A/N: Text fic! Based off of real texts, because why not. Anyway, Bakugou is left, Kiri is right.
Kirishima's POV
Friday, March 13th, 2020
*ding* *ding * *ding*
TOP OF MORNING!
Good morning, lmao
We might get the next two weeks off of school, not sure though
Oh btw check the Improv Google Classroom
Wait actually
I checked the improv thing already and yes, really
Stupid corona shit
Wait, how do you know?
Mom got news that it might be canceled by someone other than the SI.
I dunno if after that it would be a full quarantine. I hope to everything holy it doesn't go that far, though.
"Ignorance really is bliss, isn't it?" I chuckled, cradling my pillow in my arms.
My legs were crossed as I sat on my bed, scrolling through my texts with Katsuki.
That was the first day of quarantine, and I didn't even know it.
Thursday, March 19, 2020
Katsukiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
What
What's with this ominous message?
XD
I wanted to see how you were doing
Since it hella sucks that we can't see the group or each other.
"Shit, we'd barely been in a relationship a month at this point," I mumbled. "Let's see how clingy I sounded,"
Kinda bored. There's not much to do. Otherwise, I'm good. How about you?
Yeah, it sucks.
I miss all you guys and it's only been like a week
I've been doing fine. And me too! I miss the whole squad. I wanna see you, but corona is being a biTCH--
It really is though
Yup
Like I just want everything to be normal again, I'm slowly going insane already
Exactly!
I mean, yeah, I have spare time now, but this is too much spare time!
Wayyyy too much
Never thought I'd say that, tbh
Lmao
There's just... nothing to do? Like I'm trying to write and draw but I get bored so easy.
I just have Animal Crossing. And the bees.
A lot of bees.
the bees?
What
What bees?
??
When you shake trees in animal crossing, a bees nest might fall out and they'll sting the fuck out of you.
Oh rip
So, a lot of bees
VESPIQUEEN SENDS ME HER MINIONS
bee careful you don't get stung
I snickered at the stupid pun a little more than I should've for rereading a text from... holy fuck, it's been almost five months?!
Did you just make a bee pun? I can't beelieve this blasphemy.
*insert clever pun beecause I'm bad at this*
WAIT, I JUST REALIZED THAT WAS A PUN!
"Fucking hell," I groaned, which quickly turned into a laugh. "He got me with a pun a few months later,"
According to all known laws of aviation...
nope nope nopity nope we're not gonna do this
bee careful what you say next
You're right, I won't beegin
"Christ, we're terrible, aren't we?"
Continuing to scroll through, it was just updates on schoolwork and anime and when school is gonna open again.
But, then I saw another one of my somewhat late night essays to Katsuki.
Okay, I'm gonna send you another fucking paragraph because I seriously fucking miss you. So much. I want to be with you, and hug you and cuddle the fuck out of you, and just be around you. And the fact that we aren't going back to school means we aren't seeing each other in May. And, in worst case scenario, we might not see each other until late August. I hope it doesn't come to that, but I'm still worried about it, and I still hate it. I wanna see you so damn bad. The second we're allowed to see each other in person, I hope you know I'm gonna hug the shit out of you. I just wanna have you in my arms, or vice versa, I don't care. As long as I'm with you. Sorry if I'm texting you while you're doing something, you've just been on my mind all the time, and I'm feeling extra lonesome at the moment. Just want you to know I'm thinking about you and I wanna be with you. 😘
Rereading his response made me grin and start giggling, throwing my hand on my face.
"God damn it!"
But a while later, he sent me a message at 01:45.
And when I say I gay panic everytime I read it, I mean I go into gay anaphylactic shock from it.
It's so damn sweet and sorta out of the blue.
And Katsuki was up at 01:45!
And, even more shocking, he was thinking about me!
Like, I've never really thought of myself as someone who occupies someone's thoughts.
I'm just average, honestly. My looks are okay, my personality is alright, I guess. It's not like there's anything majorly exciting or noticeable about me.
Even with my sharp teeth and red hair.
The red hair isn't even natural, and I'm not the only one with sharp teeth.
My Quirk's boring too.
And, although I think Katsuki's eyes are fucking enchanting, I think mine are just boring.
It's not like they're anything special.
Just red.
No hints of something lighter or darker, or other colors like Katsuki's.
Just red.
And, even though we've been in a relationship for almost six months at this point and we've kissed, traded our first genuine "I love you"s, I still don't imagine myself as someone who takes up someone's mind.
Especially Katsuki's.
There's so much other stuff he should probably be thinking about, but he thinks about me.
And it makes me happy.
I'll also admit, I worry over a bunch of shit. You know, it gets so annoying to be anxious about everything, but at this point, it's just me being anxious about stupid things.
Like, what if he realizes I'm not the right one for him?
What if he realizes there's someone nicer, smarter, sweeter, prettier or cuter or whatever?
Even his mom said that since he's "petit" he's probably gonna date a football player because they "love that kind of stuff".
Yes, him being petit is nice, but I get worried that people are going to develop a crush on him and he's gonna realize there's better options.
And maybe I'm jealous, because I don't like the thought of Katsuki leaving me, but I also realize there's nothing I can really do.
I'm just lucky that he wants to be with me now.
I also realize that this could all just be me being anxious, but it doesn't help that my mom hasn't quite put my worries to rest about relationships.
She's had a divorce, but got remarried, and I'm pretty sure Mom and Mama have been married for almost a decade.
So when I told her that Katsuki and I were in a relationship, unlike Mama being happy for me and proud of me, she ended up saying something I didn't quite want to hear.
"You do realize that high school relationships don't normally last forever, right?"
"Uh, yeah?"
"The relationship I have with Koutonī is something so special to me. We've been friends since we were young, we've always hung out, been together, etc. And I want you to have that kind of relationship with one of your friends too. I can see that you and Katsuki have already built up a relationship like that. What the two of you have is special, and I just don't want you to ruin it because you got in a relationship and it doesn't work out. I only know one relationship that's lasted that long, and it's Sutībun and Torēshī,"
When she told me this, I just shut up and nodded along.
Now that I think about it, that probably is what spawned more anxious ideas than I began with.
Yeah, I know these relationships don't last forever.
Half of me is totally anxious about this relationship and praying it'll work out, but the other half hopes I can see Katsuki walk down the aisle, or vice versa and show my mom she was wrong.
And, that probably sounds like I'd only want to marry him out of spite.
No.
Never would dream of that.
But, I also don't need to hear that shit the day that I get into my first relationship.
Did I tell her this?
Nope.
Did I sit in bed, just hugging my pillow like I am now, thinking about how I so desperately don't want to mess up down the line?
Of course I did.
And I don't want Katsuki to be afraid to get with someone else.
I get it, crushes can change. Feelings can change.
He deserves to be happy, and if I'm no longer the man who will, then he deserves to go with the person who will.
No one deserves to be trapped in a relationship.
And I want to be the best boyfriend I can be.
If that's not enough or what he wants, I understand.
Tells me what I'd need to work on.
...
This turned into more of a monologue than I would've like.
I sighed, continuing to scroll through my texts, swallowing the barely noticeable lump in my throat.
The song "Love Song (The Way)" came on while I scrolled, and I found myself absentmindedly singing along.
Then my dumbass accidentally hit the big "CALL" button.
(A/N: THIS IS ALL LIVE, OH FUCK--)
"AHHHHH, NONONONO!" I fumbled with my phone, hitting the hang up button.
THAT WAS ACCIDENTAL, I'M SORRY!
It's okay!
I didn't disturb you, did I?
Even though this wasn't a physical conversation, I looked down at the floor like a guilty dog who judt got caught pissing on the carpet.
No not at all, you're never a disturbance
Okay, I wasn't sure if you were eating dinner or hanging out with your family or something.
Nope, just vibin
Okay, coolio
I put my phone down, did some awkward ass finger guns to no one in particular and sighed, shoving my face in my hads.
"Hope he's more moronsexual than bisexual,"
A/N: OOOOOOOKAY! THE AUTHOR IS WHAT THE COOL KIDS CALL A FUCKING STUPID DISASTER GAY, SO I'MMA JUST GO. SEE Y'ALL! STAY SAFE AND HEALTHY! - SEPTIC / SPARK