Natasha was staring at herself in the mirror, wearing the extremely revealing nightie Steve got her. She felt uneasy, bitter, cold.
Steve entered the room and shut the door, he walked to her and leaned to kiss her neck.
"I don't want to" she said, coldly.
"Don't want to, what? " he asked, moving her hair and continue kissing her neck.
She turned to face him, " This, I don't want to do this. I don't want to make love, or.. I... I am just tired.. I am your wife.. Not your mistress.. Not anymore" she said in a sharp, bitter tone.
Steve was shocked, he was taken back by her sudden outburst. He looked here and there, took a deep breath, then cupped her cheeks.
"Its okay, I love you, whatever you want" he said. His insights were on rage, he hated being refused to take what was his. He hated her taking command of herself. He loved controlling her.
"I am going to James's room. I need some space, tonight " she said. He nodded and she quickly changed back to her clothes and left.
Steve couldn't deal with what happened. He wanted her so bad. But he couldn't force her and hurt her again.
He sat on the bar stool, drinking recklessly, when Bucky spotted him and decided to talk.
"What are you doing here? At this time of night? " he asked.
"My beautiful wife decided to leave me and sleep in another room. I don't like being alone in that shit room. So, here I am" Steve talked in a drunk voice, with droopy eyelids.
"She? She refused to be with you? " Bucky asked.
"It's none of your business " Steve said.
"Right, sorry. But you wouldn't mind if Logan asks this" Bucky said bitterly.
"What do you mean? " Steve looked up confused.
"Steve? Are you this naive? I found them, almost. I am certain it was his house. They escaped, and when they knew they couldn't run they turned up. How can you allow Logan to be around her, talk to her, even touch her, when we can't even speak of her. They were together for a few days. Doesn't this ring a bell? And now she refuses to be with you? " Bucky said.
Steve thought over it. But he couldn't doubt Logan. It felt so wrong. And he couldn't doubt Natasha again. It hurt her once. It would only hurt her again.
"Don't do this again. I forgave you once" Steve said in anger.
"How can you trust him but not me? " Bucky asked.
"He didn't betray me, but you did" Steve said and left with a waddling gait.
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Steve entered James's room and smiled. Natasha was fast asleep, with James safe in her arms. She looked so beautiful and so much at peace. He walked towards her and being excessively drunk, he fell down. The sound woke Natasha up.
"Go to sleep, sweetheart. Go to sleep" he said.
Natasha rushed to his side, "What happened? " she asked, cupping his cheek.
"Nothing " he said.
"Why are you so drunk? " she asked.
"I missed you" he said.
Natasha hugged him, "I am here, I'll always be, Steve. I won't leave. Stop doing this to us, stop doing this to me"
"I am sorry" Steve said.
"Its okay, I love you" she said.
"I love you more" he said.
She helped him up and settled him on the bed, "I am here, sweetheart " she said cuddling into his arms, taking James in her lap.
She calmed him to sleep. He needed affection, she shouldn't have left him like that.
Steve slept peacefully, with the love of his life.
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In the morning Steve was punching the punching bag hard, sweating heavily. He remembered what Bucky said and he couldn't stop thinking about it. He didn't doubt Natasha. But he couldn't completely trust her either.
Natasha was happily setting breakfast in their room when he returned.
"We'll have breakfast here, just us. I made these waffles. I know you don't like me working, but I like to make stuff for people I love" she talked cheerfully.
Steve walked to her and grabbed her waist, pulling her into his body.
"People you love? " he said.
"Yes" she smiled.
"Did you give these waffles to others? " he asked.
"Yeah, Maria, Laura and Logan" she said.
Steve's blood boiled, "Logan?!! " he said bitterly.
"Yeah, he came inside the kitchen and practically stole my waffles. I didn't give him" she said with a laugh.
Steve clenched his teeth, his grip tightening on her, "Who the hell is he?
Natasha!!! Why did he have access to your waffles? "
"Steve? He is.. Like my brother" she said scared now.
"Stop lying Nat" he said bitterly, "You love him don't you? You love him. Not me. You refused me last night because you want him? "
"No, no, no Steve, no.. I love you" she reached for his face, scared for life, "I promise I love you, only you"
"I am not taking your lies, Nat. You both tricked me into this. What a fool am I? Gosh, I fell for his tricks. You are just mine, Nat" he tightened his grip further.
"Steve, you are hurting me" she said
"And what about you hurting me? " he said.
"Steve, I love you" she said, crying now.
He laughed then let go off her, "Really? You love me right? Prove it" he said, "Prove your love. Strip for me"
Natasha wanted to die, she hated her life, she didn't even care about James's future without a mother anymore, she just wanted to disappear.
"What happened? " he asked grabbing her arm, "Don't want to? "
She pushed him away, "No, I don't. I don't want to be naked for you, you sick man. Go to hell. I am not your mistress"
She reached for the door, but he grabbed her hair and pushed her to the bed.
"You can never escape me, my love" he said, unzipping his pants and towered her.
"No!!!! " she yell, but she knew, her sound didn't pass through the walls of this room. This room, that was her prison.
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Poor Nat. Steve hasn't changed has he?
Bucky keeps ruining her life.
What would happen now?
Would she be destroyed once again?
Would she ever recover after being raped brutally this time?
Do give your reviews.