The next morning had been calmer then the previous night, but you could just feel the awkward atmosphere between Nathan and Zayn. I want to go and force them to make up but then again, they're in control of their own actions; if they want to hate each other then so be it. Immature idiots.
"Good morning, darling. Did you sleep well?" Siva was awake before me which was strange because I was so used to being the first one up. He was cooking in Nathan's small kitchen, and it honestly smelt so good!
"Hey. Yes I guess so, apart from the fact Zayn was grumbling about Nathan's behaviour as if he was inappropriate. What about you?" I grab a mug and start to boil the water in the kettle. Nathan will be wanting his tea as soon as he's awake, so I better be prepared. He usually has his tea, grabs a toast and heads off to the university on the weekdays.
"I'm alright thank you. Jay's snores for once didn't keep me up!" Siva lightly laughed before turning his attention back to the frying pan where he was cooking eggs and bacon. My stomach growled immediately.
"Okay, it's done so you eat up before the guys all come down. You need fattening up young lady!" I didn't even argue because Siva's food always made me hungry and I can't deny it.
***
"Baby." I turned around to the sound of Zayn's voice after I had put away a clean plate form breakfast. Jay was washing up while I was drying and putting away.
"I'm sorry for last night. I will apologise to Nathan as soon as he comes home." Zayn tells me and I suddenly drop the next mug I had picked up. Luckily it didn't smashed. Instead of being concerned, Jay let out a hysterical laugh-throwing his head back.
"Did you just say you to go... apologise?!" I gasped dramatically, smacking my hand over my mouth with my eyes wide and Jay did the same.
"Ha ha. Very funny guys, but yeah I did. I do want to because what I said really wasn't called for." Jay and I exchanged shocked looks and we had to hang onto the counter behind us otherwise we'd faint. Zayn rolls his eyes, kisses my cheek and walks out of the kitchen being unhelpful to us. Lazy.
As I dry up I notice Jay is staring at me intensely with a face full of concern. I look up at him and raise an eyebrow.
"It's okay not to smile sometimes. You don't have to always pretend everything's alright." he commented randomly, frowning slightly.
"Uh, okay then..." I say before picking up another plate and he places his hand on mines.
"I'm serious. Zayn is hard work and I don't know how you cope with him so well. You really do have him wrapped around your pinkie finger, though. It's amazing to watch him talk to you in the way that he does, and the way he stares at you is lovely. If Tom was here he'd slap me for speaking so romantically but you both are meant to be. Sometimes Zayn forgets that, but he'll always remember even if it's an hour later. He really loves you, Sophia." Jay smiles at me and I smile right back. I guess he's right because I smile when I sad as well, to hide the pain.
"Sometimes I forget that he does love me, Jay. He just acts so... what's the word? There isn't a word to describe the way he is! Anyway, I wouldn't say we're so meant to be because there are so many obstacles in our path... might I add when Zayn bothers to enlighten you on the newest bombshell, you'll then realise how we're so not meant to be." I sighed, remembering about Caitlin and the child she's carrying. Zayn's child, my Zayn.
"I'm sure it's not bad and you're only exaggerating." oh Jay, I wish I was.
You'll see. You will see.
***
"YOU'RE GOING TO BE A WHAT?!" Jay exclaimed, shooting up to his feet while Siva stays seated with a shocked expression on his model like face.
"A father, you heard me. Don't make me keep repeating it." Zayn groaned, holding my hand for support. I let him take it because I know I'm going to miss his touch when Caitlin gets her plan kicked in.
"THAT'S INSANE. BUT. WHAT? NO. NO WAY-"
"-I warned you though, Zayn... many times whenever you came home after being with that girl. I told you to be careful because she was very clingy and there was something about her that made me believe she would change your future's path. No-one listens to me when I talk about my meditations I do, I can see things that the naked eye can't. I did warn you Zayn, therefore I cannot give you any sympathy." Siva speaks weirdly and I narrow my eyes at him with him shrugging in return. Damn we've all change so much it a short period of time!
"Oh thanks, I love that you're my friend and you're on my side; thanks(!)" Zayn speaks with great sarcasm, reminding me that he needs to apologise to Nathan which will be amazing to watch. No doubt in my mind that Zayn would go that cute shade of red with embarrassment.
"She's so... urgh? Why would you sleep with her in the first place, bro?" I was cringing at Jay's words now I remembered that Zayn had once slept with that stunning yet evil with-I mean fairy? I really can't stop with the jealousy.
"Uh guys. You can continue to talk. I think I'm gonna call my mother. I want to see how she is." Zayn nodded letting my hand reluctantly go so I could escape this 'guy talk'.
But I didn't quite understand why Siva and Jay exchanged uneasy looks at one another as I mentioned my mother.
Weird.
***
"Yes, I am family. I'm Lucy Carter's daughter. Yes, Sophia Marie. Yes, I will hold." I sighed impatiently after the stranger who had my mother's phone had finished talking to me. The woman had told me she was nurse, which made me confused because why would a nurse be at my house? And have my mother's phone?
"Hello, Sophia Marie?" the nurse stranger lady came back.
"Still here."
"Okay, you're mother isn't um... awake at the moment. Can I take a message?" she asks me politely, but I'm just rude back.
"Yeah actually... I was wondering why the hell have you got her phone and in my house and watching her sleep?!" all very good questions, I must admit.
"Your mother isn't in your house. She is in ProCourt Hospital, and I am watching her sleep because I have been authorised to. She has had an operation and needs to be monitored for a while." the nurse informs me and as soon as I heard the word 'hospital' is said, I almost faint. I hate hospitals with pure passion.
"Why the heck has she had an operation?! What's wrong with her?!" I was panicking and I had every right to be! Why didn't I know about this?! Did Nathan, Zayn, Jay or Siva know?! Is that why Siva and Jay were exchanging looks?! Oh my gosh! Does everyone know apart from me?!
"Please remain calm, dear. She is fine but is resting as she is quite weak right now. There was a breast Cancer scare but it turns out it was only a mole. She had some burns from an incident that had occurred which we're still investigating into but she has survived, and is very much alive so please remain calm." the nurse was really testing my patience and I just wanted to say all the words I've heard Zayn say or even my father had said to me.
I hung up however and placed my head in the palm of my hands, letting stray tears slip out of my eyes. I wasn't prepared for this. What would happen if it was a lump and my mother had had cancer? What if she was to die and I wouldn't have known about it? I would lose all my family and the guy I love. I have already lost my best friend. I'm losing everyone I've ever been close to and I don't like it at all.
I need to stay strong though, I need to keep smiling. Smile so no-one notices you're low. I'm strong not weak, I don't cry because crying is a sign of weakness. I'm mentally and physically strong and nothing can bring me down. Come at me because I am titanium.
***
"Why didn't you tell me about my mother, guys? Don't deny it because I know you all know. Your faces gave it away." Zayn had gone for his shower while I was talking to Jay and Siva in the living room. They were both not staring at me because they must be feeling ashamed. Good.
"We're sorry. We were told not to tell you because you'd panic and you're already stressed out as it is so this would really bring you down." Siva told me in a soft voice trying to keep things calm before I snapped at them.
"Still, don't you think I deserved to know? If that was your mothers who were in that position-"
I noticed they both had flinched, two different shades of eyes were burning into my face and I immediately wanted to take back my words. Jay doesn't remember his mother and Siva witnessed his mother committing suicide.
"-I'm sorry." Is all I say when there the ones who really should be apologising, and I smile at them before heading up the stairs.
Zayn was half changed in our bedroom, dark ripped jeans hanging loosely on his waist with no top on, I had suddenly forgotten all the sorrows I had been feeling and stared intensely at his toned chest and abs in the long mirror in front of him. He noticed me in the reflection, and smirked at me. A smirk that I've really missed.
"Take a picture, it will last longer." I remembered the first time we met, and I had said those words to him. He was wearing the exact same stuff as he was right and I felt the tears prick in my eyes but instead of crying, I smiled. I smiled and ran up to him and wrapped my arms around his long torso as he did around my waist, burying his face into the crook of my neck.
"I love you, Zayn." I whispered, squeezing his body tighter as I felt my smile dropping and the sadness taking over.
"I love you so much more, Sophia." he whispered back to me and whatever happiness I had once had, had now vanished and the tears poured down his chest. The salty water spilled over his soft inked olive toned skin and I didn't think twice about it.
I couldn't pretend I was living in a dream world or living in the past.
Because reality had hit me hard.
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