"Calm down princess ,please don't panic. stop shouting ,if not you are going to alert everyone " she said while hugging me
"Leave me alone! " I said while bursting out in soulful tears.....
"How can you tell me to calm down? I love him! Do you know the sleepless nights I had to endure praying for God to make him mine? " i asked
"2years! We have been together for 2 damn years! " I concluded while breaking down in an unstoppable sobbber
"Yi hakuri (Take heart) " she said joining me in crying...
"I warned you princess! I did! " she said looking pitifully at me
"No! I refuse to bee.... Believe this, let me..... Let me call him" I said wiping the tears off my face
"Don't! " she cautioned
"Princess you're no longer a child, For heavens sake stop behaving like all those women that can't be happy on their own without a man's presence in their life. " she advised
"What do you lack? Nothing! Absolutely nothing! Your Dad treats you like the princess that you're. Insha Allah you will find a better man than him, besides you're just starting your life" she concluded
"No I have to " I said , still being adamant while picking up my phone to dial his number
"Hello " I said after he picked up
"Hii" he replied
"Bilal is it true that your..... That your.... That your marriage has been fixed " I asked stammering
"Yes" He announced with zero remorse in his voice
"Bilal! " I shouted
"How could you! How could you do.... "
"Hey! " He barked at me while cutting me off before I could complete my sentence
"I don't understand what you mean by how can I do this to you?" He replied almost yelling at me
"Look , you were just a means to my ends. you were just a fun thing I chatted with when bored . How could you ever think I'd marry you? Are you able to take care of yourself ? Not to talk of being someone's wife " He added
"Look don't disturb me please. the last time I checked, i never promised to marry you , or did i? " He asked
"Okay, can I be your second wife? " I naively asked without bothering to answer his question
Laila patted me on the back
"Stop this princess you are worth more than this" she whispered
"Are you mad? You must be very stupid to say that " He said harshly to me while hanging up......
"Wayyo Allah na! Na shiga uku! "
(Oh my God! I'm done for!) I shouted on top of my voice crying out loud
"Yi shiru mana princess(keep quiet princess) Laila said while placing her palm over my mouth to shut me up.
"It's not the end of the world, just try to forget about him please , he is going to be a married man soon,
God will bring someone far better than him I promise " she said while patting my back.......
"Naji " (I have heard you) I said quietly without looking at her
I spend the entire day crying in my room after she left........
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Around 2:00am I was sitting on my prayer mat looking so pale.
My eyes felt so heavy and swollen! I slowly whispered "I still can't believe Bilalwould do this to me, why?
Why me Farida? " I asked, striving hard to swallow a bitter saliva derived from the pain I felt in my heart.......
Innalillahi wa'inna ilaihir raji'un! That's all I could utter as I wiped my tears saying "Ya Allah help me through this, change my life, bring peace and salvation to it. I don't know if I will ever be able to move on "
"Good 2 years ya Allah! 2 years of me wasting my time! Ya Allah 2 years ! There was a time Dad even seized my phone all because of Bilal and now look what he did to me God" i weeped .
After i cried my heart out, i felt a bit relieved.
"Rabbi inni lima anzalta ilayya min khairin faqeer " i kept on reciting.
I stood up and quickly changed into a long silk pink night gown.......
I felt so weak because I have been crying all day.
I jumped into my warm soft bed while staring at the stars outside my room. It's the only view that calms me down .
I could stare at them vividly because my room is half glass, half wall .
I managed to close my eyes thinking about what tomorrow has installed for me.......
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I woke up the next morning as early as 5:30am , I got into the shower after I prayed subhi prayers.
I didn't bother wearing a shower cap like I usually do , because I don't like getting my hair wet . I stayed in the shower as the water wet my hair and entire body.......
I cried it all out, it felt like the water was washing away my sorrow.
I cried till I had no more tears to cry out .
I came out wrapped in a purple towel and a small pink one tied on my head, I sat down on the small stool that was facing my mirror and slowly started talking to myself........
"It doesn't matter if he left you fareedah, you are strong! He doesn't deserve such a nice and innocent soul like you " I said to myself aloud
"Yes! " I suddenly said while throwing away the pink towel on my head
"From now on I'm going to be independent, I'm going to stand firm with or without a man's presence in my life . Laila is right." I said smiling
"Besides I'm just 18 years of age, still young and fresh !
From now on my goal will be making my parents happy and of course myself " I announced !
I took out the hair dryer and dried my hair . I was just trying to look for activities that would distract me. I was still in shock........
8:23am in the morning
I logged into my WhatsApp with the intention of blocking Bilal then out of the blue,
I came across his message which read ; "princess I'm sorry if my words hurt you yesterday , I didn't mean to insult you, you are such a nice soul but what can I do? I'm already committed, I can't break her heart and mend your's..... I hope you understand my situation love "
"Wow! I can't break her heart and mend yours" i repeated that part over and over again.
"Looks like I'm the dog that doesn't have a heart to feel emotions or what ? How could i have loved someone like this?" I asked myself as new painful tears rolled down my cheeks ..........
"Mstchew! Fool" I said to myself while blocking him without bothering to reply.
I blocked him through each and every social media platform .
"It's for the best" i said to myself while bursting out in tears. I was deeply hurt by what I just did, deep down i still love Bilal with all my heart .
"Knock , knock " I heard a knock on the door
"Yes, come in" I said giraffing to see who was coming in , as i quickly wiped my tears
"Good morning princess " Lucy the maid greeted
"Morning Lucy" I replied with a faint smile
"Breakfast is ready, sir asked me to call you down to join them" she announced
"Alright i will be there soon" I said while reaching out for my sandals
At the dining table.......
"Good morning Dad" I greeted Dad while placing a peck on his cheeks, I also did the same to mum.
I sat down and greeted Yusuf while turning to summy
"So you feel too big to greet me ehhn? " I asked deliberately teasing her
"Yes! And so what? " she snapped
"Calm down ladies " Yusuf declared,bringing an end to our argument
"Guess what girls?" He asked smiling
"What?" we chorused curiously
"Wait, Princess is everything okay? " His question made my heart to start running a marathon race
"Me? What's wrong with me? I'm....... I'm absolutely okay " i announced almost stammering
"Handsome please let the cat out of the bag already! I'm dying out of curiosity here " I said tapping his shoulder to change the topic
"Hmmm I see.... " He replied
"I have gotten a job at the villa as a special adviser to the president on politics! " He announced excited
"No wayyyyyyy! Tell me you are joking man! " I said standing up
"Ohhh my God that's huge! " I hugged him while summy joined....
Mum and Dad were so happy to see us happy.
"Osheeeeey" I shouted
"So when are you going to report to work?" I asked raising my two eye brow
"Tomorrow insha Allah ,I will be going to see my new apartment which is in the villa" He said boosting
"Ahh ahh badest ! It's not easy oo I'm having goose bumps handsome " I said touching my skin while laughing hysterical
"Well I was thinking about taking you and summy with me, so that you can.....
"Whaaaaaaat ?" I interrupted him
"I'm so in for this trip bro" I said
"Princess " Dad called out to my attention
"I and your mum want to discuss something important with you " He announced
My heart skipped a beat but I managed to reply "Alright Dad"
We both made our way to the balcony.........
Dad cleared his throat and began ,
"Farida I have noticed a change in you these past few months, you are always looking distracted.
All these started happening after I seized your phone. You are not a kid anymore. " He announced.
"You are going to be 18years in the next 11days to come and yet you are playing with your future " He said while stretching his legs
"So Myself and your mum have made a decision outside what you planned on doing, we have decided to send you to Abuja to study over there , instead of zaria because we think a change of environment will help us get our old farida back " He said directly looking at me
"Here's your admission letter " He said while handing over an envelope to me
I extended my two hands which were vibrating , to collect it
"You have been offered admission at NILE university to study international relations, congratulations my dear" He said patting my back
"But...... Dad what have i done? Insha Allah I'll be a good girl from now on, Just let me go to Zaria please " i pleaded
"Farida , as your parents I thought we have the right to make a decision on your behalf, But it looks like i got it all wrong " He announced
"No Dad it's not like that, Don't take it the wrong way please " i declared
"Tha.... Than.... Thank you Dad I accept this admission " I said trying to control my tears
"Come over here " Mum said giving me a tight hug
"We will miss you, you will be leaving tomorrow insha Allah with Yusuf " she announced
"Why so soon?" I asked sounding so worried as tears start threatening to fall off my eyes
"Because classes are starting soon, and you will not be staying at the hostel, your uncle (kawu billionaire) insists that you stay at his house " she concluded
"Behave yourself please, be a good girl" she added hugging me .
"Thank you mum I will insha Allah " I said bursting out in tears . Deep down all i wanted to do was to be adamant about still going to Zaria .
"You can go our daughter, stay blessed " Dad said
I went into my room with different feelings and thoughts disturbing my emotions , but I felt a bit happy thinking I fareedah will be going to the villa tomorrow!
Could God have answered my prayers this soon? I asked .