Chapter 36
Taylor's POV
"Mom?" Bridget stood there silent with her mouth wide open.
Her mom was still standing in the door way, Harry and Niall were standing behind us. I'm not sure how I want to respond to this, or what to even think about her showing up at my doorstep, letting Bridget call her mom
"Hi, I'm Taylor," I decide, extending out my hand. she just looks at me, "why don't you come on in?" Her mother acknowledges me, but forgetting to shake my hand, stepping into our home.
"Bridget baby, look at you. You look beautiful," she walked up to Bridg to put her hands on her face but Bridget took a step back, swatting her hands out of the way.
"what are you doing here?" she managed to choke out.
"Can we talk?" her mom asked her.
"As long as Taylor is in the room with me..." she responded with tears in her eyes.
Her mom is disappointed with her response, obviously wanting to say something between the two of them.
I follow Bridget as she walks into the kitchen, with her mom sitting at the counter while I stood on the other side
Niall and Harry, not sure what to do stood in the doorway. Bridget looked a lot like her mom; she had long blonde hair that was wavy, Bridget's was straight. They had the same color eyes, that piercing light blue. They're smile was the same too; a deep dimple on one side and a smile line on the other.
"what are you on right now?" Bridget was referring to her mom's quick twitching and fast movements.
"Nothing honey, I'm clean, im all clean sweetie," her mom was just as stubborn as Bridg.
"Speed? Is that what it is? You stole my ADD medicine didn't you?" Bridget catches on, watching her mom as she scans the room in twitching motions.
Bridget has ADD and I hadn't known about it?
"It was a long drive over here, I had to stay awake. It doesn't hurt. Plus you don't need them anymore, you were better." Bridget ignored her and rolled her eyes
"Why are you even here?" She questions the women that gave birth to her
"Sweetie--"
"Stop calling me that!" she snaps
"Bridget... I'm here because I found someone, someone to take care of us. He's amazing; he a lawyer and has lots of money. Hes taking really good care of me, I want you to come home. "
I looked at Bridget scared she'd leave me. "No." Bridget doesn't need time for her response, shocking her mother
She sat there for a minute thinking of what to say next. "Why should I go back to you? Huh? You left me; you left me addicted to everything. You got me hooked on horrible things and just left me. You knew Liam was gone, you knew that aunt Barb couldn't take care of me. Why the fuck did you think you could leave me?"
Bridget becomes angry after spilling those words, admitting to herself why she actually hates her mom
The loud conversation turns into screams with Bridget's next moments, all of us were scared. I'm the only one that's seen her like this, but that was when she was on her drugs. This is the first time I've seen her mad sober. We sat in silence for a moment again.
"No, don't answer that. I don't care. You know what mom you left me so fucked up in my head! I can't trust a single person. I can't love my own boyfriend because I can't love myself! All because of you, all because you left me when I needed you most!" She screams, leaving the house silent under her attacks
"I put my adopted mother through hell and back because she actually cared about me and I didn't want to let her! Because of you, my life was a living hell until some like Taylor actually stopped to take care of me! Because of you, I can't look in the mirror and tell myself I look pretty, I can't love myself, I can't love who I am because I know I'm a horrible person!"
Tears stream down Bridgets face and all I want to do is hold her tight, give her all the love
"Why?! Because you made me feel like I will never be good enough! I was always second best in your eyes, 'well Liam can get all A's. Why aren't you as pretty as the other girls? Why are you so dumb? That person is better than you on the basketball team. You could have made that basket if you were good enough' because of you I hate myself! And I hate you!"
She was balling her eyes out as she screams at her mother and I had come to realization that I had not known any of that. I didn't know how much her mom affected her or treated her. But her mom got mad back, they were both hot headed.
"You think she actually loves you," she pointed at me, "Do you think she really does care about you? She has brainwashed you. That 'mom' of yours is only taking care of you because of publicity, she has never loved you. You're just a stunt to make her even more of an angel. 'Taylor Swift takes care of run down kid!' I can see the headlines! You know you're thinking the same thing Bridget! And that boyfriend of yours?! Yeah right he loves you. He's just using you for sex!"
Her mom is vicious with her words, driving a dagger into not Bridgets back but mine and Nialls.
"I know you've already given that to him! Does he even know how many guys you've slept with?"
She looked over at Niall, "let me tell you, you can't count it on your hand!"
and goes back to Bridget, "you and I both know that once he goes on his next tour he's going to drop you like a hot cake as soon as there is another girl at a bar, hotter and sexier than you!"
This when I got fed up and spoke to her as if all the hate was spilled onto one person.
"You need to leave now. Don't you think you can say that to her. Leave. Now. And don't you dare come back." Her mother ignored me, pulling out a flask from pocket, taking a swig
"want some baby girl!" looking at Bridget
"Fuck you." Bridget responded getting out of the chair to push her mom. "Get the hell out" she pushes again, sending her drunken, and high mom to the floor.
Her mother gets off the floor before spitting on our feet, laughing as she walked out the door.
I ran over to Bridget "Bridg, I'm so sorry, everything she said was wrong. I am here for you, and I would never do anything for publicity--"
"Just stop." She cut me off looking down, becoming guarded again.
"Bridget, I'm sorry,"
She sat there really quietly, "Bridg?" Niall walked up to her and put his hand on her and she pushed him away.
"Don't" she snapped at him, "just leave me alone."
She got up and walked up to her room. "I would never leave her, you know that right Taylor?" Niall was sad, but I nodded at him, knowing how he felt.
We both were thrown under the bus and we both didn't know how show her that we really did care.
We heard a crash in Bridget's room and a yell. Not a scared yell but a pissed off letting out steam scream. She done this many times with me after I've taken her alcohol away. Niall went to run up to her room but I stopped him, "Let her be,"
"How can I just let her be!? She's in pain Tay. I can't just stand there and let her go through this alone!"
Harry held Niall, "Let her do her thing, she will come down, I promise Niall. She just needs to let off steam and then she'll talk."
That's when she stormed out of her room. She had running gear on and her headphones in, "I'm going for a jog."
"—Bridg it's raining out." Niall tried to stop her
"I'm going for a fucking jog!" She snaps at him, just like I've seen before, slamming the door behind her
We sat in the living room in silence, Harry was holding me stroking my hair and Niall was sitting with his head in his hands.
It's been about an hour since Bridget left, until she stormed into the house, she was soaked and out of breath. She ran up to Niall and hugged him, "Don't ever leave me."
He nodded and held her. "never in my wildest dreams,"
He pulled her away and held her face "You're absolutely beautiful Bridg, don't listen to her. You're number one in my book." He smiled at her; I walked up to them, she removed herself from Niall and attached on to me.
"You know I love you right Bridg?" she nodded "I would never let anyone hurt you ever again."
"I want to go out, let's go get pizza." She bypasses the love and smiles at me
I laughed and nodded, she pulls away to run up to her room and change clothes. When she came out she was wearing Niall's sweatshirt, jeans and her glasses with her hair pulled up in a bun.
"Ready?" we all nodded and walked out.
"I'm driving!" Bridget takes claim, making Niall, Harry and I all laugh as I handed her the keys. We drove into town and ended up deciding on eating at Blue Bird Café. I sat where my name was engraved into the seat and the others sat around me. Our waitress came up and greeted us, "Bridget hey!"
"Oh hey Rachel! I didn't know you worked here" ah the Rachel Bridget has been talking about
"Yeah I work here so I can perform on Saturdays."
She looked at me and inner fangirled, I saw it in her eyes. "Oh right! This is Taylor my mom, Harry her boyfriend, and Niall my boyfriend" she smiled and shook all of our hands
"It's so great to meet you guys! I love all of your music." We all thanked her and she asked for what we wanted to drink, I got a Diet Coke, Niall and Harry both get Dr. Pepper and Bridg got Root Beer.
"Rachel seems really cool Bridg," Niall held her hand.
"yeah she's in my choir and math class. She was the first that didn't freak out because Taylors my mom," We laughed and she came out with our drinks,
"What can I get for you guys to eat?"
"A large pepperoni pizza," Niall said right away, "What I'm hungry too!" We all laughed at him, he has one large appetite. She took our order back and came back
"Bridg did you figure out if you're going to try out for Sandy?" Bridget thought for a minute,
"yeah I think I will, it seems like fun! Who are you trying out for again?"
"I was going to try out for Frenchie, she was always my favorite." They laughed and she went to wait on other tables.
A little bit later she came out with our pizza, eating until we were full and ready to pay the bill.
"I'll see you Monday, Rachel!" She waved us goodbye and we got in the car.
"So you're going to addition?! I'm excited now!" and I really was, she's a phenomenal singer and shes good at dancing.
I knew she'll be amazing. We got home and Harry and I went up to bed, I gave her a kiss on the forehead "Goodnight Bridg, I love you" she smiled back, Harry hugged and we walked up the stairs.
Bridget's POV
Niall plugged his phone into our speakers and started playing Hold You by Nina Nisbitt. He walked up to me and held me and started swaying, "You're a great dancer babe," He held me closer.
"Thank you. You know my dad and I used to go to these dance classes in the park... but since we couldn't afford it, we would stand behind a tree and do it. I would stand on his feet and he would lead me. It was one of my favorite moments with my dad, because it was just me and him, until we got caught and yelled at. But we just laughed it off" That's when Niall picked me up and put me on his feet
"Let me lead then," I smiled at his awkward cuteness, but I loved it.
I looked up at him, not wanting to ruin the moment but I knew I needed to apologize, "I'm sorry about my birth-mom, I didn't want you to know about my past like that." Trying to hint towards her mentioning how many guys I've slept with, "It's been ten. Ten guys." I saw some hurt in his eyes, "But none of them meant anything to me, not compared to you."
He brightened up a little, "As long I'm your last, that's all I care about beautiful." He smiled and kissed me. "One day will you love me?" he got really serious.
He is now referring back to when I told my mom I can't love anyone because I couldn't love myself, "Niall... I really want to, I know I will. But I feel that I can't let anyone love me without me loving myself first."
"How can I help? I want you to know that you are beautiful, you are amazing person, I know growing up with your mom telling you something different everyday but you know why she tells you that?" I shook my head confused. "Because she's jealous of you, she wishes that she could be like you. As caring as you, as loveable as you, as beautiful as you, I will give you as much time as you need for you to know that you have no reason to not love yourself. I am not leaving you."
As cheesy as it was, it genuinely made me feel better; I gave him a soft kiss and brought him into my room. We didn't do anything, we just laid together. I traced his chest and he played with my hair until I fell asleep.
"I love you Bridget Marie Swift"
Alright guys!! I got a chapter done! It took me about three hours but not too bad, I'm still in pain but I wanted to update just because I left it as a cliffhanger. Surgery went great and I couldn't have asked for better readers! You guys are all so nice and supportive.
QOTD: If you were stranded on a deserted island what three things would you bring?? (Uhm also this is updated me talking, you all are cheaters. You can't bring a house or wifi to a stranded island! Y'all took the question to a new level lol)
I would probably bring music in some form because I can't live without it, my blankie (because I still talk to it... I know im 17... don't judge me) I grew up with and then probably a knife so I could cut things open for food!