*Days Later*
*Brogan's POV*
I don't really know how long it's been but it feels like years, I know it hasn't been that long but it sure feels like it has. I don't really know what's going on but I know Dean's here, he hasn't left since I've been here, unless he has to go work. It's pretty much just been him and me, sometimes Nikki when Dean has to work, sometimes other people come. Seth, Roman, Sasha, Renee but the one who caught both of us by surprise was Dean's mom, it's not because we didn't talk to her it's just that we didn't know that she knew about this
*Flashback*
Dean was sitting down holding onto my hand watch some show on the tv. Someone knocked at the door and they opened it
"Can I come in?" -Dean's mom
"Yeah, what are you doing here?" -Dean as he let go of my hand
"I heard what happened from her mom" -Dean's mom
"You guys still talk?" -Dean
"Well yeah, just because you two broke up didn't mean we stopped talking, given we had a bit of an argument when it all happened but we're still talking" -Dean's mom
"How come you didn't tell me?" -Dean
"Never came up, god she looks horrible" -Dean's mom
"Yeah she took quite a beating that day" -Dean
"Did they say when she was going to wake up?" -Dean's mom
"They didn't really give a specific date, they just said there was an eighty percent chance she would wake up" -Dean
"Oh, well she's going to wake up, I know it she's a trooper always has always been" -Dean's mom
"I know, I'm just afraid she might not wake up" -Dean
"Have faith, she'll wake up" -Dean's mom
"I know" -Dean
"I hope you know she's always been my favorite girl you've gone out with?" -Dean's mom
"Really?" -Dean
"Yeah, I wanted to kill you when you two broke up but I decided that I wouldn't just yet" -Dean's mom
"Wow, thanks mom" -Dean
"No problem son, I didn't like her when I first met her but I mean what mother would if they met their sons girlfriend half naked" -Dean's mom
"Yeah, that was my fault" -Dean making her laugh
"I know it was all you, I'm not stupid" -Dean's mom
"When did you start liking her?" -Dean
"When she came to apologize, like a couple days after" -Dean's mom
"She apologized?" -Dean
"Yeah I was sitting at home and you were who knows where when she knocked on the door, mind you I didn't know it was her, I opened the door and she was there. I glared at her like seriously glared and she told me how she knew I probably hated her but that she was sorry for what had happened and how she never meant for it to happen, I invited her in and we talked for like a good hour before she had to leave" -Dean's mom
"Are you serious?" -Dean
"Yeah" -Dean's mom
"I was scared of bringing her back home for like three months because of that, I thought you were going to like rip her head off if you saw her" -Dean making his mom laugh
"That's what you get, you should have known better" -Dean's mom
"I know I should have taken her to my room, but in my defense you weren't supposed to be home for another two hours, we would have been fully dressed by then" -Dean
"Good point, wait you didn't get my text telling you I was coming home early?" -Dean's mom
"Do you really think if I would have gotten your text I would have take my girlfriend to our house and get her half naked in the living room" -Dean
"You never know with you" -Dean's mom
"True true" -Dean
"Do you know who did this?" -Dean's mom
"Yeah but I think now isn't the time to talk about that" -Dean
"I understand, how are the kids?" -Dean's mom
"They're good, right now they're in LA" -Dean
"I heard, they haven't seen her?" -Dean's mom
"Nope, we decided it was best for them not to" -Dean
"Good choice" -Dean's mom
"She's pregnant" -Dean
"Really? Wait still right now, like at this moment even after the beating" -Dean's mom
"Yeah, the baby survived the beating" -Dean
"Jon it's time, oh who's this?" -Nikki
"This is my mom" -Dean
"Well hello I'm Nicole but everyone calls me Nikki, I'm her best friend and a pain in his ass" -Nikki making Dean's mom laugh
"She's not lying" -Dean
"You love me" -Nikki
"Sure, are they outside?" -Dean
"Yeah, tell Seth not to forget to feed Lydia" -Nikki
"Will do, call me if anything" -Dean
"I have you in speed dial, just in case" -Nikki
*End of Flashback*
Dean kissed my hand and sighed
"Hey baby girl, I have something to get off my chest. If you can or can't hear me it doesn't matter, I have to say this" -Dean
What is he talking about?
"I'm going to start from the beginning, the day we broke up. I had been waiting for you to come over all fucking day so when I heard someone was at the door my first thought was 'my baby girl is here' and I ran to the door, I'm not kidding I even hit my hip on the table by my door way. Anyways I opened the door and it was Britney, told me she was looking for you and well I told her you weren't here and maybe you were still at school, she asked me if she could stay. I mean what the hell was I supposed to say no? I let her in. I offered her water and well she took it, I forgot I left my soda on the table and next thing I know you're yelling at me and telling me you hate me" -Dean
"It was a week after when I went to your house or well your old house, I didn't know you had moved since well you didn't talk to me at all and would avoid me. I knocked on the door and this lady opened the door, I had never seen her before. She asked me if my name was Jonathan and I told her it was, she told me to wait and left back into the house. I was fucking confused babe, so confused, then she came back with a box and gave it to me, told me you had left it and told me that you had moved to California, didn't know where but she knew you moved" -Dean
Karen, I remember her...she was a friend my mother made in her old job and she moved into our old home, I think she still lives there
"I had the box in my room for a week, I couldn't open it, I finally did and saw it was everything I had ever given you. I was hurt but I understood, I couldn't get rid of everything you gave me; the letters, the pictures and everything. I mean I could have but I didn't want to, I hope you know I still have that box, it's in the garage at home, I'm surprise you haven't seen it yet" -Dean
I didn't give him everything, I kept so much, I couldn't part with so much of it
"I'm going to skip a long ass time since nothing really interesting happened. Until I met my friend Sami Callihan, we were in our shared hotel room watching RAW like any normal Monday night. He was talking about how he wanted to know who you were, I had told him about you but I never told him your name or what you looked like, until that day, I told him it was you since you had a segment and he laughed, he didn't believe me so I grabbed my wallet and showed him a picture of us, that I had and still have in there but it's just under a newer picture, you still haven't changed one bit, his eyes got so big and he said 'how did your ugly ass get with her, like fuck' I asked myself that question every single day. Then he asked me if I was still looking for you, I don't mean to sound like a stalker or anything but all I wanted to do was apologize for that day, I told him I was, he told me he had connections and could find you. I thought he was fucking crazy" -Dean
"Turns out he wasn't as crazy as I thought. Two weeks later he comes back with an address and a phone number, he claimed they were yours. I didn't believe him, I mean come on, would you?" -Dean
No, I wouldn't have
"I should have, he made me call the number, we blocked my number of course. You answered, I was shocked to know that it was you, I tried to get him to hang up but he just shoved me away. Some guy asked who it was you said you didn't know, I'm guessing it could have been a boyfriend since he called you babe, I could be wrong. A couple weeks later I found myself outside a bar and guess who was walking out? You but you didn't recognize me since you were drunk. You weren't paying attention and you ran into me, you apologize and almost fell but I grabbed you so you wouldn't. You were still in my arms when Adam walked out and took you back inside saying it was time for you guys to go home. You said you didn't want to go and that you wanted to stay and talk to to, said I reminded you of someone you loved in the past and to that day. I felt happy that I heard that, it made me have hope. Obviously Adam didn't let you stay, I wouldn't have so I understood. I could never forget that day, not even if I tried" -Dean
He was that call? I remember that, I thought it was weird. I told Jason about it and he made a joke about how I was going to die in seven days. The bar? Christians birthday, I don't remember that but Adam (Edge) told me about it. I was too drunk to remember, I'm trying so hard but nothing. Why did he never tell me this?
"Then more time passed and I met Colby and Joe, instantly became friends as you can see. One night we were out having drinks like almost every Friday or Saturday. I saw Britney, I had never spoken to her until that day, I wouldn't have if it's wasn't for the fact that we were the only two people outside and I didn't really want to throw away the cigarette I had just it. She apologized and told me about that day, I told her I didn't want to hear it but she still kept going. She asked me if I wanted to know what hurt her the most, I didn't fucking know, I was drugged for god sakes and she knew. She told me that what hurt her the most was that the whole time I was with her I was moaning your name, she said she could never forget that and now I can't either" -Dean
What? She told him that?
"The next day I saw you again, you were with Phill, remember that day in FCW? I sure as hell do, before I even get to the story. I want to apologize for shoving you, I didn't mean to, I don't know why I did it, I really am sorry" -Dean
He doesn't need to apologize
"I remember when Colby introduced us and you acted like you didn't know who I was, I'm not going to lie it hurt. I don't blame you, I would have done the same thing. When you left I told Colby about you, he almost killed me. He was mad that you and I kept this from him, but he later understood. About a month or so later Colby called me, I was pissed it was four in the morning and I was tired, at least that was until I heard him crying. I asked him what was wrong and he told me, you were in the hospital. Jacob was the reason, I wanted to kill him, fuck I still do. I wanted him to feel every ounce of pain you did, but I knew that at that moment I had to calm Colby down. It killed me to know that someone would do something to you like that, I still don't understand" -Dean
His voice started to crack and I could hear him trying to keep his breath calm. I don't understand why he's telling me this, but I don't want him to say anything if it hurts him
"Then came the day I hoped all my life would happen, the day I debuted on the main roster, I was talking to Joe backstage when you almost ran into Phill, remember? I was glad you couldn't really see my face. I couldn't look at you in the eyes and when I finally did I got lost in them. I wanted to grab you and pull you in to kiss you, I didn't because I knew you would probably punch m in the face. When you left Joe laughed at me and said I was in serious trouble, I asked him why and he told me that it was rumored that you and Phill were dating. I shook my head, not really wanting to think of that being true. Given I thought it was true since you guys were always together. I remember when you skipped by me to get the title, you looked so fucking beautiful, like any other day off course. I felt the blood in my veins boil when I saw you kiss Phill, I knew it was part of the storyline but it felt so real and I was jealous of him because even thought it was all for show he got to kiss you while I didn't" -Dean
My heart is hurting for him. I want to hug him and kiss him but I can't, I'm begging if someone is listening help me please. Let me wake up, let me move please
"I remember the day I took you on our date to the fair and the night we first made love. I can never forget it, I never want to forget it. That was the night I saw everything, I knew you were a bit embarrassed, but I want to tell you not to be. Princess you're fucking strong and you have been through so much. I want you to know that the scars on you're thighs and arms that you cover all the time with makeup, I love them, they're your battle wounds, and they show that you went through a tough time and the fact that they're fading shows you were brave enough to find a light and escape. Those faint very fait stretch marks on the sides of your hips are beautiful so beautiful. That small scar on your eyebrow from when we were messing around and you opened your forehead, the other scar on your left hip from when you slipped and hit your hip on the corner of the coffee table at my house and needed stitches. I don't care that your stomach isn't super flat or the fact that your thighs touch like you care, I love you this way and I wouldn't change you for anybody because to me you're the most perfect person in the world" -Dean
I felt his finger trace my arm and then his lips followed
"I know you're wondering why I'm telling to this, I'm about to tell you. Before I asked you on that date, I was with this girl, we dated for two weeks and then I broke up with her, two days later I was at the fair with you. I don't know why she decided to do something now but she was one of the ones who attacked you, I never meant for you to get hurt, fuck I'm so fucking sorry baby girl, I don't know why she would do this. I want you to know that you met her, it's Jennifer" -Dean
YOU DIDN'T KNOW! YOU DIDN'T FUCKING KNOW! I'm trying to say it out loud but the words won't come out
"I fucking love you so much and I'm so fucking sorry this happened to you, you don't deserve this. God I wish I was in your place instead, I hate seeing you like this. I love you so fucking much, you don't even know. I'm falling faster and faster, harder and harder in love with you and I'm scared that one day you're going to decide I'm not good enough and leave. I'm afraid that one day I'm going to wake up and realize it was all a dream. I don't want you to leave me, I don't want you to wake up one day and tell me that you don't love me or that you don't ever want to see me again. I wouldn't know how to deal with that, I'd go crazy without you. I don't know why I can't tell you this to your face and I'm praying that you can't hear me because well I don't really know why I guess you can say I'm scared that you'll say you never felt the same. Maybe I'm just being paranoid and the thought of loosing you is just making me crazy, maybe I'm right and you will leave one day. I hope you don't, I guess time will tell right? I just need you to promise me, that at this very moment you're going to fight. Don't leave me here alone, not ever. Remember my promise to you, if you die I die? Well baby girl I'm not ready to die. I want to see our kids grow up, I want to be able to see Stefan go to school, I want to see Jack graduate. Babe I still want more kids, I want to be able to grow old with you. I want to see our kids grow up and have kids of their own, I want to see our grandkids. Please don't leave me, baby I'm begging you" -Dean
I heard him sigh again and kiss my forehead
"I love you so much" -Dean
I didn't hear anything else from him but I did feel his forehead press against our hands. God I just want to hold him right now, so bad
I tightened my grip on his hand or well I tried too. I can't tell if I moved or not. I felt his head move up
"Brogan?" -Dean
"Yeah" -Brogan as I finally opened my eyes
The sun was going down and the colors were shining through the room. My eyes finally met his blue ones and I smiled at him. He smiled back and sat up. He kissed me and I placed my hand on hi cheek
"God I missed you" -Dean
"I missed you too" -Brogan
"Do you need water?" -Dean
"Please?" -Brogan
He nodded and handed me a cup full of water. I drank it and he took it from me
"Come lay with me" -Brogan
"I don't want to hurt you" -Dean
"Please, babe" -Brogan as I grabbed his hand
He sighed but nodded as he sat on the bed. I moved over a bit as he laid down placing his head on the pillow next to me. I turned my body so I was facing him and he placed his hands around my waist
"How are you feeling?" -Dean
"I'm okay but I feel like I should be asking you that, instead of you asking me" -Brogan
"And why is that?" -Dean
"Because you look like shit" -Brogan making him chuckle
"Well I didn't really get much sleep" -Dean
"Babe that's not good" -Brogan
"I know but I couldn't help but worry for you and the baby" -Dean as I kissed his forehead
"Well we're okay, no need to worry" -Brogan
I want to tell him that I heard everything he said but I don't really know how to, fuck it I'll just say it
"What are you thinking about?" -Dean
"What you said earlier" -Brogan
"What are you talking about?" -Dean
"You know what I'm talking about" -Brogan
"You heard that?" -Dean as he scratched the back of his neck
"Yeah, I heard all of it" -Brogan
"Oh, umm oh" -Dean as I wrapped my arms around his neck
"I wish you would have said something when you called that day" -Brogan
"I didn't know what to say, I wanted to say so much but I didn't know how to put it in words, besides I thought you would have hung up if you found out it was me" -Dean
"I'm not even going to lie I probably would have but I would have found a way to call you back because I would have felt bad" -Brogan making him smile
"How did I get so lucky?" -Dean
"I'm the lucky one" -Brogan
"How so?" -Dean
"Because I married you" -Brogan
"I can't be that great" -Dean
"Are you kidding me? You're the greatest fucking person ever" -Brogan making him roll
"I'm serious, can I tell you something" -Brogan
"Anything" -Dean
"Most of the things you gave me I kept them, shit I used to wear them all the time when I was at home and I still do since they fit, they don't smell like you anymore but it's whatever, anyways I'm getting side tracked. I used to compare every single one of my ex's to you because god I can't believe I'm going say this but you're the best boyfriend I've ever had. The day we broke up I'm not going to lie it hurt so bad, but I mean I kind of understood since Britney was fucking beautiful" -Brogan
"She wasn't that great" -Dean
"You're interrupting, I didn't interrupt you while you were talking" -Brogan as I tapped his nose
"You were asleep" -Dean
"I still didn't interrupt, rude" -Brogan making him laugh
"Good point" -Dean making me laugh
"Alright then don't interrupt, rude" -Brogan as I kissed him
"Antyways I was saying that, where was I?" -Brogan
"You we're saying about the day we broke up" -Dean
"Oh, right so like a bit later we moved to LA and I had to start over or well I tried since I had like most of your things in a box that I still have by the way in my closet as well as the box of pictures that well you saw that one day. Then one day Selena came to my room and she was talking about this guy her friends showed her and it turns out it was you. I used to take her on the road with me a lot and one day we were in the same place where you were. She begged me to take her like seriously she got in her knees and everything" -Brogan
"Can I talk?" -Dean
"Yeah" -Brogan
"Oh wait nevermind I forgot what I was going to say" -Dean making me roll my eyes
"Well I ended up taking her but I just dropped her off with a friend of hers since I had an interview. I picked her up and we were in our hotel room when she showed me the video of you fighting, it was horrible, blood everywhere, but oddly arousing, I'm not going to lie" -Brogan
"I'm glad my pain turns you on" -Dean
"Well just you turn me on, like right now you're hot as fuck but it's not appropriate to have sex at a hospital. Back to my story, I don't remember that night at the bar but I do remember Adam talking about what had happened, I asked him who you were but he didn't really know said he couldn't see since you had a hoodie on and it covered your face, I didn't remember who you were and I'm a little sad because I missed you like fucking crazy. As much as I was mad at you I still missed you and I really wanted to talk like it didn't have to even be about what happened like fuck you don't have to apologize I didn't even care, okay lie I cared a bit" -Brogan making him laugh
"It's not funny babe, stop laughing at me" -Brogan as I pouted
"Okay okay I'll stop" -Dean as he chuckled and covered his face
"I don't even know what I said that's so funny" -Brogan
"No it's the face you made" -Dean
"Oh so my face is funny now?" -Brogan
"No, well sometimes" -Dean making me hit his shoulder
"You're so mean to me" -Brogan
"You love me" -Dean
"That I do" -Brogan
"Okay okay back to your story" -Dean
"Okay, well when I met Jacob he kind of reminded me of you, personality wise at first, then it all changed and I realized like fuck I might die and I didn't even get to talk to you again. I really wanted to see you again even if it was for a small time. Then Phill asked me if I would go with him to FCW and I said yes, you started calling him out and well he answered as you remember. I'm not going to lie it was hot seeing you out there and I apologize for acting as if I didn't know you when I secretly wanted to kiss you right then and there as well as tell you how much I missed you, I didn't want to seem desperate tho" -Brogan
"Wait hold up so you're telling me that I could have kissed you and you wouldn't have cared?" -Dean
"I wouldn't have cared one bit, Seth probably would have but I wouldn't" -Brogan
"What the fuck, I thought you would kill me and it turns out I could've fucked you so hard" -Dean making me laugh
"Well neither of us knew, but that's for another time, remember when you asked out on our first date?" -Brogan
"How could I forget" -Dean making me smile
"Well after you asked I ran and freaked out to Nikki, not going to lie, like high school girl freak out" -Brogan making him laugh
"You turned into the girls you used to make fun of" -Dean
"Yes I did, she thought it was funny" -Brogan
"Well since we're admitting things, I was smiling like a mad man and even danced a bit" -Dean
"You didn't?" -Brogan
"Oh baby I did, I looked like a mad man" -Dean
"I would have thought you were a mad man" -Brogan
"Well baby you make me insane" -Dean
"You're insane and I wouldn't change it for the world" -Brogan
"Why thank you" -Dean
"Okay now to the time we had sex not the very first time in your bed room but the second time I guess you can say" -Brogan making Dean smirk
"I remember the very first time" -Dean
"In your room?" -Brogan
"Of course, how could I forget the first time I ever found out you had a nice set of lungs on you" -Dean making me laugh
"Shut up" -Brogan
"I'm serious, given I was scared as hell because my neighbors could have told my mom but I was so happy because you are the most beautiful woman I have ever laid my eyes on and that's saying a lot because I've seen many" -Dean
"Yeah I know you have" -Brogan
"Don't be mad" -Dean
"I'm not, I could never be mad about what you did before we got together, that would be fucking stupid, if I got mad about that Stefan wouldn't be here today and I wouldn't be pregnant at this moment, well I maybe but my point is they wouldn't be yours" -Brogan
"Good point" -Dean as I looked down at my hands with a smile
"Now back to my story, the time we had sex I was scared because nobody had seen my scars ever, well besides Phill but he only saw my wrist, you're the first and only person who had seen them and I was scared that you would be disgusting and leave. I was scared of letting you see everything because Jacob always told me that I wasn't good enough and I believed him, I mean for so long he told me I was worthless and just hurt me in every aspect, then you came along and told me the opposite. I don't know who to believe because well I've been told for a long time I'm not good enough and like I'm not saying this for you to tell me that I'm beautiful and try to make me feel pretty. I want to thank you because you make me feel so much better about myself and I know I don't really show it but you make me feel happy and beautiful. Like fuck every time I kiss you I get butterflies and I feel like a little kid on Christmas day. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'm so in love with you that I can never imagine a life without you. I'd go crazy without you, you're my other half, my best friend, my partner in crime, the father of my kids, and the love of my life. They say that in life you have the ability to choose who breaks your heart, well Jonathan Good it'd be an honor to have my heart broken by you" -Brogan making him grab my chin and lift up my face so I was looking at him
"Well baby girl, I wouldn't dream of ever loosing you" -Dean as he leaned in
"Good because I'm not going anywhere" -Brogan as I leaned in a bit closer
He leaned in and was about to kiss me when I accidentally burped making him move back and groan
"Way to ruin a moment babe" -Dean making me giggle
"Come here" -Brogan as I his neck and pulled him closer to me
I kissed him and he hovered over me. I began to run my fingers through his hair as he placed one of his hands on my cheek and the other next to my head holding himself up. He pulled away and smiled down at me
"We really should sleep" -Dean
"But I'm not tired" -Brogan
"How can you be, you were asleep for like a week" -Dean as he laid back down next to me
"My point exactly" -Brogan making him roll his eyes
"Why am I married to you? Remind me please" -Dean as he laid right next to me
"Because you love me and can't live with out me" -Brogan
"I don't know about that anymore" -Dean
"That's it I'm unstanding, I'm done, get out" -Brogan making him sit up
"If you say so" -Dean as he moved off of the bed
"No, get back here you dork" -Brogan as I grabbed his hand and pulled him back
"You seriously just told me to leave" -Dean
"Yeah but I missed you" -Brogan as I pulled him down towards me
"You're crazy have I told you that?" -Dean
"Well baby you make me insane" -Brogan making him chuckle
"Way to use my own line babe" -Dean
"Thanks I tried" -Brogan as he laid down next to me again
"I can tell" -Dean as I looked at him
"Did I ever tell you that you're eyes are really pretty?" -Brogan
"Hmm not that I can recall" -Dean
"Well they are, they're really blue and it kind of reminds me of like watching the sunrise, because the sky changes colors and they all fit together perfectly just like you're eyes" -Brogan
"What do you mean?" -Dean
"Well sometimes you're eyes have like a hint of grey in them, depending on the day, and it makes them look really pretty or other days you're eyes are like a bright blue especially when you're talking about something you're interested in and you get really excited and you're eyes light up so bright, but then there's those days when you're sad or mad and you're eyes are a bit darker and not so bight but they still have a bit of light in them and I just love them" -Brogan
"How is it that you can bring a grown ass man like me to his knees by just moving that pretty little mouth like yours?" -Dean
"I don't know, but let's not lie to each other, it's not just my words that can bring you to your knees, we both know that my pretty little mouth could move in many different ways and I'll still have the same effect" -Brogan making him groan
"What did I get myself into?" -Dean as I pulled him closer to me
"Something you'll never forget" -Brogan as I kissed him
Dean placed his hand under my right thigh and pulled me closer towards him. I placed my hand in his hair and he left his hand on my thigh. I pulled away and placed. My forehead against his
"I agree, you're unforgettable" -Dean
I smiled and he laid his head on my chest. I began to run my fingers through his hair as he sighed and wrapped his arms around my waist
"Babe sleep, you need it" -Brogan
"Sing to me" -Dean as he pulled me closer to him
"Okay" -Brogan as I turned my body so I was facing him
I placed a kiss on his forehead and began to lightly sing I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz
I would look down when I finished the song and saw that he was asleep. I moved the hair out of his face and kissed his forehead again as I pulled him more towards me. I didn't think that was possible but it was, I laid my head above his and smiled
"I'm never going to leave you, ever" -Brogan as I looked down at him
I don't really remember when I fell asleep but I know that it was a while after him and I know it was very late when I fell asleep. I don't really mind that, all I care about is that Dean is okay and healthy. I hate seeing him worry about me especially if he looses sleep over something when I'm involved, I hated knowing that I couldn't pull him into my arms and hold him as he fell asleep or be able to see him fall asleep and make sure he was well rested. I hated that he was so worried something was going to happen to me while he was asleep that he was afraid to close his eyes. I could hear the tv lightly playing all the time as he flipped from channel to channel trying to keep himself awake. I hated knowing that I was so close to him yet so far away. I hated the fact that no matter how hard I tried every single second to get closer and closer I was pulled farther away. It was hard for me to hear how hurt he was and how afraid he was of loosing everything, yet as hard as I tried and the more I ran reality seemed to get farther and farther away from me. I missed this man so much and I know I might be crazy since he was there with me the whole time but I just missed seeing him and hearing him laugh, his smile, his eyes, everything, I missed it. I'm just glad the darkness is over and I get to see him again, but I'm also afraid that this could be another memory or my mind playing tricks on me, like it's done before
God I hope not.