"What do you mean? What did you tell Belle?" I asked Nakesha worried, why was she crying?
"There are some thins that you need to know about your baby." Nakesha said and I frowned.
"What?" I asked her.
"You're going to be pregnant for nine months instead of five it will be just like a normal human pregnancy." Nakesha said and I looked at her confused.
"That has nothing to do with why Belle is crying, right?" I said as I looked at her.
"The months are nothing, the thing here Aria is when it's time for you to give birth to your daughter you will die." Nakesha said and I looked at her shocked.
"What?" I said, had I heard her correctly.
"You have to die in order for her to be born." Nakesha said and I didn't believe her.
"Why? You said that Eric had to die because of her, now you're saying it has to me too?" I asked her angry, how could she not tell me this before.
"That is how it has to be, it has always been like this for silver line wolf." Nakesha told me in a hard tone.
I shook my head.
"But when my mother gave birth to me she didn't die." I said, there had to be an option.
"That is because your grandmother died when she gave birth to your mom, and now it's your turn." Nakesha said as she looked at me.
"You're wrong." I said as I felt my eyes get watery.
"I'm sorry Aria." Belle said crying but I wasn't having any of it
"You're both insane!" I screamed at them, how could they even say that.
"Please Aria, calm down." Belle said as she walked towards me.
"Get out, both of you get our and leave me alone!" I yelled as I got them out of my bedroom.
I stayed in my bedroom all day long ignoring when people came to see me, I didn't let them in and I would not go down to eat or let them bring food for me. I slept day and night just waiting for it to stop, but it wouldn't. I knew a wolf could survive without food or water for weeks, even months.
I was lying on the bed when I felt something, I opened my eyes and saw Drew.
"How did you get in here?" I asked him, I had locked the door.
"I got in through the window." He said explaining.
I looked at him for a few seconds before I closed my eyes and tried to go back to sleep.
"Aria, eat this." Drew said as he placed a tray full of food on my bed.
I sat up but looked away, staring at the window where I could see the summer starting to show little by little.
"Aria, you haven't eaten in weeks now, and you haven't said a single word." Drew said as he looked at me worried.
I caught my reflection in the window, I was pale and skinny, my eyes seemed empty and hollowed, it was because my soul as well as my heart was shattered.
With him gone nothing made sense.
"Aria, for goddess sake just stop ignoring me!" My brother said as he grasped my shoulders and shook me.
I stared at his eyes, they were full of concern.
"Leave me alone." I croaked.
"Look at yourself Aria, I hardly even recognize you, you're killing yourself. You're killing the baby! Do you think Eric would like to see you this way?" Drew said as he looked at me angry.
"Don't say his name!" I yelled as I pushed him away but Drew didn't budge.
"I'm sorry he is dead, but he gave up his life for so you and your baby could live. Everyone is worried for you. You haven't gotten out of this room since Nakesha came here. Justin is dead worried for you." Drew told me and I snorted.
"Yeah, right." I said dryly.
"He is, Snow, it kills him to see you like this." My brother said and I rolled my eyes.
"Just like it killed me when he turned his back to me?" I said, my voice was full of pure hate.
"Justin regrets that and you know it, why can't you forgive him?" Drew said and I set my jaw.
"Because even if Justin regrets that and I forgive him it won't bring Eric back! Or would it Drew?" I spat and Drew winced at my tone.
"No, it won't but you have to be strong." Drew said as he met my gaze.
"That's what I'm trying to do." I said in a low voice.
"Really, then you had me fooled, I thought you were starving yourself to death Aria." Drew said as he glared at me.
"That is not my plan." I said in a low voice as I looked away.
"Then what is it? Another choice of easy suicide because you know I won't let you kill yourself." Drew yelled at me angry, I understood perfectly why he was mad, I was all the family he had left.
"I know." I said in a soft voice as I started to cry.
"Then why are you doing this?" Drew asked me as he forced me to meet his gaze.
"Because even if I eat, even if I fight this I will eventually die no matter what I do, it's a loss cause." I said as the tears rolled down my face.
"What?" Drew said shocked as he looked at me.
"Didn't Belle tell you?" I asked him, I assumed that everyone in the pack knew about it already.
"She didn't say anything about dying, no one told me you were going to die!" Drew said as he raised his voice in panic.
"Nakesha came and told me that when I give birth to my daughter I will die, I wish that Eric was alive so at least I wouldn't leave my baby alone. Because I know how hard it is to grow up without a mother and a father." I said as Drew wiped away my tears.
"You won't die Aria, I won't let you." Drew said as he hugged me tightly and I cried more.
"You know it's not your choice, it's not up to you, this is just so fucked up." I said as I cried burying my face in his chest.
"You won't die Aria, I will make sure of that." Drew promised me and I pulled away from him.
"And if I do?" I asked him as I met his gaze.
"Then I will make sure that your daughter will have a mother and father, she will have Belle and me." Drew said as he looked at me sadly.
"Do you promise, do you promise that if I'm not here for here you will be?" I asked him, I needed to know that my daughter would be protected and loved, that nothing bad would ever happen to her.
"I do." Drew promised me as he hugged me tightly.
I gave a sigh in relief, now I knew at least that my baby would be loved unconditionally by Drew, I knew he would take care of her.
"Now, will you please eat Aria? Or help me the moon goddess, I will shove it down your throat." Drew said making me chuckle, I hadn't laughed in days.
I nodded and eventually started to eat what he was offering me.
A couple of weeks after all of it I actually started to feel the pregnancy side effects more, I would be constantly hungry or in a very bad mood although Drew tried to convince me that the bad mood was just me and not the baby, of course I smacked him in the head for those comments, when Drew thought I had enough of isolating myself from the others and was well enough to get out of bed, he help me go downstairs where everyone was waiting for me, even if four months almost five had already passed since Eric had left us people would still have that pity look when they looked at me.
"If you still want me to be here then you have to cut that off." I snapped at them as I sat down in the couch.
"What are you talking about?" Zane asked confused as he sat down next to Lena.
"That if I want to be outside of my bedroom and in this pack house you have to quit with the pitiful looks, it bothers me because this is not the first lost I have experience and something tells me it won't be the last, so cut it off." I said as I glared at them.
"Whatever you say Ice." Axel said with a polite nod as he stood there in the doorway.
We all started to eat and talk especially Sandy and Isaac who were very excited for the second baby since in a few days they were expecting it, Sandy's first pregnancy had gone perfectly fine, while I had been away in Rick's mansion Sandy had given birth to a beautiful baby girl which she had named Emily Grimm, during the attack when Eric had been killed Sandy had told me that she was pregnant once again, she was actually afraid of it being too soon but I had seen her with her daughter, Sandy was a natural mother, and Isaac well he was smitten by both Sandy and his daughter, unlike me Sandy was having a nice normal wolf pregnancy that only lasted five month, not nine unlike mine and just like last time they were keeping the gender of the baby a surprise.
"Do you already know what it is?" Lena asked Sandy, Lena was also pregnant, Zane had given me the news a couple of hours ago, after all most she wolves of the pack had gone through heat and gotten pregnant or were still in heat.
"We want it to be a surprise." Sandy said with a huge smile in her face.
"But why a surprise, I want to know if I'm having a nephew or another niece, I need to know so I can get the presents ready." Lena said as she hugged her brother Isaac.
"You'll be the first one to know." Isaac promised her.
We started to talk about the baby plans and Emily loved being the center of attention as Isaac entertained her making her give soft baby giggles that lighted up the entire room, as we joked about how big of a heartbreaker Emily was going to be Justin entered the room, the talking and laugher immediately died as he entered, Justin scanned the room until his eyes met mine.
"Snow, can I talk to you alone in my office?" Justin asked me.
I looked around and nodded.
"Sure." I said in a soft voice.
Both Drew and Belle helped me get up from my seat since I was normally dizzy whenever I sat down and got up after a long time. I walked behind Justin looking at his blonde curls, they seemed to be longer as if he hadn't gotten a haircut since I last saw him.
We entered to his office and he gestured me to sit down.
"Are you feeling better?" Justin asked me.
I gave a sigh.
"I've been worse." I said in a low voice.
"I was worried about you." Justin said as he looked at me.
"I know." I said back.
"Are you going to keep your answers short to not talk to me?" Justin asked me, I could tell he was getting irritated by it.
"Yes." I simply said and shrugged.
"Why?" Justin asked me, well he actually demanded an answer.
"Because you deserve it, Justin, just don't ask me, alright?" I said in a tired voice as I looked at him.
"Do you blame me for his death?" Justin asked me and I met his gaze.
"No." I said and I realized for once that it was the truth, I didn't.
"Then what is it?" Justin asked as he stood in front of me.
"You know very well that if you hadn't turned your back on me when I needed you the most things would be different today." I told him, it was the truth, we could've avoided a lot of things if Justin had just believed me when I first came to warn him about Rick's attack.
"I told you I was sorry about that." Justin said as he ran his fingers through his hair.
"Sorry doesn't cover it Justin, and you know that very well, if Rick decided to apologize for all the things he did to you and all your love ones would you forgive him, would you accept his apology?" I asked Justin as I glared at him.
"No." Justin said in a low voice.
"Then you have my answer." I said as I stood up and started to leave his office.
"Snow, wait." Justin said as he stopped me by the door.
I didn't move but I also didn't look at him.
"Please look at me." Justin begged me.
I shook my head, I had enough if this.
"Snow, please don't make me ask this again." Justin said as he made me turn around to meet his gaze.
Justin got closer to me and I took a step back until my back met the door, I placed my palm on his chest which was providing the only space between us.
"Just look at me." Justin said and I looked up.
I met his gaze and Justin looked at me surprised.
I knew what he was seeing, my intense blue eyes were now empty and hollowed, that didn't hold an emotion life or whatsoever. The spark that constantly had a huge amount of hope, happiness, determination and life was gone along with a huge part of me.
"What happened to you?" Justin asked me shocked.
"You perfectly know what happened." I said in a soft voice.
"Why are you giving up? Why now Snow, you're so strong so why are you giving up?" Justin asked me and I shook my head.
"I'm not giving up I still have something more to fight for." I said as I touched my stomach where I could feel my small bump, my daughter.
Justin placed his hand on my cheek and I winced.
"Please let me fix everything, let me make everything better for you." Justin said, I could feel his breath against my cheek and the heat of his heart against mine.
"You don't know what you're saying Justin, just stop before you do something you will regret." I told him as I pulled away from him but Justin didn't budge.
"I'm sure I won't regret this." Justin said as he started to lean in.
"Justin, don't." I said as I stopped him with my hand.
"Why?" He asked me confused.
"Even though he is gone nothing has changed between us." I said as I looked at him.
"But what about that kiss, when you said that you loved me, was that fake?" Justin asked me and I shook my head.
"No, it was real, I did love you before." I said as I met his gaze.
"But what changed?" Justin asked me.
"I don't love you anymore, at least not like that, you have to understand that the only person I want to be with is my mate and nobody else." I said, the was the truth, there was never going to be anyone else but Eric.
I opened the door but Justin closed it not letting me out.
"Justin." I said in a small voice, I was losing my patience with him.
"Please give me an opportunity." Justin said not letting me go.
I shook my head.
"I can't and you perfectly know why." I said as I tried to open the door but he wasn't letting me.
"Just give me one more chance Snow, I'm not asking for anything else but your forgiveness this time, please, I swear you won't regret it." Justin begged me and I gave a sigh.
"Fine, only one and that's it. But I won't promise you anything." I said in a defeated voice.
Suddenly Justin wrapped his arms around me tightly pulling our bodies together; it was a warm embrace full of love the same embrace he would give me when I was sad, it so familiar to me.
"I won't make you regret this decision." Justin said as he hugged me tightly.
I was about to tell him that I was not sure that was true when there was an explosion, some of the wall that were in the hallway fell down and there were screams.
"They're attacking us!" Axel said before another explosion hit the house.
"We have to get you out of here!" Justin said, his voice was full of panic and fear.