Bruno woke me up at 8 to get some breakfast, as he would have to leave soon. We got ready, and then walked down the street.
Sure enough, there was some fans waiting. I let her meet them and take pictures while I stepped off to the side. My phone buzzed and there was a text from Carson.
Carson : Can't wait to see you and our son or daughter on Friday xx
I was so excited to see the results of the ultrasound and the bloodwork and to see what we're having.
Gabi : I am going to explode xx
Carson : You're going to explode?! Are you in labor?!?
Gabi : I've got a way to go until then.
I laughed at my phone.
Bruno walked back over to me. "I'm sorry about that." He said.
"No worries. I need to know what to expect when I become, umm.... exposed." I said and Bruno nodded. We found a breakfast place nearby and then did a little bit of shopping.
We went back to my apartment, he packed and then I drove him to the airport. He told me once again how happy he was, and I told him how happy I was that he could come. I also promised him that I would tell him the gender as soon as I knew.
I spent the next few days making the apartment more like home. I noticed that Carson didn't have any clothes here, so I went out and brought him some to stock his closet. I also filled the pantry with food for the week.
I couldn't fill it all the way, because I knew that I would be traveling a lot and the food would all go bad.
Finally, the day came when I would see Carson again. As happy as I was, I was also insanely nervous. It wouldn't be like in Spokane or my old town where we could do something as simple as walk to the car together and not be noticed. There were eyes everywhere in New York, and they would all be on him.
I hoped he would have a really good disguise or some plot to get us around without being stalked, but the truth was, wherever we went, they would always be people. He did tell me that he didn't like to wear disguises because it builds an ego, but we didn't really have a choice now.
He texted me early on Friday, saying he was getting on his flight. I picked out an outfit to hid my bump the most. Now that I was 17, almost 18 weeks, my bump was gaining a presence. I hated hiding it, because I really just wanted to show it off.
If anybody did see Carson and I together and saw my baby bump, there would be assumptions. If people saw Carson and I together without a baby bump, there would be less of a chance of commotion. Although as far as the public know we're "exes" but hopefully I could pass for a friend.
My cravings consisted of grilled cheese and pop tarts. I would wake up in the middle of the night and open a pack on pop tarts and stuff my face.
Sleeping alone was hard. Especially now that I was feeling the baby move. If I stayed still long enough, the baby would begin to move. It made me so happy and also sad at the same time because Carson wasn't there to share my excitement.
I would stare into darkness of the wall just wanting Carson to be there with me. It did feel like I always had a piece of him with me, with the baby, but it wasn't enough. I wanted Carson's beating heart and his smile.
Every once in a while I would break down because of how much I missed him. It was unbearable.
I now almost regretted my wish. Now that he was coming, I was scared that he wouldn't be able to come to the doctors appointment because of the cameras.
I took a deep breath and decided to call the office.
"Hello, this is the maternity wing, how can I help you." The lady on the other end said.
"Hi, my name is Gabi Lowe and I'm coming for an ultrasound today. I was wondering if I could talk to my doctor, Dr. Allen?" I asked.
"Dr. Allen is with a patient at the moment, is there something I can help you with?"
I sighed and rolled my eyes. "I'm, i was wondering if you had any other entrances besides the front, main entrance. Maybe a back entrance?"
"And why is that?" I sighed again. My doctor was the only one who knew that Carson was coming with me today, and I didn't want to go into detail with my question.
"My partner is coming, and he doesn't want any unnecessary attention. Dr. Allen knows why, that's why I wanted to talk to her." I kept it simple.
The lady on the other end didn't ask anymore questions, she described a back entrance that was more secluded. I thanked her, and then hung up. At least there wouldn't be any photographic evidence that he walked into a hospital known for maternity services.
I stared at the island and watched time go by. Finally, it was noon, and Carson's flight was landing. I gave him all the information about our apartment so that I wouldn't have to pick him up and show my face.
I sat tight on the couch and overlooked Central Park in anticipation. At quarter to 1, the buzzer buzzed, and there was a knock.
I ran over to the door and opened it. Carson stood with a smile on his face the size of the city.
"Oh my god." I said, and pulled him in. The door shut, and before I knew it, I was sob into his arms. He held me close, and I could hear his heartbeat. I didn't expect to cry, but I was overcome with emotion.
"I've missed you so much." Carson said, putting a hand in my hair.
"I've missed you more." I said. I knew that Carson could feel the size of my stomach even through my clothes. Before I knew it, Carson began to cry. Not as hard as me, just the way guys cry.
"I hate being away from you for so long," he said. "I'm missing so much." Last time he said those words I denied them. That was when I was only a few weeks pregnant. I didn't say anything. He was really missing so much.
"The baby's moving." I said, wiping my eyes. I rolled up my jacket and shirt and put his hand on my stomach. When Carson realised that he was feeling the baby move, his eyes closed and his face dropped. He put his other hand on his forehead and continued to cry.
We ere both a mess.
I wiped his eyes, and then looked into them. I placed a kiss on his lips to stop him from crying. He put his arm around me and pulled me closer. This is what I missed so badly.
After a few seconds, I pulled away and looked back into his eyes, my hand was still on his face. "I love you," I said, my thumb rubbing his cheeks. "I'm crying because I love you."
I started to laugh to myself. Even Carson looked at the floor and smiled.
"I believe that we have a very important appointment to go to soon," I said. "Come sit. This is our apartment after all."
Carson looked around. "I made a good choice." He looked at the view and smiled. I loved it when he smiled.
"Let me give you the official tour." I said and took his hand. I took him into every room, and showed him everything, including all the clothes I brought for him.
I ended with the empty room- the future nursery. I saw Carson start to get emotional again, and put a hand on his back.
"Let's go and see what we're having." I said.
Getting out of anywhere with no one spotting us together is always a process with us. I left the apartment first. I contemplated calling a taxi, but decided against it.
Instead, I had to get my car from the garage. I drove up to the back of the building where Carson was waiting. He climbed in the back.
The hospital was about twenty minutes away with traffic, which gave us time to talk and catch up. I told him about see Demi and having Bruno over. He told me about all the promo and I interview stuff he was doing in preparation for the album, even though it had already been leaked thanks to him.
He even invited me to Orlando for the album release performance.
"I'm going to do a performance and some promo, but then we can go on rides!" Carson said.
"Carson. I'm going to be over four months pregnant. As much as I love rollercoasters, I'll just watch." I said.
"Okay, but still come to the performance and cheer me and the band on." He said.
"It's not like I have anything better to do." I said. Carson laughed, and I realized how much I missed the sound of his laugh.
I drove to the back entrance of the hospital that the women told me about on the phone. It was deserted.
"Cover up." I said, tossing him the scarf.
"I don't think I should wear the scarf, I think it will just draw more attention. I'll just put my hood up and pull the strings." Carson said. He had a point. I grabbed the scarf and put it back in the glove compartment.
"Lady's first." He said. I got out of the car and walked to the doors. I walked to the desk and checked in, and then took a seat in the waiting area. Shortly, Carson walked through the doors. His entire face was hidden by his hoodie, i was surprised he could see where he was going.
He found me, and sat in the seat next to me. I began to unzip my jacket, but then stopped. I didn't want people to see I was pregnant and with Carson, just in case.
"Gabi Lowe?" My doctor called. I got up from my seat and waved.
"That's my doctor. She knows, so don't worry." I whispered to Carson. My doctor turned around and led us into a room with all the equipment.
"I'm Dr. Allen. You must be Carson." She said, extending a hand to Carson. Carson just stood with his hands in his pockets. I began to laugh, because his was still pulled shut, so he couldn't acknowledge her hand.
I released the strings on his hoodie and pulled the god down. He noticed the doctors hand and shook it, embarrassed.
I took my jacket off and took a seat on the table, while Carson sat on a chair. "Don't be a chicken." I mouthed to him. If he froze up like last time, I would slap him.
This was not a time to freeze.
"Gabi, all your blood tests came up good, you and the baby are healthy. We are going to take another ultrasound today, which will determine the gender of your baby!" She said excitedly.
I smiled and rolled back my shirt, exposing my belly. The doctor put some cool gel on my stomach and then turned on the machine. She placed a tool on my belly and started moving it around. I looked over at Carson, who was absorbed by the images on the screen.
"There it is," the doctor said, playing around with the focus of the screen. "it looks healthy."
I was fascinated at how fast the baby had grown from the last ultrasound to now. "Wow." Escaped my lips.
"Would you like to know the gender?" The doctor asked. Carson and I nodded our heads frantically. I took one last look at the monitor.
A/N
hehehee what do you think the gender is going to be?
Thanks for reading and I hope that you stick with me as the story advances :)
thank you so much
Neve x