Btw, read this chapter to the end because I have a surprise for you guys.
The entire day I was walked around and forced to talk to people, but all that did was make me think about Lux. Eventually Cassius started to notice my discomfort and he continuously asked if I needed to take a break. Although every time I told him it was fine, that I was fine.
Finally he got fed up and dragged me aside.
"Alabaster, I know you're not okay," he said as I rolled my eyes, "tell me what's going on."
"It's nothing, really," I sighed and placed my hand on his chest, "come on, let's go back."
"Alabaster," he said with a warning tone and gently pulled me back, "something is wrong and we both know it." I looked down and didn't reply. "What happened to you?"
I bit down hard on my trembling lip and tried to keep my tears at bay.
"Nothing happened! I'm fine, alright?" I hissed and clenched my jaw, "Lux didn't-" I choked on the words and covered my mouth with my palm. Cassius sucked in a slow breath and wrapped his arms around me. I couldn't help but let the tears fall down my cheeks.
"Hey, I've got you," he whispered and kissed my brow, "I won't let him take you away again."
I sobbed into his chest and fisted his shirt in my hands. Cassius cooed in my ear until my breathing calmed down some.
"Cassius-" I started and chewed on my bottom lip and took a deep breath, "Cassius, I think you need to know the whole story."
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When I was finished Cassius sat on the side of our bed in silence. I couldn't tell what he was feeling.
"Cassius?" I whispered and touched his shoulder gently. He ran a hand over his mouth and took a slow breath.
"He hurt you like that? For... for months?" Cassius' voice cracked slightly when he asked. I scooted closer to him and turned his face to mine.
"Yes, he did," I said and I could see how angry my mate really was. It was in the way his jaw was clenched so tightly and his eyes burned with fire. "But you saved me, and I'm here now."
Cassius nodded slowly and reached out for me. I let him pull me into his lap and cradle me against his chest. The powerful thundering of his heart echoed in my ear and I found it comforting.
"Cassius, I want to have a kid," I finally breathed and pulled my fingers into tight fists nervously. "I want to try again and I want to have a life with you."
Without even realizing it he ran his knuckles over my abdomen where my scar was.
"Are you sure?" He breathed in my ear and kissed the top of my head.
"I know what I want, and it's all right here," I whispered and placed my hands on his broad shoulders, "if you'd let me have it."
I cupped his face in my hands and held eye contact until he spoke again, "I'd give you everything I have if you asked for it, Alabaster."
My eyes fluttered closed as our lips found each other and we kissed until I was straddling his waist and pushing him down on the mattress. Between breaths I kissed him, again and again and again because I never wanted this feeling to stop. I wanted to feel him like this for the rest of our lives. Cassius cupped my jaw in his palm and swept his thumb over my cheek in gentle strokes.
Soon I couldn't help but feel fire begin to burn in my stomach and pool like hot lava. I was almost embarrassed to say that just was hungry.
"Cassius," I hummed against his lips and his eyes flickered slowly, "I-I want you to love me, I want you to make love to me. Make me forget about everything, because all I want is you and me."
Cassius smiled against my mouth and ran his hands up my sides.
"I thought you'd never ask," he murmured lovingly and took his time sliding my shirt over my head. I sat up on his lap and placed my hands on his chest as his eyes flickered from one mark to the next on my pale torso. I started to pull back when Cassius caught my hands and pulled them back down to his chest. "Don't," he whispered and kissed the underside of my wrist, "I don't ever want you to be, not with me."
My heart swelled in my chest when he said that, I nodded and slowly started to fiddle with the buttons on his shirt. Cassius watched me as he slid his hands all over my bare skin. His palms splayed over my stomach and caressed the scar on my belly and his thumbs circled around my nipples until they were hard and in need of attention he wasn't going to give yet. I sighed as he sat up partially so I could peel his shirt off and throw it behind me.
"I love you, Cassius," I whispered and ran my hands up his shoulders and neck.
"I love you, Alabaster," he murmured honestly and finally rubbed his rough thumbs over my aching pink nipples. A quiet moan escaped my chest when he began to tease them mercilessly. I squirmed on his lap when he punched each one and felt how hard he was beneath me. I had a feeling it was getting painful.
When I shifted slightly I could feel how slick my entrance already was and it nearly made me blush. At last my mate dragged his fingers down my stomach and slowly thumbed zipper of my pants down. I gasped when he pulled my already leaking erection out and rubbed the slit in a circular motion. I bit down on my lower lip to suppress a moan as I watched him wrapped his hand around my base and pump slowly.
"Cassius," I whimpered when he finally sat up and rested his forehead on my shoulder so he could look down and watch as he pleasured me. I bit down on my lower lip until I had drawn blood and the teasing was getting to be too much, "Cassius please, I'm hungry."
"Shh, alright, I'll make you feel amazing Alabaster," he mumbled against my ear and laid me down on my back. I arched my back up and unbuckled his belt before sliding it away. My mouth almost watered as I slowly pulled him out. It had been a very long time since this had been inside me.
I ran my thumb over the tip and down his length until I felt him throbbing in my palm. Cassius kissed my cheek and rubbed my entrance before slipping a thick finger inside me. I gasped when he started to stretch me gently, soft ripples of pleasure pulsed through my blood and made my cock impossibly hard. When he'd added three fingers I was starting to reach my breaking point and I couldn't take it anymore.
"C-Cassius," I whined breathlessly, "you're going to make me come."
He gave me a sly grin and rubbed the pads of his fingers against my prostate. I writhed on his fingers and felt hot need pool in my abdomen.
"Cassius, noo," I moaned and twisted the sheets in my fists, "I want to come with you inside me."
My mate slowly kissed down my neck and threw my leg over his shoulder, I felt a brief flash of anxiety, but it was gone quickly. Cassius slowly pulled the other one over his opposite shoulder and the feeling came back, more severe. I ignored it as excitement but when I felt him press against me I couldn't take it.
"No! No- no, no," I cried and shoved away quickly, Cassius furrowed his brow in concern and reached do it to me but I flinched and only saw Lux in his place.
"Alabaster, what happened? Did I do something?" He asked and- slower this time- placed a hand tentatively on my shoulder. I covered my mouth with my hands and felt dread curling and twisting in my stomach like a snake. My skin crawled thinking about Lux's hands on me again, hurting me again. I heaved a dry sob and pressed my fingers harder over my mouth. "Hey, don't cry, what's wrong, Alabaster?"
"Cassius," my voice broke pitifully, "I can't d-do it. I can't do it, I'm s-sorry."
He seemed confused for a split second but drew me against him anyways.
"It's okay, you don't have to be sorry," he mumbled and brushed his fingers through my hair and down my back.
"What am I going to do if I can't- if I cant-" another sob broke off my sentence and Cassius kissed the top of my head.
"It'll be okay, we'll figure it out," he promised and picked me up off the bed. I curled against his chest and shivered like a wet cat.
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As soon as Cassius had redressed the both of us he sat me back down on the edge of the bed and kneeled at my feet, our hands entwined.
"You're hungry," he said, more as a statement than a question, "and I'm not going to try doing that if it makes you scared."
I nodded and lowered my head in shame.
"We could... we could try it in a different position," I offered but Cassius only turned my head to face him.
"We'll take it one step at a time, okay?" Cassius said, "let me take care of you today, and tomorrow we can try something else."
"Okay," I whispered as he released my hands. I watched in embarrassment as he pulled my flaccid dick out of my boxers. A blush dusted over my cheeks as he pumped slowly and my length became as hard as a rock. I gulped and laid back on the bed so I wouldn't see what he'd do next.
Although, what he did do, I didn't expect.
I gasped and moaned at the same time when I felt him swallow me to the hilt. It had been a long time since someone had done this for me. Cassius cupped the underside of my thigh and gently spread my legs apart so he could have better access to the throbbing organ between them. I cried out his name when he hollowed his cheeks and teased the tip with his tongue.
"Cassius!" I shrieked and arched my back when I felt my cock graze his throat. He continued to suck and lick like he wanted nothing else but me. It felt so good I was in the verge of tears when he denied me release. "Oh- oh fuck, please let me come. I need it, I need it so bad."
Cassius squeezed my base before sealing his lips around my cock and sucking harder. I screamed in euphoria when cum shot down his throat and he eagerly swallowed it all. My mate rose up and placed a hand beside my head.
"My turn."
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It was well past sunset when we were finally exhausted. I never knew there were so may ways to fuck without fucking. But it was absolutely perfect.
We leaned against the headboard and I laid my head on his chest while we cooled down. He'd put me in one of his hoodies and a pair of boxers while he wore sweatpants and t-shirt. I sighed in comfort and fullness as he dragged his fingers through my hair.
Eventually my eyes grew heavier and heavier until I was nodding off against him. Cassius gently began to pull the covers over my shoulders when the door opened with a loud crack.
Torryn stood there with a shocked look in his eye.
"Cassius, it's your father," he gasped and held onto the doorway, "he's dead."
Cassius and I made eye contact and our surprised expressions mirrored each other. We only had one thought on our minds in that split second.
Zisael.
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Surprise!!! The End.