Chapter 42 - [Part 1 - Harry's decision]
"Oh c'mon Rach! You can't possibly still be upset about this!" Louis called after me with his tray full of food. I was still furious at the groups the teacher had chosen. Out of all people Kate. Kate. The bitch. My enemy. The person that was set on ruining my life and the best part was…Zayn and Harry were in the same group. Adding to the drama about to be created.
"Yes, yes I am still upset Lou! You have no idea how much this idiot has tortured me and many others these past few days. And now people are expecting us to stay together? For a whole week! Not happening okay! I bet Kate had this whole mastermind plan behind this, making sure we were in the same group so that she could torture me by getting closer to Harry!" I angrily chucked my tray at the cafeteria table and dragged the chair out, finally taking a seat to try and cool down.
"God Rachel! This is really getting to your head, you sound insane now alright? I think you’re getting a tad too paranoid. Stop over thinking it so much. Just think of all the fun you’re going to have. We’re going to the L fucking A. Think about that, not Kate." Louis rested his hand on my shoulder.
"But this is Kate we’re talking about Lou for crying out loud! She's capable of anything and you of all people should know that by now!" I shouted a little too loudly. Students turned around and stared at me. I nervously looked around, and tried to ignore them.
"That's true, but just think about it. Me, Harry and Zayn are all going to be there with you. If she starts getting on your nerves, just come over to me or Zayn. We'll cheer ya up for sure! And just think about it. YOU’RE GOING TO L.A. BABY! FOR A WHOLE WEEK! Think about all the fun you're going to have!" Louis reminded me once again, putting on his goofy face.
I revealed a smile. "Yeah I guess so, I've gotta learn to be a little more optimistic. I will have fun on this trip!"
"Now that's the spirit!" Louis exclaimed patting me on the back lightly.
"Oh you guys are talking about the groups? Ooooo I feel bad for you Rach, you got Kate!" Niall said as he walked up to the table, his arm linked with Emma's.
"Thanks, thanks a lot Niall. I finally got her to forget about it." Louis said sarcastically.
Niall embarrassingly bit his lip. "Oops. Oh well, at least you didn't get a group like Nat's! I mean, she's still complaining about it!" Niall added quickly.
Emma of course helped him out on that. "Yeah, she's in the bathroom right now throwing a fit. She went to the teacher and asked to switch too and she said not a chance." Emma finished taking a bite of her apple.
Her long red hair was so shiny, with her green sparkling eyes. One of the reasons why her and Niall looked so good together.
"Wow, well that leaves me no chance of asking to switch groups." I frowned.
"Hey, no way! You are not asking to switch groups! You trying to leave me with Kate all on my own? Harry will be too busy being a flirt and I’m not too close with Zayn either. You need to be there. Think of this as a big challenge. Like a reality TV show where you win money for being able to live with the most annoying person in the world.”
I stared at him for a good thirty seconds until I finally sighed. “What the fuck Lou?”
He groaned and rolled his eyes. “I don’t know okay! I’m saying anything to convince you to stay alright. I need someone to talk to for a week, you know how much of a talkative person I a--"
"Okay Lou! Breathe! I'm not switching!" l interrupted him, giving him a chance to catch his breath.
"Good." He smiled in relief.
I was looking so forward to this trip and of course everything came crashing down and now it was the least thing I wanted happening. All of us continued eating, enjoying our lunch, when the worst possible person passed by them. Kate had her purse hanging on her shoulders; her slick black hair swept to the side and gave me a dirty look. Like that was anything new...
"Eww, I can't believe I'm stuck in the same group with a loser like you." Kate snarled as she walked by.
"Oh shut up bitch, like I'm any happier about it!" I shouted back, and Louis had to pull me down. Kate turned around, and stomped back towards me to continue the argument, until Harry stepped in.
"Woah, woah, what's going on here?" He stood in between us with his arms holding each of us back from each other.
"Nothing, someone just doesn't know how to accept things around here. It's not my fault Rachel doesn't like me that much. I've tried to get to know her better, she just won't let me!" Kate whined innocently to Harry.
I rolled my eyes annoyed. What the hell how old was she? "She's lying Harry! This is all just an act. You can ask anyone around her what kind of a person she is. This is just an act she’s putting on for you. You hated her too Harry, you just don’t remember!” I shouted.
The whole cafeteria had their eyes on this scene. It was always that one cafeteria where it all happened.
Louis stood up behind me and pulled me back. “Hey hey, Rach you don’t want to do this right now. You know you’re not supposed to be telling Harry things these so suddenly.” He whispered to me pulling me towards him. I shook him off. I was so angry, it was like nothing could calm me down.
"Okay, you know what; we need to sort things out between you two. Kate and Rachel, come with me. We’re talking about this, outside." Harry marched off, holding the front door open for us two to go through. Kate and I looked each other, exchanging looks of hatred for one another, but did as Harry said.
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"Okay, now explain. What the hell is this thing between the two of you? Please tell me and save me from this confusion?" Harry exclaimed confused.
Kate sighed innocently then began. "Harry... the truth is--"
"Oh c'mon Harry! You're not going to listen to her are you!?" I exclaimed loudly.
"Oh shut up Rachel!"
"GUYS! This is what I mean! You can't go through a two second conversation without fighting! You always try to hide it, I can see that, but obviously I know the beef between you both from all the rumors in the school! Rachel, if you think Kate is going to lie, why don’t you begin to explain." Harry nudged me to begin.
"Thank you Harry." I smirked at Kate, to see her face looking very nervous now.
"Harry, I don't want to lie to you about anything, so I'm just going to start from the beginning. You and I, as you should remember were boyfriend and girlfriend....once. We’re not just friends, yes we were together, but there was more to our love story. Although, before us you were deeply in love with Kate. You said she was the girl that completely changed your life, you were in love." My voice cracked but I continued. Kate's face was beaming, as she admired the surprised look on Harry's face. "But, you told me that Kate dumped you. She left you heartbroken and you had decided to move on. And I'm not just saying this because I don't like Kate too much, it's the real truth. She’s your ex and you both didn’t end on good terms."
Kate crossed her arms and cursed at her under her breath.
Harry faced the floor, trying to think back. The poor guy still didn't remember everything; it must have been so tough on him.
"No, I didn't 'dump' you Harry. I just thought we needed a break at the time. I came back to this school for you and you only. I missed you too much. I can't spend a day without thinking about you." Kate butt in.
I clenched my fists tightly.
"Anyways as I was saying. Once Kate left, you started spending lots of time with me. We had our fun moments that I really can't believe you've forgotten. I was visiting my grandparents and on my way back my car broke down, you came to the rescue. That's when we were crazy enough to escape a hotel without paying and jumped down the emergency ladder! We even ditched a cab that we owed money to and then walked home in the pouring rain. That's when we even had our first kiss...in the rain. Don't you remember Harry?"
Harry bit his lip, gazing into my eyes. His shut them tightly, actually attempting to try to remember. "I do, I do remember most of it Rach, but I can't seem to remember it clearly. When I told you that night that I remembered, I actually did! It came to me so fast and I just reacted that way because I finally found out you were the girl! But, it's really kind of pointless when I can barely remember most of our time spent together." He stepped closer, telling me softly.
Kate still stood there, with her arms crossed, just watching in anger.
"It's alright, you don't have to remember everything just yet Harry, I can help you with that. That’s what I’m here for. To help you remember your life once again." I protested. It felt as if I was begging him to come back to me, but I was though.
"I know, I believe you would, but I just don't know..." Harry looked away, mumbling to himself.
"Even the time we had a fight and broke up for a bit, you tried to win me back with a dinner by the ocean. It was the sweetest thing ever! Then you offered me for a boat ride, which well, kind of led to your accident. If it weren't for that Harry, we'd still be together." I finally finished holding on tightly to Harry's hands.
Harry pulled his fingers onto the sides of his head, pressing onto his temples. "I'm sorry Rach, I have been trying, but it's just hard."
"Ahhemm…" Kate interrupted clearing her throat. "Can I have my turn to speak now?" She asked rudely.
Harry quickly let go of my hands and focused on Kate. "Oh, yeah of course. Go on."
"Thank you lovely. Well, that is a complete lie, but not fully I guess. I did leave you Harry, but that was because I thought we needed a break. At the time, I hope you remember that craze you had for your band, White Eskimo? We just never had time to hang out and then the news of me moving, I really couldn't do anything about it and had to call it off. But I missed you and was still in love with you with all my heart. You really are the only reason I came back. My parents wanted me to stay away from you, my friends, after everything that happened. I don’t need to explain it to you because you remember that part of your past. But I came back through whatever other people were saying. Because I believed in us." Kate started tearing up, as they both were lost into each other’s eyes.
I looked away. They were obviously fake tears that Harry was falling for. Il just wanted to say everything that was on my mind right now. I wanted to vent out about the truth behind the real torturous Kate. But I wouldn't. I couldn’t. I just wasn't the type to stoop that low.
I quickly cut into their moment. "Harry, we’re not trying to make you choose between us or anything, just thought you should know the truth." I bit my lip.
I was actually quite afraid of what he would say next. "Yes Harry, we respect any decision you make." Kate added, as she glanced evilly at me.
I rolled my eyes, what a bunch of baloney. Kate was going to bitch off about this the minute we left.
"No, but I think I might have to do that. I think it's about time I gave the both of you an answer, I can't just leave you both hanging like this.” Harry licked his lips and shook his luscious curls out of his face.
Then, he gazed at me, deeply with his green eyes, into my grey eyes. He stepped closer and closer and held my hands into his. Was this it? Was this really the moment where he told Kate to leave. To stay out of our love story forever?
"Rachel, I really really do like you. You've helped me so much with recovering and trying to remember things. I know that we were once together and I'm sorry my condition has been in between our relationship we used to have." I beamed. Was this finally the moment I had been waiting for? Was I really going to get him back now?
But I noticed Harry’s forehead creasing. His eyebrows were arched up and there was no smile. "Rachel, please understand, but I don't think....we can be together."
What? Everything just came crashing down on me. It felt like my heart had crushed into millions of pieces.
"Wh-what?"
"I'm sorry Rachel, but I don't think there’s any possible way for us to keep a relationship if I don't ever remember anything we had between us. I know you're a great girl, but I think you deserve someone better who won't always feel guilty about not being good enough. Because that’s just what I feel. I know you want to help me, but who knows how long that will be? It might even get to the point where I completely break your heart making you realize how hard it is for me to recover again? I can’t bear to see you like that. So I’m saving you from that now. Go find a guy that will treat you right. A guy that’s not me. The one who can keep you happy, more than I ever did. " Harry squeezed my hands tightly. I pulled back.
Did he really think it was that easy? For me to forget him? Just like that? "But Harry, you don’t need to do this. I promise you, I—“
Harry backed away shutting his eyes tightly. "Don’t make this any harder than it already is Rach. The truth is...the right thing for me to do would be to go with Kate. I remember everything we had between us and honestly, I still... love her." Harry finished looking at Kate.
The satisfaction on her face was unbearable. I couldn't take this. Tears began to pour down my face.
"Okay, I said I'd respect any decision of yours. You guys make a great couple." I stated quickly and ran off before Harry saw my crying face.
Kate grabbed my arm and quickly whispered in my ear. "And so I win, Kate always wins babe." and winked.
I tugged my arm back and ran off, all the way home. The rain from the sky began to pour as hard as ever. Perfect weather for this moment wasn't it? Harry was just never going to be mine was he? The one accident had changed our lives and was going to keep it changed forever.....
Harry was gone. He wasn’t the same Harry. He didn’t love me, he loved Kate. He didn’t want to be with me. Did he really think this was actually the right thing for me? To break my heart and leave me off to go find just any other guy? The Harry that fell off of that boat that one night, was gone the day he fell.
He was gone, forever.
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END OF CHAPTER 42 PART 1!
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Chapter 42 – Part 2
I shut the door behind me and broke down on my bed. This was not happening. How was I supposed to expect this? No way in the world was this happening. I couldn't stop the tears, they just kept pouring down my face. Then...there was a knock at the door.
It couldn't be my mum or Ali. They were still out on their trip for a few more weeks. I quickly got a tissue, to wipe my face clean and made my way slowly down the stairs. I opened the door, to see a beaming brown eyes guy on my doorstep...it was Zayn.
"Hey Rach, are you okay? I'm not a stalker or anything don't worry, but I saw you running home...and I kind of found out what happened." Zayn said as he bit his lip and held his palms together.
I blushed. "Umm, yeah thanks Zayn. I'm fine now; guess things just don't always seem to work out in my life."
"Aww don't say that. You know what, I'll cheer you up. You helped me get over my relationship problems and I shall help you."
I laughed. “And how exactly are you going to do that?”
He flicked his eyebrow up putting on flirty face. “I don’t know, you’ve got to invite me in first.”
I opened the door wide for him to come in. “You are always welcome!”
He smiled and bowed playfully. "Well, what I do to get over my problems sometimes...I can't believe I'm telling you this but... I watch chick flicks." Zayn confessed biting his lip as he held out The Notebook in his hand.
"What!? I never imagined you would! Such a tough kind of guy and you just happen to have the Notebook in your back pocket?" I teased.
"Yep, I knew you had some cheering up to do...even though this movie is mostly sappy, but still!"
"Alright, I'm down for it, pop it in to the DVD player and I'll go get us some popcorn."
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"That was such a cute movie, I love it everytim-- Zayn? Are you crying? AWW ZAYN MALIK IS CRYING OVER A CHICK FLICK!" I shouted into his ear teasingly.
Zayn quickly wiped the tear and shook his head in denial. "NO I’M NOT RACHEL!"
"Yes you are! Oh god, you do know that I’m going to keep this on you forever right?” il laughed and kept bugging him.
"Shut up Rachel!" Zayn shouted and then a smirk came on his face.
"No, Zayn no, don't you dare, move away..." I protested as Zayn came closer with his hands in front of him. I knew what he was about to do.
"Word on the street is, someone really hates being tickled. And that someone is sitting right beside me. I happen to love tickling people and torturing them. But warning, once I start, I don't stop..." Zayn winked with an evil grin.
"Zayn no! Stop please I’m begging you!”
“Not a chance!" He shouted and chased MEl around the room, in circles.
I laughed my head off, and ran upstairs back to my bedroom. "Zayn, leave me alone!" I yelled still laughing.
"Never!" Then he grabbed my arm and pushed me onto the bed. He tickled my stomach constantly until I couldn't breathe.
Finally realizing how close we were to each other....I looked into his eyes. Zayn was perfect. He was a guy that might actually treat me well. He was always there for her. Always the one to make me smile. I could talk to him about anything. I didn’t even need to ask him, but he was there.
I felt his warm hand stroke my face. He pulled a strand of my hair in between his fingers and twirled it around. Then, there was a knock at the door. Great, of course. I awkwardly pulled back.
"Emm, I'm sorry, I should go check that."
Zayn quickly got off from on top of me and moved back. "Eh, yeah, that's fine, go ahead."
"I'll just be back." I quickly got off the bed and headed downstairs.
This better be good, I was in the middle of a perfect moment. I pulled my hair back into a ponytail quickly and opened the door...to my surprise it was someone I did not expect at all.
It was...Harry. He was completely drenched from the rain, but you could tell his face was red. He had been crying…
"Rachel. I know you might think I'm a jerk. But, I--I know you’re not going to change your mind, but I have. I actually don't care that I can't remember much of you anymore. The real reason I wanted to be with Kate, was just so you could find someone better who at the very least remembered you. Every day I feel so horrible, for hurting you. I see the way it pains you whenever I can’t remember something, but you were hoping so badly for me to remember it. I can't even do that and it's going to kill me with guilt every time I'm near you. But I can't do this. I thought I could avoid you, or stay away from me, use Kate as an excuse to push you away for good. But I can’t. I need to be with you. The feeling I get when I'm with you is indescribable. Technically, I've only known you for a couple of days, but it feels like I've known you all my life. I am in uncontrollably and unconditionally in love with you Rachel Morgan." Harry finally finished leaning in close to me. I was speechless.
He finally came back to me. In the end, our love conquered all. The boy I loved eventually came back. This meant it was true love. The only reason he had left me was for my own good. He cared for me and wanted me to be with someone better, even though to me, Harry was the one. I had fought for this moment hard and was not giving up now.
I didn't know what to say, but instead...I jumped into Harry's arms, crushing my lips against his. He pulled me out into the pouring rain, both of us getting soaked, but we didn't care.
This was just like ourfirst kiss. Harry's soft lips, were against mine as he ruffled his fingers through mine. I felt his hands trail down my back to the bottom of my shorts and touching my bare thighs. He pulled me up so that I my legs were around his waist. He finally pulled back catching his breath.
"I love you Rachel." He stared into my eyes.
I sniffled after I couldn't help tearing up a bit. "I love you too Harry." We smiled embracing into each other’s arms. Il snuggled into his neck, smelling his fresh, familiar scent again. It felt so nice to be this close. But then a thought occurred to me. What would have happened between Zayn and I if Harry didn’t show up at the door? Was I really about to kiss him upstairs? I shrugged it off and hugged Harry tighter. Pushing away all other thoughts from my mind.
*Zayn’s POV*
Little did they know, I was behind them watching from the doorstep...witnessing everything. My heart broke, but I guess I was used to feeling this way now.
I grabbed my movie from her counter and got out from the back door. Rachel was meant to be with Harry and I had to accept that. I had to accept that the girl I loved was madly in love with someone else. And that wasn’t going to change…ever.
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END OF CHAPTER 42 part 2
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