The first time Yoongi felt lonely was right after his dad past away. He came to school a few days later, and everything was grey. It was raining and the thick clouds were a grey, almost blackish colour. Yoongi's classmates were happily chatting, seemingly not affected by the weather.
It wasn't just the weather. Yoongi's teacher his hair was grey, the school walls, the lunch tables, the stone tiles on the ground, it was all grey. Yoongi his eyes weren't, but his vision was.
From then on, Yoongi was only able to see sadness and his heart was shallow, empty and broken. It was as if a light had turned off that day, and no one had tried to fix the light bulb, like Yoongi's father usually did to the light bulbs at home.
He would stand on a chair and Yoongi would hold the bulb, handing the new one to his father and he would get to hold the old one.
Before his dad past away, the man had told Yoongi he would always be in his heart. Then why didn't he fix the light bulb?
Yoongi slammed his hand on his desk. He groaned as he tried to get his thoughts out of his head, shaking his head. He looked up when a small knock was heard on his apartment door. He slowly got out of his seat and walked towards the door. Before he opened it, he glanced at the mirror on the wall and fixed his hair.
He opened the door and smiled as he saw his good friend, Jung Hoseok standing there.
''Hey!,'' Hoseok entered the warm apartment and engulfed Yoongi in a warm hug. Yoongi smiled as he wrapped his arms around his best friend, petting his back once. ''it's been a while.'' Hoseok continued, making Yoongi nod.
Hoseok had returned from a business trip to America last night, and they planned to hang out this morning. It was a Saturday, after all.
''It has indeed,'' Yoongi let go of Hoseok, smiling at the man. ''coffee?'' he asked, turning on his heel and walking towards the kitchen.
''yes please!'' Hoseok replied. The male kicked of his shoes and hung his jacket on the hanger. Yoongi turned on the coffee machine and it immediately started crunching the beans.
''so, how have you been?'' Hoseok made himself comfortable, standing against one of the cabinets. Yoongi sighed, looking at Hoseok and shrugging.
''It's been alright. The past week has been rough for the last years, they're super stressed and stuff,'' Hoseok giggled and smiled, nodding.
''I could understand that, I mean, we were the same.'' The coffee machine shut off, two cups of coffee ready.
''You're talking as if that was ages ago. It was only two years ago, my friend.'' Yoongi chuckled at Hoseok's fake pout. He grabbed the two steaming mugs and handed one to his friend, before making his way towards the living room.
''Alright alright.'' Hoseok smiled as he sat down on the couch. He turned his head to look out the window for a second, turning his spoon around in his mug. ''how have you been?'' he then asked, turning his head to look at Yoongi. He raised one eyebrow, making Yoongi chuckle.
''but, I just told you.'' Yoongi was genuinely confused as he watched his friend smile and shake his head.
''you didn't tell me how you have been, you only told me your students were stressed.'' Hoseok said, winking at Yoongi. Yoongi sighed, shaking his head. He didn't really fancy talking about himself, and Hoseok knew that.
''As I said, I have been alright. One of my students hacked the system, though,'' Hoseok frowned as he looked at Yoongi, as if saying that answer was not what he wanted to hear, ''don't look at me like that! I have something to do with it, you know. First of all, he or she is my student and I have to figure out who did it!'' Hoseok sighed once again,
''not the answer I was looking for, but I can work with it. Why is it such a struggle to find the perpetrator?'' The male put his coffee down and Yoongi sighed. He knew that Hoseok had wanted a different answer, but the blond male didn't really want to talk about himself at this moment in time.
''because, this person is good at hiding their tracks. I tried to find their IP addresses and all I could find was a power house in South,'' Yoongi blew in his coffee for a second before continuing, ''so, I ran the address of it through the system and about six or seven of the students live close to it, which makes it even more difficult because I'm not really the type to interrogate someone, you see?''
''I definitely see that, you're the worst when it comes to persuading someone.'' Hoseok commented, making Yoongi groan.
''this was supposed to be the moment you said I wasn't that bad, but sure I guess I really do suck.'' The two males sat in silence for a bit, both drinking their coffee quietly, until Yoongi broke the silence.
''how have you been, Hoseok-ah?'' he asked, putting down his empty mug. Hoseok shrugged as well, smiling at his friend.
''The company is branching out to America officially, which is good, but it'll mean that I have to go there way more. As for myself, I'm doing fine. I'm healthy and my finances are good, so I guess I should be happy.'' Hoseok sighed as he broke eye contact with Yoongi, making the older sigh.
''you're lonely aren't you?'' he asked, continuing to look at Hoseok with sad eyes. Hoseok sighed and nodded, turning his head to look at Yoongi once again.
''I just wish I had someone to come home to. My apartment is just too lonely at times. Alone time can be a good thing, but sometimes I just wish I had someone, you know?'' Yoongi nodded as his friend looked at him with sad eyes.
Even Yoongi had felt the emotions Hoseok has. The blond also wanted someone to come home to, also wanted someone to hold him when he gets sad and lonely, when he gets pulled back into his hole of greyness and sadness.
They were both missing something they could not give each other.
Both males were pretty successful. Hoseok's fashion magazine was doing amazing, already having branches in China, Japan and soon America. Yoongi had a stable job at one of the best universities in the world, his job was steady and he had friends.
He just felt so alone sometimes.
''well.. shall I treat us to some delicious dinner to celebrate our loneliness?'' Hoseok asked. He stood up, making Yoongi chuckle.
''I'm not sure if loneliness is something we should celebrate, but sure.''
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''so, do you have anyone you wouldn't mind waking up to in the morning?'' Hoseok asked, his third glass of beer in hand. Yoongi's cheeks blushed a dark red colour, due to the heat in the restaurant and the question Hoseok has asked.
''I mean, I could wake up to G-dragon every day, if that is what you mean.'' Yoongi said, shrugging with a sly smirk plastered onto his face. Hoseok rolled his eyes,
''You know what I mean!'' Hoseok exclaimed, scoffing.
''Alright, you go first then!'' the older replied, making Hoseok sigh.
''alright, pussy. There's this cute boy who works at the convenient store across from my apartment complex.'' Yoongi scoffed, shaking his head,
''if he works at the convenient store, he's probably not good enough for you, mate.'' Hoseok groaned, rolling his eyes once again.
''You go then!''
''Alright alright,'' Yoongi closed his eyes to think of someone he wouldn't mind waking up to every single morning, and Jungkook came to mind. The younger his piercing eyes, black hair and beautiful smile crossed the older his mind. Yoongi's eyes shot open in shock, making him almost choke on his piece of chicken. He coughed a little, small tears in his eyes trying to escape as he took a sip from his drink, ''I can't reall-
''don't lie to me! Based on your reaction just now, I'm sure someone crossed your mind.'' Hoseok kept pushing the older male until Yoongi sighed, raising his hands in defeat.
''alright. One of my students, Jeon Jungkook, crossed my mind.
''a student huh, that could become a kinky fantasy if you ask me!'' Hoseok winked at Yoongi, who turned bright red at the words.
a/n:
sucky ending wowowowow. Anyway, I hope two chapters in such a short time makes up for the few weeks I didn't upload at all. School is once again kicking me in the butt and personal problems have been occurring.
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