Finn's POV
It stopped raining outside, now the sun started to shine.
It wasnt my first time, but it was definitely the best.
I knew that it was Rachels first time, since everything we did together in our relationship was the first time in her life.
She lays next to me, her hair in her face.
I cannot tell how happy i am. It wasnt actually the reason why i came to the school but it was worth it. If i didnt come we still wouldnt talk with each other.
I lay down right next to her so i can see her face a little bit better.
I wipe the rest of hair that hangs over her face away and stroke her cheek with my thumb.
She smiles a little. I cant say if shes awake or if shes dreaming of something that makes her happy.
Of course i wish that she dreams of me.
But with every minute more im laying here i start to get what i actually did.
I cheated on Sarah. It wouldnt matter if she wasnt the one who saved me of doing something stupid.
The fact that i slept with my ex makes me feel more guilty than i thought it would.
But i love Rachel. I just love her. And she loves me as well. She hurt me, but she also hurt herself. Im not happy about that but it just seems fair to me that Rachel understood what she did to me. And that it also hurt her.
Maybe im still not able to forgive her. But im definitely one step closer to it.
She smiles again, now with a fully smile and turns around.
sometimes i wish this moment would never go away. That we could just stop the time and sit here for forever and a little bit longer.
I start stroking her hair while i think about what is going to happen in my life. The fact that i cheated on Sarah isnt just going to make me single again, i will also risk my job.
Sarah is my boss in the end, she can easily fire me.
The fact that i just risked my whole life is like a punch into my face.
I risked eveything for Rachel. Of course i love her and even though we'll be together for forever, what is going to happen then? If i dont have a job im lost. Lost in this whole stupid world.
I decide to forget about this and stand up.
Im maybe not the perfect guy for her, but i want at least to feel comfortable here. This is the first time shes in my apartment and we didnt even get to my bedroom. It just happened so quickly.
I put on my boxers and a T Shirt and walk to the little kitchen.
Im a miserable cook but this time i really have to put out my not existing talent and surprise Rachel.
So i start to make pancakes and bacon.
I also take a bottle of orange juice and place everything on a server.
I would've put a rose on it either but i dont own things like that.
Shes still asleep and i try to place the server on the table next to the couch as quiet as i can. Then i stroke her hair again and kiss her cheek to wake her up.
"Mmh..", she mumbles and turns around to me.
Her eyes smile at me.
"Good Morning.", i whisper while i try to control my heartbeat.
Rachel sits up and sees the little breakfast i made for her on the table and her smile brightens.
"You did that for me?", she asks surprised.
I smile and kiss her softly on the lips.
"Only for you."
We totally forget about the breakfast, and just basically lay on the couch, cuddled up in each other.
"Was it your first time?", Rachel asks after a while but you can hear in her voice that she already knows the answer.
I really dont know what to answer, the truth would maybe hurt her.
So i just shrug and kiss her and soon she forgets that she wants an answer.
Then i hear my phone ring, but i ignore it.
Its Rachel who pushes me softly away and nods towards my phone.
"Go get it.", she mumbles.
I shake my head and keep kissing her. Some moment the person will stop calling me, and then Rachel and me will be alone again.
But the phone doesnt stop and it starts to get annoying.
Rachel pushes me a little bit harder away.
"Finn go and answer your phone."
I sigh and reach out for it.
"Finn Hudson here.", i say already ready to hung up.
"Finn.", a girl voice says. Its Sarah. Oh no.
"Sarah. Hey.", i stutter into my phone.
I see how Rachel turns away. She knows who Sarah is. And till now she didnt seem to care about the fact that im actually taken.
"Where are you? You should've come to work 1 hour ago!", she screams into the phone so loud that my ear starts to hurt.
"Im sorry Sarah, but something kept me from coming to work." I look over to Rachel and see her smiling.
"Well then ignore the thing that keeps you from work and shove your lazy ass over here."
Even though we're still together she really sounds annoyed of me.
Maybe she will break up with me then i dont have to get through this.
"Its okay Sarah. I'll be there in one hour."
I hang up and look over to Rachel.
She bites her lip and looks down.
"You can go home if you want, or you'll wait here for me.", i say to her and lay my hand in her neck.
"Or i'll stay here."
"No just go. I'll wait here for you.", she looks up at me and smiles.
"Okay", i answer and kiss her forehead.
*at work*
"Hey Sarah, im here!", i say as i walked into her office. She sits infront of her computer, looking mad.
Sarah doesnt look up and just nods.
"Fine, go work then."
I raise MY eyebrowns.
"Everything okay?", i ask even though i dont really care.
"No. But i dont want to talk with you about this. Just work now."
I shake my head and get to work.
There are already a lot of people in the restaurant and im already too lazy to do anything. But i dont want to get fired and walk over to the first table without really looking who sits there.
"Hi Im Finn what do you want to drink?", i say looking at my little paper, ready to write down what the person wants.
"I want to talk with you.", a familiar voice says.
Its Puck.
He looks at me, without any emotion.
I place my paper and pen on the table.
"What are you doing here?", i say hashly.
"Like i said; im here to talk."
Nervous i look back to the door of Sarahs office. What if she'll see me talking with Puck?
"What? Nervous that this bitch aka your girlfriend will catch you? Afraid that she'll fire you?"
How does Puck know that Sarah is my girlfriend and boss?
"Dont be stupid. Artie told me."
Artie. Of course. We've been a lot in contact lately, most of all because i knew that he sees Rachel everyday and i wanted to know how shes doing, like if she has a new boyfriend and something like that. But obviously she hasnt.
I wished Artie wouldnt have told Puck, since i promised him that i wouldnt break Rachels heart. But again; she was the one who broke up with me and almost made me want to kill myself and its still something i cant forgive and wont understand.
"So can we talk now?", Puck says harshly and interrupts my thoughts.
I shake my head.
"Not now. Not here. Come to my place at 6pm. Then we can talk." Rachel is probably going to be there but this wont be a problem.
Puck stands up but i grab his arm and look at him intensive.
"Just to let you know, i wasnt the one who broke someones heart."
Rachel's POV
I still cant believe i did it. I still cant believe i seriously slept with Finn. I actually still cant believe what happened in the past few hours.
We kissed and then we droved to his house.
I've never been at his apartment thats why i first was excited about seeing how he actually lives.
It isnt the best apartment but there are definitely worse things in life.
And now im here, sitting on his couch, smiling like the biggest idiot on earth.
Actually it doesnt matter to me that he has a girlfriend, i mean after this night hes totally going to be break up with her, right?
It would just be logicial.
Maybe i can buy some food and make dinner for Finn when he comes home.
Im sure he'll be happy about it when he sees that i put some effort into all of this. I ruined it once, and i wont ruin it again.
Finn's POV
Working is exhausting. Its like the work never stops and you're just so happy when you can walk over to your boss and tell him/her that you go home.
But this time its different. I still have to talk with Sarah about the thing with Rachel.
Whatever Sarah did for me, i just love Rachel too much to stay with Sarah.
So i stand infront of her office and knock at the door. Of course its going to be hard, break ups are always hard but im not like Rachel and break up with Sarah via a message.
Im not like that.
"Come in.", Sarah automatically says right as i knock at the door.
I walk in and look at her. She looks as stressed as she did when i started working but she didnt want to tell me whats wrong so its not really my fault.
"Great that youre here Finn, i have to talk with you about something as well.", she turns her computer down.
"Can i talk with you first?",i ask. "Its important."
She nods and makes a weird move with her hand. "Go with it."
Suddendly im not that convinced in that breaking up thing anymore.
But its not about me, its about Rachel and our future together. I have to do this. Now.
"I..i...", is the only thing i can say.
"Yes?" Sarah looks annoyed.
"I slept with Rachel." I say it right into her face.
For a moment shes silent. There isnt any emotion in her face.
At first im happy that i was honest with Sarah but with every second more i feel like it was a bad idea.
"Fine.", says Sarah.
Wait what? Fine? Thats all she has to say about this?
"Fine?", i ask confused.
"Fine.", she repeats.
"Wait youre okay with this?" I was nervous for nothing.
Suddendly she laughs. But not that funny laugh more the mean and evil laugh.
"Okay with it? Dont act more stupid than you actually are. I actually wanted to tell you that i'll turn you into the Co-Boss of this restaurant but after this i want you to get the hell out of here!You're fired!"
I walk out without saying anything.
I close the door behind me and just want to scream. I knew this was going to happen. I knew it and i ignored it.
Angry i stand up and while i walk past a table i kick a chair.
I just hope that Rachel is gone now. I dont want to talk with her now since shes actually the reason why i lost my job. And when Puck comes i just wont open the door.
The bus drive drives me crazy. Everything goes so slowly.
What if Rachel is still at my apartment? I cant kick her out. That wouldnt be fair towards her.
Nothing is fair. Its the first time in my entire life that i see how messed up my life is.
And its the first time that i think about my parents again.
The way my mum held me when i felt like crying, when i got a bad grade in school and my dad told me i was going to be alright.
When we drove together through Lima just for fun. When i sat with my dad on a bench and talked about the different people on earth.
When my mum wanted to go shopping with me but ended up in a music store and i started playing the drums, again, just for fun.
I never thought things like this can end that easily. I learned a lot through the past years but that doesnt help me at all. Because i want my parents to hold me again. I would do anything to get them back.
But i know that it just will never work.
I get out of the bus and walk slowly down the street. I wont give up. Even if the sky gets rough. Its the last thing i can do and it would show how weak i am.
I stop walking and look up at the sky.
The sun is shining and i feel like my parents are smiling down at me.
Never give up on your dreams Finn Hudson.
"I wont Dad.", i whisper and make my way to my apartment.
A/N: the story is so not over lol.
Im proud of this chapter i mean FINCHEL
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