Sometimes we just don't know what to feel, how to feel, how to control the emotions going inside. The foreplay that the mind is playing doesn't look the most pleasing one but then can we change the past? No right! The only thing we have in our hands is our present and not even the future. Why not the future? Pretty simple because we cannot imagine beyond a certain point. Most of us tend to get cranky from overthinking that makes us feel vulnerable.
If you are way too transparent you tend to get vulnerable and that is what she always ends up in a very vulnerable state.
Kriya looked outside the cab window as she returned to the mansion but all she wanted was to run away. Like always. But then for some reason, she just couldn't. why? She has no idea about it herself. The journey was still long which made her aching heart feel a bit better.
Whom is she running away from? Reyansh? Xavier? Or she. This journey is not going as she expected and it always makes her feel anxious about how transparent her emotions are to everyone as if anyone can read her out pretty clearly. Her phone buzzed up showing HIS number which she rejected and muted away. He is the last person she wants to talk to right now.
The weird fact is that she has become so easy for someone to come and kiss away. Not by just one but two men. Her body felt dizzy and some distraction was immediately needed to keep her sanity in place. She took a book out of her bag and opened it from the bookmark that she left reading from. She has always been a keen reader but all this mess stopped her hobbies.
"Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and transparent anyway."
Mother Teressa
She read the line and reread it. Is the universe giving her some signs or something? Maybe yes! Then why she cannot sort her life out. Her transparency is making her vulnerable only. Too vulnerable if pressed.
" Madam we have reached" the cab driver informed.
"Thank you" kriya gave a weak smile after paying him the amount and moving to the mansion.
Reyansh looked at her as the girl entered, all tired. He walked up to her immediately before she could run back to her room. He needs to talk to her about last night. Acting like that wasn't the best decision he made as the next morning she practically ran away way too early which clearly shows that she was too awkward after the whole kiss thing. Even though he totally loved the kiss but had to resist after seeing her "miss good girl nature".
"Kriya wait!" he had to practically shout to stop her as she fastened her steps soon after seeing him.
"Yes!" she replied, looking down, having no idea whose action to feel more guilty about.
"We need to talk," Reyansh said walking to her as she took a few steps backward.
"There is nothing to talk about in the first place." Saying she walked back to her room leaving him dumb fold. Right now, time wasn't in her favour. It has never been but right now there is no point in talking at least for her, there isn't. What should she say? That oh! It is ok, I am such a dumb person that I kissed another person the same day I kissed you so it isn't a big deal for me? Maybe that can help? No right? Then what should she say when there is absolutely nothing.
Her door got knocked and she knew it was him but opening it kriya found the butler standing there.
"Yes!?" she asked.
"Young master is calling you for dinner and he said that you should come down immediately. He has something important to discuss." The butler informed and stayed there which was a clear signal that Reyansh had ordered him to bring her down along with him.
Kriya thought for a second and walked out, closing the door. Maybe this time she shouldn't run away from problems like usual and woman up to solve them.
The tension around the air thickened as Reyansh looked at her with a straight face and the maids immediately served them the respective cutlery along with the food. He immediately dug in and kriya looked at him silently eating her food. She could see his anger on his face from the way she walked out on his face.
"You wanted to talk?" she dared to ask.
"As if you want to talk to me. It's ok if you don't but it would be an ill manner for me if I keep my guest hungry and don't take proper care of her." Reyansh spoke, taking a sip of his wine.
Kriya pressed her lips tightly and looked down. "I didn't mean to sound rude. It's just that I don't know what to say. It just happened last night".
"And what if it happens again?" he asked, making her eyes pop.
"Wh—at! What—t does you mean by that?" she asked, almost choking on her food.
"What if what happened last night happens again? Will you stop talking to me forever?" he asked, getting up from his chair and walking beside her, taking a seat near the chair like hers.
Kriya had nothing to answer. What should she say?
Reyansh looked at her confused face. How cute she looked. Should he kiss her again right now. he wanted to do that badly though. His hand reached out to her lips and brushed the corners. "You have crumbs over there".
Kriya looked down and grabbed a napkin to wipe her lips and looked at him again. "You should stop ignoring me." He said lifting her chin and looking into her eyes.
"I am not ign--ore"
"Shh!!"his finger slid up to remove the strands behind her ear. Kriya could feel herself heating up. What effect does he have on her? She cannot even speak properly now. How weak has he made her and the dominance is held on her is beyond her control.
"You are really beautiful kriya" Reyansh whispered seductively in her ear, coming closer, purposely brushing his lips over her cheek while moving near her. He could smell the fresh fragrance and sniffed a little more, taking the intoxicating fragrance. His instinct told him to bite her earlobe but he resisted knowing the fact that it would scare her away.
Kriya could feel him near the crook of her neck, breathing so close. "I – I think I should take a leave now. I am totally full".
All this while one thing that Reyansh clearly understood is that he cannot win her over by behaving rude. He needs to behave softly to make her soft for him. He doesn't want to force her or something. Neither did he force someone in the past nor he needed to. He always had women dropping their clothes off for him and always had their share of fun. So, forcing her is not the option. Her face holds such an innocence and he loved how delicious she looked right at the moment that he wants to fuck her right on the dining table. His mind smirked at the idea and he thought of all the places he could fuck her brains off.
"But I am still hungry." He purred out in a whisper and this time taking her lobe in her mouth, biting it making kriya flinch up. He bit the soft flesh between his teeth and sucked it. He could taste the metal earring along with the soft skin.
Kriya was too shocked to even react. It wasn't like the kiss that happened last night. The kiss was way gentler and slower and whatever is happening now is way too different. She felt her ear going warm and she clutched the hem of her dress.
"Re—yanshhh!!" she moaned out as he kissed her ear and moved to her neck leaving peppery kisses down the area.
"Shh! Let it be" he said and sucked her neck, rubbed his lips over and used his tongue to lick the skin.
Kriya could feel herself in the air already. Lord, pardon her behaviour but her ability of thinking has left behind and she grabbed a handful of his shirt for support while he enjoyed her creamy skin.
This needed to be stopped. She doesn't want more embarrassing moments when she already had two from last night. "Reya--nsh, sto—p" kriya somehow manages to utter and pull him away from her neck. "You cannot do this to me".
"Why? C'mon kriya. It's not like you didn't like it. I can totally see it on your face. Your cheeks are totally flushed and warm. I can feel the heat from your body". Reyansh knew this was coming and he was totally prepared. He is not going to let any melodrama happen. They both are old enough to understand the sexual tension that was between them a few seconds ago.
Kriya was speechless to his question. Again, like other times she has no particular answer. Even a kid can tell that she enjoyed every bit of it and it's totally visible on her face. Maybe that is why it is so obvious for him to say it. She herself could feel the warmth radiating from her body.
Having no answer, she started to stand up only to be pulled down on the chair by him. "don't leave me hanging, kriya. Let's face it. You enjoyed everything I did and you cannot deny it."
Looking down once she spared him a glance. "Look! Whatever happened it is a mistake and I cannot continue it nor do I want to." Saying she stood up and practically ran to her room.
Reyansh glared as she fastened her speed on the stairs and slammed her door. The anger inside him started to bubble up. Every time he tries to act gentle, this bitch runs away and on top of that leaves like she is his owner. Looks like she doesn't deserve the gentleman act.
He grabbed the glass from the table and slammed it hard on the floor breaking it into pieces. If he cannot have her by the good way then he will use the nasty ways and that too with no shame at all.
No one rejects him, bloody no one.
He looked at the shattered pieces and felt the humiliation. That thin ego of his hurt each time she walks away on her face as if he is nobody. But not this time. He will have her by hook or by crook and fuck her till she faints out or may be bleed out so she can recall every insult she did when she walked out on his face. He never wanted the difficult way but looks like she likes it rough, then he can make it rough, so rough that she will cry out and no, he is not going to leave her soon. Not even a bit sooner. Earlier it was just a wish for him to have her in bed but this time it strikes his ego.
She cannot resist him and has to give up. Like every woman does.
He smirked to himself and called his manager. "We are having a business party tomorrow at the mansion. You have time till evening to organise it."
"Yes sir! I will do it" the manager said and disconnected the call.
Reyansh looked at the empty stairs and smiled. He will fuck her on that too, soon.
Why are adult relationships so complex? Why is it so difficult to keep up with them? Why cannot we make people understand what we want and how we want? why cannot we not get judged every time we choose to do something or not to do something at all?
This pain! This unexpected pain in the chest, the hatred for new mornings and irritation of being even alive bother us on some days. We do expect from unexpected people. Cast false hopes and when they end up being broken, we cry out. Like why? We knew all this way long that our heart will end up being broken even after having that acknowledgement we cannot let that person go away.
That human is toxic and we all the way knew all the red flags then why cannot we just walk out?
May be because we do not have a place to go.
For some people her problems will sound like a constant rant that doesn't make any sense and she doesn't even expect anyone to understand her. Why would someone? When they don't know what she feels and how much hurt she is.
You can walk upon someone's emotions but it's very difficult for that person to have the courage to face everything every day. Your problems might sound easy to some and difficult to some but it's you who knows the best what has been going on. It takes courage to be "you".
Kriya knew it was a total dumb move that she pulled by agreeing the proposal of staying here but then "heart wants what it wants".
Why is she a waking mess? All this while she totally forgot the fact that she has to go to work tomorrow. Damn! she threw Xavier away and left him with a banged head and for real she has no idea how will she face him? But it was his fault. He kissed her out of nowhere. What has got into him? One second, he behaves like he would kill her and next second, he pushes her to the wall and kisses her. Stupid fool, he made the things even messier. Like what should she do now? Run away from the clinic also like she does from every problem in her life?
Why is God testing her like this? She cannot mess up with two guys and both of them don't love her. She cannot let someone treat her like an object every single time.
Walking back to the clinic the next morning felt like walking on glass with bare feet. Reyansh was nowhere to be seen when she left, being thankful for that to God she moved out for the day. Xavier was nowhere to be seen either but there is no plan in her head how to face that self-centered man. For the name of God, if he blames her for last night, she will rip him alive at that moment only.
Moving inside her cabin, Kriya looked around and collected her stuff for the day. Entering the student lobby, she took her seat beside one of her classmates who gave her a smile which she returned. Scanning the whole room with no sign of Xavier, kriya turned her attention to her reports to check them.
Dr Masoof entered followed by Xavier who ignored kriya's presence and took his seat in front.
"I assume you all have completed the assignment allotted to you. You can submit your reports on the table and move to your allotted rooms for checkups." Dr Masoof said and Xavier was the first one to keep his file and rushed out followed by others. Kriya was the last one to keep her report and walked out confused.
He is ignoring her.
Maybe he is guilty for his actions? But then he should come and apologize but how did she forget? This man has his ego higher than mount Everest. Her chain of thoughts continued moving out to go to her allotted room but out of nowhere got pulled by someone. The action was fast enough for her to register, all she could understand was that someone pulled her inside a dark room of the hospital while her mouth was shut with hands from behind restricting her to see the face of the person. The person banged her on the wall and switched on the light with hands still on her mouth.
Kriya looked shocked and confused as the person gently removed his hand.
"You!"
"Why you pull me here Xavier?" Kriya asked.
"We need to talk." he said.
"Yes, we need to. But this is not the way to pull a girl in a dark room. You could have just asked me to stay back." She spoke.
"Look! Don't give me this sass". Xavier moved away, all irritated.
"Sass! What sass? You are the one who forced yourself on me last night and instead of apologizing you are behaving like a brat". Kriya folded her arms across her chest and looked directly into his eyes.
"Oh please! Shut the fuck up ok! You are so annoying that I cannot even bare your face in the first place and on top of that your dumbass thinks I will apologize? Like man! I am not even sorry. I did it out of anger otherwise I wouldn't have kissed you in my dreams also. It just happened out of anger." He shouted.
Like really? Is this man even real? How can someone be so self-centered that he cannot see the difference between right or wrong?
"You are a moron". Kriya spatted and walked out. She doesn't want to talk to that idiot. This man is unpredictable. How can someone behave like this? He is the one who kissed her and instead of saying sorry he is behaving as if she is the one to be blamed.
"Bloody self-centered idiot."
Putting that thought aside and deciding to focus on her work, Kriya resumed her day ignoring Xavier.
Whole day was quite exhausting. She didn't hear anything from Reyansh throughout the day but ignored every overthinking. After keeping her stuff in her drawer kriya booked a cab to return back to the mansion but to her surprise the mansion looked like a palace all decorated when she reached. The lights blinded her eyes and it looked breathtaking. She was taken aback at first. Entering inside she looked at everything decked up and house staff walking around with food, wine and all sorts of different things.
"What is happening!" she thought but all of sudden her breath stuck right at that point. There entered the man of her dreams looking like a Greek god, straight out of some Hollywood movie, giving complex to every actor she ever had crushed on in a black tuxedo while she stood there in her regular plain dress.
He gave her the most charming smile and she melted. Her works stuck as he stood in front of her
"You—I—I mean—" she blabbered, having no idea what to even say.
"Calm down. I am sorry that I didn't inform you earlier about all this. You must be shocked. Actually, we are having a business party today at the mansion and I would love it if you join me. I would have invited you in the morning itself but was busy with preparation so didn't get enough time and yes! I wouldn't take no as an answer. You have to come." He said out smoothly.
"I – I cannot, I mean" the words fell short for her. She had no idea what to speak or say.
"Kriya! Calm down. I know it must be a surprise for you to see the house all dolled up and it's totally my fault that I didn't inform you prior but it's not that late. The party hasn't started yet and you have enough time to freshen up and join everyone. I wouldn't take no for an answer." His charming words sounded soothing to her. For a second, she forgot all the mess that has been happening in her life for the past few days.
Saying no would sound too rude when he has been inviting her so politely. Nodding her head in yes, Kriya headed up to her room. From the decoration she can clearly predict it's going to be a high society party with elite people in the town and there she is, a mere common girl. What would she do in the party in the first place. She doesn't know anyone nor can she fit among such high-class people and on top of that she doesn't have any appropriate outfit to wear. All her clothes are plain sundresses or casual that wouldn't go with the theme of such a classy party nor can she afford something that expensive. Lord! Why?
Even after knowing the fact that she doesn't have something wearable she still decided to go through her suitcase but only disappointment came back. "Damn! I don't have anything. No even a single piece. Maybe I should just say no to him, but that would sound so rude.".
Grabbing a garment that she thought would look manageable enough to keep her respect in her party, Kriya headed to the bathroom to take a shower and freshen herself up. Her eyes fell on the golden box that was kept in the wash basin area along with her other skin essentials. There was a small note beside that also which made her wonder.
"This is a small gift from my side for you. I hope you will like it. I want to say sorry for my behavior and couldn't find a better way. If you accept this gift, I will consider that you have accepted my apology."
Reyansh
Kriya opened the beautifully wrapped box and her eyes shined the moment she opened it. It had the most beautiful dress she has even seen in her entire life. The material was so soft and looked expensive. She was stunned at the beauty of the dress.
"He definitely has a good taste" kriya thought to herself and moved to take a shower and get ready for the party.
The faint music could be heard from her room clearly signaling that the party had started. Kriya fixed her hair and looked at herself in the mirror. Her eyes stuck at her reflection. For real she was looking pretty and she couldn't help but smile. The dress he gifted fitted her perfectly at all the curves and she blushed at herself. The music came to her ears again and she growled." Damn! late every time" she shouted to herself and rushed down.
Reyansh smiled at the guests who congratulated him and greeted for organizing such a huge party and inviting them. He could see the girls smiling while winking at him but his mind was focused on someone else. He was peeping at the stairs every now and then to catch her glimpse. It would make him go crazy if she didn't come. He throwed such a huge party for her only. To have her. To have her by the end of the night in his bed and the rest only he knows what he will do to her.
"Great party Singhania" his old business partner Mr. Shawn said, shaking his hands with him.
"Thank you, Shawn. hope you are having fun" he replied while looking at the stairs and all of sudden his heart skipped a beat. There she was, walking down the stairs looking like an angel straight out of heaven. He could see everyone else gazing at the beauty walking down and his throat filled with a lump.
"Oh, my lord! Who is this beauty" Shawn smirked with lust, making Reyansh look at him with rage.
"She is booked Shawn. Keep your hands away". Reyansh barked out.
"Calm down Singhania. I didn't know she was your hoe". Licking his lips, Shawn checked kriya out. Reyansh tried hard not to punch him straight on his face, keeping that in mind that he is his guest. Excusing himself he walked to the beauty itself who was standing near the stairs all nervous.
"Hello gorgeous" he flirted moving to her making her smile on seeing a single known person in the huge lavish party.
"hi" kriya said with a tiny smile. She could feel eyes on herself from all over the place and it was making her way too nervous.
"You are looking breathtaking kriya and thank you for accepting this gift and forgiving me" Reyansh smiled and moved nearby.
"This gift was absolutely not needed but thank you. It's the most beautiful dress I have ever seen or wore". Kriya smiled at him while he simply chuckled.
"You are the one who is making this dress more beautiful by wearing it and not the dress. C'mon let me show you around. So, miss kriya ghai, can you please be date of this single lonely man standing in front of you" Reyansh said, making the cute puppy face with a funny accent which made her laugh.
"Sure Mr. Singhania" she played along and walked with him.
Kriya walked along with him as he smiled and introduced her to the richest people of the country including businessmen, sports persons, authors and what not. She couldn't understand whether to thank her stars for getting so lucky that she is standing among so many honorable people or to feel shame about how low her life is.
"This is Mr. Shawn. One of our really close family friends and business sponsor". Reyansh introduced.
"Oh, hello beautiful lady. How I got so lucky today to meet such a beautiful woman" Shawn said, holding kriya's hand and giving a light kiss, making Reyansh burn out and making it awkward for kriya too.
"Who is the angel Mr. Singhania?" he asked.
"She is kriya. Our special family guest". Reyansh replied, gritting his teeth.
"Oh lovely! Can I please get the chance to have a dance with this lovely lady. I would consider myself lucky if you don't mind "Shawn smirked.
Reyansh glared at him but knowing the fact that he is an important man and he cannot mess with him right now, he had to let kriya go.
Kriya looked at both the men nervously and confused while Shawn extended his hand for Kriya to hold and lead to the dance floor which she accepted after looking at him for a few seconds.
"You are really gorgeous. Ah I couldn't help myself but say that again and again but how could I resist when such a beauty is dancing with me." Shawn said, dancing slowly with her.
"You are being really kind Mr. Shawn" kriya smiled.
"Oh no no! I am not" he said moving his hands on her back making kriya conscious.
Reyansh stood near them attending other guests while his eyes were still on the dance floor. His glance fell on Shawn and his hands and unable to resist himself he walked to them.
"I think I should also get the chance to dance" he said, removing Shawn away from kriya and making him walk away angrily while gently holding kriya. "Are you okay? "He asked while she nodded her head.
"Shall we?" he asked looking at the other couples dancing.
Kriya nodded and both started to move slowly on the slow music. The lights turned dim and a beautiful sound started playing. Reyansh looked into her eyes and pulled her close. He could feel her breath and her heartbeat. He twirled her around and pulled her near, colliding both of their bodies together. The dim lights made the environment warmer and he snuggled into the crook of her neck inhaling her scent.
Kriya bit her lower lip and his lips brushed over her neck. The heat was radiating from both of them and she grabbed a handful of his hair while another arm on his neck supporting herself from falling apart. She could feel herself melting in his arms and the dark surrounding giving her ample privacy. His hands snaked around her waist while both of them moved their body slowly on the music in each other's arms.
The music stopped after a while but both of them stayed in the same position looking into each other's eyes. The whispering started around making both of them flinch and move apart.
"I – I" kriya stammered while Reyansh smirked and gave her space to walk out from the dance floor. He glanced at her back and she walked away smiling at the encounter that took place. His plan is going smoothly and he is totally proud of that. If everything works out well then she is definitely going to be in his bed by the end of the night.
Looks like the time has reached to finally end this cat mouse game. He knows that he is playing very dirty this time but cannot help. If kriya wouldn't have resisted him then nothing would have happened but looks like she wanted it so he wouldn't resist.
The party almost came to an end as few guests started to leave while some stayed and talked among themselves and enjoyed themselves. Reyansh searched for kriya who was sitting on the bar counter with a glass of orange juice in her hand.
"I hope you enjoyed the party and again sorry for informing you last minute" he said walking up to her.
"Thank you for inviting me." She replied and smiled a little.
"Whiskey for me and another wine for mam" he said to the bartender.
"No No I don't want to drink" kriya said as the bartender kept two drinks on the counter. Reyansh grabbed his glass and took a sip of his whiskey.
"Make a mocktail for this lady and I wouldn't take a no as an answer. At least we can share a drink tonight" he said while the bartender quickened his speed and within seconds kept the mocktail for kriya.
"I insist" Reyansh said, grabbing the mocktail and approaching her.
Kriya was in no mood to have anything else. The party was already exhausting and she has to get up early for the clinic tomorrow but leaving all of sudden would have sounded rude as everyone else is downstairs. She was looking for a chance to leave but Reyansh came up. "Thank you". She said, grabbing the glass and taking a small sip. It was really good, she has to admit. Taking a few more sips she kept the glass down and smiled at him.
"You look tired" Reyansh said, walking closer to her chair and slowly sipping his drink.
"Umm a little bit. I think I should leave now." Kriya insisted, hoping he wouldn't take it on his ego this time.
"at least finish your drink" he said gulping down his and keeping the glass on the table.
Kriya nodded and gulped the mocktail down as fast as she could to leave the party and get some sleep. "I will take a leave". She said to him and started to move down from the chair.
"Let me walk you to your room" Reyansh said, walking along with her. Kriya was in no mood to argue with him so without saying much she let him come along. Both of them started walking up the stairs as she started to feel heavy. Her stomach tightened as she felt herself suffocated. The dress felt tight around her body and the sudden urge to puke came.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
"Yes! I think I am too tired" kriya said, rubbing her forehead as it ached badly and her foot slipped making her fall back on stairs but got caught by him before she could roll down the stairs. Her vision started to blur and white spots started to appear in front of her. Reyansh looked at her, almost tripping and struggling to walk up the stairs. He grabbed her by her waist and helped her to walk upstairs while she somehow managed to stay still and walk up without falling down.
"Than--k y—ou" kriya slurred as both of them finally reached up the hallway above as he helped her to stand still while she kept on slipping and tripping, unable to walk straight.
"Let me help you" Reyansh grabbed her again, helping her to walk and she looked as if she could fall any moment. Both of them started to walk to her room and reached her door. Kriya grabbed the door knob to open but her hands felt powerless and her vision blurred, passing her away and free falling her body in air. Reyansh caught her swiftly as she passed away completely and smirked. He picked her up in arms in bridal style and walked away instead of placing her in her bedroom. He opened the door of his room and laid her on his bed, locking the door.
He looked at her defenseless form, fainted on his bed and chuckled. A single pill was enough to execute his plan and he smiled how smoothly everything happened. The bartender was quick enough to spike her drink without getting noticed and look at the result.
"Kriya ghai on his bed".