What if ?
What if I didnt eat my breakfast ?
What if I didnt do any chores at all ?
What if I used my time properly today ?
What if I have different kind of sickness ?
What if my panic attack turned into heart attack instead ?
What if those days didnt happen at all ?
What if I die within hours or even minutes in this room ?
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Everyday , I've astrayed away from the so-called reality . Every bits of my body crumbles as the time passes .
Edgy is it ?
I've always wish it's a phase like my family referred but fortunately it isnt .
I dive back into my " what ifs " world where I can be whatever I want .
I want to forget how trash & saddening my state right now. How terrifying can future be or how painful the present is.
What if ?
What if my life gets worse ?