"Ab batao Kya hua?" Urwa gave him a glass of water which he quickly chugged down
(Now tell me what happened?)
"woh Hana..... Hanaya mujhse pyaar nahi karti...." he complained to her like a kid complained to his mother about his school bully
(Hana..... Hanaya doesn't love me....)
"Fasih itna sab kuch hone ke baad tumhe phir Bhi lagta Hai ki woh tumse pyaar......." Urwa took a defeated sign and tried to make him understand
(After this much happened, do you really think she'll love......)
"Itna sab kuch hone ke baad nahi, usne mujhse Kabhi pyaar nahi kiya. Woh toh hamesha se Bhai se mohabbat karti thi aur mujhse Shaadi sirf Chachu aur chachi ki Khushi ke liye Kar rahi thi."
(Not after all this, she never loved me, she has always been in love with Bhai. She was marrying me just for the sake of her parents happiness.)
"Main hamesha yeh soch ke rota raha ki Hanaya ko Meri mohabbat pe yaqeen kyu nahi Tha, woh Meri mohabbat ko inti jaldi kaise bhool sakti hai. Woh Bhai ke sath kaise khush ho sakti Hai jab ki main bhi ussi Ghar mein Tha, uski nazro ke samne. Par usse Mera Kabhi ehsas kyu nahi hota."
(I always thought why Hanaya doesn't believe in my love, how can she forget my love and move on with Bhai, I was in the same house as her, in front of her eyes but she never even acknowledge my presence.)
"Ab Pata chala, usne Meri mohabbat ko Kabhi samjha hi nahi, ussey to Kabhi bhi Meri mohabbat ki parwah nahi thi." Fasih's condition made Urwa's heart wrench, she put her hand on his back to console him when suddenly he hugged her, making her startled
(Now I know, she never understand my love, she never cared about my love.)
Controlling herself she hugged him back and let him pour his heart out in tears
"Achha hua humari Shaadi nahi hui, warna Shaadi ke baad main kaise usse khush rakhta jabki uske Dil mein Bhai the, woh toh mujh mein Bhai ko dhoondti." She has never saw him like this before
(I'm glad we didn't get married, how would I have keep her happy when she loves someone else. She would have searched for Bhai in me.)
Not even when Hayfa accused him and his family believed her
Not even when he got married to Hayfa
Not even when the truth was finally out
But today,......
Today he realized that girl whom he was crazy about never really loved him
Today he realized for the dream he spend his nights awake was merely a dream
Today his heart truly got broke
"Woh Meri Kabhi thi hi nahi lekin main phir bhi ussey apna samajh ke rota raha ki woh mere hi Bhai ke sath kaise..... Lekin ab nahi.... ab Main uspe aur waqt nahi barbaad karunga," he tried to gulped down the tears and hold it but couldn't
(I always claimed her as mine when in reality she wasn't, I have made my mind I won't waste my time on her anymore......)
"Shhhh.... It's okay." She rubbed his back while still hugging him
"That's really good thing you are trying to move on, and I'm here for you whenever you need me,"
"But Fasih I can not marry you." Her words made his breath stop for a moment as he pulled away looking at her who's eyes were showing guilt
"Urwa if you are thinking about our parents then I'll handle them....."
"No, it's not about our parents...."
"Hayfa? I know how to handle her,...."
"Fasih! It's now about our parents or Hayfa. It's about me and you," she made him more confused
"Abhi thori derr pehle tum hi ne kaha, achha hua Hanaya ki Shaadi tumse nahi hui kyuki tum kaise ussey khush rakh patey jab uske Dil mein koi aur hai, Fasih main tumhe kaise khush rakhungi jab tumhare Dil mein Hanaya Hai, woh tumse pyaar nahi karti yeh janne ke baad tumhari mohabbat toh Kam nahi hui na?" This wasn't really a question, this was just a realization check for him
(You just said you are glad you two didn't get married how would you have keep her happy when she loves someone else. She never loved you but dis it decrease your love for her?)
"Tum mujh mein Hanaya ko talash karogey. Aur main Hanaya nahi Hoon, I can't live with someone expectations."
(You'll search Hanaya in me and I'm not her.)
"I.... I.... I shouldn't have said that....." Fasih realized what he was asking for, it was selfish of him to think he could go to Urwa anytime and expect her to be there for him, when in reality he wasn't for her
How can he treated her like a second option when she deserve more than this,
She deserves the person who truly loves her not a broken heart who still love the very same person who broke him
She deserve a better person than him
"No.... It's okay for you to pour your heart. Ab tumhare Dil mein koi malal nahi hai. Now start everything all over again." Holding his hand she gave him a watery smile
(You won't have any regrets in your heart.)
Start everything all over again
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The days were heavily passing
With Fasih's still ignoring everyone and everyone's regrets not believing him
Fasih rarely comes home or office, most of the time he spend in Aman's house, he just wanted to figure out now what he wants
What does start everything all over again mean?
Other side Zaim was taking extra care of Hanaya since Dr told him how her health is in very bad condition,she is stressing over something that is not only harmful for her but for the baby too
Everytime she do something or step down from bed Zaim is there to instructed her
"Hanaya! Don't carry weight." He scold her when she was just holding a jug of water
"Hanaya! Climb the stairs carefully..... You know what I'm gonna shift our room downstairs."
"Hanaya! You are eating very less these days," he said as he put more food in her plate
"Hanaya! Why there is dark circles around your eyes? aren't the bed comfortable for you? Should I change it?" He said as he placed more pillows for her comfort
Like right now he was forcing her to eat fruits
"I'm really full," Hanaya sat in criss cross position and leaned her back on the bed headset
"Tumne kuch khaya hi nahi,...... Open your mouth and eat it." He picked a piece of apple and took near her mouth
(You didn't even eat anything....)
"I hate apple," she whiningly looked at him
"Eat it as a medicine........ Now come on open your mouth,....." He said and didn't put his hand back until she ate it
"I'll vomit," she warned him
"Vomit after eating this."
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Note from me, I know most of you skip author note but please read this
After reading comments from last few chapters I realized what you want, some want other kind of ending, some have different expectations
But it's my story and I'll write it according to what I have made it in my mind.
Once I have changed my story just because someone else said so and till this date I couldn't complete the story, (but let's not talk about that story,)
So I'll write what is in my mind
I don't want to be rude, I just wanna tell you if the story doesn't work out according to your way please don't give up on this story, stay till the end
I'm sure you'll like it but you have to be patient with it
And I'm not restricting you to comment your opinion or something,
Thank you ❤
-Ufaq