Skylar's POV:
Well my mom fucked up the rest of the day. Currently now i was in my room blasting Metallica from my speakers. My parents went to another party of their friends and can i just say their parties are so lame. But here i am tears running down my cheeks , sitting on my bed , a razor blade in my hand blood dripping onto my legs.
I fucking hate my life. I cut a few more across my arm and my tears are mixed with blood on my legs. I decided to go take a shower. I stood there emotionless in the shower as the hot water washed over my body. There was bloody water running down the drain and i felt the stinging on my fresh cuts. Suddenly a smile appeared on my face. The pain makes me happy.
After a few minutes i got out and got dressed in shorts and a tank top. No one comes in my room anyway so i dress like i want here. I got into bed and then the tears came again.
Your fucking useless i wish you turned out more like your sister. Goddammit Skylar look at your fucking grades. What the fuck is wrong with you?
I shut my eyes tightly the tears flowing down my cheeks and on to my pillow. Sleep finally took over what felt like hours but surely it was only minutes. The nightmares are haunting my dreams again. Before i knew it my alarm was screaming and i jumped up sitting straight. I shut off the alarm and i was sweating.
"Thank god that's over" i whispered to myself as i got out of bed.
I took a shower and changed in my clothes. I was wearing a dark grey long sleeve shirt with dark blue skinny jeans and grey pumps. I did my hair in a messy bun and put a grey bow in. I went downstairs grabbed an apple and juice and went to school. That was the repeating cycle of the rest of the week. Wake up, go to school, get home,cut and cry, shower, cry myself asleep, have nightmares and repeat.
It was finally Friday and i got home from school to a empty house. I went to my room to go get ready. The first thing i did was put on some music. I then sat on my bed painting my nails black. I then went to take a shower. In the shower i sang and danced along with the music. After the shower i rapped the towel around me and i avoided myself in the mirror. I knew if i looked at me now i would look at my cuts and i'd cut more for cutting. But that ain't gonna bring down my mood so i went to my closet and i put on my black lace underwear and my long sleeve black dress that stops mid thigh.
I then went to do my hair. I just braid it in a sideway fishtail braid. I put a black bow in my hair to make it look cute. I then applied some make-up not to much tho. I then put on my heels and grabbed my bag. I was really going to sleep over at Gwen's but we weren't gonna have a movie marathon. Her parents didn't mind letting her go to parties.
It was about 5:30pm when i went to pick Gwen up. We are sleeping over at the house so we don't have to drink and drive. I pulled up on her driveway and she looked amazing as always. She was wearing a beautiful little red dress showing off her body and she had red heels on. Her hair hang freely and i must admit if i was Chad i'd keep all the boys 10feet away from her.
She got in the car and she gave me her big cheerful smile.
"Wow you look amazing" she said and i rolled my eyes.
"Thanks so do you" i said and we laughed at how cliché this was going.
"Ready?" I asked her and she gave me a nod.
I turned up the radio and Nicky Minaj- Starships were blasting from the speakers and we sang along.
"STARSHIPS WERE MEANT TO FLYY!! AND TOUCH AND TOUCH THE SKYY! LET'S DO THIS ONE MORE TIME! HIO HIO MOTHERFUCKER!" We sang along and it was getting a little dark.
A few minutes later we arrived and the boys were waiting for us. Of course Tyler and Tyson ran to us. Tyson hugging me and Tyler hugging Gwen Tyler gave me a quick hug and led Gwen to Chad.
"Wow you look really amazing" Tyson said and held out his arm for me. I took it and he led me to the others.
He looked nice to. All the boys looked like the always were. Tight shirts jeans that suited them perfectly. I greeted everyone and they all gave me compliments.
Max walked outside and when he saw me he froze. I then smiled at him and walked to him the music is loud and everybody is already drinking.
"Hey" he said obviously checking me out.
"Hey" i said checking him out as well. He had a dark grey shirt on that is tight along with dark jeans that hugged his thighs. His hair like always spiky. His beautiful green eyes a little greener than usual.
"Want a drink?" He asked and held out his hand for me.
"Hell yeah" i said and we went to the bar area.
I leaned on the counter and waited for the shots i ordered. Suddenly i felt hands around my waist and i stood up straight to see who it is. It was Max and he pulled me close to his chest. I could feel is breath on my neck.
"You look really beautiful tonight" he whispered in my ear and it sent shivers down my spine.
"Thanks" i said grabbing the shots and give him one "cheers" i said and we downed it.
A few shots later i was dancing with Max on the dancefloor and man could he move. We decided to take a break so we went to sit outside on the porch in the backyard.
"Whoa that was fun!" I said i'm already a little tipsy but i don't mind.
"Yeah it was" he said and we just stared at each other.
"Can i kiss you?" He asked me a little nervously
I nodded and bit my lip. He slowly leaned in and i met him halfway. Our lips touched and it was a passionate kiss. He pulled away and licked his lips. Suddenly my hand was by his neck pulling him closer to me. Our lips crashed together and as soon as i felt his tongue on my bottom lip i let him in my mouth. He then pulled me closer. By that i mean i was now sitting on his lap. The kiss got heated soon and his hands were on my hips and his mouth on my neck. My hands were in his hair and i bit my bottom lip trying to hold back my moans as he bites on my neck. But we were interrupted by Gwen.
"Um Sky?" She asked and me and Max turned our heads to look at her.
"What's wrong?" I asked her a little bit of worried.
"Can i talk to you.. Alone" she asked and i nodded.
I whispered in Max's ear i'll be right back and we had another short but heated kiss before i got up. I walked with Gwen a little further up where there were not a lot of people.
"What are you doing?!" She said /yelled at me before i could say anything.
"What are you talking about?" I asked her confused.
"You and Max were literally 10 seconds away from ripping each others clothes off" she said in a motherly tone.
"So?" I said not seeing the problem. Although i was pretty drunk i wouldn't let it get so far. Right? I mean i told myself i won't let anyone see my scars but my sex drive is so high i can't help it.
"So? So? Sky you're drunk. What if you got pregnant? What if you guys forget to use protection? You told me i should stop you from doing dumb things when you're drunk. Well this is dumb!!" She yelled using her hands. She was right tho. What if Max saw my cuts. Then i'm screwed.
"You're right" i said and a sigh of relieve left her lips. "But i won't let it get that far. Promise me you would stop me if we go a step further" i asked her holding out my pinky for a pinky swear and she took it.
I gave her a hug and went back to Max. He was busy on his phone when i climbed back on his lap. He looked up shocked but when he saw it was me he smiled. He then put his phone away and i wrapped my arms around his neck.
"Is Gwen okay?" He asked me with concern.
"Yeah she just thought she lost her phone but it was in her bag" i rolled my eyes with a smile and he laughed.
"So where were we?" I asked biting my lip.
His hand reached for the back of my head and he pulled me close crashing our lips together. My fingers went up to his hair and his hair is so soft. We explored each other's mouths and he went to my neck again. He bit me and i let a moan of pleasure leave my lips. He then suddenly grabbed my ass and i let out a gasp of surprise. I then smiled and bit his ear. I then went down to his neck and left a hickey. I sank my hips very low onto his lap and a moan escaped his lips. Hey don't judge i was drunk.
"Want to get a room?" He whispered in my ear and i just nodded. The conversation me and Gwen had nowhere near on my mind
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