Sorry fully unedited, and don't be mad at Nova- things are stressful. Also we love Avery now btw idk why or when I decided I love Avery but well here it is:
Enjoyyyyyy
Nova's POV
"Good morning." Cole grumbled behind me as I stood in the kitchen making myself a cup of tea.
It wasn't even 8AM yet, I was just used to waking up early and I didn't want to wait bored for everyone else to get up.
Also I have decaffeinated tea. It is cool.
"Why are you awake?" I ask and grab another mug for him.
"Because I feel sick." He says and my eyebrows pull together.
"Hung over?" I ask and he makes a deep noise of confirmation. He walks up behind me and I should resist when his hands come and slide over my waist, his forehead resting in the top if my head. But of course I don't.
"What are you doing?" I whisper and he shushes me, hugging me from behind and I just lean against him, abandoning the tea and my usual resistance and letting him have the comfort he was seeking.
"I really do care about you Nove." He whispers sleepily and I sigh, turning around in his arms and then I wrap my arms around his neck, his head falling to my neck and he hugs me to him.
My heart steadies to beat in the same rhythm as his and I laugh a little at him, at the state of him.
"You feel bad?" I whisper and he nods into my neck, adorably but also incredibly intimately.
"Come back to bed with me?" Cole asks, his head lifting to look my in the eye. "I wont make any pases, I just want a spoon."
I shake my head up at him, my hand travelling to hold his face and he leans into it. His skin a little prickly under my finger tips I just stare at him.
"Why'd get up if you wanna go back to bed?" I ask and he just places his forhead back on mine, his sleepiness evident.
We felt so close.
"Because painkillers." He says and I chuckle, moving out of his arms despite his protests and reaching into the draw to help him.
"Oh okay." Cole mumbles, his back leant against the kitchen side as he watches me grab him two tablets and a glass of water.
"See you do care about me." He says and I breath a laugh as I hand him the water.
"Drink It all."
"Only if you come back to my room."
"Who are you in with?" I laugh and he smiles slightly, struggling to muster up any little bit of happiness.
Hangover's do suck.
"Avery. He's asleep. There's two beds."
"You mean single beds." I say and he nods.
"Cole."
"Please?" He asks and I just nod, following him when he turns around then and walks away from me.
I follow because I am tired and because I want a hug too. No guy had ever just wanted to fucking hold me in the way Cole does. He just wants me near, Yuen didn't like that and obviously the other guys I didn't allow that to happen.
"You don't have enough clothes on." He says quietly when we enter the bedroom.
I look down at my long t-shirt, which literally covered everything and looked up at him surprised.
"Huh?"
"Don't worry I am just being a boy." Cole chuckles softly and I look at Avery fast asleep in the other bed.
Cole sits down on the edge of the bed and he takes a few deep breathes.
"Please don't be sick on me, that really wouldn't help the whole trust thing." I poke and he just lifts his eyes up to mine and the pathetic attempt of a smile made me melt a little.
He felt so ill, and it really shouldn't be as amusing as it was.
I don't wait for him to lie down, I crawl into the bed and pull the covers up around me, snuggling into the smell of him, especially the nice aftershave from last night and he just watched me in small amusement.
Then he mutters to himself. "Colton Harrington don't you dare be sick on Nova, she will definitely, definitely not let you near her if you do that."
He was fucking cute to be honest.
Also yeah.
God imagine.
He lies down next to me and I laugh when he does in fact stink of alcohol, as in I can smell it from his pours.
"Hi." He mumbles as he pulls the covers up, us pressed together due to the fact it was a single bed but neither of us really said anything as our legs move between each other's.
His arm pushed its way under my neck and I just moved in closer to his chest so we were utterly pressed against eachother.
His breathing evens out, not asleep but just relaxing and I bring my hand up and I can't help it, I start running my fingers through his hair, just slightly, just softly but I find myself utterly lost in his presence.
Oh goodness aye?
His hand starts to gently slide up my top, not at all trying anything just, his skin searching for mine and I sigh into him, my eyes drooping at how this feels.
His palm is placed under my top on my back, holding me to him and then he pauses and clears his throat, getting my attention.
"Nova?" He says, suddenly sounding more awake and I nod sleepily.
His hand travels have down my side to my thigh and I chuckle a little at the fact he was searching for my underwear band.
He wouldn't find one.
"It was early, nobody was up." I whisper and he tenses.
"Underwear." Is all he groans and I laugh, moving closer to him and he just sighs.
"Insane you driving me." He whispers and I laugh softly again at his muddled words.
"Sleep." I say and I am the one sighing when his hand travels back down my back and lands on my ass.
"Cole." I say and he just smiles, his eyes closed, looking fully relaxed.
"Sleep Nove." Is all he replies and I sigh, relaxing back down despite his hand hugging my ass. God sake.
"Yeah okay." I reply and I turn around in his arms, easily being cuddled from behind as he wraps his legs under me.
He doesn't say anything else just settles his face in the crook of my neck, placing a small kiss there and then I think he falls asleep.
...
It must have been a lot later when I hear the bedroom open and I startle awake.
"Oh." Lincoln says as I look up at him at the door and I just stare at him awkwardly, Cole was still wrapped around me and then I just shrug, turning around and ignoring his presence as I press my face into Cole's chest.
Morning Linc, please ignore my presence.
Cole must have woken up too at Lincoln's sudden appearance and I smile a little as he doesn't stop let me go, totally unashamed to be caught hugging me.
"Avery." Lincoln says, waking him up and I feel Cole tense at Lincoln's tone.
"Yeah?" Aves answers, and I am surprised to hear obvious, clear awkwardness on his voice.
"I am sorry about last night." Lincoln says and well that had my interest peaked.
"Wait what?" Cole and Avery say at the same time, obviously surprised that Lincoln was the one apologising and Lincoln sighed tensly.
"I was wrong, to get pissed off because you caught feelings for someone. That shit just happens."
What on earth happened last night?
"What happened?" I whisper to Cole and he shushes me.
"Let's listen to this drama and then I will tell you." He says and I nod.
"Yeah I really didn't intentionally think oh shit I am going to start liking Rosie, It just happened mate."
"Yeah I know, I get it. So I am sorry about shit, but Avery she is my girl." Lincoln says and something in me twists uncomfortable.
"Lincoln I am not actively trying to take her away from you, I can see, I am not blind. The girl is in love with you."
"She's not your girl." I whisper into Cole's chest and he chuckles and wraps his arms around me tighter.
"Is that Nova?" Avery asks surprised and I lift my head up and send him a small quick smile over Cole's shoulder and then I press it back into it's comfy spot.
"I am just saying, like I get it, you have feelings or whatever shit but there's also the code right? Ex girlfriends are off limits, and plus Rose and I may be getting back together so please mate don't do anything."
Avery doesn't say anything but since Lincoln then sends a small smile to Cole and leaves, I assume that that conversation is over.
Goodness.
"He was just flirting with her, like blatently, pissed as a fart, but he wasn't at all hiding his feelings." Cole whispers and Avery makes a annoyed sound.
"If you are going to gossip at least do it with me." Avery says and then the next thing I know Avery is laid on top of us, his face right next to ours and his whole body weight basically crushing Cole as he tried to keep it off me.
"Avery." Colton groaned and I laughed when Avery was sent falling to the floor with one swift movement of Cole's shoulders.
"Wow." I mumble and Cole laughs at that.
Avery sits down on the bed and looks at us curiously.
"You were not in here when I woke up at 6 for a piss." Avery says and I just shrug.
"I just came for a hug." I say and Cole smiles, his hands holding me tightly against him.
"What time is it?" I ask and he shrugs.
"Just gone ten I think."
"Okay Nove so basically Linc caught onto my feelings, broadcasted them, made it extremely fucking awkward and then shouted at me about it."
"Aw Aves." I say and he nods solemnly.
"Okay two minutes." Cole says and I laugh loudly when Avery comes and lies in the middle of us his face pressed into the pillow dramatically and his arms around both Cole and I's heads.
"Avery you heavy fuck." Cole says and I laugh, clinging onto Avery so I wouldn't fall off the bed.
"Did you guys fuck in the bed next to me? Because that makes me feel gross." He mutters into the pillow and Cole just sighs annoyed, his patience wavering at our current situation.
"Nope." I say and Avery turns his face so it was close to mine.
"I believe only you."
"What does that mean?" Cole says and Avery just laughs sitting up and letting Cole and I fall back together under the covers.
"I am going to go shower, and apologise to Rosie for um, I don't know. But I definitely have to apologise right?" He asks standing up and I nod.
"At least just talk to her properly, you need to like clear things up I guess."
"Can I blame it on the red dress?" He asks and I laugh, Rosie wore a red dress last night and she looked like fire but I doubt anyone would take him seriously.
"Go." Cole mutters and I laugh at Avery's mockingly hurt expression.
"I see how it is."
"Don't come back." Cole says and I start feeling a little nervous at his tone, it was almost naughty but in an awfully cold way and I just tense when Avery grabs his things and heads out of the door.
"Did you know?" I ask, referencing Avery's feelings and he nods, his hands exploring a little and I just sigh when they miss every single place that I knew he was making his way to.
"Of course, I just didn't think you did." He mumbles. "I didn't wanna share his secrets yanoe?"
"Yeah same." I smile.
I shake my head though quickly after as he rolls us over slightly, not hesitating to hover over me in the freaking slightest.
"Cole." I say warningly looking up at him through my lashes and he just smiles.
"I don't feel like shit anymore."
I chuckle. "I am glad."
"You will be glad." Cole mumbles and I pause utterly stressed but also I just open my legs so he could settle between them.
So not that stressed are you Nove?
That's when the bedroom door opened again and Colton collapsed in frustration on top of me. His head falling into my neck and I laugh at him and look up at Lincoln stood awkwardly again.
"Um, have you seen Rose or Ave-"
Colton sits up and turns around to Lincoln so fast that I press my lips together to not laugh at his obvious annoyance.
"He went to apologise to Rose. Don't interfer, and stop coming in."
"Okay." Linc says and throws me an apologetic smile.
"I hate it here." He mumbles and I laugh loudly, my hand running through his hair and I shake my head at him.
"You don't. And I agreed to a hug Colton, please let's keep this morning just nice and not stressful."
He slides himself off of me and opens his arm up for me to move back into.
"Yeah okay." He whispers.
"Not that sex with you stresses me." I say and he laughs.
"Yeah what the hell are you saying?" Cole asks, his hands tickling my waist and I squirm.
"Just that emotions stress me out."
He pauses and then chuckles. "I know that is your way of telling me that you are feeling a sorta way right? But in my head I was like, cold hard fuck? We can do that."
"Cole." I gasp and he laughs, his arms pulling me tighter against him.
"Sorry, no sex, I got it. And to be honest baby I was planning on just eating you out."
"Colton stop." I laugh my hands slapping his chest away and he just pouts.
"I am starved." He whispers and I just ignore the way his words make my thighs clench and move out of his arms and sit up.
"You just need a cold shower and have a happy session with you fist" I tell him and he laughs lying on the bed and watching me as I hand my legs over the side of the bed, ready to stand up.
"I mean sure, but that is option 2." He chuckles and I lean over the bed and place a quick surprise kiss on his lips.
Just one and I pull away really really quickly.
"That is all you are having."
He grins and he goofily placed one hand on his heart and the other sprawls out over the bed, the space I just left.
"You are something else." I chuckle and he smiles softly at me.
"I'd hope so Nove."
...
Cole and I finally made it downstairs at around eleven. Nothing happened we just, He needed a shower and I needed to go into my room and change. And well he met me in my room and we just chatted on the bed for a little bit.
I don't know what I am doing. I think I am being selfish. I don't know. Things are just strange as.
"You weren't in bed when I woke up." Sage says as I walk up to her in the kitchen, I cringe at her words and Colton of fucking course just blurts out whatever the hell he wants.
"That's cos she was in my bed."
"Well yeah Linc said, but Nova I didn't know where you were." She says to me and I just place my head on her shoulder apologetically.
"Sorry, don't worry I wouldn't go swimming without anyone else around and I am good, no risk of recklessness or whatever." I tell her and she smiles at me and then her eyes look between me and Cole who is waiting for me and I laugh.
"We didn't do anything." I say and she raised her hands in amusement.
"I never asked."
"Yeah well your little curious eyes said different."
"You mean my pretty eyes." She grins and I huff at her.
"No your eyes are beady."
"Nova!" She gasps and I laugh loudly, my back falling against Cole's chest and he just steadied me with his hand.
"I am joking, joking."
"Yeah well go and take your giraffe neck away from me, I need to focus." She says, she was cutting up melon but I just gape at her, my hand flying to my neck.
"My neck isn't that long." I cry and she laughs at my shocked face.
"For goodness sake, your eyes are great Sage, your neck is great Nova, please can we go outside I am dying." Cole says about the heat and I just grin up at him.
"Great in length." Sage mutters and I look at her, my jaw dropped and then we both laugh.
"Yeah okay." I say to Cole and he links our fingers and drags me outside quickly.
I just had a swimming costume on and I smiled at my friends all lazing about in the sun.
"You always wear no clothes around me and I am not trying to be possessive, like at all you look great wear whatever the fuck you want, I am just saying it physically hurts me to look at you."
"Cole." I laugh and his eyes unapologetically trail down me, his eyes lingering on places that made me feel extrememly exposed.
In a good way.
In a hot way.
"You know, in the car?" He whispers and I let out an unimpressed noise.
We walk down the steps and I ignore him. "Okay well, I am just going to say I was really fucking close just fucking you there and then I didn't even care about Linc and Rose."
I look up at him and blink at how loud he said that, so utterly non subtle it was ridiculous.
We were literally next to Lacey and Ash. "They have earphones in." He chuckles and I sigh.
"I-honestly, Nova that was hot."
I smile down a little, amused by his husky words. "Cole I thought you would have delt with this in the shower."
"With what?" He asks and I give him a look that reads: your horniness.
"Well I mean I did, but it's you in that swim suit Nove, it's possessing me."
"Well leave me be then." I laugh and he just smiles, sitting down on the chair next to me and lying up in the sun.
"Never."
I sigh and then laugh at the way he was brought out some suncream.
"Do me the honours?" He asks as he takes his top off.
Lacey laughs then and she looks up.
"Colton your moves are hilarious."
"Colton?" He says and his eyes dart to mine accusingly. "People keep calling me Colton now November, damn you."
I send him a small guilty smile and take the sun cream in my hands, tapping the space in front of me he sits down on the sunbed, straddling it, his back to me.
"What's up with Rose and that?" Lacey whispers to me and I look over at her.
I shrug. "I don't know yet." We look over at Rose and her and Sage are sat on the pier, their feet in the water as they eat melon. "I haven't spoken to her."
She placed her book down and sits up. "I am going to go and talk to her, are you coming?" She asks and I probably shouldn't have chosen to stay with Cole but I did.
"Nah I need to-" I nod to his back and she just smirks at me.
"You know Nova-" He says and I sigh, because normally his next words are utterly outrageous.
"Mm?" I ask and squirt some suncream into my hands.
"I like you."
I stare at the back of his head and then a small laugh falls out of my lips.
"Yes Cole I think I gathered."
"No." He says turning around before I can even place the suncream on his back.
"What?" I ask.
"No as in, I really actually fucking want you to be with me, like you."
I blink at him shocked and then I rub the sun cream into my own arms and chest, needing it off my hands.
So I could strangle him.
"I know my words freak you the fuck out and like you can go run off to your friends if you want to in a second." He says with a chuckle.
"But I am just saying that is my intention. I mean you no harm whatsoever, I don't want to fuck with your head, I literally will never look elsewhere, I just am saying-"
I slide away from him.
"Cole."
"I am just saying that-"
"Fuck sake Cole I pecked your lips, that wasn't me declaring a fucking undying love for you. It was playful, funny, this is why we cant go back there."
He smirks at me and that just fuels me, my little storm letting loose at his next words.
"You are getting aggy."
"Yes I am because you are freaking me out." I exclaim. "You say you understand me, you know me Cole, you know that your words however fucking charming they are, they scare me, they literally just hurt me. Because I have heard those words before, and then I was beat, I was cut, I was cheated on, I was forced to join in with weird ass- Just fuck off, honestly get away from me."
"Okay you are mad mad." He says carefully and I side fully away from him and if he was to actually stand up, I would go flying because it would tilt the chair.
"I believe you know me." I say, our friends were listening I am sure, the guys I mean, I wasn't being quiet, I just emptied a lot out in this open space and I will decide whether I am embarrassed that they now know about it later.
"I believe you are telling the truth, that those are your intensions. But Yuen never woke up in the morning and said I know, I will bully the fuck out of Nove today, something would happen I would get him angry and I would be punished for it. Things aren't as fucking simple as you make them out to be, you literally know everything about me, please actually grow a brain and understand why your words are scary as fuck to me."
I knew my friends were listening to me just absolutely going off on one and I stress because Lacey, Rose and Sage all are far away so they cant hear whereas Avery is next to Cole, and Lincon and Ash are on my side.
"November you wanna go talk about this inside?" He asks looking at Avery's and Ash's concerned faces.
"No!" I say. "I am not embarrassed about the shit that happened to me Cole and if you actually wanted to be with me you wouldn't be either."
"I am not, I was just saying because you are getting upset."
I narrow my eyes at him and he sends me a soft smile.
I was so angry and he was just looking at me guiltily.
"Look I get it, I wont say it again Nove." He says and I press my hands into my hair in frustration.
That isn't what I mean.
I just don't think he understands that he is falling for someone who has a history with domestic violence, domestic abuse. I don't think he understands when I say I don't want to let him in...
That I am scared.
I was so happy this morning.
I slide forward and pick up his top from the grass and pull it over myself, utterly uncomfortable now and then I stand up.
He goes to reach for my hand, his fingers hesitant and rightfully so because I pull my hand away.
"I am going for a walk." I mutter and Cole just sighs in frustration.
"Are you actually annoyed with me?" I ask him and his eyes search mine.
"Never Nova, you are the one angry."
"Yeah because I just spilt my whole fucking trauma to your friends." I mutter and put my flip flops back on.
"You want me to follow you?" He asks and I just walk away, I don't know where I am going, just utterly the other direction from anyone I knew.
I was alone for precisely 0.8 seconds. Damn it.
"Nova." Avery says, jogging up behind me and I pull my eyebrows together at the fact he had followed me and well Cole hadn't.
"Hi." I mumble, my arms wrapped around myself and we walk in silence, my legs fast but his easily keeping up.
"Nova, he will get it at some point. Cole is in your face, he is loud and outspoken, he isn't shy about sharing what he wants or what he likes." Avery says next to me and I just cross my arms over myself.
"Nova he does care about you so much."
"I know." I mutter and my eyes close at the memory of Yuen telling me that he cares around me, that he loved me.
"But I get it Nove." His hand comes down on my shoulder and he stands still, making me stand still too. "They said they loved you too right? That they cared about you, that you were perfect for them." Avery says and I search his face.
What?
"How'd you-"
"My um, I heard it all as I watched my father attacked my mum every day, verbally, physically whatever it didn't really matter, just depended on the day. Nova I, I don't get it, but my mum does, I remember how it was for her, i remember how she didn't, couldn't trust anyone for years."
I look to the floor and I stumble forward a little as he pulls me to him.
"Typical isn't it, badboy with an abusive dad? How more cliché does it get?" He whispers and I laugh a little at that, but it reality I really needed the comfort being offered so I hugged him back.
"She is married again Nova, utterly in love with some twat called Harry. He's actually a really decent guy, but she was so scared at the beginning. So was I." He says and I pull back and look up at him.
"You were?"
"It's hard to know who is good and who is bad." Avery says. "But Cole is good. I know it to my fucking bone."
"I know he is." I laugh and groan at how I reacted, at how I always feel so fucking panicked when he says things like that.
"He just thinks that what he is feeling needs to be shouted from the rooftops, and lets be real you aren't going to find another guy that mad about you."
"I just, I don't think he understands how bad it all gets sometimes." I whisper and he nods.
"I am not going to pretend to understand Nova, things like this scar you. They do, no bullshit about getting fixed or whatever. Wounds heal but they still leave a scar. But he adores you, he will learn."
"Avery you are a really nice lad." I laugh and he smiles brightly.
"Yeah but I also got arrested for beating the crap out of another guy last weekend so I am not too sure."
"You should go to anger management." I mumble as we carry on walking.
"Yep." He agrees. "I want to be nothing like him so bad, but it's like a switch I don't know how the fuck to manage it. That's how Cole and I became mates actually, I was kicking the crap out of this bin yanoe the usual Wednesday afternoon and then I hear this condescending chuckle behind me and the fucker calls me some sort of name. And then I retaliate and the next thing I know he had me pinned against the lockers and we are throwing fists."
"Cole has anger issues too." I whisper and Avery nods at me.
"Yes. But he has got them under control now."
That just scares me more I don't know.
My shoulders bounce slightly and I stare out through the lake, my eyes widening in fear as I realise Linc, Ash and Cole were on top of these Rocks and were about to jump off into the lake.
"Oh my." I say and Avery laughs
"we were doing that this morning as well, yanoe when you and Cole cuddled up together."
"Is it safe?" I ask and he shrugs.
"Who knows, hopefully though."
I laugh a little at that.
"Trauma, stays, it's hard to manage. But there are little lights that you have to grab onto, so when it does get dark it is manageable."
I look at him and he smiles at me. "That is what my mum says."
I send him a thankful smile and he throws an arm around my shoulder and he steers us back around so we are walking back towards the house.
"Cole may just be a light." He say and I close my eyes because how many times have I referred to him as being a light before? Damn it.
"Avery I don't want to be with him, I don't want him to get sick of me, to get angry with me, I don't want anything that happened with Yuen to happen with him. I don't want him to hate me."
"I promise you, it won't." Aves says and we continue to walk back in the direction of our little house.
"But by the way, you don't have to be with him. He wasn't asking you to be his was he? He was just expressing his feelings for you. If you want him to understand that that scares you, you have to understand that if Cole thought before he spoke, that wouldn't be him."
"I just, I like him." I admit cringing as I say the words. "But I don't want him to know that, I don't want us to be in that place. I want to just mess around, I don't know."
"Just, it's fine Nova, just see what happens. You've probably scared the poor bloke off now." Avery laughs and I cringe, go goodness.
"I think I am just panicked because I have missed my therapy sessions this week." I laugh.
I rescheduled them don't worry, I will still on my medication and I know this morning has been wobblily, I believe my reaction is standard of someone who had gone through the shit I had with that fucked up relationship.
"Call em if necessary, just talk to Cole though, let him know you don't hate him." Avery tells me and I smile up at him.
"Thank you, for coming after me."
"That is okay. Just um, they don't know about my Dad. They know he's dead but they don't know about how shit things were. If you wouldn't mind, I just, could you keep it to youself?"
I squeeze his arm gently and I nod.
"Of course."
"Also Rose and I-" He starts and then Rose coughs a little infront of us, our attention being brought up to her and she just looks at us oddly. Then I take a step away from the boy and she relaxes.
I raise my eyebrows at that. Interesting.
"Nova, Cole asked me to come and find you, to see if you were okay? Are you okay?"
"Hi." I laugh and nod. "I am fine, just Yuen shit getting brought up. Avery came to see if I was okay."
She nods slowly, her eyes locked with his and I felt like I was really interrupting when I move slightly, uncomfrortably and her eyes sprung back to mine.
"Yuen stuff?"
"Yeah, don't worry." I laugh and push my arm through hers, linking it and pulling her with me. I felt as if she shouldn't look at Avery any longer, jesus Christ, this is a full on triangle and Rosie is in the middle and wow what a little drama.
"Rosie if you wanna pretend you aren't attracted to Avery you need to be less fucking lost in his presence." I whisper to her, Avery walking behind us and she tenses.
"I didn't comment when Cole had his hand up your dress yesterday so please don't comment about this shit I have got myself into." She mutters back and I cringe, like a full body shudder at the fact she knew what we were doing in the car yesterday.
"I am just saying, talk to me." I whisper and she shakes her head, face full of determination as she looks ahead at our friends.
"Shush, please." She says as we head towards Lincoln and I just nod slowly, confused.
"And um, Cole was just-"
"Nova I heard you moan babe, was pretty hot to be fair." She sends me an amused smile as I stand shocked at her little angelic face and I shake my head.
What has gotten into her lately?
I love her so much, I laugh loudly and she grins turning back around and placing herself besides Lincoln as him and Cole sit drenched eating some melon that Sage cut up.
"Hi." I say awkwardly and Colton just looks up at me and sends me a smile.
"You want some melon?" He asks and I nod.
"Yes please."
...
HIIII this was long sorryyyy
Hope yous enjoyed, the more Novie feels for our lovely Cole the more afraid she gets over it I guess, relationships are hard when you haven't been treated nicely by someone before, things are complicated. do yous get her?