Super long chapter
☆I never insult artists and songs you like on your books, don't do to mine.
Never grow up
(Taylor swift)
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Present day
Dylan Lane's birthday party
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I got out of the car, Here i am at Dylan's birthday. looking up to the big, big mansion, really well decorated.
Dylan Lane, rushed right at me with his eyes glowing. "(Y/n)!"
"Hey Dylan." I smiled at him and everyone started to notice me.
Dylan led me inside, passed the turquoise colored pool through the door. The living room was blue, with piano, guitar, drum set and a big, real, real big projector.
"Wow... what's this?"
"Most of us here are singers so I set up the mini stage for us to sing. We have champagne and foods too."
We catch up conversations, talked silly things. Dylan had a very bright personality, he talked to me and didn't bring up bad things the media said about me once.
He introduced his friends to me. All of them already know who I was and they praised me so much that i felt awkward. They also secretly took my picture so many times too, I can never get used to that.
"Write a song about me please!" A girl yelled.
Why.
"Haha..." I laughed nervously.
"It's jumping time!" She changed the subject so fast.
"Jumping time?"
"Yes! We'll jump from the balcony down to the pool." Dylan told me, wrapped his arms around my shoulder, taking me to the balcony, along with his friends.
"I won't jump." I chuckled.
"Why not?" He moaned, his shirtless body wrapped around me.
"I don't have swim suit." I shrugged.
"You don't need one!" He lifted my feet off of the ground with his arms on my waist then he jumped with me right into the pool.
Wet.
"God!" I yelled at him once I reached the water's surface, he still held me in his arms.
"Sorry~ I had to make you jump." He smiled.
We saw flashes, we looked up over at the edge of the pool and saw one of his friends took a picture of us.
"Hey man!" Dylan pointed at the guy.
"I won't post it!"
"Delete it, I'm serious Jordan!" Dylan commanded, he looked very serious, the guy named Jordan nodded and hit deleted, or at least we thought he did.
"Thank you." I told him.
"It's alright. It wouldn't look good anyway, you're back with Peter Parker." He smiled sadly.
"Oh? No. We're not-- back, or anything."
"Really? But the picture--"
"He was a little rapey." I said awkwardly.
"Let's call 911."
I laughed but he was confused because he was serious. My smiled faded as soon as I saw a car parked at the front gates, and the person got out of it was Jane.
"Oh, shit. I swear to god I didn't invite her (Y/n)." Dylan said.
"We used to love going to the party that we weren't invited." I said hardly, got up of the pool. "Nice party, Dylan. I'm going to leave."
"Stay, please." He begged.
"(Y/n)."
I tightened my lips into a straight line and turned around to see Jane coming in with a really sad face. "Can we talk...?"
"No, we can not. Bye."
She grabbed my hand. "Please. Listen. I'm sorry. I was drunk and I didn't mean it at all, please."
"At least be honest Jane, and we're done."
"Don't leave this party because of me. I can't handle that guilt. Trust me i was never meant to kiss him, you don't need to talk to me like before, just--- i won't do that again, or other shitty things I've done, please give me a second chance."
I didn't know what kind of games she was playing, but I had no choice but let it go with all the people looking.
"Fine." I played nice, well aware that she can't be trust.
"Thank god." She smiled and stumbled, causes the beer in her hand to poured down on my whole body.
Not even 10 second after I let her back in she shamed me again.
"Ah shit." Dylan said, then grabbed a towel from one of his friend then wrapped it around me. "We need to wash that."
"No shit." I said tiredly.
"I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to do that." She dragged me to the nearest bathroom, pushed me inside and handed me clothes which her friends somehow... already had it in their hands.
"Change in there!" She told us.
I had bad feelings.
I sighed as she shut the bathroom door, I looked at myself in the mirror, i'm soaking wet with water and beer, probably should just take a bath right here.
I took a bath then changed into new clothes, it was an oversized hoodie, long enough to cover my thighs, i had no underwear and all i can say now is life hates me.
I walked out to see Dylan waiting for me in front of the bathroom. "I'm really sorry, I didn't invite her, I know you guys don't get along for real, my friends did."
"It's alright..."
"Ah... I made such bad first impression." He whined into the palm of his hand like a kid. "Hope you don't hate me now..."
"It's completely fine. I had fun today, but I have to go back now. Wish i could bring Hailee and others with but she's on tour."
"Oh my god. Will i get to be in (L/n)'s squad?" He said excitedly.
"I didn't know that's what the media called my friends but yeah, you're welcome every time that we'll throw a party. Anyway, my stuff's with you right?"
"Right here." He handed me my bag from the table behind him.
"Thanks." I grabbed out my phone, i was about to hit Bucky's number someone called me, and i froze because I recognized the phone number so well. "Jane?" I picked up.
[Hey! We have a surprise for Dylan, get yours and his asses to the mini concert room.]
Confusedly, I jerked my head, telling Dylan to follow me, said nothing back to Jane.
[Don't hang up just yet!]
"..."
Dylan and I headed back to the mini stage room. Strange, they didn't play anything, the whole house was deadly quiet. I stood behind the door.
[Are you here yes, bestie?] She asked.
So i opened the door.
Heart. Oh my poor little heart. How did it survive so many breakdowns. So many betrayals crushed my heart so badly and it was all from one I used to call friends.
On the huge projector behind the stage decorated with instruments, was a video of me naked, taken recently from the bathroom.
I heard gasping from my left, all the guys are laughing. I heard chucking from me right, Jane and other girls are having fun with their plan.
I lost all my balance, the last person I looked at was Dylan Lane, he stared shockingly at the screen.
"Did you..." I asked with cracked voice. "Did you planned all this from the start...?"
"No... no, i would never to that to you."
"..." I walked away, humiliated, i heard their voices haunting me from behind, so I walked further, and further. Headed to the gates, i needed to get out of that place.
Barefoot, i stood on the sidewalk with tears rolled down.
At the very, very lost moment.
Someone found me.
Peter Parker parked his car right in front of me, rolled down his window and said.
"Oh... no. Who hurt you this time... Get in."
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It passed midnight, he was driving the getaway car.
I sat there quietly, with hairs that just got dry, and tears that will never stop.
"How'd you find me?" I asked Peter softly.
"I was invited to that party."
"Did you know I'll be there?"
"That's the whole reason i was there, actually." He muttered. "What happened...?"
"Jane."
"Jesus Christ, can she stop?" He hissed. "What'd she do to you this time?"
He parked the car then bend over to get napkin for me from the backseat, then wiped tears off my face. "I don't want you to know, but I should tell you before you find out in the news."
"Okay. Sure."
"She... poured beer all over me, told me to change in the bathroom, but she took a video of me--naked-- then--"
"Oh... fuck. It's okay, i get it now."
He hugged me and just let me cried in his arms for so long. Until I started to feel numb, and then nothing at all, and the world was very quiet.
"Hey..." I said softly. "You remember Never Grow Up? The song I wrote back in the days?"
"I remember all your songs." He said as soft.
"I never told you how I wrote the song, because I can't quite explain it... but now i think i do."
"Tell me."
"It was December.... I was sixteen. I couldn't even play the chord B minor correctly..." I smiled a little even in tears, thinking of old times.
"And It was my... downhill, no one noticed my dreams. My family never cared i want to become a singers. One day, one of my best friend's mother gave birth to a boy."
He listened.
🎼Play the song at this part🎼
"I went to her home, his name was Charlie. Her mum left me with the little new born in a room, he was sleeping peacefully. It was quiet... you know? Peacefully quiet, so i sat next to the boy, and then he opened his eyes up and reached for my thumb."
Your little hands wrapped around my finger and it's so quiet in the world to night.
"And then he looked right at me for no reason, and smiled."
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming. So I tucked you in, turned on your favorite night light.
"Charlie laughed at me, like I was the funniest things so I laughed with him, and then I felt sad, because I wish he could stay happy like that."
To you, everything's funny. You got nothing to regret.
"I'd give all i have, if he could stay like that."
I'd give all I have, honey. If you could stay like that.
"And I thought, don't you ever grow up. Just stay little like that, so he doesn't have to grow up and the world can't hurt him."
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up. Just stay this little. Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up. It could stay this simple.
"I will protect him."
Won't let nobody hurt you.
"So his heart doesn't have to break like mine."
Won't let no one break your heart. No one will desert you.
"I told him that and he chuckled at me as I said...
Just try to never grow up."
Parker hugged me even tighter.
"I pictured myself as a child, the one with dreams of impossible things, and I felt sorry for that girl that when she grew up, she ended up to be me."
"You're the strongest women i've ever known, the world can't break you, (Y/n)." He told me.
"But it can definitely break my heart."
"Can i help you fix it?"
"You were one of the reasons my heart breaks."
"I'm so sorry." He whispered. This time, I knew he meant it.
"I'm sorry too." I said.
I sat there in his arms for I didn't know how long. Thinking about the little boy, who now has already grown up, and i wish i could see him, and say sorry for not being able to protect his heart like I promised that night.
I'm still hoping about how wonderful it could be if i could go back to be that little girl with perfectly good heart.
I wish I'd never grown up.
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