Monachopsis

mon·a·cop·is

noun
1. The subtle but persistent feeling of being  out of place

How can someone who has traveled around the world, met countless of people, and has a family feel lonely? Or is it being alone? Who knows, the line between the two blurred a long time ago to be able to tell the difference.

Nothing has been the same after you left. Since then, all I do now is play a role he wants me to do. And I let him of course, because I hope to feel some shred of belonging in this world without you on it. Pretending hasn't worked. I just feel less and less connected to life everyday. This whole time I felt like I was being haunted by the memory of you, your face framed in every room of the house you tried so hard to make into a home. But then I got to thinking; maybe I'm the ghost? A phantom of my old-self that lingers in this god forsaken place when I should've moved on a long time ago. 

In the mean time, I function on the memory of how I used to be. I remember how to talk to people, what to say, just... going through the motions. The camel's back is so close to breaking, but I cannot afford to spiral out of control. I'll focus all my attention in on moving to the new school he wants me to attend. Maybe it'll be the break I so desperately need. Maybe... 

I can finally belong.
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Ashley Selena Smith, widely known as Ash, still can't move on after her mother's death 6 years prior. She's lost and confused, but continues to be a normal teen. As normal as a mute teen can be. Her father fills up her life with lessons, tutors, and hobbies, practically anything that can distract her to get her past the pain they both lost. His last resort consists of moving the family across the country to enroll her in the toughest school in America: Bullworth Academy.

There she meets rebellious teen, James "Jimmy" Hopkins; the school's girliest boy Pete "Petey" Kowalski; and the infamous sociopath, Gary Smith. Surely nothing can go wrong.
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