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Four drinks and five cigarettes later I was starting to feel pretty dizzy and drunk. Well not 'starting', I was pretty dizzy and drunk. But what a night so far!
It was almost midnight and me and Alex just finished singing Pretty Woman in the karaoke section of the bar. We got pretty loud cheers but mainly from Rob's friends even though we're not that great in singing.
"Go girls!" Savannah and Nina, Rob's friend also, cheered us on.
The whole friend group was so nice to us. It didn't feel awkward at all to spend the evening with them. They danced with us, chatted with us and really welcomed us with them. I felt glad that I came even though tomorrow was going to be dedicated to hangover.
"That was amazing!" I squaled as I hung on Alex's shoulders for support while we got back to the table where everyone was.
"You have a beautiful voice." Rob patted my back, proudly.
"Why thank you, my lord." I told him in my very bad british accent.
"We're kind of professionals, Robert." Alex shrugged it off, playing arrogant.
"I'm not Robert." Rob laughed at her comment.
"You are to me." Alex winked.
"She's way too drunk. Like me!" I added.
Rob chuckled and leaned closer to me, "Come outside with me for a second."
I got a little startled from his suggestion. We were all gathered here so why would he want to be alone with me?
My gaze jumped from Alex back to him. I took a sip from my drink while looking into his dark brown eyes. I was in no state to make wise decisions. I shouldn't even be allowed to talk at this point.
But I nodded.
I let go of Alex and went after Rob who was already making his way outside to the front. Taking a few running steps I reached him while he held the door open for me. The smoking area was full of people again but Rob managed to find us a small little space.
"Want one?" he asked me, offering a cigarette while one was between his lips.
I grabbed the cig he was offering and he helped me light it up.
We took a few whiff's while it was silent between us. Rob was staring at the dark sky as he blew smoke out of his nostrils.
"It's been a very fun night." I decided to comment because he wasn't saying anything.
That made him look at me.
"Yeah, it has. I'm so glad you came." he smiled a little, "I don't usually do something like this."
I squinted my eyes, responding to his smile with mine.
"Something like what?"
"This. Inviting almost 'strangers' with me and my friends. No offense and you're definitely not a stranger anymore after this night." he laughed whole-heartedly.
"Really? You seem like the guy who gets along with everyone." I shrugged, surprised to hear that he thought of himself as a shy person.
He was definitely not shy compared to me.
"What? No, I'm not." he shook his head while breathing in from his cigarette, "I mean, I do get along but not that well."
"Oh, okay. But I'm actually glad you invited us even though I didn't wanna come at first." I licked my lips but then my eyes got big soon after I said that.
It was too late when I realized what I just said.
"Why?" Rob asked, bluntly.
Not from angerness, but because of curiosity.
I puffed out the smoke from my lungs and threw the short cig on the ground.
Why the fuck did I say that? I have no filter whatsoever when I'm drunk.
"Uhh..." I avoided his gaze, trying to come up with a fake reason, "I didn't feel like it..."
But that sounded more like a question than a statement.
Rob started laughing while he threw his cig away too.
"I'm getting a feeling that that's not the case." he smiled and put his hand on my left shoulder, "But you don't have to tell me if you don't want to."
I pressed my lips together as I looked at him.
His hand against my skin felt really warm and secure. It didn't feel bad at all. And out of nowhere I placed my hand on top of his, just grabbing on to it softly. Rob's smile faded away a little as he looked into my eyes. My fingers brushed softly against his and he seemed to be okay with it. So I took a step closer to him.
"I feel like I want to know so much more about you." he had lowered his voice so that only I heard him.
I shook my head slowly.
I wanted to tell him this was not okay but nothing was stopping me from doing this.
I was swimming in his gaze. His eyes were so soft and I felt so secure.
But the moment was soon interrupted when a few flashes went off right next to us. Rob's head turned as fast as a lightning to the direction where the lights came from. His hand slipped away from my shoulder.
"Did you just take a picture of us?" Rob snapped at the two girls standing a few feet away from us.
"I'm sorry. But we just wanted to get a pic of her-"
"Why the fuck do you think that's okay?" Rob raised his voice at them, taking a few steps closer to them.
Well, shit.
"No no no no, that's okay!" I grabbed Rob's arm so he would look at me, "I know them, so let me just talk to them." I lied but it was the only option.
He frowned, clearly not understanding what was happening. But finally he nodded.
"I'll be right back." I said to him and then turned to the girls, "Girls, come with me."
I told them, bluntly, and they followed me a little further so Rob wouldn't hear us talk. I stopped on my tracks and turned to look at them.
"Guys, if you took a pic, would you kindly delete it?" I sighed loudly, pressing my palms together.
At first, they looked at each other and then back at me.
"Mm, we would love to. But the pic is kind of a big deal." the girl with blonde hair told me.
They were both maybe my age.
"It's not. I'm no one, believe me." I stated while holding my hands up, "That's like taking a picture of a stranger. No one cares. I promise. So delete it, please. Now."
I do not want to have my picture posted anywhere especially when there was Rob involved. He didn't have to be included. He didn't even know why these girls took the picture.
"Nice try but we know who you are." the brunette one laughed, mockingly, "Justin Bieber's ex." she looked at me from head to toe.
I felt a pang in my heart. My breathing quickened.
"And now that you're here, do you mind telling us what is he like in bed?" the blonde one asked and now they were both laughing at my face, "Yeah, we wanna know. Now that he's single anyone has a chance since he's quite the player."
And they laughed some more.
I was frozen. They knew excactly what they were doing. And it was working.
Flashbacks errupted my mind. Those times when he used to hold me till I fell asleep, those times when he kissed me under the moonlit sky, those times he used to make love to me wherever, those times when he stroked my belly when I was pregnant with our baby, that time when he broke up with me and told me I wasn't the one he wanted anymore. All of the memories came back to me and started to circle around in my head and it felt like a bad fever dream.
I didn't notice that a tear had fallen down my cheek so I quickly wiped it away before there were going to be more.
I pushed the girls out of my way and all I could think was that I wanted to go home.
Another tear fell down my cheek and suddenly I noticed that I couldn't stop.
"Ava, wait!" I heard Rob yell, probably following me but I just wanted to get a cab and go home.
He was most definitely thinking that I was a maniac. He barely even knew me and I was already causing a scene. How embarrassing. But I was too drunk and in my own thoughts to realize what was going on.
So I got myself a cab, surprisingly, and headed home.
I've had enough of this day.
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