I walked in to find Billie lying on the couch over Tilley making out. She looked hideous how could he want to be with her? Her hair made her look like a clown! I wanted to rip that stupid earring out of her cartilage, and her face my oh my, that face! She wasn’t pretty at all. I was way more beautiful than her. She looked as if her face had caught on fire and had been beat out with a rake! I know I had always said she was pretty. I don’t know why I was picking out her flaws. I had no reason to be jealous of her. Maybe it was because Billie had her and seemed happy while now my life has turned to shit. I didn’t like it at all.
(Billie POV)
It was 11 o’clock, and I was up watching TV. I tried to get back to sleep but I couldn’t. I hadn’t gotten any sleep all weekend; mostly because I was thinking of Olivia and her weekend party night with that idiot. I don’t know, maybe he was good for her and I just didn’t want to admit it. He did make her happy. He's all she even talks about anymore. I heard a knock on the door. I really didn’t want to get up from my cozy spot on the couch to see who it was, but I was the only one there so I had no choice. I opened the door to see Tilley’s bright face, and hair. She was wide awake and seemed excited to see me. I didn’t understand how someone could be so damn happy in the mornings. There’s nothing exciting about mornings just dread about the day and regret that you actually got up. I let her in and resigned to my throne. She sat down beside me and gave me a kiss. I could taste the sweet taste of orange juice still lingering in her mouth.
“So hey babe, what you going to do today?”
“Oh, I don’t know, I guess lay around here and catch up on some sleep.” I was so sleep deprived. I’m surprised she couldn’t tell how tired I was by the dark circles under my eyes. She pulled my head to her chest. I must admit it was quite warm.
“Aw my poor baby.” She stroked my hair then continued talking about what she did yesterday and what she had planned for today.
I mumbled every few minutes to let her know that I was listening, even though I wasn't. Hell she could have said I'm going to take you in the back room and butcher you and I would have agreed. I had reached the point that I just didn't care anymore. Olivia had Jackson and loved him; she proved that by constantly bringing him over and making out with him. At first it hurt now it was just pathetic and annoying. I felt myself getting angry. Why did I let myself think about her all weekend? She's doing her own thing and doesn't care about me anymore. Fuck her, I need to move on! She has Jackson and I have Tilley now. Sure she's no charmer and she's not first or second best. Hell, I don't even think she was in top ten but she liked me. That's all I need, someone to like me. Her voice started getting annoying so in order to get her to be quiet I did the only thing I knew I could do. I made out with her right in the middle of a sentence. I shouldn't be wasting my time worrying about a girl who doesn't even care, especially when I had a girl right next to me who did. I pulled Tilley close and scooted her down till her head rested on the pillow. She threw her leg around me. I started to ease my hand up her side when I heard the door open. I looked out the corner of my eye, not leaving contact with Tilley to see a pair of red converse with my signature on them. Olivia; perfect now I can show her how much I don't care. I continued making out with Tilley.
"Hey where’s Mike?" I only stopped long enough to answer without making eye contact.
"Work," I continued kissing closing my eyes, I wanted her to suffer.
"When will he be back?" I could hear the awkwardness in her voice. Good.
"I don't know shouldn't you be at school with your lover boy Jackson?" I continued my make out session with Tilley without even a glance her way. I hope she's hurting. I heard her sniffling a little. Wait a minute. I stopped and looked up; her eyes were swollen and red. She looked pitiful and tears were running down her cheek. I had a lump in my throat that made it hurt when I swallowed. I was feeling like a jerk.
"Fuck you Billie." she managed to whimper out. I felt a shock wave go through my body, it burned. This was not what I wanted to happen at all. I didn't mean to hurt her. Yea I wanted her to feel bad but only a little, not like this though.
She quickly exited and slammed the door behind her. I jumped up I heard her crying and she was crying hard. I ran out to find her in the yard. She had fallen to her knees in tears with her head down in her hands. I ran over and threw my arms around her. She shoved me away at first but I resisted then she pulled me close and cried in my chest. I rested my head on hers kissing it. "I'm so sorry Olive I didn't mean to hurt you; I was just being a fuckin jerk. I'm so sorry." She just kept crying then she wrapped her arms around me. I pulled her onto my lap. "What's wrong honey?" It took her awhile to explain because of the crying but I understood it. I can't believe he would take her to an orgy. I knew it! He was no good for her but I wasn't going to say I told you so. "Olive please don't tell me had sex with this jerk" she looked at me and nodded her head and cried more.
"He used me." That son of a bitch. I felt the rage boiling in my blood. "We used protection though." Well that's one good thing. I knew she wouldn't be that stupid. My jaw tightned gritting my teeth at the thoughtt. I wanted to kick his ass. i closed my eyes and held her tighter for some sort of comfort.
"So what's the plan now?" I stroked her hair. She looked up at me.
"I don't know anymore, the recruiters had been at school all week but I hadn't signed up. Today’s the last day and," she looked at her watch "they're gonna leave in 30 minutes. I've missed my chance." She rested her forehead against my chest and wiped her face.
"No you haven't. Come on!" I stood and pulled her up. "We still got time we just got to leave right now."
"How? Mike has the truck." I grabbed her hand.
"It's just a few blocks we'll run." We started running. Tilley was left behind but I didn't care she wasn't even in my mind at that point. My concerns were for Olivia. We made it to the front doors, I was too tired to go on so I sat by a flower pot panting. "Hurry go on in." She nodded and headed for the door, but then she stopped, turned and ran to me. She gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
"Thank you Billie." She smiled it really warmed my heart to see her smile.
"Yeah you’re welcome, go!" She ran in. I looked through the doors as she entered the lunch room. I heard the bell ring, everyone was exiting. I hope she made it on time. Ten minutes later she came out smiling. I smiled and threw my arm over her shoulders. "So how'd it go?" She smiled.
"I'm in." I gave her a hug and we started walking back home. "They asked me a few questions then said that I should be ready to head out to training a week after graduation."
"Wow that's soon."
"Yea."
"So where do you have to go to training?" She took a deep breath and let it out.
"Texas, I'll spend the whole summer there." She sniffled a little and whipped her nose.
"Well, I know you’ll do great, and I'll miss the hell out of ya!" She smiled. We made it back to the porch. We faced each other and I brushed a piece of her hair back. She kept looking down. I lifted her chin and she smiled. I did everything I could not to kiss her. I looked into her eyes. "Hey, I'm very proud of you, and when you get back from training we will have a bigger place because our band will kick off and we'll be rich! So you can come live with us and tell us all about it!" She smiled.
"You sure do have big dreams.” She laughed. “That sounds nice though, I would like that." She fell into my chest and wrapped her arms around me. "Thank you so much." I hugged her and kissed her head.
"You’re welcome."
"Well I guess I'll let you get back to Tilley," she peaked in the door then back at me. "I can't believe we just left her here." I laughed.
"Yea I know. Are you sure you don't want to just hangout awhile?" I really didn't want her to leave I knew if she did I'd have to finish what I started with Tilley.
"No its ok, I better get home I haven't slept in the past few nights and now that I've enlisted in the air force I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders so I can relax." She smiled.
"Well your aunt thinks you’re at school so if you go home she will know you skipped." She looked out to the road.
"Yea your right."
"So come in and you can nap on my bed its really soft, then I can wake you when school usually let's out." I smiled. I really hope she stays. She looked really rough.
"Ok, but promise you'll wake me." She put her pinky out.
"I promise.” I wrapped my pinky around hers. I led her in. Tilley was lying on the couch watching TV. She didn't even look up as we walked by. I opened my door.
"Wow!"
"What?"
"Nothin just your room is so... So clean."
"Yea"
"I'm really surprised." I pushed at her arm.
"Why because I'm a guy and I lay around a lot and don't care much about things, or cleaning house?" She looked at me and smiled.
"Yea, some of those things." I smiled and pulled the covers back. She took her shoes off and hopped in bed. She made herself comfortable.
"Do you need anything?"
"Not right now, thanks." She smiled and slowly closed her eyes.
“Alright sleep tight.” I slowly shut the door and walked to the couch. Tilley moved over a little. I sat down. She started throwing her arms around me and kissing my neck up to my cheek. I faced her and she smiled. “Not right now. Olivia’s resting.” I pulled her arms from me.
“I’ll be quiet.” She giggled and started to kiss me. I turned my head.
“No, I’m sorry I’m not really in the mood, besides I don’t wanna do this with company.” She frowned, and moved to the other side of the couch. She sighed and watched TV.
“Fine.” I could tell she was upset. I grabbed her hand and kissed it.
“Another time.” She rolled her eyes then looked and smiled at me. “Thanks for understanding.” She held my hand and pulled it to her lap. We sat there and watched TV. Mike and Frank came in kind of loud so I quickly hushed them and told them what was going on. Mike already knew up until the point she came.
“Why didn’t you tell me when it happened?” we were whispering.
“Because Billie, she told me not to tell anyone at the time. I knew she would tell you when she was ready.” Yeah I guess he’s right. She probably didn’t want to hear I told you so. “Well, at least she got enlisted.”
“Yea, I still want to rip his head off.” Frank added. He had mostly sat there in silence processing what was all being said.
We sat and talked while watching TV. Time came for Olivia to leave. She washed her face with cold water and went on her way. She looked a little rested. I knew she would go home and get more sleep. I felt so bad that something like this would happen to her. Bad things happen to good people I guess. Everyone goes through heartbreak, and it just happened to be her time. I still wanted to choke slam him. If he was smart he'd skip town. Things can only get better from here. Hopefully.