Notes: FUCKING NYOTALIA! I swear I'm fucking addicted to Nyotalia now and it doesn't help that there's so little fanfics...
Also Modern Au again.
[Warning: Mature Language, Sex and a Self harming technique mentioned and implied that gay women do when they can't accept being gay.]
(Y/n)'s POV
"I think we need to break up."
Antonio blinked in surprise. "I see. May I ask why?" Said Antonio kindly. I wrapped my arms around myself. "I just think it'd be better if we're friends." "(Y/n), I've been with you for 2 years. I know you. There's more, isn't there?" I avoided his eyes. "I..." I could feel tears bubbling up. "I'm sorry." I choked out. "Why?" Said Antonio rubbing my arm soothingly. "I thought I loved you but I never did. That's because I..." I hiccuped and started crying.
"I'm gay Antonio. And I'm gay for Chiara, your friend. I'm sorry."
Time Skip
I lay in bed emotionless. The random man I had a one stand with had already left hours ago.
I couldn't accept it.
I can't be gay.
A knock came from my door. "It's Antonio. Can I come in?" Said Antonio from the other side of the door. He had a spare key to my house. I didn't bother and cover myself. "Do what you want."
Antonio walked in and sighed. He had seen me naked before. I didn't care. "Again?" He said. "You can't force yourself to be straight. You know that." He said. "How many times have you done this?" Said Antonio rhetorically. "32. And counting." I said. He sighed and went into my bathroom, before long I heard water running. When he came out, he walked over to me. "C'mon. Bath time." He said lifting up in his arms almost like I weighed nothing. "You've lost weight. Have you even been eating?" Asked Antonio worried as he walked into my bathroom. I said nothing. He sighed as he gently laid me in the bath.
Silently he cleaned me up. After our breakup, he had taken up the role of caring for me as my health and mood had plummeted. He had been so understanding. After the breakup, I had subjected myself to one night stands with men I didn't know. I was torturing myself because I couldn't even accept the fact that I was gay.
After I had clothes on, Antonio pulled me out to eat. I sat with him at a Cafe, a sandwich in front of me uneaten while I sipped on some tea. "You need to eat Amiga." Sighed Antonio. I sighed and looked away.
"Toni! Hey!" "Oh hey Felicia! Hey Chiara!" "Shut up tomato bastard." I kept my eyes on my tea. "It's so nice to see you!" "Same here Felicia!" "Who's the ragazza?" I was leaning forward to put my cup of tea down when I looked up to see who spoke for my eyes to lock with honey auburn eyes with green flecks in them. My breathing hitched as my heart started to pound in my chest while my face flushed red. "H-Hi." I squeaked. She didn't recognise me. The girl blushed at my reaction. "Chiara, It's (Y/n)! Don't you recognise her?" Introduced Antonio, smiling as he noticed my flushed face. A scowl donned her soft looking lips that I wanted to kiss. "Oh. The bitch that broke your heart after two years?" Said Chiara. My heart stopped and shattered. I looked down. "Chiara! She has her own reasons and the two seemed to be getting along! Leave her alone!" Exclaimed Felicia. "I don't fucking care. She told him she hadn't loved him at all, that cold hearted bitch." I dropped my cup. "I didn't tell you the whole story to keep her privacy! You shouldn't assume things!" Exclaimed Antonio worried. "I best be on my way then. It's clear I'm not welcome." I said, keeping my head down as I got up and started to walk away.
"(Y/n)!" Yelled Antonio. "Come back and face the truth bitch!" Yelled Chiara. I stopped. "Chiara stop! You don't know the whole truth! It isn't her fault!" Exclaimed Antonio. "It is." I hissed. They stopped and I turned around. "Yeah it is my fault! And You want to know why?!" I hissed marching over to Chiara. "Try me bitch." Hissed the Italian. I grabbed her shoulders and slammed my lips against hers. She pushed me off and stared at me in shock. Tears had started falling from my eyes. "There's your answer. There's my side of the story. I'm fucking gay. And In love with you." I hissed. She said nothing and I ran off.
I sobbed as I soon found myself in front of a bar. I wiped my eyes and found myself falling back into the usual cycle as I walked into the bar.
Time Skip
I let the man kiss me.
I let the man strip me.
I let the man grope me.
It wasn't until he was about to slam into me was went I broke. I kicked him off.
"Get off get off get off!" I yelled. "What the hell?! I thought you wanted it?!" Yelled the stranger. "Get out! Get out! Now! Get out of my house!" I yelled. "Geez fine!" He threw his clothes on and got out my house.
I broke down in tears. I screamed and started throwing stuff about my house. I stared at the friendly photos that me and Chiara had taken in the photo booth when we were on holiday. It was one of the rare ones of her smiling. In a silly moment she had kissed my cheek and In another I had did it back. I picked up the photo of her kissing my cheek. Tears fell from my eyes and I gripped it tightly. I lifted my arms up to smash it on the floor when the door open.
"(Y/n)! Are you here-" Chiara stood at my door she had closed to see me naked in my trashed living room and about the smash a photo. She focused on my face. "Who was that man that ran out of here?" Asked Chiara. "Some pick up that I kicked off before I could let him do anything." I choked out. "Why?" She asked in shock. "Why?! I've done it 32 times! I pick up some random ass dude and let him fuck me while I lay there, torturing myself because I can't fucking accept the truth that I'm gay! And this time I fucking freak out because I couldn't do it!" I yelled, the truth falling out at last. She walked over to me and slowly took the photo out of my hands. My arms dropped to my sides. She looked at the photo before putting on the table.
"Why didn't you tell me the truth before all of this?" She asked. "How can I tell you when I can't even accept it myself?" I said. "Look at me. I'm a fucking mess." I said looking down at myself in disgust. She grabbed my cheek and slammed her lips against mine. "You fucking idiota. You just had to tell me. I fucking love you too" Sighed Chiara. I bursted into tears at the confession.
She wrapped her arms around me and kissed me. We stumbled through my house until I fell back on my bed. I panted, tears still falling as Chiara kissed down my neck. My hands slid down her back to the back of her thighs. Chiara pulled back and looked me in the eyes. "Why didn't you tell me?" I asked. "You were with Antonio for two years idiot. I thought you were straight." She explained before locking her lips with mine. She started unbuttoning her shirt while my hands slid up under her skirt and pulled down her panties. She kicked off her underwear while throwing off her shirt. I reached up and I unclipped her bra while she pulled out her clips and hair band, throwing them on my bedside cabinet. I pulled off her bra while she shimmied her skirt off.
I froze as her hands cupped my chest. "You okay?" She asked. More feelings bubbled up to the surface in the form of tears. "I've never done anything with a girl. I'm scared." I admitted. She kissed me. "We don't have to do anything." "I want to though. I want you." I admitted. She kissed me.
I pulled her closer and she slid down my body, kissing where she could.
"Ch-Chiara..."
A fire had been lit in me that hadn't ever been there before. I whimpered as she kissed me, our legs tangling and her thigh pressing against my core. She shuddered as my thigh shifted in my whimpering and pressed against her core. We panted as our gaze locked. She leaned down and her lips brushed against the sensitive skin on my body. Her hands cupped my breast. I shuddered as her thumb brushed against the sensitive nipple. She kissed down my neck and started giving me love bites at my collar.
My hands tangled in her hair while her hands slid down my stomach. They dragged down my hips and I gasped as Chiara's fingers brushed against my core. Blood rushed to my cheeks and down south as Chiara gazed up at me. She leaned up and kissed me. I moaned softly as her lips moved against mine passionately. I whimpered as her thumb brushed against my clit. Her fingers grazed against my heated entrance. She pulled back from the kiss slightly for air. I wanted her. Her honey coloured cat like eyes gazed at me. I moaned softly as her two fingers pushed into me slowly. "You feel so warm." Sighed Chiara to herself. I blushed and I pulled her close, taking her lips with mine in a heated kiss. Carefully, she started to thrust her fingers into me. I moaned, my body quivering slightly. She locked her lips with mine as I shifted closer to her as much as I could. Steadily her pace gained speed and I moaned loudly. "Ch-Chiara!" I cried out as she pushed a third finger in me. I panted as the soft atmosphere in my room changed to hot and passionate. I bucked my hips against her hand as I wrapped my arms around her. She pressed her lips against mine roughly.
"Does that feel good?" Panted Chiara as she pulled back from the kiss slightly for air. I nodded, whimpering slightly.
"Y-your fingers-" I cut myself as I cried out as I thrusted my hips up in instinct.
"C-Curl them upwards." I panted. I whimpered as I closed my eyes.
"Please!" I whimpered. Her fingers curled upwards and I swear I saw stars.
"Chiara!" I cried out, my eyes flashing open. Her eyes widened as she realised I had just told her where my g-spot was. She growled and slammed her lips against mine.
"Did you just tell me where your g-spot is?" She asked, her voice husky. I shivered and nodded.
"Do you want me to hit it again?" She teased.
"Yes! Please Chiara!"
She grinned, her pearly white flashing me a lustful smile. I cried out again as she hit it again.
"You've done this to yourself before? Haven't you?" She teased, the honey colour in her eyes melting to a rich auburn colour from her lust. I nodded, moaning out. She bit her lip, still grinning.
"Do you think of me when you do?"
My breathing hitched as I quivered. Her smile widened. "You do, don't you?" She said, already knowing my answer. I nodded flustered. "Am I fucking you or are you dominating me?" She asked, knowing how hot and bothered she was making me by thinking of my fantasies.
"Y-You're dominating m-me." I moaned out bashfully.
"Tell me some more."
I shuddered at the tone of her voice.
"Which one?" I panted. She moaned at the thoughts going through her head from my words. She smirked. She leaned down to my ear.
"The dirtiest one." She purred. I bit my lip as the fantasy drifted into my mind. I gulped as I hid my face in her neck.
"It's much like right now. Except you have my arms bound above me." I panted. I whimpered, my legs tensing.
"Y-You're whispering dirty things in my ear." I whispered. She shuddered, the thought reaching her mind.
"Y-You whisper how much you want to fuck m-me. How much you want to make me beg for you. H-How much you want me to scream you n-name." I continued quietly. I whimpered as I could feel myself nearing the edge of my orgasm. She shivered and bit her lip. I locked my lips with hers. I pulled back slightly.
"A-And I tell you that I want it too." I whispered against her lips. Her hand stuttered in movement as she sucked in a sharp breath. She gazed at me lustfully. I bit my lip.
"And then you tell me all the things you want to do to me after riling you up." I squeaked. She grinned.
"And you'll love every second of it." Purred Chiara. I moaned loudly. She bit her lip as she curled her fingers upwards. I cried out. I wouldn't last much longer. Chiara seemed to notice that.
"Moan for me. Scream my name." Purred Chiara. She curled her fingers and I saw stars, my orgasm taking me to heights I'd never been before.
"Chiara!!!"
I scratched my blunt nails down her back at the pleasure coursing through me. Chiara slowly slowed her hand down to a stop, drawing out my sex high. I panted as I slowly relaxed in her arms. Gently, she pulled her fingers out of me, relishing in the small quiver I gave. I blushed as she moaned while sucking her fingers clean. My eyes wandering down her body that was straddling me. I glanced at her core. I bit my lip at the wet mess I saw. I wanted to taste her. I looked up at her and she hadn't noticed me, her attention focused on her fingers. My hands slowly slid down her back and I held her hips. I pulled her up my body and she squealed, falling forward slightly as she gripped my bedpost for support.
"(Y/n)? What the hell?!" She exclaimed as she looked down at me. I blushed and I focused back on my task. My hands slid down her thighs and my fingers from my right hand trailed up her inner thigh. I gently dipped one finger into her hot entrance, making her moan as her grip on my bedpost tightened. I carefully pushed a second finger and I explored her core curiously. She shuddered as I pulled my fingers back. I bit my lip as I stared at the wetness on my fingers. I couldn't help but stick them in my mouth as I sucked them clean. Chiara squeaked in surprise, not thinking I'd do such a thing. I closed my eyes, moaning in delight. I fucking loved her taste. I pulled my fingers back and panted. My eyes locked on her core and they glazed over in desire.
I wanted more.
I leaned to her core the best I could and licked up her entrance. She let out a shaky moan. More of her wetness seemed to pour out of her.
"(Y/n)..." Panted Chiara shakily. I barely heard her as I was so focused on her core. I licked up her core again and she whimpered. More of her essence seemed drop out and onto my tongue. I moaned at the taste.
More.
I pulled her down more and gradually started licking her more and more. Chiara let out high pitched whimpers and moans as she tried to control herself. I growled. I couldn't enough. I carefully wormed my tongue into her. She gasped and covered her mouth with one of her hands.
"Oh my god (Y/n)..." Moaned Chiara in shock. I closed my eyes as I breathed out of my nose. Fuck the taste was so much better from the source. I sucked against her, trying to get more of her essence. She cried out, a hand grabbing my hair.
"Yes yes yes yes. Do that again. Oh god. Fucking do that again." She panted. I did so but much harder and she cried out even loudly.
My eyes darkened in lust.
I didn't just want more of her wetness anymore. I wanted to make her scream my name this time.
I didn't give her any warning except my moan at my thoughts before I started thrusted my tongue in and out of her fast while I loudly sucked against her. She wailed loudly as she pressed against my mouth harder.
"Oh fuck! Yes! Shit! You're a fucking natural! Yes! Keep doing that! Oh yes! Fuck me with that fucking glorious tongue of yours!" She wailed. I moaned at the praise. Her lips curved upwards as she moaned.
"Oh yes! Ah! You're so good! So fucking good! You like this don't you? My fucking praise as you fuck me so good with your tongue! Is it making you hot and bothered? I hope so! Oh yes fuck me!" My eyes flashed opened as she started praising me. I squeezed my legs together in hopes of relief. I moaned as I slurped slightly as I drank up more of her essence. She groaned and moaned.
"Oh fuck you are good." She panted as her head dropped and her eyes locked on mine. My lips curved upwards. I can be better. My tongue curled in the same motion as her fingers had done moments before and Chiara almost screamed.
"Fanculo! Oh, farlo di nuovo!" She cried out. She groaned as she realised I hadn't even understood her.
"Again! Do it again!" She cried out. I curled my tongue again and started hitting it every so often. Chiara cried out as she threw her head back.
"Yes! Fuck me good! Fuck me (Y/n)! Fuck me!" She yelled in pleasure. I groaned and buried my tongue in her as I fucked her. Her hips moved in time with my administrations. My right hand reached around her thigh and my fingers rubbed circles on her clit, making her cry out. She panted as tears of pleasure pricked her eyes.
"Oh my god I think- I think I'm-"
I pressed my thumb harder as I hit her g-spot more frequently. Her eyes squeezed shut.
"Oh fuck. Yes. Don't stop." She whimpered. She cried out and she pressed closer to me. I sucked against her and she screamed.
"(Y/n)!!!"
She continued to grind against my tongue through her orgasm until she slumped in my arms. Shakily, she lifted her leg up and got off me. I moaned as I licked my lips clean. She panted as she slid next to me.
"Fuck. You sucked the energy out of me." She panted. I blushed as I panted and rolled to my side. She pulled me close and I whimpered as her thigh went between my legs. "You're still aroused." She panted, her weak hand sliding down my body, wanting to please me more. I grabbed her wrist. "Let's rest for a moment please." I panted. She nodded and we lay there, gazing at each other.
"Chiara." I said, my voice breathless.
"Sì?" She answered, her eyebrow arching in amusement as the corner of her lips threatened to curve up. I bit my lip.
"I love you."
I was surprised by my own words as Chiara was. I couldn't deny it anymore. I love her. I love this beautiful woman next to me. Her face flushed as her hair fell across one eyes. I brushed her hair back and behind her ear.
"I-I love you." I whispered again, my mind starting to accept it. Her body felt so right against mine. With men, I felt numb. Unsatisfied. With her I felt so much. I felt satisfied yet I craved for more. And not just in lust.
She made me feel complete.
Our happy moment was trashed however.
"(Y/n) are you here- oh my god!" We all screamed and I grabbed Chiara and rolled us over so she wasn't seen. Chiara's body curled up slightly as she hid her body behind mine in shock.
"What the fuck Antonio?!" I screamed.
"I came here to see if you and Chiara fixed some stuff and then I heard screaming so I got worried that you two were fighting! And then I saw your living room was trashed so I thought the worse!" Exclaimed Antonio. He stared at us in shock. It was clear what had happened between me and Chiara from our flushed faces if the naked bodies didn't give it away. A sheepish smile donned his face. "Well I can see that I was wrong. Especially at the satisfied flushed cheeks you have." Joked Antonio. My cheeks turned even redder. "Antonio what the actual fuck are you talking about?!" I yelled. He raised his hands in surrender. "Look you never were satisfied when we slept together! It was clear in your face as you never had such flushed cheeks! And I've been with enough women in my life to know when one is satisfied!" Explained Antonio hurriedly hoping I didn't get pissed off. I stared at him in shock. "Well I guess it's good Chiara finally satisfied you like I couldn't!" Chuckled Antonio. "Antonio." I growled. "Yeah?" He said nervously at my tone.
"Get the fuck out of my house. You have 5 seconds before I cover Chiara up with my duvet and kick you down the fucking street. 5..." I threatened. "Have fun!" He exclaimed before running out of my house. "Antonio!" I yelled.
I huffed and looked at Chiara. She had hidden her face in my shoulder but a grin had spread across her lips. "What are you smiling about?" I asked confused. Her grin widened. "I'm just proud of myself." Chuckled Chiara. I raised an eyebrow. "Explain?" "Antonio, the Spaniard that has a big reputation with women couldn't satisfy you and I'm the one that can make you whimper with just my voice." Said Chiara. I blushed. "W-Well-" I gasped as she pushed me on to my back.
Her lips curled into a smirk. I shudder at the smirk and her smirk widened. "I guess I should satisfy you again. You're awfully aroused and it would just be mean if I left you, hot and bothered." Teased Chiara as she slid down my body. I whimpered as I saw her locking her gaze on my core. "So wet..." She purred. She licked her lips and her gaze locked back at my eyes. Her gaze softened away from the lust.
"Also, I love you too." She said smiling softly. My breathing hitched and I smiled. She sent me a soft smile before she grinned, looking at my core. "Now I'm going to show you how an expert fucks with their tongue." She purred. I didn't have a moment to process it as she dove down.
"Chiara!"
Translations
Italian:
Sì = Yes
Ragazza = Girl/Woman
Fanculo! Oh, farlo di nuovo! = Fuck! Oh, do it again!
Spanish:
Amiga = Friend (Feminine)
{All Translations are from Google Translate. Please correct me if any are wrong.}
Author's Notes
Hey there my stars!
So I kinda tried some different words with this.
I hope it's okay.
[Edit: OH MY TOMATO WE HIT 3K READS! THANK YOU STARS!]
Anyway I got to go!
Ciao!