I pull my phone out of my pocket as I hear it ringing when I look at it I see is Phil how strange I only saw him earlier that morning, what could possibly be wrong. I answer him but before I can say hello Phils already saying "hello Sang". "Hello Phil is everything ok or do you miss me already" I say with a giggle. He doesnt reponse to that " I don't want to worry you but I know by saying this that I probably already am. I was just wondered if you could come over to mine and Nancy's tonight there's something we need to talk about" Phil tells me. "Really now I've go to go a while day worrying about this. Are you both ok, Did you do this on purpose. Can i bring Bailey or is this more of an adult only thing" ask him. He sighs that's never a good sign. oh god is there something wrong with one of them I don't think I could cope with that. "If you can Sang I would prefer it was just you". My heart is thumping in my chest what could this be about , I just can't think of a reason. All this awful scenarios running through my head. I just have to think of some words to reply with "erm yeh Ok I'll ask Bliss if she can watch Bailey. what time are you home I want to talk as soon a possible you have me really worried" I tell him. "I'm sorry Sang I didn't mean to worry you I just need to talk to you that's all. I'm finishing in a few hours" Phil says. Ok I'll be straight round after college ok" I inform him and he agrees and we say bye. "Everthing ok Sang that didn't said like a positive convo" Bliss says. I rub my hands over my face and answer "I don't no what sort of conservation that was to be honest. Can i ask a favour please" I say. " of course depends on the favour though to whether I agree" Bliss smirks she already knows what I'm going to ask she heard me. " can you watch Bailey for me please while I talk with phil" she smiles at me and says "do I mind watching that little man of course not then, you can tell me the gossip when you get home and if it's bad news I can give you a big tub of ice cream and a hug" Bliss tells me. " Thanks so much Bliss" I say, "You don't need to thank me Sang were friends and friends help each other out" she tell me matter of fact like.
The day drags by I'm just dreading what ever Phil was going to tell me. I was on the bus watching the world go by. Bliss had text me saying she had got Bailey no problems he had a good day and eaten well and she was taking him for dinner, even had a selfie of the two of them to prove she was getting dinner. Now that brought a smile to my face, soon I was of the bus making my way towards Phils house and was knocking. Nancy opened the door and ask "why didn't you use your keys Sang, are you ok you look a little pale" she tells me and gives me a hug and pulls me inside. "Sorry Nancy after Phils call my heads been all over the place. I've been worried about you both trying to figure out what could wrong with either of you". The look of Nancys face is confusion. " What are you talking about Sang. What an earth did that idiot of a man say to you" she says to me. That bring a smile to my face, " so your both ok no one's dying" I ask her. "Well I wouldn't say no one yet. PHIL PHIL GET HERE NOW" Nancy yells though the house. PHIL comes running to where she is. "What wrongs where the fire at" Phils looking around trying to find the danger. the problem. "What did you say to this poor girl. She things one of us is dying. My god Phil what's wrong with you" Nancy says. Phils looks to me with wide eyes "I'm so sorry Sang I didn't even think about you thinking that" Phil says to me. I let out a breath of relief "Oh thank god I'm so happy your both ok. When you said you wanted to talk without Bailey, I just thought the worse. As we was just here yesterday my mind just keep thinking of all the awful things" I tell them both. But I notice them both look at each other and Phil nods, and leads me to the kitchen and sit me down in the chair.
"I don't no how to start this conversation without sending you straight into fight or flight mood" Phil tells me. The goes my heart again beating so fast it feels like it's going come up my throat what could he possible have to tell me. Is it about my parents or my sister that's all that comes to mind that's all he would have to tell me. I don't have any other family. Nancy holds my hand but says to Phil "Just start with the meeting you had". Phil clears his throat and goes on to say " so I had a meeting today with some people about something that I will tell you about after i just need you to clear something up for me ok". I nod that's all I can do. what help would I be. what could I possibly help clear up.
"So I've never asked this I don't no why but never had the need to, but I'd like to know the name of Bailey's father please if you dont no mind". Bailey's father why bring that up after nearly 3 years. this is so random. But when I look into Phils eyes I can see his not asking all of a sudden to be nosey, but because he knows something. I don't have anything against people knowing but I don't want everyone knowing my life but this guys are my family. Here goes nothing "I don't no why you want to know, but his name is luke or Lucian he prefer Luke though. Luke Taylor" I haven't said his name in a long time. Phil sighs, what don't tell me he knows him, but before I can ask Phils already talking. "I no luke Sang he lives here in Charleston I've known him since he was a boy. I knew Bailey reminded me off someone just can't put my finger on who. I was with him today and it just came up".
I just sit there eyes wide mouth open 'What the fuck' are the only words going round in my head. I need to move I can't stay sitting, I stand straight up knocking my chair over in the process. I start to walk away from the kitchen needing to just be moving. I have some many questions I just don't no which ones to begin with.
I feel hands holding mine and Phils in my face and his lips are moving but I can't hear the words his speaking. He moves my hand onto his chest ok I'm panicking sounds about right god Sang how much of a baby are you this is a good thing Bailey can finally meet his dad. I no that I say back to myself but I've changed since I first meet luke what if he wants things to go back to they way they were because that was not going to happen. I have Bailey to think of now. I start to hear Phils voice "...d girl calm down deep breaths. That all sit down and be calm and talk this through". I nod in agreement.
"What, who, um hm I don't no" I say to Phil, Nancy tells me "Just take your time we all got time ok". Again I nod ok some questions That I can do. " So you work with luke then" I choke out. I see Phil give Nancy a look 'oh god. what now there can't be anything else can there' my mind shuts to it self. Phils gives the biggest sigh I think I have ever heard. "Well he doesn't work at the hospital with me, but he is part of another sort of work I do". What the what is he talking about. "What, Phil your not making any sense your a doctor you work at the hospital" I remind him. "Yes sang I do but I'm also part of some thing called the academy" he tells me. "And that is what. It sounds like a school are you a teacher, how comes i didnt no that" I say to Phil.
"Phil stop be so cryptic and just tell her" Nancy says to him. He look at and me and starts to talk "Im just going to tell you about the academy as much as I can ok. So the academy helps people and children who are I need. Being a abused and need an out and we try and do that the best we can" Phil finishes. "What hang on what" I say and shake my head "that's how you got me out of my house wasn't it and that's why I got a college place and a place to live wasn't it because of this academy place. Because of you" I ask. Phil nods "Yes it was Sang and, while we're talking to each other about this stuff I should tell you that I adopted you in some way through them" he states. What I just can't take anymore of this, "how I I I don't understand" I ask instead.
"Well if some thing happened to me, you would be looked after taken care of." He tell me and I just nod and Phil continues "any way Luke works with the academy helping people that's what he was doing when he meet you and his been away for years doing a mission of sorts" he tells me. "I just I mean this is a lot to take in. Why didn't you just tell me about the academy. I wouldn't of judge you, you no that right, but I don't get how Luke knew you would know me". Phils goes on to explain about teams and how Sean and Kota are on his team and Sean told them about me and luke put it together and then asked Phil about me in there meeting.
"I wanted to tell you about the academy Sang I did it's just I didn't want to put you in any danger should something come back and bite me in the ass" Phils tells me and that makes sense I guess and I tell him that but what I don't says is danger, I don't want Phil in danger. "I should be getting back to Bailey and my head is hurting. I got a lot of information going around at the moment". "Of course Sang it was a bit of info over load. But Sang, Luke wants to meet Bailey". I nod and say "I guessed he would I wont deny him that Phil. His Bailey's father, I just need some time myself. the anwers of course is yes but just give me time please tell him that Phil please". "Of course Sang just let me no when" Phil says.
Phils drops me home and it's the most silent drive of my life. I give him a kiss on the cheek and leave the car. Once I get into my apartment Bliss is this there tell me to 'sshh" as Bailey has just gone to sleep. She takes one look at me and ask "everything ok Sang you look like you've seen a ghost" she laughs I just flop onto the sofa and tell her what Phil just told me not the academy part but the luke part.
"Wow so looks like daddy's gonna be on the seen now" she laughs and I just smile at her and ask "do you think it will be awkward though, do you think he would want things to go back to what they we're between us I mean me and him, or do think his got a girlfriend oh god what if he has i dont think id want her to meet Bailey yet".
"well if you don't just tell him your a lesbian and I'll play your lover" Bliss winks at me as she finishes her sentence. That makes me laugh and I realise I needed her to do that "I'll bear that in mind when I think it over" I laugh to her. We chat some more and the next thing I no I'm being woken but Bailey calling for me.
"Mama mama" he calls from his cot. Bliss stirs from next to me hun we fell asleep on the sofa that why my neck hurts I guess. I hop up and walk to the bedroom and say "Well look here I found my munchkin" in a happy tone. Bailey claps his hands and say "up mama up" and hold his arms up to me I pick him up and look at him a decide he need to me his dad sooner rather than later. As I making us all breakfast I say this to Bliss and she agrees, although i think she would of agreed with me either way. while still volunteering to be my lover, this girl.
I ask her watch Bailey as he eats his toast making his hair all shiney from the butter. I grab my phone and text Phil 'Ok that's set a date, time and place for Bailey to meet Luke I'm ready for that now I've had time to think. I hit send and about half hour later I get a reply from him. 'Is today good for you he asked of he could meet you at the diner not far from your old house. If you don't want to meet there I'll tell him no but I'll be with you Sang. Nothing will happen understand. Nothing'.
'No that's fine today is fine 3 o clock good'. I send back to him which he text back with a ' Ok I'll pick you up at half 2' . I still have a morning class at college so we all jump onto action I get ready while Bliss and Bailey eat and then I get Bailey ready and pack some nice clothes for him to meet his father in and then we jump into Blisses car and head to nursery then college.
The day is officially the slowest day in history all my classes drag and Bliss well she's making me laugh with this whole lover thing. Still when my last class finishes Phill is outside in the parking lot waiting for me. I jump in the front and we head to pick Bailey up. His excited when he see Phil is with me he loves him so much. Phil picks him up and takes him to the car, Bailey babbling away to him about his day I guess and I sign him out. As we pull away from the nursery my heart beats a little faster and there a swishing sound in my ears. It's just nerves that all just nerves.
Bailey is sleeping by the time we pull up into a diner. It looks nice from the outside look welcoming. I get out the car and walk to the back to get Bailey when Phils says "I'll get him for you Sang". I shake my head and say "No I need to hold him ok, I just need to". Phils walks over to me and hugs me saying "No one and I mean no one is going to take that boy away from you ok. Luke just wants to meet him, get to know him". I nod I no his right but still. I pick Bailey out of the car and hold him close to me his still asleep and Phil grabs his bag and leads us inside.
I trust Phil to lead me as I'm looking down at the floor. Gladly he does, it's seems to be busy there are lots of different voice. Some even swearing I can hear someone say "fuck me look" and all I want to say is 'can't you see there are children here's but my voice won't work well I no it wont. Phil guides me to a booth and pushes me to sit down. When an oldish man comes over and says "Phil this a nice surprise. And who is this" Phil looks at me smiling and says "this is my daughter Sang and her son Bailey". The men's eyes widen some and he looks at Phil and says "Luke's boy". My god does everyone no Luke. Phil nods and says to me "Sang this is uncle yes just call him uncle his Luke's uncle real uncle, uncle this is Sang and Bailey". I look up at him properly and smile and he smiles back and looks at Bailey and sucks in a breath. "I'll go get Luke his out back". And he near enough runs. I look to Phil a bit panicked. Phil take one of my hands and says "it's ok Sang I'm right here ok right here". I nod and my hand tightens on his but he doesn't seem to mind. Then I hear his voice
"Sang, my god Sang, its really you" and I turn to see Luke standing there.