Waterparks TANTRUM
So, excuse my tantrum
Can't you see I got my hands full?
//mentions of self harm//
I scare across the class room at Jack who was chatting with the popular kids. Another reason not to like him. They all may be too scared to say anything to my face but they can gossip, they all do because they know I can't do anything. They haven't in a while because the last time I found out who started it a nose got broken and it wasn't mine. They are scared of me and I respect that by not beating them up whenever I get bored. Jack will soon be the exception to that rule.
I scratch my upper arm knowing the cuts there are healing due to the itch. I know I shouldn't scratch it incase I reopen the cut and cause it to scar more than it's already going to but I really don't care. It's itchy and I want it to scar. Right now it seems a brilliant idea so I'm going to do it.
"Stop." Rian slaps my arm away once he notices what I'm doing, "Why are you staring at Jack?"
"Because I'm going to punch him." I mutter refusing to do my English work.
"You're staring more in wonder than anger." Zack said and I ignored him, what does he know, he's not in my head.
"How about we ask Alex Gaskarth here to read out his poem." My eyes snap away from Jack and to Mrs Daine who was standing in front of me looking at my empty sheet of paper, "I'm assuming you did it."
"I'm having a bad day." I hiss at her, usually I would say I didn't feel like it but right now I'm pretending I'm not over thinking if Jack realised what's hidden under my sleeves to argue, maybe she would leave me alone, "I want to go home."
"Well you have a detention so you're going to be here even longer."
"Fuck you." I grit my teach and clench my hands into a fist.
"Oh here we go again." I see her visibly roll her eyes, how dare she!
I heard people muttering and giggling about me. I stand up pushing my desk over with a crash causing anyone who wasn't paying attention to me to snap to attendance.
"Anyone here have anything they would like to say?" I ask just wishing someone would say something but everyone says silent, "Good."
I grab my backpack and storm out the classroom slamming the door behind me fuck. Fuck this place. Fuck Mrs Daine. Fuck the gossip. Fuck depression. Fuck Jack Barakat.
Soon as I get back into the cold I pull my jumper over my head and shove it in my backpack. It's raining now. I like the rain. I breath out a long sigh of relief wondering what I'm going to do next. Not stay here that's for sure.
"Gaskarth." I turn around and see Jack standing in the doors, quickly I hide my forearms, "Wassup?"
"Go back to class." I roll my eyes and start to walk off, Jack grabs my shoulder so I turn around again now nose to nose with him, "Why are you here?"
"Told Daine I'm sick so she let me go."
"Why did you go after me?"
"Daine wouldn't let Zack or Rian leave and they are scared you will do something dumb." I stayed face to face with Jack wondering why I haven't hit him yet.
"Like what?" I need to know what they've said to him.
"They said nothing." I attempt to slow my breathing back down to a steady pace, "I've just made a few guesses."
"Spread any lies and I'll kill you."
"What about truths?" A small smile appears on Jack's face, why is he smiling when I'm threatening him?
"Then I'll kill you twice."
"Sure thing kitten."He said pulling down my t-shirt sleeve, I look down and see it must have ridden up to reveal the cuts that are usually hidden, "I'm not going to tell anyone anything."
"Don't call me kitten." I blink a few times at him still standing their, "Why haven't you left yet?"
"You don't trust me."
"No." I scoff, why is he acting like it's not the most obvious thing in the world.
"Where are you going?" He asked.
"Home."
"Will you be okay alone?" I don't understand why Jack is caring about me, maybe it's to get more dirt on me, I nod my head just wanting Jack to leave me alone, "Text Rian or Zack or something when you get back okay?"
"Fine." I huff.
Authors note
My braces are really hurting my teeth and it's really annoying me. I also start my first day of suspension tomorrow and if my mum does end up waking me up early I'm gonna kms. This is like the 5th time I've been suspended ever so it's not a new concept.
So comment things.
Your comments are massive motivation for me writing. So are your votes.
So do you think Alex will go home? Is Jack trustworthy?
Hugs, kisses and peace ✌🏻