secrets i have held in my heart, are harder to hid than i thought. quackityxfem!oc

unknown; i know your dirty, little secret. ;) ___ what's the worse that can happen when an unknown number tells you that they know your deepest, darkest secret? lowercase intended.. all rights reserved by sinterlude 2017-18 © published: 11/26/2017 completed: 5/31/18 HIGHEST RANKING: #1 IN ARIANATORS (12/12/18) #1 IN ARIANAGRANDEANDJUSTINBIEBER (8/16/18) #1 IN BIEBER (12/22/18) #2 IN JARIANA (1/18/19)

There is no way that I can escape this now; no way that I can possibly escape her and all that lies behind the darkness in her eyes. I've gone too far. Inexplicably, I have become entranced by everything that she is, especially the red that we share. She is like the moon: haunting, beautiful, and so far out of reach. I have walked her through the gates of hell and, still, she has made no attempt to turn back. She likes to push my buttons, to put me on edge in an attempt to feel the red that resides within her. She is dangerous, but I cannot pull myself away from her gravity. *WARNING: Contains mature content, swearing, violence, death, and possible trigger warnings.

The average human being spends every second of his day fighting against the force of nature to see another day. But I'm different. I'm not afraid of outside forces to take my life away - only myself. Approximately 10 years ago, something happened to me. Something really bad. But I'm not allowed to talk about it. As a way to release my frustration, I give hell to my body and everyone I come in contact with - especially my parents. No one knows about what happened except the ones who did it...and Him. But he didn't stay. Now, he's back and he's not talking either. I want to stop hurting, I need to stop. Make me stop.

In the midst of complete and utter darkness, I can hear two distant men's voices echoing through the void. One of them has a smooth and sultry tone that makes my heart flutter, while the other is calm yet seductive, sending a tingling sensation up my spine. There used to be a gentle woman's voice too, like a calm summer breeze, but she has since faded away, leaving me alone in this abyss. She used to call me Mariposa, but now I can't hear her at all. The voices are beautiful, but I can't match them to any faces, and I don't know why everything is dark. I only know my name, but I'm not sure which one is real - Sarah or Zoey? The uncertainty is making me crazy. Word count: prologue: 615 Chapters: 1: 545 2: 520 3: 523 4: 420 5: 853 6: 633 7: 691 8: 863 9: 544 10: 590 11: 539 12: 643 13: 772 14: 500 15: 550 16: 552 17: 542 18: 756 19: 538 20: 561 21: 477 22: 434 23: 495 24: 580 25: 532 Started writing: December 7th, 2023. 7:57p.m/19:57 Ended writing: ????? Central Standard Time/ military time I do have to warn you that my story contains some triggering content. There are themes of unhealthy relationships, slight suggestiveness, dark plots, stalking, substance abuse, and violence. I'm trying to write this list in a way that won't spoil the plot, but I want to ensure that you're aware before you dive in.

I don't know who I am. I have clues but it's only bits and pieces. I have a name, or at least I've been given one. I have a life, it's not necessarily worth living, but I'm alive. I have a story but I don't think there's a point in sharing. Yet here we are. *Triggering content*

Being alone? Check. Being afraid? Check. Being abused? Check times 3. Honestly, my life wasn't this bad before, not until I ended in foster care... SIKE! My life was always bad. From the moment I was born, I lived with an abusive father who blamed me for my mother's death, and even I couldn't disagree with him. Here are a few questions I am constantly asked: 'Do I do well in school?' No, are you kidding me? The only subject I'm good at is Visual Arts. 'Do I have a kind and caring family?' No, I don't think I do. 'Do I have anyone who cares about me?' No, I'm a loner and socially awkward. 'Do I have privileges?' No, if you haven't understood the message yet, I live in an abusive household. Now, you might ask if there are any questions the answer is yes. I'll give you some. 'Do I want to die?' Yes, I sometimes do. 'Do I feel alone in this world?' Yes, always. 'Do I get a beating every day?' Yes. *** This is Amara Williams, a 13 year-old with average grades and no friends. What happens when her only guardian, her dad, is dead? What happens when she finds out that she has five older brothers who are not only strict and demanding, but also protective assholes? More importantly, what happens when she finds out that she was taught lies from the moment she was born? Follow Amara as she digs deeper into her family history, uncovering the secrets and discovering the lies. ___ ⚠️ Trigger Warning ⚠️ There will be mentions of abuse, r@pe, self harm, death, and many other dark themes. I have given a warning now, and I will give a TW in each chapter when reading for safety reasons. However, I want all of my readers to know what to expect so that they can decided for themselves if they want to read. Read at your own discretion! ____ Highest Rankings: #1 in Rules: Oct. 18. 2020 #1 in Truth: Jan. 16. 2021 #1 in Alcohol: Jun. 18. 2021

"You want to be free? "But You also want to be mines." "You can't be both." What would you do the person you thought you knew weren't really what they seem to be?

Love, Happy Endings, Soulmates, these are the things we want and need in life, we want to get them, but it's easier said than done. Certain factors need to be considered. Relationships and Love need few unmaterialistic things, but sadly, Caden Ian Manchester and Fiona Guinevere Kings do not know these. Weighed with traumas and scars, they hid their true self from each other, but the past never stays hidden, and it gets revealed in the worst way possible. Fate plays it's course, and they are pulled apart. Faces from the past resurfaces. Secrets are spilled and their Love is ruined, but it's up to them to decide, will they go back to each other or will they chose to heal, separately?. Follow their Epic and Emotional story, and buckle up, it's a long ride, filled with crazy friends, Femme Fatales, Ex Lovers, Secrets, Families and Iconic Love. |EXTENDED SUMMARY INSIDE| A Spin off to Hold On. Can be read as a Stand-alone. Always and Forever Series |2|. Started writing: January 19, 2020. Finished writing: July 5, 2021. #3 in Caden as at 9th March, 2020.

It's not worth it anymore. The fighting, the hurt, the beatings. It was never going to be worth it. But for love...well love makes you stupid. And I loved him with all my heart. I met the real man who would save me. Like how Bell was saved from Gaston. Except she lived the high life and didn't fear for her existence after her first encounter. After my first encounter with Axel, and a dreamy one-night stand. The only option for me was to stay away from him and keep to Marcus. But Marcus is destroying me. *** "Don't you dare tell me how easy it is to leave and abusive relationship when you've never been in one, Axel!" Tears poured down my cheeks and all I wanted to do in that moment was crawl into the same hole I should never have crawled out from and die. "And I was heartbroken, and scared and anxious. I was worried and I felt weak, and I had no idea how I was ever going to come up with the strength. But I just closed my eyes and took a blind leap. I found you, Cordilia and I'll be dammed if I let that asshole take you away from me."