How can you miss someone you've never met?
Sasuke ran his fingers through his hair, staring up at his empty white ceiling. He let out a deep breath he felt like he'd been holding for longer than he should've.
'Cuz I need you now, but I don't know you yet.
The raven shook his head, trying to stop thinking altogether. Yet it didn't work, unfortunately. He felt alone like no one was even there. Should he even be here too?
Even though he's always surrounded by people, he still felt like no one was there. No one was there. So he was stuck. By himself, with no one real.
But can you find me soon because I'm in my head?
Sasuke rolled to his side, deciding that the blank ceiling wouldn't give him the answers he wanted. It wouldn't reassure him that he was okay. It would just remind him that he was just as empty as it was. Not that he needed to be told that.
Sasuke was as cold and empty as the ceiling. Without the warmth needed from someone that could be there for him, the raven was just another shell for the entertainment of others.
Yeah, I need you now but I don't know you yet.
Sasuke craved for that touch provided by a loved one. He wanted to love someone. He needed someone to love him. The raven wanted the so-called soulmates that people always dreamed about. He so desperately wanted it to be real. But he knew it wasn't.
'Cuz lately it's been hard~
He inhaled and exhaled shakily, trying to get rid of these useless thoughts once again. It was pointless to think about something he couldn't have, and never would have.
So what if he's having a hard time, why should he have to deal with it. Sasuke was sure that if he said something about it, people would just flock around him and just try to get with him while he was vulnerable. Or even baby him as if they cared.
They're selling me for parts~
He felt like some zoo animal that people paid to look at. What was so special about him anyway? Yeah, he knew he was good looking but that can't be the only thing. He knew he was talented but does that matter? Did people feel bad that his clan died? Did they pity him? He doesn't want that. Why pity someone that doesn't take any part in your life? Useless.
And I don't want to be modern art~
He wasn't just a zoo animal, Sasuke was some tragic painting in a museum that people tried to guess the story of. As if it was their business.
A painting that didn't belong.
But I only got half a heart to give to you.
Sasuke put his arm under the pillow to make it more comfortable to lay on, eyes wandering to the picture of Team 7 on his nightstand. It was just Kakashi Sensei, Sakura, him, and Naruto. Some of the only people he's felt relatively close to.
Despite Sakura being a bit annoying at times when she follows him like a lost puppy, he still appreciates her being there.
Despite Naruto's competitiveness and somewhat stupidity, Sasuke was grateful for a best friend like him.
Although Kakashi Sensei is always late for ungodly reasons, he was still there.
But Sasuke wasn't sure how he felt about it. He was so used to being alone and only wishing for people to be there that when someone finally is, he just wants to push them away. He loves them, but he's scared. He would rather lose them by his own will than them leaving him because of something he couldn't control.
But he doesn't want to lose them.
How can you miss someone you've never seen?
The concept of soulmates has always been a comforting thought for Sasuke. Someone is his perfect match, his other half. He knows they aren't real but just the thought calms his heart from its rapid beating. It slows his mind so he isn't thinking disgusting thoughts that he would use to train to the bone to forget.
If his soulmate isn't real, why does he miss them so much? Why does Sasuke feel so lonely without them?
Sasuke only knew a few people, so maybe one of them could be his 'soulmate'.
Oh, tell me are your eyes brown, blue, or green.
The detailed photo of him and his team was cute not that he would say that. Though the thing that stood out the most was the bright blue eyes that adorned Naruto Uzumaki's face. Even though he was glaring at Sasuke, it wasn't a bad photo.
Sasuke pushed himself up, forcing himself up for the first time that day. He stood from his bed and slowly made his way to his kitchen.
And do you like it with sugar and cream?
Sasuke started making coffee, listening quietly to the loud machine brew his drink. He crossed his arms as he leaned against the counter, staring at the ground as he waited.
Or do you take it straight, oh, just like me?
Sasuke wondered if Naruto drank coffee and if it was pitch black like his. He doubted the blonde drank coffee but if he did, it would probably have a lot of milk and sugar. Or Naruto would try putting ramen in it. Either he'd like it like the degusting person he is or he'd be scared and would never drink coffee again. Sasuke snorted at the thought.
Yeah, lately it's been hard~
Sasuke took a deep breath as he machine beeped, signaling his coffee was done. he took the hot mug that warmed his hands, almost burning them, and went back to his room. He looked outside the window, at the families that walked together, the little kids dancing in the snow and catching snowflakes on their tongues.
Sasuke remembered when he and Itachi used to do that with each other. Itachi would always push him in the snow, though he was okay because it was like a fluffy cushion, a cold one, but comfortable. They'd have snowball fights and see if they could count all of the snowflakes. They were stupid enough to believe it would work. But Sasuke smiled at the memories nonetheless.
They're sellin' me for parts~
Sasuke looked away from the families on the road and up the roofs of Konoha, seeing a familiar blonde sitting on one of them and looking up at the snow. His tongue was stuck out like the little kids the raven had just seen.
Sasuke rolled his eyes as he put the cup down and shut his curtains, putting on a jacket. He put on a hat to cover his head, unlike Naruto, and some gloves to keep his hands warm in place of his cup of coffee he had just made. Sasuke internally cursed himself for having to leave the cup.
And I don't wanna be modern art~
Stepping outside, he shivered from a gust of wind that flew past him. A few people stared at him as he came out, some even waving, though he ignored them. Why should he wave to a stranger?
But I only got half a heart to give to you
Despite having gloves on, he stuck his hands in his pockets to keep them warm. Sasuke hated the winter, it was too cold and he felt like it was unfair. He deserves the sun and warmth. Or he at least prefers it.
And I hope it's enough
Sasuke got to the building the Naruto sat upon, shaking his head at how underdressed the blonde was. That's why he was a Dobe. Naruto was going to get sick and Sasuke knew it. Typical of the male to do something like this. All he had on was a thin jacket that was more suited for the spring or even falls.
How can you miss someone you've never met?
Sasuke jumped onto the building, startling Naruto.
"Teme, don't do that!" Naruto shouted, glaring at Sasuke. The raven only smirked as he sat down next to the blonde. "What are you even doing here?"
"Just came to give you this. You would've gotten sick if I didn't." Sasuke said, taking off his hat and putting it on Naruto's head. He pulled the hood of his jacket over his head and pointed to it. "I have this anyway."
'Cause I need you now but I don't know you yet
"Thanks," Naruto mumbled, adjusting the hat a bit to sit comfortably on his head. "Is that all?"
Sasuke only shrugged as he looked up at the sky. His eyes fluttered due to the snow softly falling on his face. The cold was nipping at his skin as he shivered a bit, despite having a warm jacket and gloves.
But can you find me soon because I'm in my head?
"What do you think about soulmates?" Sasuke asked suddenly, looking over to the blonde. Naruto looked back at Sasuke with furrowed brows.
"Soulmates?" He repeated, only getting a nod from the raven. "Uh- I don't know much about them but they sound romantic to me. I like the idea of having someone that's meant for you, ya know?" Once again, Sasuke only nodded to his statement. "Like, someone that will always be there for you. I want that."
Yeah, I need you now but I don't know you yet
"Do you believe they exist?" He asked, moving a bit closer to Naruto as if he'll get a better answer.
"Do you?" Naruto asked instead.
I need you now but I don't know you yet
"I don't know."