Taehyung's P.O.V
A bright, warm sunlight beamed in through the giant glass window leading to the balcony. Forcing Taehyung awake. He realizes that he hadn't even taken the extra time to plug in his phone last night when he goes to check it and it's dead. Fuck my head hurts.
Taehyung knew he definitely had way too much to drink last night when he grumbled out of bed making his way down the steps to see his husband sitting on the couch in silence.
"Bogum?"
"Taehyung"
He wasn't quite sure why but Tae could sense animosity in Bogum's voice.
"Are you alright? I thought you had filming today?"
Bogum lifted his head, glassy eyes locking with Tae's. "Well it's pretty fucking hard to film romance scenes knowing that my life at home is falling apart"
Tae suddenly felt sick to his stomach at Bogum's words, whenever the events of last night replayed in his head... but how does he know?
"W-What are you sa-"
"Don't lie. God that's the worst thing you could do right now is pretend not to know what I'm talking about, Tae."
"Bog—"
"I was here, Taehyung. I didn't leave last night. I was going to...honestly, I was going to meet someone. A girl. Lately you've been weird and distant, I've been insecure, so I was letting her give me some attention. It was innocent though, nothing more than some shameless flirting." Bogum's voice was cracking though he tried so hard to stay strong "I was about to leave out the door when I realized I treated you so poorly last night. I felt so fucking horrible when I realized that I treat you so shitty at work events...you don't deserve that. I have an angel as a husband to show off yet there I was waiting for the dinner to end so I could get you home. Once I kicked myself in the ass enough, I decided I was going to set up a nice scenery for us by the pool and apologize for how awful I've been"
Tae is already sobbing, he feels horrible remembering everything he said to Jungkook last night. Thanking god that some of the worst things were over text.
"T-Tae, are you going to leave me? For him?" Bogum looked so broken, it was as if Tae watched all of the life drain from his husband's eyes
"Bogumie, I-I I don't know. I'm so confused. Whenever they came to visit so many feelings rushed in that I didn't even know were still there. Last night I was drunk and pissed. I knew you were going to meet that girl, I heard her talking at the bar so I put two and two together when I heard you on the phone. So I-I let my anger and alcohol cloud my mind and sway my judgement—I'm so so sorry" collapsing to his knees, Tae couldn't hold himself up anymore. Everything felt weak. His heart hurt so bad. He hated seeing Bogum like this but as much as he wished he did, he didn't regret last night and he doesn't regret what he said to Jungkook.
"You know, I've always wondered if your and his relationship had something to do with Bangtan's disbandment...it just didn't make sense. The sudden break up of the band...and I always had the hugest crush on you Taehyung but everyone just kind of knew to back off from you—then when I saw you here, I-I was so damn excited. Then when we started dating, I felt like I was dreaming."
"Bog-"
"You've talked about him in your sleep before, you know. I always just ignored it. No matter how much I wanted to ask, I ignored it. You were mine, you are mine. SO I wasn't going to let some sleep talking make me suddenly doubt our relationship. Then you said they were coming to visit and my heart stopped. Oh my god you have no idea how scared I was, that I was going to come home and you would be with him and my life would be flipped upside down."
Taehyung is speechless at his husband's words. It was clear that this is something Bogum has had heavy on his heart and mind for a long time, which makes Tae feel even more guilty.
"One week. There's one week until you leave. I'm going to ask you to not have contact with him. Spend this entire week with only me." His breath hitched "then I'm going to leave you alone when you go home. You'll be in Korea for 5 days. I won't call unless you want me to. I won't even send a single text message. I love you enough to let you go, Taehyung. I'm just going to be praying that you come back... th-that you choose me and not him."
He wants to honor his husbands request but there's a part of him in his heart that already knows what he wants. Making this entire conversation even harder. They sat in silence for a few minutes while Tae gathered his thoughts
FLASHBACK - 3 years ago
"K-kim Taehyung?"
"Park Bogum!!!"
"Oh my god, how are you? You fell
Off the face of the earth."
"Eh, let's not talk about that, I'm doing good though. How are you, you look amazing!"
"Seriously, THE Kim Taehyung is telling me that I look amazing...I've gotta be dreaming"
"Yah! Stop it!" Tae giggles as he playfully hits the other on the arm
"You busy? Let me buy you lunch."
Taehyung feels blush coming over him and butterflies in his empty stomach "mm, I'd like that."
END FLASHBACK
I owe it to at least try. Taehyung looks at Bogum who has been staring at him in desperation.. awaiting Tae's response.
"Okay but Bogum I don't--" interrupted by Bogum pulling him up into his lap.
"Tae, don't say anything else, I don't need any reasons or explanations. Honestly, I don't think I can handle hearing any of it. All I want is a chance to make you stay. Let me remind you why you agreed to marry me, let me show you how much I love and cherish you" Bogum whispered softly as he leaned into a chaste kiss on Tae's lips.
Tae just nodded his head while tears streamed down his face. The only thought on his mind right now is the fact that he is going to have to ignore Jungkook for an entire week. This is going to be hell.
Jungkook's P.O.V
"Wake the FUCK up"
Jungkook jolted out of bed at the sound of a loud voice booming over him. Rubbing his eyes to clear the cloudiness
"Yoongi-hyung?"
"You've got a lot of explaining to do shit head"
"W-what are you talking about?"
"Jin called me, are you fucking around with Tae?"
Jungkook just sat there eyes wide. How.
"Why don't you make sure your alone before you have phone sex next time, hm?" Yoongi scoffed "Jungkook I told you if you got on that plane when we left that you had to leave him alone. It's not fair, you're going to cause him to push us away again!"
"Fair? You're going to yell at me about fair? I didn't call Tae, Yoongi! He texted me. Started saying stupid shit. I tried to get him to stop a few times, telling him it wasn't right to mess around with our feelings. B-but...I'm weak and he was saying so many things and I" Jungkook just dropped his head and ripped his hair with his hands "How could I possibly say no whenever he's the only thing I want. The only thing I've ever wanted? How can you expect me to turn him away?"
"Jungkook. I already told you that I understand how you guys feel but FUCK, HE'S MARRIED JUNGKOOK. This is fucking WRONG. You know what, give him an ultimatum then. Clear it up once and for all. Make him choose Jeon." Yoongi spat "because I'm not gonna sit here and let you fuck around with a married man, no matter how much I would love to see you guys together, be fucking adults. Have morals. Park is over there taking care of Tae while he's having phone sex with you. That's bull shit and you know that" shoving a finger roughly into Jungkook's chest. Yoongi wants to hug and comfort the younger but he knows that right now Jungkook needs tough love.
"O-okay" Jungkook whispers, he's terrified. Even if he knows it's wrong, even if he knows it will kill him, he was willing to do anything if it meant having Tae in his life. If it meant he could love Taehyung for longer.
8 hours. 8 hours pass by of Jungkook waiting to hear from Tae. Numerous texts and phone calls later he was feeling frustrated and hurt but not defeated. Not knowing what would happen before tonight ended he logged onto his computer and bought a flight to Kyoto for first thing in the morning.
I meant it, Tae. I'm not losing you, again.
Taehyung P.O.V
It was killing Taehyung ignoring Jungkook. He wanted so bad to call the younger and explain everything but he couldn't. He owed it to Bogum to at least respect his wishes and give him a fair chance...for fucks sake they are married after all. Feeling lonely and vulnerable because Bogum had to leave for a TV interview...Tae decided to reach out to the only other person he could talk to about this, aside from Jungkook.
Ten minutes that felt like ten hours pass by, finally Tae's phone rings.
"Yoongi..."
"Start talking, Tae"
"Bogum was home lastnight, whenever I was on the phone with Kookie.."
"You mean when you had phone sex with Jungkook, your husband was home" Yoongi spat
"Y-yes... so he approached me this morning and I was so scared I didn't know what he was gonna say but Yoongi he wasn't even mad. He didn't yell or curse me... I think I would have preferred if he did that. No, he just cried and looked broken. Then he gave me a demand.."
"Let me guess, you aren't allowed to talk to Jungkook anymore. God Tae you're so fucking reckless you know that. You can't just initiate something like that and leave the kid high and dry—he's still in love with you!"
"YOONGI I WASN'T FINISHED" Tae is now a crying mess imagining how upset Jungkook must be right now "you were partially right. Bogum asked for a week. He wants me to have no contact with Jungkook for this week, so that he can try to convince me to choose him. Then he said when I go to Korea he isn't going to contact me either... Bogum wants me to choose him but he wants me to choose him on my own, not by force."
Silence.
"You can't at least tell Jungkook?"
"Yoongi if I tell Kookie that Bogum is trying to convince me to choose him, Jungkook will be on the first plane here to kidnap me." Tae giggled through his tears imagining Jungkook barging in and running away with him
"You might be too late on that one kid"
"W-what, what are you talking about?!"
Yoongi is wearing a smug expression on his face "I guess you'll have to talk to Kook to find out now won't you."
"Fuck you, Yoongi. Since when do you favor Jungkook over me?!"
"Since you decided to leave us for four years..."
Silence.
"Guess I can't argue with that logic..."
"Tae, you know that I love you so damn much but you're a shit head. You need to figure this out and it's not fair to just expect Jungkook to sit on the sidelines while you decide what you're gonna do. You need to fill him in."
"I w-will.. but Yoongi please don't let him come here. If that's what you meant... he can't come here."
"I'll do what I can. Call him, Tae. NOW"
Tae sat there hands shaking staring at the texts from Jungkook. He knew he couldn't handle hearing his voice so Tae decided to be the coward he always has been and send a text.
Taehyung clutched his phone to his chest as he sobbed. He felt unworthy. Undeserving of both of the men that are desperately clinging onto his heart. Jungkook's heart was breaking while Bogum was hopeful. I'm not worth all of this. Tae thought to himself as he walked upstairs to his bedroom and lay in bed. Letting himself fall asleep while he waited for his husband to come home.
an hour and a half later
Bogum's P.O.V
He got home with red roses in hand but found his gorgeous husband asleep on their bed. His heart was warm though, he partially feared that Tae would have packed and ran to Korea the moment he left. I love you so much. Bogum thought as he stared at the man in his bed. Laying the bouquet on the nightstand next to him. He hated himself whenever he got the urge to look at Tae's phone. They had never been that couple, that went through each other's messages but he desperately wanted to know if Tae reached out to Jungkook following their talk this morning.
Just as Bogum was about to click on the messages app he heard Tae moving around in bed and decided against it. He just climbed into bed and hovered over his husband. Peppering soft kisses all over his face.
"B-Bogumieeeee, what are you doing?"
"Mmm, loving you. I missed you."
Tae smiled at the way Bogum spoke so softly. He hadn't heard that sweet voice in a long time. "How was filming?"
"Fine, how was your day at home?"
Tae hesitated and Bogum noticed. "It was fine, I talked to Yoongi-hyung for a bit on the phone and then fell asleep."
"Oh yeah? What about?"
Tae hesitated again and Bogum noticed again. "He was just clarifying things about my trip to .. K-korea, I'm staying with him and Jiminie so we were just making pickup arrangements and what not."
Bogum couldn't hide his smile whenever he heard his husband say that he was staying with the couple. "I'm glad they're taking such good care of you already, it makes me feel better about letting you go without me." He placed another soft kiss but this time on Tae's lips.
Even if you want him right now, I'm going to make you choose me Tae. I'm not losing you.
💜