For fucks sake. My subconscious self cursed at the loud yelling downstairs. Here we go again another MMA fight scene from my obnoxious parents. I honestly won't be surprised, this was my daily morning routine ever since my early years of childhood. So much for a happy and healthy childhood, fucking great.
"Will you shut the fuck up Isabel its 5 in the god damn morning!"
"Yeah right, 5 in the morning and yet here you are drunk as always!" My mom fired back to my alcoholic of a dad.
I rolled to the side of my bed pushing myself up to just shrug off this misery of a life I am living for almost 18 years. You'll be out here in no time college is getting close and you'll be out from this shithole. Yes of course I am definitely leaving this house this state to be exact for college. I hate this small town im living people are yet annoying, judgemental and total hypocrites.
"Its fucking 5 in the morning, great so much for an amazing start for the last remaining months of highschool high."
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I walked past the crowded hallways to find myself getting near to my group of friends, smiling and laughing for whoever gossips and secrets they have know for sure.
"Hey heather! I heard you've been accepted to WSU!" Carol squealed
"Yes and you too right? Omg! We could like live together there! Can't wait to be in college!" Heather replied with a wide smile plastered on her round face,her gray eyes sparkled with excitement.
I smiled and hugged them. I am definitely happy for the both of them being accepted to WSU while I'm the one who encouraged for all the three of us to study there yet here I am still waiting for the colleges I've applied to LA. I felt bad honestly for being the only one to be away from them but I wanted to be far away. And if being far away is study either across the globe I don't care as long as I have myself and got my shit together I'm fine I will always and will be.
"How about you Amber? How was uhm, applying to LA?" Carol pulled me back from my thoughts. I can sense some disappointment on their faces.
"Its...well... Come on its not a big of a deal for now. We still have months in highschool and another 2 months of summer for us to enjoy. Soo let's just push that idea of conversations."
The noise from the school bell echoed through the halls, great saved by the gong for some awkward bullshit of a talk of separation from these two. We went straight to our classes after.
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The week went pretty fast as I might say, people around me are busy for the upcoming events in school, the graduation ball, the graduation, some after parties and more. I've been worried about college honestly, I do well in school but I really don't know where I went wrong for still not getting responds from the universities that I have emailed my forms to. Maybe youre dumb all of your friends have been accepted to their chosen colleges and here you are still floating and wondering where you should be. My subconscious really needs to shut up really. I jolted up when I received a call from heather, great that scared me from my 'daydream' if that's the proper way to call talking to your subconscious.
"Earth to amber! I've called you 5 times already! Are you deaf or something?"
"Sorry I was just busy that's all."
" come one it's a friday night, and Brian told be he's throwing a party tonight. Care to come with us?" I can sense how this bitch is excited with this party, well I am too.
"Of course, and since when did I ever declined a party invitation? And I really need to have a drink."
"Okay then I'll be picking you up. I'll be there in 30 no wait 15 minutes, byeee."
Finally something good has happened to me this week. My one of a drunk dad was getting worse, while my bitch of a mom keeps nagging about my dad coming home almost everyday either midnight or early in the fucking morning.
After getting myself dressed in a black crop loose top and some black ripped jeans, I decided to add some light make-up to define my biggest asset which is my eyes. I shoved my phone and the house keys to my pocket, rushing downstairs to see an odd setting in the kitchen. Mom and dad sitting together on the dining table not screaming their lungs out but having some dinner and a civil talk.
"Wow, this is new."
"Amber dear, where are you going?" Mom asked
"I.." As soon as I opened my mouth Heather's car honked.
"You guys are weird. See ya!" I jogged out slamming the door shut and jumping in to a the passengers seat. You'll going to have a fun night amber.
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