jungkook's focus [first person]
i woke up earlier than jimin. i could hear him snoring loudly. i chuckled as i got out of my bed. i'm a morning person. i love to see the sunrise and the beautiful hue of purple, blue, and orange mixed in the sky. it just makes everything feel at ease. like there's nothing wrong with the world. today was our first day at k-arts and i was over the moon.
i remembered that jimin and i moved into the dorm last night. i decided to unpack my stuff as it was only 5 in the morning. i opened the wardrobe that jimin and i are going to share and filled half of the side with my clothes. i sighed, knowing that i need more space. i decided to just put the rest inside my luggage, grabbed my towel and toothbrush and went to the bathroom.
nothing beats a good warm shower. it makes me feel so much better. the hot water touching my smooth skin, closing my eyes and letting the warm water hit my face. i decided to hum "see you again" by charlie puth and wiz khalifa. sometimes i don't even notice that i'm singing. i guess it just happens naturally.
"its been a long day without you my friend," i started. "and i'll tell you all about it when i see you again. we've come a long way, from where we began. oh i'll tell you all about it when i see you again, when i see you again." i sung, and particular person crossed and lingered into my mind.
taehyung.
he is such a liar.
he told me he'll be there for me. he even promised. well, i guess promises are really meant to be broken after all. i know i should be angry at him but i just can't feel that way towards him. all he has ever given me was care and to feel angry just makes me feel bad about myself.
did he really care for me, though?
or was i just a game, or someone to talk to just to get by the day?
i heaved a sigh and shook my head. i should stop thinking about him by now. its been 4 months, jungkook. move the fuck on.
i got out of the shower and brushed my teeth. i left the bathroom, with only my towel on. i heard jimin, still snoring and i managed to let out a small laugh. jimin, what will i do without my best friend? i thought to myself as i decided to pick an outfit for the first day of school.
i decided to go with a plain white tee, my black ripped jeans and my one and only timberland boots. i took out my phone from my pocket to check the time and to my surprise i saw someone messaged me.
taehyung:
hi kookie
i stood rooted to the ground for approximately a minute to let this all sink in. what if this wasn't taehyung? what if it was his friends? what if he was just dared to do so? what if he accidentally sent this to me as a joke?
i didn't want to be a joke.
i sighed. this was too much to take in early in the morning. i ignored the message and locked my phone. a part of me wants to reply it now and tell taehyung how much i missed him and how much i've been thinking about him. never once did he leave my mind in the past 4 months. all his selfies were still saved in my phone and when i felt like no one understood me, except jimin, i always look at his pictures as a way of telling myself someone out there cares for me.
jimin and i were eating breakfast at this cafe near our campus. we had to eat a lot since the first day is usually the freshie orientation. orientation, a day where we make friends. i was nervous if i was to be honest. ever since high school, i didn't know how to make friends. usually, i just hang around with jimin and his friends will be my group of friends as well.
and that was what i intend to do.
jimin and i reached the campus by 8.30am, which means we were 30 minutes earlier before the start of the orientation. jimin and i decided to roam around the campus. it was a huge campus and i could easily get there. i grabbed hold of jimin. i was terrified. i was scared of the different types of people i'm going to meet, scared of what problems may arise and scared of what people may think of me.
all my fears as a high schooler came back running towards me.
jimin felt me tensing up, "relax, jungkook. it's going to be fine. i'm here, okay?" jimin smiled at me while he pets the top of my head. i breathed in deeply and nodded. i gave him a small smile and he gave me two thumbs up as we walk towards the entrance.
the campus was huge, and all i could do was trail behind jimin. i was really terrified. very terrified. jimin already started to socialise, while i stay behind him. he already made two friends, jaebum. they seem to be having fun, talking and laughing. while there's me, feeling awkward and i didn't know what to do. they seemed to be too engrossed to talking hip-hop, and i heaved a sigh.
all of a sudden, a marching band engulfed the whole hallway and they marched towards the middle of the hallway and out of the campus. everyone gathered and followed them, people shoving and pushing one another. i panicked once i lost jimin out of my sight. once the crowd died down, i could no longer see jimin at the same spot we were in earlier.
i was scared. i had no friends, and i was scared of interacting with people. i didn't know what to do. i spent a whole fifteen minutes looking for jimin but to no avail. i felt so alone. what if jimin is sick and tired of me, and left me alone? these thoughts clouded my mind. was i just a burden to every single person i get attached to?
i decided to go to a secluded area, the rooftop. it was beautiful. you can see how beautiful the campus is from up here. i took some pictures using my iphone, and i realized that i was alone. i checked the time, it was 8:50am. i knew that i had to be at the main hall in ten minutes.
i opened my messages again and i decided to reply to taehyung.
i didn't want to feel lonely ever again.
jungkook:
i missed you hyung
jimin and i met shortly after i reached the main hall. once he saw me, he quickly charged at me and wrapped his arms around me. "ya! pabo! i was so worried about you! where did you go?" jimin said, with his arms still around me.
"i-i lost you, jimin." i said as i put my head on the crook of his shoulder.
"don't be sad, i'm here now, jungkook! let's go sit down! i want to introduce you to jaebum!" he said, breaking the hug and taking my hand. we went to where jaebum was and he was a pretty cool dude. he liked to rap, and he is really good at it. its like it came naturally to him. he can do freestyle raps better than anyone i know.
"jimin, where did you go just now?" i pouted at him. jimin laughed, "i was looking all over the campus for you, pabo!" he said as he punched my arm lightly. "i even bumped into my ex while looking for you. funny, i didn't know we attended the same university." he heaved a sigh.
"....ex?" i questioned, cocking my eyebrows. "a girl?"
"..no. my ex-boyfriend. but its not a problem. i'm over him, and i'm pretty sure he is too. i don't think we're in the same year so we probably won't see each other very often." he gave me a smile, showing his beautiful white set of pearls.
i smiled back at him. jimin was always very positive, and i loved that about him.
the principal of the school was giving a very long, boring speech and i couldn't take it anymore. i saw jimin fast asleep on jaebum's shoulders and jaebum using his phone, taking selfies of them. i decided to join in the selfies and we took alot of unglamerous shots of jimin.
i felt my phone buzz and i quickly swiped it out of my back pocket.
taehyung:
Is this really you, Kookie?
You never call me hyung.
This is strange.
You used to call me oppa.
i felt so nervous and i didn't know what to do. i decided to act as natural as i can.
jungkook:
well itz been awhile
:P
how r u?
i bet ure gine
fine* ops
taehyung:
Haha. Still the same Kookie.
I missed you so much.
And congratulations on graduating, again.
Sending lots of love *virtual hug*
jungkook:
thank u oppa :P
im so glad u decided to msg me
im bored
first day of uni and im already so bored
hALP
taehyung:
It's your first day today?
Same here! Though we start classes right away.
:(
jungkook:
yes
n its so boring
the principal is giving this
long ass speech
ugh
taehyung:
Typical. Which university are ya in?
Still managed to chase your dream university?
Haha.
jungkook:
hey meanie
y u laughing
:((((((
taehyung:
I ain't!
It's just a joke. :PP
But Busan and Seoul.. that's far.
I thought you might have just went to a university there.
jungkook:
aw u still remember
where im from
should i feel touched
or creeped out weirdo
taehyung:
Omg.
Do you know how much I missed you spamming my phone with messages?
jungkook:
aw so sweet
of u xoxoxo
and i tried to send u alot of texts
but they just wouldnt go through
>:(
u shud tell me y u suddenly
stopped
taehyung:
I'll save that for another time.
:D
But you should feel touched.
I still have your singing voice on my phone.
And I listen to it, every day.
jungkook:
omg u r
such a creep
hahah
my creep
oppa
taehyung:
Did you just claim me to be yours?
shit. jungkook didn't expect that to happen. he wasn't in the right mind while he was texting. his face flushed red.
jungkook:
i was just kidding
weirdo
taehyung:
Well, thats sad.
I was willing to be yours anyways.
jungkook's heartbeat raced faster and faster. he missed taehyung more than he actually knew. he was smiling to himself. "jungkook, ya textin' someone?" jaebum smirked at me.
"n-no.." i said, hiding my phone. "yeah right. its alright. i wont tell this to.." he said, pointing at jimin. i managed to let out a small laugh. "thanks.." i said.
taehyung:
HAAAAH. Are you blushing right now?
I bet you are.
You know I still want to know how you look like.
jungkook:
no then its not fun
anymoar
pls noOoOO
taehyung:
Sigh.
I want to see you :(
jungkook:
maybe soon
when i feel like it
idk
taehyung:
I remember last time you told me you were gonna send me a selca..
But it was 2 am when that happened so you asked me to get lost.
:((
jungkook:
omg u remember
that??? how HAHA
taehyung:
I always re-read our conversations before I go to bed, Kookie.
Thats how much I missed you.
jungkook:
aw u r so sweet
u still hav to tell me
what happened tho
im supposed to be mad at u
:(
taehyung:
Why?
jungkook:
u promised me..
u promised me that you'll never leave
but u just left me like that for 4 months..
taehyung:
I'm so sorry, Kookie.. Let me make it up to you.
Don't be mad please.
I promise now, I'll always be here.
:3
jungkook:
omg do u know how much i missed ur
selcas
screams
kjfdjkf let me live tAEEEEEE
pls
oLFKDKJFD
taehyung:
Cute.
Your selca?
jungkook:
good try i almost fell for it
but no not today pretty boy
taehyung:
Oh yeah.
Back to the main topic.
Which uni did you get in?
Is the principal finished with his long ass speech?
Haha.
jungkook:
o yaaa
yes i got into my dream uni
k-arts
and no he's not done
taehyung:
Oh.
I'm happy for you, Jungkook!
Fighting!
I gotta go now. Class is starting soon!
Talk to you later!
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