"Wonsikieee~" Ken hyung said cutely while knocking at my door.
"Waeee?" I whined.
"I have something to tell you~"
"Come in!"
He entered my room and went near my bed.
"W-wonsikie..." He smiled, trying to hide his obviously nervous stuttering teeth.
He breathed deeply and stared into my eyes.
"Everytime you rap, my heart beats like crazy, when you smile, it almost stop beating. Everytime you show your overly charismatic dance, my brain feels like its going to explode. Everytime you are near me, there are butterflies going crazy in my stomach. I tried to control these feelings but I just can't. Ravi, I-I love you... Will you be my boyfriend?" He said while blushing hardly.
My mind just cant process all of this. I can't believe it, that the one whom I loved secretly for 4 years, confessed his feelings for me and asked me to be his boyfriend.
I was about to answer him yes, but second thoughts flooded my fcked up brain.
We are both idols.
We are both guys.
We are both in the same group.
His dream is to be a famous singer which is already granted now.
His dream is to be a famous idol.
Now who the hell am I to ruin all of that? All of his hardships? No way!
I'd rather break two hearts now - his and mine. Than ruin a dream that he dreamed for a long time and is now granted; No way. Just no.
"Ken hyung... I'm sorry" After saying those words, his eyes starts to tear. I can see the pain and sadness in his eyes. I can see that he's trying to hold back those damn tears; that is caused by me.
"Ah... Ne, I understand. Friends?" He said, still containing his tears and putting on a smiling face as he reached his pinky finger towards me.
I linked my pinky finger unto his and try to put an apologetic smile; but failed, instead, a sad smile.
He walked out my room smiling, but sadness can be felt in his aura.
I am a liar. A beautiful liar telling a beautiful lie.