I hate getting flashbacks of thing I don't want to remember
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P.O.V Maddie
~Nightmare~
I walked home from school. I was in mu usual old all-stars and my old jacket.
I opened the door as quietly as I could and I tiptoed inside.
'why the fuck are you here' a harsh familiar voice broke the silence
'shit' I cursed under my breath
'don't curse, I won't tolerate that language in this house' my mom said again and I turned around
'I'm sorry' I whispered
'why are you lying, your not sorry fucking bitch' she grabbed my face and forced me to look up
'oh you sad person' she said sarcastically
'please mom' I whispered again while my eyes watered
'why are you lying' she yelled making me jump
'why did you lie to me you fucking useless bitch' she raiser her hand and I closed my eyes scared of what comes next
'you useless bitch' I felt her hand on my cheek 'no one loves you'
Now her fist reached out for my stomach and I fell on the ground
'you are just a creature that your dad wanted' she kicked my legs
'well guess what your dad is dead and he can't stop me from killing you anymore' she kept kicking me
The pain rushed though my veins. I cried silently making her kick even harder.
'he can't stop me' she pulled my hair up so that I stood up
'you useless bitch, you deserve to die' I opened my eyes to see her with a gun in her hands. I gasped making a small smirk form her lips
'I told you he couldn't stop me' she pointed the gun at me
'STOP' I yelled as loud as I could
~end Nightmare~
'Maddie, wake up' 2 hands held my shoulders and shook me awake
'wake up' I opened my watered eyes to see Dylan above me
'oh my god' he pulled me in a hug
Fuck, he nightmare came back
'ssh' he shushed while petting my hair.
I lied in his arms, not able to move or say anything. I just l lied there crying while he held me.
'hey it's okay, it was just a nightmare' he whispered
'everything is going to be okay'
I started to sob even more.
I hadn't had a nightmare for a month. Before that I usually hand it once a week, I would just wake up screaming and crying and someone would come to me and hug me until I was calm.
The nightmares where usually about John or my mom abusing me and then really killing me. Or it would be that my Mom or John would kill Rose or Dylan in front of me. But no one knew about the last one, I never tell anyone.
Why? Because then Dylan and Rose would worry to much about me.
'did you have a nightmare' Dylan asked after a while
'yes' I forced myself to say, usually I didn't say anything because then I would cry even more
'it isn't real, your safe' he pulled me in a hug again and now I did from my arms around him
'you're safe with me' he whispered again
'what happened' someone came in the room and both Dylan and I turned our heads to see who it was
'she had another nightmare' Dylan explained and Sadie practically ran towards me and pulled me in a hug
'are you okay' she whispered
'I am now' I whisper back and I felt that Dylan hugged us both.
This really made me calm. Being hugged by the Williams siblings.
'how late is it' I asked when they booth let me loose
'like 5 AM' Dylan said looking at his phone
'oh I'm sorry to wake you up' I say pulling the blanket up
'no don't be' Sade said grabbing my hand
'yeah, it's not your fault you get nightmares' Dylan smiled
'and it's also not yours' I said back knowing he still blamed himself a bit
'what is this' Sadie asked
'what is what' I asked smiling a little bit
'and it's also not yours' she imitated me
'oh Dylan still blames himself for what happened to me so I tell him it's not because it is not his fault' I explain
'thanks for keeping the secret' Dylan then said sarcastically
'oh sorry but it's you sister' I chuckled
'do you blame yourself' Sadie then asked
'a bit, not as much as I used to but I takes time to learn it's not' Dylan tells her
'okay, well if you think it is you better go to me or Maddie' Sadie stated with a warning look on her face
'okay mum' Dylan rolls his eyes
'don't eyeroll me' Sadie pokes Dylan is his side
'oh I will' Dylan says after he makes a weird move
'no you won't' Sadie starts tickling Dylan which looks very funny
'stop' Dylan yells and I laugh so hard tears fall down my face
'say that I'm the best sister ever' Sadie now yells
I swear, they are so alike
'okay you are the best sister ever' Dylan says breathlessly and Sadie stops tickling
'oh Jesus' I curse when Sadie lets herself fall on me
'where is he, I don't see him' Sadie says sarcastically
'oh my god' I sight
'I don't see him either' she keeps going
'oh my, bitch' I say now and Sadie laughs
'I always know how to irritate you' she smirks proud
'yes, I hate that' I sight as I play with her hair
'I know' she keeps smirking
'watch out' Dylan then yells and he jumps on the bed
'Dylan' I yell back when he lands with his body on the both of us
'hello' he smirks and he puts his chin on my chest
'get of me' I push him off me
'I thought you like me on top of you' he smirks with a wink
'ew Dylan' Sadie slaps Dylan's shoulder
'what it's no secret Maddie and I are'
'Dylan' I stop him and I also slap his shoulder
'what you never told me that it was a secret' he defends himself
'it's not a secret but you don't have to tell it everyone' I state
'why not' he asks
'oh little innocent nugget, that's just an unwritten rule' Sadie tells him
'oh' Dylan falls sits on the bed next to us
'aww now he's sad' I smile putting my head on his shoulder
'sad Dylan is cute' Sadie pinches Dylan's cheek
'fuck off' Dylan slaps away Sadie's hand
'oh pissed of Dylan is even cuter' I smirk
'you both are lucky I love you' he sights and he closes his eyes
'yes we are' I smile
'I have the feeling I should go back to my room' Sadie then says awkwardly as she stops of our bed
'don't get lost and end up in the lobby' I tell her laughingly.
The other day Sadie was a bit drunk and she came to our room and when we told her to go to her room she ended up in the lobby.
'oh shut up' Sadie rolled her eyes
'sleep well' Dylan waves
'goodbye bitches' Sadie then closes the door
'so are you tired' Dylan asks after a while
'no' I mumble
'are you sad' he keeps asking
'not really, Sadie tickling you helped a lot' I smirk
'then it's good' he smiles and he gives me a kiss
I smile against his lips and sit on his lap
'I told you you liked me on top of you' Dylan winks when he knows what I want
'I never said I didn't'