest and hottest bachelor billionaire in America. Cold- hearted, But that's because he got his heart broken once and has built his walls up to the top, But that doesn't stop him from being a playboy. When one Certain girl with a scary Past and present catches Jace's eye, everything might change. Jace sees a distressed-looking girl, In his sight. What does Jace do, --"She's mine. Find out where she stays,Lucas." Says Jace.-- TRIGGER WARNINGS(PG13) : -Violence -Self-harm -Language(Swearing and content) WHAT DO YOU THINK WILL HAPPEN? Read on to find out ;)

Aspen Carlee Ellington. "Beau's Girl" That's how I've been known since the 10th grade. Every time I looked into the future...whether it was an hour, a day or years ahead of me...that's all I saw. Me and him. Just like I'd always seen. I had no doubt it would be us. The one day I turned into a real fucking girl and voiced some feelings and watched him walk out of my life to go on some deployment I couldn't know the details of. My heart had a sinking feeling that I would never see him again. Now I'm 22 and it's two years later he's standing in my backyard with my brothers back from some godforsaken place...and yes. I'm still 100% his. Will this Christmas bring me a happily ever after? Beau Remington Brighton Every day I wake up and remember the most beautiful sexy girl I'd ever have the pleasure of knowing. Every day I find a way to torture myself to the brink of mental or physical death for shattering her. Fast forward two years, I'm standing in her backyard with her older brothers not knowing if she'll even acknowledge my existence. But fuck me...she's even more gorgeous than I remembered and I swear before Christmas is over, I'll have made her broken heart whole and she'll be mine. Aspen is a 21 year old dessert maker. Beau is a 28 year old Navy SEAL. Between ghosts from their pasts and dangers of their future...broken promises, broken dreams and broken hearts...can these two fix a love that was broken?

*DISCLAIMER* READ AT YOUR OWN RISK: This book deals with serious topics and themes of drug use, PTSD, self-harm, suicidal thoughts, and suicide attempts. This book contains realistic depictions of opioid use. Recovered and recovering addicts should proceed with caution. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Lincoln is a senior in High School. He is also seven months sober. Life seems out of reach for him and well, so does everything else life has to offer. He yearns to live but is afraid of what it might lead to. Liam is a senior in High School but is ignoring the trauma that has been affecting him. He hates remembering but is stuck living in the past. He is living his life to the fullest but isn't alive at all. This Young Adult novel is about the lives of teen brothers who must deal with a decision that changes the course of their lives and shatters their family connection. The twin brothers must learn to unearth hurt, secrets, and misunderstandings to start their family's healing process. "...there were a lot of things I was forced to learn and that made me resent my family for it. One of them is the fact that I learned more about family at rehab than I ever did when I was home." - Lincoln "I always had this plan. A plan where I would graduate high school with the highest GPA, get a full-ride baseball scholarship to Stanford University, and then work my way to the major league baseball teams. It was a plan I had made with Lincoln when we were younger. A dream we shared to play baseball together. A dream that died when he overdosed." - Liam