Out Of My Mind *H.S.*

By BriannaNicole561

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COMPLETED!xx . . "I..L-lo-ve..y-you..Harry...." I croak out "Please don't go Please." Harry holds me tight ... More

Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Chapter Thirty-Two
Chapter Thirty-Three
Chapter Thirty-Four
Chapter Thirty-Five
Chapter Thirty-Six
Chapter Thirty-Seven
Chapter Thirty-Eight
Chapter Thirty-Nine
Chapter Forty
Chapter Forty-One
Chapter Forty-Two
Chapter Forty-Three
Chapter Forty-Four
Chapter Forty-Five
Chapter Forty-Six
Chapter Forty-Seven
Chapter Forty-Eight
Chapter Forty-Nine
Chapter Fifty
Chapter Fifty-Two
Chapter Fifty-Three
Chapter Fifty-Four
SEQUEL! #GoodByeFirstFanfiction

Chapter Fifty-One

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By BriannaNicole561

 *Skylynn's POV*

Today's is the 25th of March and will now be day I will marry Harry a year from now. We decided to have a Spring wedding but we wouldn't have bright color, I mean c'mon me and Harry bright colors? I think no.

I would never have bright colored wedding, its not me and I know damn well its not Harry. Today we- Perrie wanted me go look at dresses, for some reason I don't know. I literally begged her not to make me go. But in my case you don't want to mess a five month pregnant lady. She's scary.

She has a bump and its big. The doctor said she's gonna have a chunky baby. I laughed at her since I was with Perrie at the time. We've been knocking down baby names for her, which is a lot harder than we thought.

Zayn said he wanted it to be Penelope. I said Elena-Rose. Perrie said something along the lines Catherine-Eloise. Which is cute but then she said she loved our names. This lady needs to make up her mind.

As of now we haven't decided and I'm currently at the Bridal Shop looking through dress after dress after dress. I don't want a big puffy princess dress, I want something simple yet unique. Something strapless that flows down the train. I want it fitted to the waist, then flowed out. Get what I'm saying?

Princess is not me. Vintage, unique? Yes. I've looked through catalogs at home and Harry always points out ones he likes but he won't know what I pick til' the day of the wedding. Yes, we are going traditional about not seeing each other. I said only for 24 hours but Perrie and Sophia insisted on 48, Harry was groaning and pouting about which made me laugh but don't mess with a pregnant women or her little sidekick.

I rummaged through the big racks of beautiful gowns, I find one that is something I adore. Its strapless, beaded around the bust to the waist, and flows perfectly to the ground. The train is not too long but too short.

"Perrie, I found it I know I did." I call her over she waddles her way to me smiling widely

"Sky, its your dress you must go try it on." she pushes me to the consultant

She gladly grabs the gown, guiding me to the dressing rooms. Today I brought my dad, Perrie, MaryJean, Anne, Gemma, and Liam. The other girls weren't able to come which made me sad but told me to send a picture of the dress.

I know its unusual to bring your father or your brother but their my family. I wish my was mum here, she would be making try on the whole shop til' we found the perfect dress.

We get the dress on and walk out to the guys who, immediately drop their jaws. Anne and my father are tearing up, while the girls and Liam smile widely. I look in the mirror gasping, the girl in the mirror isn't the normal edgy, sarcastic badass Skylynn I know. Its a mature grown up women.

"Oh my god." I whisper tears in my eyes covering my mouth

"I can't believe my baby girl is growing up." My father sniffles Liam pats his back

"You look great Sis." Liam says smiling

"Guys, we've found my dress." I say facing the mirror

"YAY!" they cheer jumping up engulfing me in a hug

"So, this is your dress?" my consultant asks

"Yes." I tell her

"We will hold the dress til' next year, for you. We normally don't do this but that dress is yours, and you look stunning, darling." she says

"Thank You."

~*~*~

So after a successful day dress venturing I found my dress, and happy to say that its perfect for me.

When we had got home the guys were over so that mean the girls were too. We told them that I found my dress and that its perfect. Harry kept trying to still glances at the pictures I showed the girls and I would always smack him.

The girls were in awe as I showed the pictures to them. I decided to go with a long veil that would fall down my back. I didn't want it to be in my face, I didn't want it to be to traditional y'know? Harry and the guys have been picking at me all day since I got back and I would laugh half the time. Its because I never wear white and think that my dress is either gonna be black or some other dark color.

"I can't wait to see Sky walk down the aisle, and actually wearing white." Louis teases chuckling with the others

"Hey! I wear white." I protested pouting

"Those graphic tees don't count love." Zayn intervenes

"I still worn white before!" I countered

"Oh yeah? When?" Louis mocks

"Freshman year of high school." I say proudly

"Was it a t-shirt or pants?" he chuckles

"A dress." I say in a matter of fact tone

"Skylynn that was a cream colored dress." MaryJean adds making them to burst into laughter

"Its still some what white." I groan

"Sure it is, love." Harry says hugging my side

"I hate you guys. Stop laughing! Or I'll make sure you guys wear the most ugliest suits ever made." I glare and they stop then of course Louis just has to be smart

"Anything I wear I'd still look sexy." Louis sasses

"No Louis, just no." I shake my head laughing along with the rest

~*~*~

Its now Saturday and I'm studying for an assignment Professor Sholtz assigned us. I have to write a paragraph about my darkest moment in life. Like, something I did or something that happened to me. I decided to write about when I was in high school struggling with depression and anxiety.

                                                    Year, 2010

In 2010, I started freshman year in high school and to be honest wasn't the best year. I started to get bullied, brutally, mentally, verbally, and physically. I had a few friends who stayed by me but some eventually turned their backs and started bullying me like the others. That year I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. It had gotten worse through the years, as in like when my mother passed away. I didn't know what to do anymore, she died right there in front of me and I couldn't do anything about it. That's when my depression went farther and got to deep. I told people that I got depression from my mums passing but in all honesty it was when the bullies started with the name calling, the punching, the kicking, the spitting.. I felt as if I was never wanted in this world, that if I dropped dead that one day I was in my bathroom staring at those damn pills no-one would care. No-one would see. But I was wrong I had people who cared and who stood by me, people I could trust. That day was a dark terrifying day something I won't forget. And if I did fulfill my mistake, I wouldn't of met the most important man in my life. He has kept me strong this last year that has passed. He was there at all times. He's my rock that keeps me grounded. And to this day we are stronger than ever, and plan on marrying each other in the the next year. I always told myself that there's a purpose in life and that no matter what anyone says to you, your worth it. Everyone in this world is worth it and if others think differently than they haven't seen the true beauty in life.

      My name is Skylynn Brooks and this was my Darkest Moment in life....

I teared up rereading it, then the door opens to see a sweaty Harry walking in. He looks at me smiling then frowns at my expression.

"Babe, whats wrong?" he asks concerned as he sits beside me

"N-nothing, its just I had to write and essay on my darkest moment and it brought the memories back. Don't worry I'm okay." I wipe my tears away

"May I read it?" he asks I nod

"Tell me what you think." I say walking out as he sits on the bed reading the paper I just printed out

~*~*~

*Harry' POV*

I sat on the bed, after coming home from training. Skylynn looked upset and fragile. She told me I could read her essay so when I started to read it I teared up myself. I didn't know Sky, was so upset with herself through high school.

But when I get to the part where she talks about her suicide attempt I break right then. She was gonna kill herself that day... She could've died that day... I would have never known her let alone be marrying her.

My baby girl was broken and bruised....

The thought of her doing that cruel stuff to herself sickens me. It makes me angry the fact that some dumb fucks were pushing her to that. I just want to beat the living shit out of them.

Who could hurt such an angel like Sky? Who could put someone through so much pain? Why would anybody want to put her through pain?

I wipe the tears that threaten to fall as I walk down to the kitchen where my soon-to-be wife is. I spin her around to face me and plant my lips firmly on hers kissing with so much passion an love. Not wanted to let go but we eventually do, staring at one another.

"You my sweet angel are worth it all." I whisper to her pecking her lips once more

~*~*~

Ever since I read her essay I just don't want to let her go, but I know that she would never do that again.

We've been watching movies all day and cuddling like one of those cheesy couples in movies or the ones you see in the halls of your high school who just so in love.. I mentally laugh because I remember Skylynn telling me in the hospital that we act like those "naive teenagers that we think we are" she probably thinks I never heard her but I heard it all.

She sings with so much care and passion evident in her voice that you can tell she is amazing. I've been trying to get her to sing again for me but she says no every time.

"Skylynn can you sing please?" I pout at her

"Ugh! Fine, ass-hole." she muttered the last part

She walks and grabs what I suppose her song book flipping through pages then sees one and begins singing softly

~You got me sippin' on something can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping after this fever I'll survive
I know I've been acting a bit crazy, strung out a little bit hazy
Hands over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive
The beds getting cold and you're not here
The future we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive, until you call
And I bet the odds are against it all
Save your advice, 'cause I won't hear
You might be right, but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ants

You got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lightening me up like Venus
But you disappear and make me waitAnd every seconds like torture
Hell over ship, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby, baby no I can't escape

The beds getting cold and you're not here
The future we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive, until you call
And I bet the odds are against it all
Save your advice, 'cause I won't hear
You might be right, but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ants

The heart wants what it wa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ants

The heart wants what it wa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ants

This is a modern fairy-tale
No happy endings
No wind in ourselves
But I can't imagine a life without
Breathless moments
Breaking me down

The beds getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold, is so unclear
But I'm not alive, until you call
And I bet the odds are against it all
Save your advice, 'cause I won't hear
You might be right, but I don't care 
There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ants

The heart wants what it wa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ants

The heart wants what it wa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ants

Heart wants it wants
        baby

It wants what it wants
            baby
It wants what it wants
             baby

The heart wants what it wants
           baby~

She stops singing with a few tears in her eyes, looking down.

"You sang beautifully, love." I whisper as I kiss her lips

"Thank you." she mumbles

"I can't help but think that song is about me?" I inquire smirking lightly

"Maybe...." she drags out

"I love it."

"I love you."

"I love you angel, so much"

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

A/N So how did you like this chapter?

Questions? Advice? Comments?

Let me know..

And if you're ever going through a hard time in life or anything at all, I'm always here if you need someone. I will always be here...

Just know you all are worth it all....:)

Love you nerds....

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